The Light of ANAS

Naz, Can We Talk ?

Still flashback yassalam

“Hallo,, Assalamu’alaikum,, what's up Mi?”, greet me.

“Wa’alaikumsalam,, Al,, Bi Darmih said that some days ago when Mami left for Surabaya, Naz came to the house, and he asked where mu” was. My mother gave me information that surprised me.

“What? Naz came home? Keep Bi Darmih telling me where I am?”, I asked.

“No, he did not tell you, just when Jeng Rahmi contacted Mami nanyain about Arisan, Mami pranko nanyain news of Naz, and it turns out Naz is now in Surabaya,,, and,, he said he went with his father and mother to see his nephew Anita's brother who was in an accident and in a coma, and they left on a morning flight, he said the child was not feeling well.. yesterday he didn't go to school during the report” division.

“Oh, yes Mi, but I did not meet him earlier at the funeral home or at the funeral, already yes Mi, Al again at the Bank, later on again.. Assalamu’alaikum.”, I said ending the phone connection.

I was still surprised to learn that Naz was in Surabaya, there was a sense of happiness because after a year I never saw him in person, usually only in photos and in old videos, I never heard of it after I was in Surabaya. But there was also fear that I felt, fearing that I would see the look of hatred from him.

“Naz is here…?? That means Naz is at the house of Mr. Purnomo Aji.. but why was I there or at the funeral did not see him at all? Is he hiding to avoid me?”, murmured me in a heart full of question marks.

“Naz is sick?? Maybe she was resting in my room.Jeez,,,, the photos in my room,, surely Mommy will stop by my house, maybe she will also come along, no, no, no, no,, no, no, no, no, no, no, no,,, they can't tell if I'm still displaying photos of Naz”, I thought in my heart that suddenly thought far.

I contacted my secretary, Dilara who is none other than her sister Dewi, to ask her for help, but I knew for sure she was taking care of my work to Semarang with my other two staff.

“Halo, Dilara..”.

“Iya hello... why Mr....?”.

“Please send us your photo using big frame to my home”, I immediately issued the command.

“Hah, for what sir,, don't tell me you've fallen in love with me, hahhaa”.

“Bolder of you,, I need to scare the rats in my house.”, I said jokingly.

“Basic cousin of your damned,, ogah I ahh”, he refused.

“Heh, it's still working hours watch your talk?”, I reminded.

“Huf…. Yes Mr. Boss for what the hell ah, this I am still in Semarang, the most home is also afternoon until there can be night kali”.

“I don't want to know,, you tell people to send you some photos of you who are alone and who wear a large frame one,, and another,,,, and another,, if there is a photo of you with me in the office or in the field, directly print and use the frame, all send to my house”, I said.

“What,,,? The truth is... don't be crazy donk sir,, for what the hell?”, ask again.

“ Anyway I do not want to know this afternoon has been sent home,, later I love bonus, if not ..gue hold your salary this month... ”, I said immediately ended the phone connection, I will not be able to pay, because I knew he would soon carry out the task I was given.

After the business at the Bank was finished, I went straight home to the office driver, then he returned to the office. I went into the house and went straight to the dining room, my stomach was hungry because after Friday I had not had lunch, but it was four in the afternoon.

I also sat down and poured water into a glass to drink, “Mbak Jum, later please uninstall all the photos in my room, clean up and input to the warehouse,,,”, I said and drank.

“Lho ,,, why removed tho Den,,,? is it not the beautiful Miss in the photo is in this house ?”.

Byur,,,, uhuk,,, uhuk,,, uhukk, I spit out the water I was drinking and immediately coughed with choking.

“Wealah,, heart-heart tho Den drinknya”.

I returned to drink to relieve my cough, after drinking I immediately asked, “Mbak Jum said what was it?”.

“Hati-liver drinking Den”, he said.

“Not,, before that?”, I corrected.

“Why his photo was taken by Den” he said again.

“Not, after that”, I was like playing guessing.

“Wealahh, which tho Den,, the Mbak so confused”, Mbak Jum was made dizzy by me.

“So Mbak said the beautiful Miss in the photo is in this house, what does it mean?”, I asked to clarify.

“Iyo Den,, the beautiful Miss is here, it came with Dinda, it turns out Miss is her cousin Dinda tho Den and her person is more ayu than her photo,,,”, she replied.

“What,,,?? Naz is here.?", I asked again.

Please ,, please ,,,,, please ,,,,

there was a cry for help and it was like Dinda's…

Please ,,, please,,,, please,,,

“Aduh Gusti, lest Aliya fall into the pool, Den”, said Mbak Juminten panicked and immediately ran I rushed to the side yard, I accelerated my steps, I quickly, and when I got near the pool Dinda had not stopped screaming for help then without a second thought I immediately fell into the pool.

How surprised I was, when I saw the person who drowned in the pool, “Naz... “, I flowed in my heart. I immediately helped her and lifted her up, then I laid her down by the pool. I immediately went up and sat down beside Naz who was lying unconscious. “Naz,, Naz , wake up Naz”, I tapped his cheek to wake him up, but he never came to his senses. I was panicked and afraid that something might happen to her, I did CPR first aid by pressing on her chest, but after a few times she remained unconscious as well.

I did not know what to do, I was really afraid he did not wake up again, finally I gave him artificial breath, then he woke up and spewed out the pool water that had been swallowed by him.

“Alhamdulillah... “, I breathed a sigh of relief to see it aware, I kept looking at the girl I missed so much, she replied and we looked at each other as if we were letting go of each other, miss each other, he held his lips and opened his eyes wide,,,,

“Bundaaa,,,”, she screamed then fainted again.

I was very surprised to see him, "Naz, Naz, Naz, wake Naz..”, I tried to wake him up, but he did not budge, finally I carried him and brought him into the house.

“Dinda, quickly tell Om Rizal and Mommy Anita, also bring a change of clothes for her”, my word to Dinda who is still crying because she saw the state of Naz, and she immediately left.

I laid Naz on the living room couch, and kept trying to wake him up, but he was still unconscious, “Why are you quiet,,, quickly get me a towel and wind” oil, so please, I shouted to both of my ART because I felt panicked to see Naz's condition that had not come to my senses.

I keep patting her cheek, “Naz, please get up,,, don't be like this, don't worry me,,, wake up Naz, wake up,,,,,”, don't worry, I said then clasped his palm and kissed the back of his hand. I was really afraid of something happening with him, then both my ART came with two towels and wind oil. One covered Naz's body with another towel drying Naz's wet hair, I rubbed his neck with wind oil and sucked it into his nose, but he remained unconscious.

Then Om Rizal came and immediately checked on Naz, he also came with Mother who was surprised to know my whereabouts here, by dragging a suitcase. After Om Rizal said Naz was fine, I felt very relieved, and I took her to the guest room and came out because Mother would replace the wet Naz clothes with the clothes that Mother brought.

I went to my room to take a shower and changed clothes. After that, I took down the photos of Naz on the wall of my room, lucky that the photo sent by Dilara's men came when Mother and Om Rizal were accompanying Naz in the room. Then they put the photos on the wall according to my instructions, while Mbak Jum and Mbak Retno I assigned to store the photos of Naz to the warehouse neatly and carefully.

Then I went out to the kitchen to get a warm drink, it felt like my body was not feeling well, maybe because it was too cold because my clothes were soaked, and I forgot that I was still recovering.

While enjoying a warm ginger tea made by Mbak Jum at the dining table, suddenly Mother came over.

“So you have tea in Surabaya?? Meni disappeared like swallowed by the earth, kirain Bunda mah you kidnapped under wewe, Ar”, he said.

I chuckled at it, “I'm indeed a little kid who went missing while playing into the woods,, Naz is already aware of Bund??”.

“Not yet,, still sleeping soundly she.... Eh know not Dandy tea is very angry with you Ar,, be sure not to come to his wedding he said tea... How are you Ar?”.

I smiled and imagined the expression of Dandy's face when angry who likes to talk in rough Sundanese, "What matters is that the gift already got Mother, Yes this is how .. my news is good and without a lack of anything, Om Rizal where is the Bund?".

“si Om go home first to Ina, would like to pick up Mimih to the same airport Johan,,,”.

“Oh so,,, Mimih here same Arsen?”, my question.

“No, same Kang Andi, his older sister Mommy is also his wife, Teh Lisna .. Arsen is busy with thesis guidance, soon the trial he said so can not come here,,,, you know,,, oh yes this is your Home tea Ar?”.

“Not , this is Juminten's house, I'm hitching a ride here. hahhaa”.

“Ih, his pikasebeleun, asked really even joking you mah ka kolot tea,, yes the house of Mbak Jum, it's in the living room on your photo with family”.

“Hahaha,,, the Mother knows,, “.

“Kok shape is like a coveted house Naz yes,, hmmmm,, you guys are indeed so sure”.

“Hahh,, the time is Mother?”, you are surprised.

“Yes, Naz never said that he wanted to have a house like this minimalist house but big enough,,,, you know,,, only one floor but large and the roof is high and there are 5 rooms in it, if two floors mah life like each he said. Keep the living room and the middle room want tea that is larger than the Mother's house, he said so that he can gather with family every day after dinner or during holidays for quality time. He said the tea wanted a garden with a swimming pool, one but the depth was two, so the tea pool was divided in two, which was deep for adults and shallow for children, so the tea pool was divided in two, though mah modus eta mah because he tea can not swim,, the child's bottom”, said Mother at length and then chuckled.

“What?? Where could this be..?? why is what Mother explained the same as what Mami explained to me ? is it not possible to sketch the house I found in Mami's room drawer that Naz drew?", I murmured inwardly.

“Ar,, Arfin, ih kama mah even daydream,, later kesambet loh,, “.

“Ah, no need,, later Mother even ngerepotin you , Ar.".

“What is Bund, like anyone,, his room is still empty really,, only one that I occupy doang, all the same Mimih with her sister Mother can also sleep here, too, later I ask both of my ART to prepare it”, I said again.

“Already or if you force, thank you, if so Mother to the house Ina first yes, tell you all to take clothes Bunda”, he said then saying goodbye.

After the magriban I went to Naz's room to see his condition, but he was still fast asleep, and I could not bear to wake him. I sat on the edge of the bed right next to him lying down and kept looking at him as if taking off my longs for a year, because when I woke up I didn't know if he would still want to see me. “When you fall asleep you are so beautiful”, my words that continue to smile looking at him by wiping the words head and I remember the incident earlier, I said,

“Did he faint because I had given him artificial breath?”, I murmured in my heart then I chuckled, because it was the first time I did that.

For a long time I kept looking at her until I heard her voice, then I came out of her room and asked Mbak Jum to cook soup for Naz if she woke up later so it was ready, while I went to pray.

After a while I heard Mother's voice which sounded shocked, I immediately approached her to Naz's room whose door was already open. He was sitting on the floor, saying he wanted to get out of the room but could not walk. Then I offered her a favor, but she turned it down by talking ketus.”Turns out he still hates me”, I thought to myself.

He tried to walk on the road by Mother, but instead fell down again, I did not have the heart to see him, I went up to him and squatted down and carried him, then laid him on the bed. He's still being so jutek and talking to me and it hurts a lot.

Naz recounts the chronology of his fall that caused his legs to be sprained until he drowned, “It is only fitting that he could drown, apparently because his legs were sprained, even though his height was higher than the depth of the pool”, I murmured in my heart. Then I helped massage her legs, but she was getting sicker and I couldn't bear to see her, I'd rather leave her room, then asked Retno to bring him a meal and a balm to put on his feet.

In the room I kept thinking about Naz's attitude to me, it was very painful to accept the hatred of the woman I loved so much, besides my heart that hurt my body was very carefree. I tried to sleep, but only woke up in an instant again, because my head was dizzy, my body felt bad and carefree, I continued to fidget until the early morning I felt thirsty and hungry, and I just remembered since noon I haven't eaten. I walked into the kitchen staggering through the dark room fumbling, somewhere I felt off balance and I lay unconscious on the floor.

Flashback off

"I'm sorry, Naz, I'm forced to do this, so you can forget me more easily" I said in my heart as I looked at the picture on my phone.

POV Author

Tok tok tok,,,, Mbak Jum knocked on the door of Naz's room, “Non, can the Mbak enter?”, said Mbak Jum from behind the door.

“Please Mbak,,”, replied Naz gave permission, then Mbak Jum entered with a tray of food eritions for Naz.

“Iki Non, eaten lunch, mumpung still anget”, he said.

“Still yes Ma'am,, later I eat, just save first”, he said while as much as he pleased.

“Non abis nangis huh? Non why tho?”, he asked.

“Gak what Ma'am,, I want to pray first yes already half two turned out to”, said Naz then went to the bathroom for abudhu, and then, and when he came out it turns out Mbak Jum is still in his room, Kok Mbak is still here?”, asked Naz astonished, then he said goodbye to go out of the room.

“Aduh,, why Miss has not eaten yes,, Den Arfin will definitely not eat also if Miss has not finished eating”, said Mbak Jum confused, said, and after the full hour Mbak Jum returned to Naz's room with apples that had been peeled and cut, and,

“Parmisi Non, this is the fruit, earlier the Mbak Lupa”, he said after entering Naz's room, “Non, why haven't you eaten?”, he said after entering Naz's room, Non, she asked after seeing the contents of the tray still intact and Naz instead lay down like he was daydreaming.

“I'm not hungry Ma'am,, “, replied Naz.

“Non has not eaten, later if late eating can hurt and if the food is cold so less tasty”, persuade Mbak Jum, but Naz still does not touch the food, then Mbak Jum back out.

“Aduh,, how tho iki,,, Den Arfin has not eaten nor taken medicine,, these if quarreling turned out to be troublesome. And continue every half hour Mbak Jum came to Naz's room with pura give him hot tea, give pudding, lah, and lastly he asked Dinda for help to persuade Naz to eat. And this time the reason was that there was a phone call from Dinda because Naz's phone was off.

After receiving a call from Dinda, Naz is willing to eat because of the threat from the Mother.

Mbak Jum went straight to his employer and reported that Naz was eating, then Arfin also ate his food that was cold aka gaaleun.

After eating, Naz went to the kitchen to deliver his food, and at that time he saw Mbak Jum carrying a tray containing food marks from Arfin's room.

“Mbak,, brother Arfin just ate?”, asked Naz

“Iy Yes Non”, replied Mbak Jum nervously.

“Hah, it was from dzuhur just ate?”, he asked again.

“Iya Non”.

Naz noticed Arfin's used plate, “Mbak, that's like the food tray I brought for him, right?”, that's like, tanya Naz who pay attention to the former plateng and the selection of plates that are different in shape.

“Iy Yes Non”, the answer is.

“What, the food is already cold, how can he eat it?”.

“Anu Non, emmm,,, Den Arfin would not eat if Non belm finished eating”.

“What?? Why didn't Mbak say from earlier?”, asked Naz in shock,”Wait,, What was that why Mbak just kept coming in and out of my room?”.

“Iy Yes Non, because the Ma'am wants to know Non has finished his food or not”, Mbak Jum admitted it, then Naz immediately rushed to Arfin's room without knocking on the door.

“Aren't you taught manners? Play in people's rooms as usual”, said Arfin was annoyed to see Naz suddenly enter when he just came out of the bathroom, then he sat on the bed.

“Until when are you going to pretend like this?”, Tanya Naz.

“Pretend what?”, asked Arfin.

“Pretending not caring about me, pretending not to like my existence, pretending to hurt me, and pretending that the woman is your boyfriend”, etc, naz pointed to one of the photos in Arfin's room.

“I'm not pretending,,, I'm just following your wishes,, don't you hate me so much and don't want to see me anymore?, so it's not wrong if I avoid you,,,, then why are you still here?”, said Arfin in a poignant tone, “And the woman's problem in the photo,,,,,, she's the woman I love, she's the reason I left you,,, in a woman who is better than you, more mature and not childish, so that makes me more comfortable,,, so I brought her from Jakarta to work with me here, so that we are not far from”, said Arfin by looking at one of the photos plastered on the wall of his room.

Naz immediately smothered his mouth in disbelief at what he had just heard. He was unable to say a word, then he immediately went to leave Arfin's room, he ran towards his room with tears, regardless of Mbak Jum who was in the middle room in front of Arfin's room, he ran to his room with tears, even the pain in his legs was not felt.

He cried so much in the bathroom as if he got the answer to his question all along. The pain he felt was too deep and he continued to cry to vapourize it for a while.

After getting a message from her Mama, she stopped her crying and washed her face, then she cleaned up her things and left Arfin's house.

Both Naz's parents along with Raline, and Elsa have just come out of Aunt Ina's residence to say goodbye, along with the arrival of Naz, and, then they went together to a 5-star hotel to stay there. Naz acted as if nothing had happened and joked with his two sisters. The three of them occupied the same room, as usual before going to bed they exchanged stories while Naz was just a listener, the arena could not tell what he was going through.

The next day after breakfast, the three girls swim in the hotel's open-air swimming pool, Raline and Elsa swimming, while Naz only played water because he could not swim, while his parents only watched them while sitting in a lounge chair on the edge of the pool.

“Kak Nanaz,, photoin we dong”, said Elsa who just splashed into the pool with Raline.

“So I don't have a phone,, you don't bring it?”. asked Naz.

“No,, brother Raline is also the same,,,”, replied Elsa.

“Pa, Ma,, bring cell no?”

“Mama don't bring,,,”.

“Papa bring, but just died “.

“Yahhh,, same as bo’ong it mah,, yasudah I went to the room first to take the phone,,,”, said Naz who then asked for an aces card previously entrusted to his Mama.

“You guys take power bank ya dear”, said Mr. Syarief.

“Okay, “, said Naz who then left to leave them walking to their room located on the 14th floor, of course by using the elevator.

After arriving at the room Naz rushed to pick up his cellphone and powerbank, then he immediately went to go back to the pool. But when he opened the door of his room, how surprised he saw someone standing at the door of his room.

“Naz, can we talk? There are important things that I want to convey to you”, said the person with a serious look.

“Sorry,, it seems like there's nothing to talk about anymore”, Naz refused.

“But this is very serious, regarding the actual thing you should know, I promise after this there will be no talk about this again”, he said again.

Naz let out a long sigh, "Alright please come in".

------ TB ----------

Sorry yesterday othor was busy, so just got up, hopefully can double up...

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