The Hurt
Love At the End of the Story
On January 13, 2012, right the birthday of my upperclassman whom I used to call kak ical his full name is haikal indrawan.
I was with close friends kak ical like mba riva, ervin, johan, heru and farhan gave a surprise. right at 12 pm I was with the others already in front of the door of the room kost kak ical, I brought a tart for kak ical, suddenly sister ical out of her room. and he was surprised to see in front of his room so crowded, ” happy birthday ical. happy birthday. happy birthday. happy birthday to you.” I said and others greeted happy birthday song.
Sister ical smiled widely as happiness covered her. One by one his friends said happy birthday and new hope for the age of ical brother who even 19 years, Not forgetting I also said happy birthday to kak ical.
“happy birthday brother. longevity and healthy always. success well brother. smoga dream brother and band can be achieved.” my hope for kak ical
Brother ical smiles sweetly. “thanks miell.” said kak ical while embracing me. it feels very comfortable. cake first piece kak ical give to mba rifa, mba rifa, it is appropriate mba rifa get it because among others mba rifa is the closest to kak ical, there is jealousy and envy why I did not get the first feed from sister ical, but no matter what I am happy with this night full of laughter.
@kak ical en mba rifa.
In the corner of campus garden ical and rifa were sitting together on a park bench while enjoying the iced tea he bought in the campus cafeteria.
“rif, thanks well for the surprise last night. I did not expect to be able to get a surprise that is so festive for me.” said ical
“thank you not to me times cal.”
“continue luckwhat donk?”
“ke mielly. he who made a surprise plan semalem for loe. I'm the same others Just follow doang for the rame-ramein event so exciting.”
“ohh.” said ical. then fell silent down.” should have been last night I gave that first piece to mielly.” said ical inwardly.
“hey cal daydreams about it.”
“gak. oh well by the way.thanks for the gift of his guitar.”
“to me again anyway.”
“nah keep to whom dong?”
“ke mielly again. I am another just milihin favorite guitar model loe. the rest mielly deh”
“keep gift from loe where?” pinta ical's
“loe request a gift from me. ?” Ask rifa
“certain. loose kan temen I”
“oh well I have two gifts for loe, this first one is for loe.” said rifa while giving a watch that has always wanted to have it.
“waahh cool rif, I like gifts from loe. this is a watch that I dreamt of” said ical and then reload and try to wear it.” keeps the second gift what rif” he continued
“gue have happy news en now I'm happy again.”
“apa tuh, I'm curious ni.”
“gue new ajah soan same abeng.”
“hah soan same abeng!, when rif. ?”
“2 days ago, sorry just telling you now.then you are busy with your band and cell phone loe-sample loe matiin” said rifa casually. ical again fell silent and bowed the happiness that rifa felt with abeng was a thorn for ical, disappointed that's what ical felt because his love clapped one hand.
“rif, loe tau I love the same loe. why do you have to be the same abeng.” said ical.
“cal, loe know I love abeng same, he is good and the same attention I. abeng also love me, I am comfortable same abeng.”
“but I also love the same loe. rif loe know I love the same loe long ago.” said ical while holding the hand of rifa
“cal, I know. I also love the same loe. but my dear is as a friend no more than that.”.
Ical took a deep breath. felt the bitter love he felt for the unrequited rifa.” sorry I rif, I was too forced this feeling. I want to loe choose me or abeng?” ical said expectantly
“cal do not be selfish dong.. I keep dear loe. but as a friend and I can not make more than that. sorryin I.” rifa was standing.
“well, I succumbed to a happy smoga with abeng.” said ical and then went to leave his own rifa in the campus park.
@studio band
At 14. 00 I visited the studio of the band owned by kak ical. not too crowded only johan and heru. “hay all...” sapaku.
Johan and heru welcomed me. “eh mielly.”
I put down two small boxes of market pastries.
“waahh what is this..” Ask heru.
“market cake made mamah. please eat.” replied me
“mielly you know ajah us-we again on hunger.” welcome johan then take 1 cake in front of him.
I smile. “oh well brother ical where?” ask me later
“still on campus, just a moment later also he came.”
Ical is coming…
“long life tuh kabak. baru ajah diongoin.” says farhan
Ical came up with a pensive face.he looked very unwell today.he then sat down next to me.
“why loe broo.loe face kok tangled gitu.” welcome heru.
Ical did not respond he just fell silent mute. Turtle still he felt.
Mobile phone belonging to ical embroidery, but he just let it go
“it kak handphoneya sound.why not lifted?” I said to ical
“males” juteek replied
Visible contact name “rifa beautiful call”
“it's mba rifa calling. kasian right if not in lift-up telphonenya.”
Ical again just fell silent.without permission ical I took his phone and picked up the phone from mba rifa.
“iya mba. it's mielly”
“mielly, ical is with you?”
“ia mba, in studio. mba here ajah rame kok.” take me
“emm do not deh, mba there is a promise with temen mba.. ya have good luck to othersya.” said rifa and then immediately ended the conversation.
I put my cell phone back.
“what said?” I asked ical so
“jutek really tanya... there is nothing kok Only nanyain brother is here or not. en mba rifa nitip greetings to others.” replied me
“was that just doang?’
“iaa. sister why the hell? really cynical, again there is a problem well same mba rifa?” ask me later
“have not been discussed.bentar again training sister want to humpulin mood sister.” said kak ical then rise to the training room.
@evening after training
“mielly who's home? I drive home yah” take Ervin
I haven't had time to answer an offer from Ervin, ical immediately grabbed the answer.” mielly came home with me. hayoo miell we go home.” said ical without my aim he pulled my hand. Ervin relented without even retorting a word…
Brother ical did not immediately take me home. he took me somewhere.” we go to kak?” my many.
“kakak don't want to take you to your favorite place brother.”
I also think there is curiosity.
Sister ical took me up to the top of the building. “waahhh beautiful once. cool kak.” amazed me
“this is sister's favorite place, please indicate? we can see all corners of Jakarta from here.we can also remove all the junk, our sense of sprains here.” he said
“oh yeah? how.”
Ici stepped forward and stood on the edge of the building that was bounded by a chest-high wall, then he shouted as loudly as he said he was throwing all his frustration away.
“aaaahhhhhhhhh........ !” yell at ical
Then I approached ical...” can I join in shouting?”
Sister ical smiled then nodded.I also and sister Ily shouted together to release their respective burdens that were buried.
“aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....!” I screamed as loud as possible.
Really plong. like no load... “great brother can find a place as cool as this”.
“every time you have a problem and upset brother always comes here. brother screams as loud as possible. by shouting brother like he was throwing and sharing it with people. and after that brother feels better and somehow it feels lost all the burden that brother feels.” the outpouring on me
“what I can one day come here by myself.”
“of course. you can come whenever you want.” said kak ical then hugged me.
@2 months later
“gak can do donk mah..mielly still want to study in Jakarta. mielly want 1 campus with kak ical..” reject me to mamah who wants to lecture me to a state university in Yogyakarta.
“mielly, dengerin mamah darling..this is your grandmother's request.” pinta mamahnya full attention.
“terus mielly should stay in yogyakarta dong.”
“ya iyalah miell. there you will stay at home eyang.”
I was momentarily silent..” mielly thought about it first mah.” I said... I went to grab my phone and went out of the room leaving my own mom in the room. I kept walking out of the house until I came out of the housing complex that I lived with my mom and my two brothers.
I stopped the taxi and headed for the tall building.I want to overflow my disappointment.I want to scream as loud as possible.
I was pensively silent.I long daydreamed, feeling disappointed at the decision of my mother and my extended family…
Then I screamed.” aaaaaaaaaakhhhhhhh..” cried out as if all my irritation came out…
“your shout is very beautiful.” said ical suddenly startled me.
“kakak? since when is sister here?” ask me later
“just now... why? have a problem yah?”
I nodded while assuring... “by sister know what your problem is?”
“mamah and others intend to lecture me to a university in Yogyakarta.”
“waahh nice it.. is not the university in Yogyakarta is good.” said ical opined.
“kok sister is. mielly does not want to kak. mielly wants to study in Jakarta.. if mielly lectures in Yogyakarta automatically mielly will stay there and mielly can not.” said mielly then did not continue her words.
“can't what? College in Jakarta or in Yogyakarta is the same, we are living it.” said ical tried to give advice.
In my heart said.” sister does not know anyway..mielly can not be far from sister, for mielly sister is an encouragement mielly.”.
“why silent miell?” Ask ical
“got why-why. oh well brother has any problem what come to this tall building?”
Ical sighed then. “by sister honest with you miell.”
I nodded immediately.
“kak dear same mielly.”.
Deg. deg. the sound of my heartbeat beating faster and not as usual.the thing I have been waiting for so far from kak ical finally said also from the sweet lips belonging to kak ical.
“brothers love the same mielly not as they used to be, like seniors and juniors.This feeling comes from the heart of brother..” said ical.
The clear details flowed without orders…
I feel great happiness. wonderful happiness. Brother ical wiped away the tears that flowed down my cheeks..” can we be more than just friends and companions?” said sister ical. I smiled and nodded. sis ical immediately hugged me tightly.” I'm sorry miell, I was forced to do this, I want to erase my love for rifa. and learn to love others.” said ical in his heart…
And that night I was officially dating ical.
That night I went back home with my sister with a heart full of happiness.
@the next day
“mah. mielly will follow the wishes of mamah and eyang. mielly will lecture to Yogyakarta.” I said
mamah who was busy with her activities preparing breakfast stopped listening to her son's words…
“is that really dear?”
i'm nodding…
“alah mamah will contact your eyes..biar eyang you who take care of everything there..”.
I just smiled. My real desire is still ego to go to college in Jakarta.
1 month later
after the one-week exam, Iical came to my house.
“so tomorrow go to myogyakartanya..?” Ask ical
I just nodded.I and Ily kept quiet for quite a while
“don't be sad dong miell” says ical then
I smile. ical wipe my tears..” this struggle miell. for the sake of your future. for the sake of your mama. do not worry me here. anyways Yogyakarta deket.”
I just smiled a little at ical's words…
“thank you brother.. I hope you will be faithful here..”.
in the morning.me, mamah, and my two brothers headed to the airport.we headed to Yogyakarta.but mamah and my two brothers only stayed for about three days.after completing the registration, test, etc.
I was finally accepted as a university student in Yogyakarta
I called my mother, brother, and did not forget ical.all congratulated me…
@studio
“cal. I'm denger-denger loe soan same mielly well..” says ervin.
“who says loe?”
“gue tau from mielly. he said I have to take care of loe so as not to glance at others.. is not it signifying klo loe and mielly dating?”
ical was silent.not answering Kevin's question.
rifa came with abeng…
“hay vin, cal..the others on where?” Tanya rifa then sat on the sofa in the accompaniment with abeng.
“regular rif on hobby ngaret. please understand yes. hehe.”
“ok... but if you already ngetop can not nih whose name ngaret... must be on time.”.
“oh well I am here just as abeng to talk about recording your song..” said rifa.
“but no need to bring your own abeng kan. loe also quite kok.” said ical while allowing his favorite guitar strings.
abeng cleared his throat.
“what do you mean cal? you don't like my arrival?” abeng
“gue didn't say that. I just said..”.
Ical had not yet continued his words.Rifa immediately broke up.
“quite enough. I'm here just as abeng to discuss about the band's record album loe cal. not want to fuss rich gini.” said rifa.
“gue is not in the mood.” said ical and then immediately went to leave all in the studio room.
all just shook their head at the stubborn ical.
“udah rif we continue breavingnya. biarin ical go. this album is more important than him.” said heru
finally breaving was continued without the presence of ical.
@high building
ical again shouted out his frustration and jealousy on the rifa.
“dumb... I am a fool. can not escape my love to rifa. I should be able to accept this fact. I have mielly I should be able to love mielly and forget rifa..” … “and I shouldn't show my jealousy to all of them!” ical continued to regret everything…
cell phone ical ringing seen mielly calling. but ical just let the phone ring. up to many times mielly phone but ical not heed.
“maafin I miell.”
mielly also sent a message to ical via sms:
“where are you? in contact, why is there no constant response? forgot about mielly yah? or are you busy with the recording of the album?
ok deh sorry klo mielly disrupt. mielly Just want to tell you about three more days mielly will return to Jakarta. wait mielly yah kak. :)” fill sms from mielly
ical just sighed deeply. mielly's return doesn't mean more to ical.” mielly. forgive me.. I still can't be sincere to you.”.
“god why am I leaving this on myiely? mielly is sincere. while I? I just want to throw away my unrequited love, how evil am I. Where are my heart and feelings? aaaaahhrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhh” . said ical continues to regret his smuanya.
afternoon rain fell on the city of Jakarta, rifa was busy listening to his favorite song. his cellphone rang making him realize from his preoccupation.” myly tumben him phone.what's wrong?” rifa then picked up the phone from mielly.
“iya myel. tumben phone? kangen same mba well, , hehe”
“hehe it mba. kangen really even. kangen in treaties eat ice cream same mba hahha..”
“hehe you can do. oh well tumben phone.”
“ia mba, how are you?also his band kak ical.”
“mba news is good, well if the band is ical again there is a little problem, ”
“why mba. ?” Ask mielly
“ordinary, rich do not know ical aja stubborn.”
“mba, tomorrow mielly go home to Jakarta loh. welcome mielly yah mba, mielly kangen very much the same all..”.
“sip deh.”
“oh yah mba, mielly contact kak ical kok no immediate response anyway. ?”
“yesday mba sms still in bales kok. hayoo kangen well same ical.”
I laughed out loud.” mba, mielly can ask the same mba?”
“of course. what the hell does this sweet mielly.” said rifa
“thanks mba.” said mielly then cleared “mba, emmm now mielly same sister ical official dating hehhe.”
“oh yeah? since when? why doesn't I ever tell you?” said rifa was a little surprised to hear the news from mielly.
“loh. mielly thought mba already knew everything from kak ical..” said mielly felt astonished.why all the people closest to ical no one knew about the relationship.
“ical never told me anything about you two, but well mba said congratulations well. good luck en lasting ok. :)” said rifa
“thank you well mba.” then ends the conversation on phone.
@mielly's return
“yes go home. iam coming Jakarta.” I shouted while cleaning up my clothes.
eyang just smiled at my behavior.
“duh granddaughter eyang kayaknya very happy.eyang so quiet nih no you.” said eyang while approaching me
“calm eyang mielly will not take long at most Just 1 week.” I said then immediately hugged eyang.
and finally I went to the airport at befriended mas ilham.
approximately 1 hour air travel, finally arrived at the airport in Jakarta.
“heemm kak ical where is it? he said he promised to pick up. kok has not come yet.” my grumbling
long enough I waited for the arrival of sister ical but never came. I finally decided to go home alone.?”.
arriving home.
“assalamualaikum. mamah, mas irwan, mas raja.? but there is no answer.” how quiet anyway? where are the inhabitants. ?”
I went straight into the room.” uhhh already miss the same room.” then immediately put the body on the bed.
@studio band
distudio there are only haikal and rifa. who are talking about the recording process of the band's album novem, rifa deliberately only invite haikal because others first know about breaving touted.
“tomorrow we start the editing process.and this editing process targets only about 15 to 20 days.” said rifa haikal nodded but his eyes continued to look at the face of the beautiful and sweet rifa. haikal likes with rifa eyes, for haikal rifa eyes are eyes that can hypnotize all men. rifa continues the conversation. “and the promo of this album will be carried out 1 week after the editing process. so me and abeng hope you are not stubborn anymore, so that our target can be on schedule. ok” said while directing his gaze towards the haikal, rifa realized he was being noticed by haikal.
“cal. loe dreading me no the hell?!”
“emm sorry. I enjoyed god's grace too much.”
“what do you mean?!”
“maafin I rif. I was wrong yesterday. I should not be stubborn and leave everything here.” said haikal.
rifa and Haikal are unaware that their conversation is being heard by mielly and Ervin
“mau until when the hell loe keep rich gini?” Ask rifa
“until my love keloe really-was lost.and I could love.” rifa directly guess.” loe mielly mean?”
“tau from where loe?” Haikal asked in shock with a rifa speech.
so did mielly who was listening. her heart instantly trembled. ervin just shook his head.
“no need to know where I know about loe and mielly.”
“gue emang wrong, I stupid rif, I don't have a heart. I guess with me just mieely it can erase my love to loe. apparently not rif, I'm tormented.”
“loe evil cal. mielly tuh really sincere. she's good still innocent. why do you feel hurtin her feelings.” said rifa
haikal grabbed the hands of rifa. “please rif. don't say this to mielly. I don't have the heart to see her tears..”.
mielly really can't hear the talk of rifa and haikal
mielly finally stepped forward after Ervin held her back.
“enough! you don't have to hide all this. Mielly knows everything! you guys are evil. mielly hates sister ical!” mielly said then walked out of the studio.
“mielly. wait. sister can explain everything.” said ical. but free mielly was already disappointed with what she had heard.
“aaahhhh. !” yells ical
Ervin was silent as well as rifa. raining down rapidly. carried mielly to the high building. with mielly soaked to the high building.
“loe chase her bro.” Ervin's advice
“but how should I? mielly will definitely not want to see me.”
“try first cal...gue sure mielly is good and will apologize to loe.”
haikal immediately knew where mielly.ical went directly to the tall building.
alleged precise Icel. mielly was sitting quietly in the middle of the rush of rain. ical immediately stood closer.ical stood behind mielly but mielly was not aware of the existence of ical
“why is everything like this god! why would someone who mielly loves hurt mielly? mielly dear sister ical. why is sister ical not god?” mielly shouted in the middle of her sobs.
ical grabs the hand mielly. mielly turned her body. was surprised to see the presence of ical. “mielly maafin sister. sister can explain all.” said ical
mielly releases the grips of ical.” all is clear sister. mielly is not yet deaf. Everything that mielly heard was quite painful and made mielly realize that mielly will never be able to present in the life of her sister.” says mielly
“but miell..”
“quite brother.. mielly disappointed. from now on assume we never know and know each other. !” mielly said then left ical.
haikal who was standing in a huddle.
sorry was in vain. now mielly who always loved him already hated him.
the rain brought mielly home to her home.Mielly's heart was broken, very disappointed mielly felt until she was unconscious in front of her door.
the next day mielly like losing her spirit. a full day she spent only in bed. The remains of disappointment still very much he felt. handponenya continued to embroidery but he never cared. now in mielly's heart there's only hatred for ical.
“this is love? why turn hateful and painful.”
mielly fell silent and pondered what had happened to her.
he realized that love does not have to have. mielly tried to explain what happened to him. she now can not dissolve with sadness and disappointment.Mielly decided to return to Yogyakarta tomorrow. because maybe with yes being in yogya karta he will really be able to forget ical.
mielly who continued to daydream was aware of the presence of her mother.
“mamah?.”
“ada guests who want to meet you dear.” said the mama gently.
“say mah mielly is sick again.and mielly cannot be disturbed.” I said firmly.
“gak can be so dear.however they are also your friends.”
“but mah..”
“ayolah miell. meet your friends.” force mamah
“well..” with a lazy tone and a shaky step mielly want to go out of the room.seen in the living room sitting two guests who were waiting for the presence of mielly.
“mba rifa, brother Ervin why are you here?.” asked mielly cynically
“hay miell. what's up. ?” Ask Ervin
“I think you guys know how I am too. I don't have to answer. !”
rifa and Ervin fell silent.
“miell. arrival mba and Ervin here Just want to solve our problems. mba do not want your relationship and haikal getting worse.”
“mba. don't worry about my relationship with kak ical. because between me and kak ical there is no relationship. And from now onwards mielly will not know the figure of ical again. !” mielly
“mielly. but ical is very disappointed.” said Ervin
“already brother Ervin. if the arrival of mba rifa and brother Ervin just want to discuss this problem.better you go home there are still many things that are more important than this. aren't band stars more important to talk about?” mielly begiu juteknya.
“ok mielly sorryin mba and Ervin. We both just don't want to see ical and you are not good.”
“that's the risk of the lies that kak ical did. never mind, maybe this is also not entirely wrong kak ical, mielly realized it. mielly was too selfish and too much hope.” said mielly then Iamenyeka tears so as not to fall in front of her guests.
rifa hugged mielly. finally mielly was not able to cry on the shoulder rifa.
“maafin mba miell.” hiks
“mba is not wrong mba. keadan and time that finally makes us like this.toh even if this continues will be more painful and tormenting feeling kak ical, he said, because the person who is dear to you is mba rifa.”
rifa and Ervin fell silent
“besok mielly return to Yogyakarta.”
“doesn't there still be 5 more days of your vacation time in Jakarta?” ervin
“ia right. mielly Just don't want to drag on this problem. maybe with the return of mielly to yogyajarta can forget what happened here.” said mielly while wiping her tears.
“alah.maybe this is the best..” said rifa.
“then we say goodbye miell.”
mielly nodded. then stepped forward clenched tightly rifa.” sorryin mielly mba. say hello mielly to kak ical. mielly will always love kak ical.”
rifa nodded.finally rifa and Ervin came home.
the next day Haikal gets word from rifa about mielly's return.
“serious rif mielly will return to yogya now?”
“iya cal. she said she wanted to neutralize the situation. and tried to forget what happened here.”
“gue should see mily now.” says ical
“about 30 minutes more the plane will be flown.” said johan
ical glanced at his watch.
“hopefully I can still meet mielly.” said ical then directly pick up the car keys and slide towards the airport.
but unfortunately, when he arrived at the airport, the plane carrying mielly to Yogyakarta had been grounded in the air…
regret comes back to haikal…
he returned to the tall building and expressed regret that happened
“mielly... sorry I...!” yells
finally haikal realized that love cannot be forced or forced.love comes from the heart.not because of ego.now ical lost the person who loves him sincerely.
@promo album
at night in the cafe where the usual ical and his band gig.
that night was also their first album promo.
and there is a song created directly by ical titled.” end of love story.” the song tells about his story with mielly. and he created specifically for mielly.
before haikal performed the song he said.” This song is the most special song on this album, because this song came from a beautiful girl. I created this song for her who is sincere. hope he hears.”
