The Hurt

Dark Days

This morning, I was busy with all my camping gear. All that stuff I put in my black backpack. Yes, today, my friends and I will participate in out door activities and outbound activities. I had to attend school much earlier than usual. I don't know why, today I feel so excited despite having to wake up so early. I was taken to school on my dad's motorcycle.

Arriving at school, some of my friends began to enter the hall and some were still outside the hall, engrossed in their respective topics of conversation. “Hei, Laetitia!” greet my best friend, Sandra. “Hai, Sandra! What time did you come today?” my question is still amazed because Sandra does not usually come faster than me. “Perhaps about 10 minutes before you came.. Want to take a walk while waiting for time to gather in the hall?” ask Sandra. “Alright, but I will put my bag in the hall first, it is very heavy.” “Alright, let's take it.” After putting the bag down, Sandra and I chatted while leaning against a pillar right in front of the entrance to the hall. “You came faster than Duke?” my question is “Not really, she came about 5 minutes after me.. The person you always ask is Duke, not bored?” “No, are you kidding me? If I get bored, this second I won't be here either.” Duke is someone I like and he likes me. We have liked each other for 8 months. “So, you came to school and followed the activities because of Duke?” “Yes, I was forced to cancel my schedule for a walk with Spike in the park today.” “Truly a big sacrifice.”

Before long, my teacher began to signal it was time to enter the hall to gather. As I entered through the main door, I took my eyes to look for where Duke is. As I sat down, I could only see where Duke was sitting. It remains as we were gathered to listen to the announcement, in the first row, the sixth seat from the left. After listening to the announcements and briefings, we began to enter the means of transportation. It was not an AC bus with a fancy looking exterior, but a truck commonly used to carry army troops or prisoners of war. It was very uncomfortable to be in such a vehicle during such a long journey, but I kept trying to enjoy this journey. The trick, of course, was to imagine Duke being by my side, sitting next to me more precisely.

Arriving at the location, I was immediately busy looking for where Duke was, but this time, I did not find him at all. Never mind to talk to him, not even see the trunk of his nose. After waiting for a long time, I asked my homeroom teacher, “miss, I don't think I saw any 7D, 7E, and 7F students from the beginning we all arrived. Actually, where are they?” “They have gone hiking first.” replied my homeroom teacher with a smile. My body was limp once I heard my homeroom reply. The spirit that had been burning since this morning, suddenly disappeared, just like a fire sprayed with fire extinguishing foam. Right then, I was very limp and lazy to go through all the activities of the day. When we had to go home and get on our transport, I was still hoping to meet him.

When it was halfway through, suddenly our truck stopped. Turns out, a 3 truck or truck transporting 7E class students broke down. The driver of the 3rd truck tried to repair the engine and succeeded. We continue the journey.

After traveling for 10 minutes, the truck broke down again. The driver tried to repair the engine. But this time it didn't work. I saw all the passengers of the truck get off. I asked my best friend Velicia, from 7E grade who happened to pass by. “Hey, Vel, what is it?” “The truck broke down again.” he replied. Before long, Dukepun passed by and saw me. He said something I couldn't hear clearly.

Some 7E kids got into my class truck, and some into a 7B truck. Duke got into the 7B truck and Velicia got into my class truck. Journey continued. A while later, Velicia whispered to me, “Ehm, Laetitia. I have the latest news about Duke.” “News about Duke?” “Yes, sorry if this makes you shaken.” “Yes, it's okay. What's the matter?” “Duke liked my old class mentor, his name was Sister Irene. He has long hair. Earlier, the Duke asked for his signature and continued to look at him. As we satirized her, she smiled happily. And you know, just now, when you saw him through the window, he said, “wah, curse.”.Therefore, he did not get into this truck.” “oh, so..” My heart really hurt until it felt like crying. Velicia was confused to see me who was silent since she told me about Duke. “you, no heartache right?” “Uhm, no.. He has done this more than once.” I replied with a small smile covering my face that was holding back tears. “She's really a playboy, lucky you're such a strong woman. I hope, you always have patience with it.” Velicia said as she patted me on the shoulder “Actually, I was confused with her. He's always been dishonest if he likes anyone but me. Did he not realize his pain knowing the betrayal he committed from others?” my tears were unbearable and fell on my cheeks. “I think you'd better leave a guy like him. In this world, many men are better and more loyal than him.” “Yes, I know that, but you know right? I don't like him anymore, but I love him. And forgetting loved ones is not as easy as forgetting your old friends when you meet new friends.” “That's all up to you, but if you need help, let's say. I'll help you.” “Thank you very much, Velicia. That helped me a lot.. Once again thank you.” I said while hugging him. “Ya, equally.”

Arriving at school, I immediately got ready to get off the very tall truck. When I came down, I saw Duke and, like, he realized I had seen him. But as soon as I saw him and he saw me, I threw my face away and went straight to find my father to come home. Along the way, I kept crying over Duke's words saying I was a curse to him. Coincidentally, that day, my brother had a birthday. So I went home to my brother.

When I arrived at your house, I immediately searched my phone and opened the social network I used (twitter). I express my heart and feelings by tweeting. Then, I rushed to take a shower to calm myself down and once again I cried. Amidst the chaotic thoughts and moods, I began to think about the bad prejudices about Duke. “Maybe he is now staring deeply into the mentor's signature.” “Or maybe, he did deliberately do this so that I hurt because I don't want to like it.” I enforce my sitting position in the bathtub “Did he not love me sincerely all this time?” I put on my towel and put on my shirt, then stepped out of the bathroom while covering my face with a towel to shampoo.

Before long, my phone rang. I got an SMS from a close friend of mine and asked about the tweet. My cousin, Clarice, also called me and asked why I wrote such a tweet a few minutes later. I walked to his house and then went to the minimarket. Along the way, we talked. “Tweet who you wrote it for?” “For Duke..” I replied very quietly while holding back my tears. “You.. Crying?” “Yes, I'm crying. It feels betrayed it is amazingly sick, even though this is the second time.” “Basic Duke unfaithful.. You're patient yes.” “I hope I can.” “Hey, why did you just give up? Not as usual.” “I've started to give up on this reality.. I'm desperate.” “Don't do that, you don't know yet.” “I don't know yet how many women he hurt just as he betrayed me now.” I cut off Clarice's talk. “Sorry..” said I realized that I just cut the talk “Already, forget it first. We buy cappuccino coffee to calm your mood and chaotic mind.”.

After buying a cappuccino we walked home. At my brother's house, I hurried up to the balcony. Yes, that two-room balcony is my second headquarters after my own room in the house. I closed the door of the room tightly. “You look fucked today.” “Yes, after an exhausting outdoor activity and outbound, when I was fast home, I got news like that. My mind is out of shape.” I said while holding back tears “Already, meaning this is already a second warning for you.” Clarice said as she embraced and gave me tissue. “Second warning.” “Yes, you're still lucky to get a second warning. Usually, people only get a warning. And a very bad thing happened immediately.” “Better, you immediately release Duke from your heart before anything worse happens.. Just twice you cried for his betrayal.” he said “It was hard, right?” “Difficulty, Laetitia. But, the sacrifice of letting Duke go will give you happiness. Meanwhile, enduring his betrayal will make you always heartbroken.” “Yes, you are right too..” “Trust your body. We're going to a worship concert tomorrow, remember?” “Oh, yes. I recall. Thank you very much.”

I walked home with my mother and aunt. They continue to chat about summer vacation plans. As for me, walking with anxiety and confusion. Clarice's words have a point, too. Let go and let go of the traitor you love will make you better. When I got home, I laid my body on a soft bed. With the headphones I put in my ears, I closed my eyes to think while listening to soft music. Before long, my phone shook. Who's gonna send me SMS nights like this?, I thought.

Apparently, it was an SMS from Duke. “Sorry, I can't open twitter. My internet package is up. Your cousin sent me an SMS, saying you were looking for me. What's up?” My emotions suddenly exploded, like an atomic bomb. I want to feel like I'm cursing Duke as my outlet. But, I guess, satirize him with polite yet meaningful words in much better. “Searching you? He must have sent you an SMS all of a sudden. No, I'm not looking for you. You're not a kid I should be looking for.” “Oh, yes already. Oh yeah, did the girls from my class who were hitchhiking in your truck say anything about me?” My feelings immediately said that he thought I did not know the events that happened. “Uhm.. No, what's the matter?” I thought, by pretending not to know, he would confess about what happened. Apparently, the opposite. “No, just ask them.” Looking at the answer from her, my emotions exploded like popcorn that had started to mature. I didn't want to vent my emotions in anger at all, but I started crying again. “I know, I know everything. About the mentor's brother, right?”

“Yes, do you know from whom?” the answer looks very relaxed “I know from Velicia.” “Velicia your good friend?” “Ya” “You're not mad right?” “I don't know, do you think?” “Anged and a little jealous.” You know what I feel, that's good! my thinking. “No, I'm not angry. Why am I angry? Liking someone is your right!” Now, my emotions were overflowing like lava coming out of a volcano that had just erupted. He answered my SMS for a long time. Then he sent me another SMS. “I'm sorry, sorry once.” “Ya, it's okay.” “Sorry, I'm sorry.. **^TT” this time he sent me an apology SMS with a crying emoticon.

“Why are you the one crying, the one that should be crying is me!” “Why?” Previously, I would like to answer: “Think of it yourself! This heart really hurts! You knew?! You're selfish! Yes, you are the most selfish man I have ever known on this earth!!” but I don't want to make him feel that I'm angry. I always try to be a woman who does not get angry and feel jealous. “Yes, of course. The signal in my house keeps going up and down.<-this one has a different meaning. Than bored.” “Hmm, you're this basic. Oh yeah, I heard you were close to OSIS' sister huh?” “OSSIS sisters of course, but if the OSIS brothers in my class always break away. Looks like, they're boring.” “Oh, so.” “After all, if I want to be close to other men besides you, I will definitely ask for permission. Because I know, if you find out I like another guy from your friend, it must be heartache.” I mean, to insinuate her and make her aware, but it didn't work. “Ehm, move to twitter only yes.” “OK!” With half-sleepy eyes, I opened my twitter. When I opened my twitter and saw the Direct Message (DM), there he wrote: Here baby.. At that time, the word will full of meaning was like a cold medicine that made vomiting that night. I started a conversation that night. “You're not sleeping? Don't you have to go to church tomorrow?” “Ya, indeed. But, I won't sleep before you go to sleep.” “Usually you were told to sleep by your mother right?” “This time, he sleeps faster than usual.” “Oh, so.” “You yourself why haven't you slept?” I replied to that for a long time. About 20 minutes later, I just got back. “Sorry a little long keep you waiting, I haven't been sleepy.” “Oh.. I slept first, yeah, I slept less last night. Adios.. Love you... :*” I was really lazy to reply to the last 3 words from him. “OK, sweet dreams. Love you too ~<3” After that, I also slept. The next day, I went to a worship concert at the church where Clarice was worshipping. I'm very amused. His service is not as usual. Really festive and fun. We jumped up and down while enjoying all the fast-paced spiritual songs. That day my happiness was increasing because I could send SMS with my friend who was different from school. Not to mention, the next day, I was able to have a small reunion with my friends. It feels really fun. I passed the day with great enthusiasm. The long-awaited day arrived. Monday, yes the first day of the week it makes me very excited. After school in Junior High, I and a few of my friends went to elementary school for a reunion and took diplomas. After taking the diploma, we went to the cafeteria to buy a drink. I told Tiffany about what I experienced the day after tomorrow. His face felt guilty. “Laetitia, um.. Sorry in advance, I should have told you earlier about this.” “Tell..What?” “So, actually.. Duke likes me.. He said it while he was chatting with me at YM (Yahoo! Messanger)” “Lagain.. He repeated it.” I smiled in the midst of my anger. “You're not mad at me, are you, Laetitia?” “No, I'm mad at Duke.” After a long walk at school, it was time to go home. Me and some of my best friends, including Tiffany, decided to play at my grandmother's house, which is about 100 meters from elementary school. Along the way, Tiffany keeps telling her what Duke told her at YM. Arriving at my grandmother's house, I installed a modem and opened my twitter and YM Tiffany. I saw for myself what Duke told Tiffany. “May I love die to you?” “This is a flower for you.” “Will you be my girlfriend?” “I love you :*”. All those words he said from the beginning of July, precisely the 2nd and the last one was the 14th, just as he betrayed me. My other two friends helped me curse at Duke. I was really angry, so furious that my body temperature became so hot. I decided to use a pretty sneaky way. I saw every tweet he wrote on twitter and it signified that he was online. I sent DM to Duke. “Tadi Tiffany told me that she was waiting for you at YM.” “I can't be online at YM.” “Just tell him!” “You said it, yes?” “No! That's your need, and it's none of my business!” “Come on, make him a twitter account.” “What do you love–sayang? You made him, you like him, right?” “You angry?” “No, wrath! Satisfied you?!!!>:’(” “I'm sorry.” “Actually, do you still like me or not?!” “Still.. I love you dead.” “Oh, I just know now. The dead love guy stabs the one he loves from behind huh?” “Yes, I'm sorry, really sorry. Now, what do you want?” “Why didn't you be honest with me from the beginning?” “I'm afraid you're angry and hurt.” “But, you know? Knowing you like other people than my friends is more hurt! After I found out you liked my best friend, I cried!!” “You may be angry with me, but don't hate me.” “What do you mean set me up?! You have the right to like others, I don't forbid that. And now, I hate you is my right! Don't mess with my rights!” “You don't hate me, do you?” “Tak knows!!! THINK YOURSELF!” I also signed off from Twitter.

I turned to YM Tiffany who was still online. Duke sent YM to Tiffany, “I'm so scared Laetitia hates me for this.” I replied to that YM, ”He doesn't hate you, maybe he's just angry. I'm offline first yes.” I also hurried to shut down the computer. I lay on my uncle's bed. Put both my hands under my head while looking at my uncle's ceiling. “Laetitia, I'm really sorry.” “There's no need to apologize, I'm mad at Duke, not at you.. So, take it easy, huh?” I said with a smile to Tiffany. I didn't communicate with Duke again for a few days.

When I got home, I grabbed my phone and opened Twitter. I wanted to follow her twitter again. But, what's going on? He's already been following and blocking my twitter account! Same with both accounts. I was shocked, stunned, regretting what I did. I've done the stupidest thing in my entire life. Even though I said that I hated it, it was just a lie that came about because of the emotions that were raging, like the fire that was there when a fire broke out. From inside my heart, I still love her, just like I did when she and I liked each other. I thought hard, how can I take revenge on him. I tried all sorts of things, sneaky though. Until, I found a brilliant idea in my mind, just like finding a pearl among pebbles. If I can't make her realize, I'll just approach the person she likes. He and I, who he likes, have been friends before. Since then, I have been close friends with people he likes.

Time keeps passing. Me and Felicia, the people Duke likes, are getting closer. Now, we're friends. We often exchanged stories about Duke. Laughing at the stupidity and silliness that he does. Felicia and Duke are indeed a class. I used to ask Felicia how Duke was in class. In addition to being close to Felicia, I also became friends with my best friend, Sonia. I'm very happy, because even though Duke left my life, I have close friends who mean a lot to my life. One time, while I was waiting for my next lesson, Jessica and I had a chat while writing poetry. “So, right Duke is your ex?” “Ehm, I don't want to call her ex, I'm not her lover. Just call ‘past’. That's better.” “Alright, so it's true?” “Uhm.. Yes, it can be said so.” “You still love him?” I just glanced at Jessica, raised my right eyebrow, then resumed my poetry. “Why are you looking at me like that? Is that true?” I close my book and put it in my bag. “I don't love him anymore. Although I hate it, but somehow, forgetting it is hard.” “Sabar yes.. One day you will be able to do two words consisting of six letters.. It is very common for people like us to do.. You know what I mean?” Jessica embraces me “Ehm.. Move on you mean?” “Yes.. Youre right.. Instead of expecting the impossible, you better move on.” “I admit it's not easy, but I assure you, you can, Laetitia!” “Yes.. That's what I'm supposed to do, exactly.. Thank you for your suggestion.” “Ya, equally.”

Today is the last day before the summer holidays. All the disciples were excited once today. I was pretty excited today too. My spirit is like popcorn exploding. Not to mention, today there are carnivals and art parties. I participated in fashion shows and vocal groups. Yes, I'm trying to move on from Duke. But I still have to be professional. My personal problems I can't bring into the race. As a result, I won that race. Indeed I do not believe in it, because the paper clothes that Jennifer, the model of my class used, when on the raft, looks to be outside the design that has been made. Looks kind of fucked up. But help, because Jennifer's face is made up very beautiful and Steve, a male model from my class who is clever in style.

The next day, my family and I went to the beach. We play by the beach. For a moment, all my feelings of confusion disappeared like shadows in the darkness. On the coast, I stood while enjoying the waves that continued to roll, as if racing towards the coast. If only I had been here with the Duke.. I hope he enjoys the holidays, I thought. My feelings of regret recurred again. At night, I ride my bike with my family. Along with the sound of the waves breaking the rocks along the way, I paddled my bike casually. When we were tired, we stopped at the beach. Holding the wheel of my bicycle, I stared at the star-studded night sky. Hoping to exchange one of the billions of stars in the sky for a wish. A small but very meaningful plea to me.

After a long time at the beach, I cycled back to the inn. I leaned my bike against the terrace wall of the inn, went into the room to change clothes, then sat on the bed. God, why is ‘move on’ that hard? Why is it so hard to forget a perverted man who only sees the physical and who clearly does not love me like Duke? Why is it that the more I try to forget it, the more my love and affection become? I always hesitated to move on because my hope, Duke came back to me, soared very high like a hot air balloon soaring into space. I didn't want my vacation to be dark because of Duke, I stopped thinking about it and rushed to sleep.

I dream too. I was opening my twitter, then I saw a Direct Message (DM) from Duke. Yeah, I'm not wrong! From Duke, the guy who's been following and blocking my twitter account. When I opened it, it said: “Laetitia, I apologize to you. It's all my fault for being selfish with you. Please don't move on, will you be my girlfriend?” I was so shocked I woke up. When I saw my watch, it turned out to be 04:30. I immediately got up, changed clothes, then went with Clarice to the east coast to see the sunrise. I told Clarice my dream. Comfortable cousin sister becomes the outpouring of hearts only Clarice. “You tried to move on? Fighting yes.. Dreams sometimes make you doubt, but you must still round your resolve. If you want to move on, just move on.” “Yes, I'll try.. Always try” “I will always support you, need help, just say.” “Thank you, Clarice.” “Sama-sama.” I was confused to see Clarice's face that was not as cheerful as usual. “You why?” “Hmm.. Bill asked me to break my relationship with him.” he said bowed “How can it?” “He thinks I can't trust him as a lover.” “You mean.. This is misunderstanding?” “Yes, this is all misunderstood.” “Try explaining to him.. Just tell me you're sorry you misunderstood her.” “Good, I'll try your idea..” Before long, Clarice smiled while looking at the contents of the SMS from Bill. He began to chuckle and pat me on the shoulder while whispering, “He forgave me.. He admitted it was his fault, thank you my smart cousin.” he said with a smile “Ya.. Equally..” I answered him with a small smile. If I had a loyal man, I could introspect himself and be kind like Bill, I said in my heart. I went through that day very excitedly.

The third day of my vacation, I packed up and moved to another inn because the inn had previously been booked by other tourists. At night, I went cycling, as usual. With a headset attached to my phone that features a playlist that I've compiled with relaxing songs, as well as soda I've bought before, I pedal my bike. Passing through the shopping center that began to be crowded by tourists, my bike continued to ride casually. Now, I'm in a complex where hotels line up. With a luxurious exterior, the entrance of the hotel is decorated with sculptural statues, and, also the lights and the little lanterns hanging near the entrance and the gate were like fireflies in the darkness of night. A truly soothing nighttime view with a calm atmosphere. Unbelievably, the song I was listening to reached the end of the playlist. The last song I heard was a ballad. After that, my family and I ate at a seafood restaurant. We eat relaxed. Suddenly, my stomach hurt. I'm on my dad's way back to the inn first. Before long, my family followed because they had finished eating. After everything changed, we sat down and played cards for a while. Then, go into each other's rooms and sleep.

I had a dream about Duke. This time, I dreamed I was sitting on the living room couch at home with my parents. Suddenly, he came, kneeling before me. I lowered my head and he whispered, “I'm sorry yes.” I nodded and smiled a little. Then he put on me a hat! The pink knitted hat with the purple stripe seemed to fit right in my head. He smiled at me and left. This dream did not wake me up, but strangely, when I woke up in the morning, I somehow felt very different. Like there's something wrong with me, but I don't know what it is. After getting ready, just like the day before, my family and I went to play on the beach. I decided to buy souvenirs. I went through the holidays with a strange feeling. I don't know what made me dream about Duke. But, obviously, those dreams made me hesitant to move on.

When I went to school, I told all my dreams when I met my friends. We talked in front of my class. Sitting on that long wooden chair with Jessica and Tiffany next to me. They all chuckle. “Haha, it turns out that there are people who are hesitant to move on because of dreams.”, Jessica said. “I'm optimistic, Jessica!” I said with a plain face. After school, I had to take part in extracurricular activities at school. Before I started getting pregnant, Velicia and I decided to go to the cafeteria. On the way, I met Duke. When he came face to face for a moment, he smiled a small smile. However, I threw my face away and immediately grabbed Velicia's hand, pulling her to rush to the cafeteria. He looked confused to see me like that. In the cafeteria, he asked, “I wonder, why aren't you as happy as you used to be? When we met in the prep school class, when you were in contact with her, you were cheerful and smiling easily. But, now, seeing you smile is a rare thing, why?” The question ringed in my ears continuously. “ehm, let me explain later in class..” I said with a smile. I explained everything that happened to Velicia. Several times, he looked surprised, confused, even like a bit of hate.

A few weeks later, my school held an open house. Attended by many of my elementary school friends who attended other schools as well as the parents of students from my friends. Each class makes its own class stand. My class and class of 7D made a little cinema. With the student seat on the paper inscribed with the numbers as a cinema chair, the projector and its slides as a screen, the, not to forget the finishing touch in the form of windows covered in black cardboard paper and snacks neatly arranged in the corner of the room makes the classroom look like a small cinema. While the Duke class makes a haunted house. They made a small labyrinth of fabric on the side.

The second day, I took the time to pay a visit to the haunted house belonging to their class. When Sonia and I walked in, Duke was at a lesson stand in the sports hall. I went in and out of that ride without any feelings. Shortly after I left, my best friend who went to another school with his new friends and girlfriend. Name's Marcella. “Hai, Laetitia!” I was shocked amazing, like I got shock therapy. After the split between Mike and Marcella, Marcella decides to find a replacement for Mike. When I talked further, it turned out that her boyfriend's name was Billy. Me and Sandra were dumbfounded, unable to speak at all. When Marcella and her friends and lover are gone, Sandra approaches. “Laetitia, do you think Marcella will think of Mike's feelings?” “I think more about how they reacted when they met. Will Mike smile and say hello to Marcella when Marcella is holding Billy? Or will Mike throw away his face, run and cry silently?” “Really! What kind of a woman is she? Never thought about the feelings of others!” “I did not defend any of them, but in my opinion, Marcella was reasonable to do that. Yes, although there are wrong things that he should not do.” “You mean reasonable?” “Yes, there are some natural things that can be used as an understanding of why Marcella did that. First, their communication only through mobile phones and social media, both they are different schools, the three conflicts that occur between them further stretch their relationship, supervision, and trust both.” “Thankful Mike was in the ride when Marcella passed by. Otherwise, maybe Mike will cry.” “Ya, it could probably be so.”

After the event, I and some of my best friends, including Sonia, Felicia, and Tiffany went to a shopping center located approximately 200 meters from the school. We walked around, played, even a studio photo that afternoon. Escalator after escalator we climbed. We arrived at the top floor and went straight to the machine game place to catch up with Sonia who had already headed to that place. When I arrived, I did see Sonia playing in a dance machine called pump. However, there was a Duke who was sitting on a seat next to the machine. I immediately ran to the entrance, overtaking the others. Tiffany and I decided to go to the bookstore. His reason? I thought if I stayed there, it would be the same as challenging ‘maut’.

Not long after, I went back to the machine game. “Where's Scarecrow? (nickname for Duke)” “Scarecrow is gone.” replied Felicia smiling. I was in that place long enough. Then, my father called me and asked me to meet him at the bookstore. I met my father at the entrance. “You still want to play with your friends?” “Dad, where are you going?” “Father wants to meet dad's friend at Roswell cafe, 2.” floor “Oh, then I play with friends first, dad chat with dad friends.” “Alright, what time do you want to go home?” I asked Tiffany

“You were picked up at what time?” “Around 6 o'clock. Actually, I'm just calling my dad.” “Then, at 6 I will call father.” “Alright, dad down first” “Alright.” After my dad got off, Tiffany and I walked into the bookstore. As I walked towards the shelf of teenlit novels, I saw Duke reading a book near the comic book shelf. I rushed into hiding. That day, I was like playing a romp with Duke. After 6 o'clock, me and the others broke up.

The next day, on Sunday, I was supposed to go to church. But, because my body was hot, I couldn't go to church. After taking a shower, changing clothes, and having breakfast, I turned on the computer and opened twitter. When I looked at Interaction, I saw a post that said Duke was following me. I was so surprised, it felt like I was dreaming. And until now, I made peace and even made friends with him. I heard from Mike, Duke likes me again. But I don't care and I won't like it anymore. I don't want to fall for the same mistake, like a stupid donkey falling in the same hole. Never will.