The Hurt

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All eyes point to him, in a girl who looks very simple and what is, the makeup polish she had used was seen to have been erased by sweat from earlier continued to be rubbed with tissue. He smiled at all of those eyes but they only returned with a faint smile from one corner of their lips, which sometimes looked more like a sneer rather than a smile.

“Ajeng” A woman dressed very beautiful and elegant, greets the woman by her name. The context makes all eyes unmoved from the figure of a simple woman named Ajeng. Ajeng returned the greeting with a very sweet smile, then immediately followed the beautiful woman.

“You should have said that you came”

“I'm just afraid to be shy you're La”

“We are Jeng's best friend, I can prepare better for you if you say first.”

“I'm sorry ya La”

“Hemm. The one you are facing is much heavier” The woman named Lala smiled. Then returned a smile also by Ajeng.

The two of them walked towards the second floor of the mansion that was being filled with those people. Lala led Ajeng towards her large and very elegant room. Ajeng used to go to that room a lot, exchanging stories with Lala, passing through their adult time. It felt like so long had passed for Ajeng, when it all ended just a few months ago. Only vulnerable for a short time but felt so long.

“I think this fits” Lala broke Ajeng's daydream by thrusting a very graceful light green dress. He looked at Lala not understanding.

“I want you beautiful this time, please” Lala answers questions that Ajeng never asked. Ajeng smiled hesitantly then took the dress and went to the bathroom to remove the dress in her body. He washed his face and went out of the bathroom.

Lala smiled to see the dress looks very fitting in Ajeng, Lala then pulled Ajeng's hand to sit on her dresser. Ajeng just obey as they used to when they often decorate each other. This is the same, it's just that Ajeng has been awkward to do the habit “lag”.

Lala looked concerned with the powder and aye shadow in her hands. Ajeng just kept quiet while closing his eyes, back to the time two years ago, when Lala also did the same thing as now, just that it used to be much better, they told the ideals, many laughs, and feels “live”.

“Maybe it's all the better if I don't fall in love that La” Ajeng broke Lala's concentration while holding back her tears from earlier wanting to spill. Lala did not give an answer, she put everything in her hand and then pulled Ajeng in her arms.

“You must be strong Jeng. I'm sorry I couldn't do anything for you, the best friend I have.” Lala's tears fell first, feeling warm flowing on Ajeng's boat.

“I can be as strong now precisely because you are La. Thanks for everything La.” He shed all his tears. A moment the two friends exchanged a day and soon they both smiled again, strengthening each other and wiping away the tears on their cheeks. Next they exchanged makeup and returned a small laugh like they used to.

“Perfect. I've always loved your makeup Jeng” Lala noticed her makeup on the mirror.

“I also” Ajeng only talk a little, because his words are more stored in his admiration of him at this time.

“Beauty! You are Beautiful Jeng. You should say that you are very satisfied with my work. Right?” Lala represents everything Ajeng wants to say. While Ajeng just nodded without taking his eyes off the glass front.

“Come.. Don't just me see your beauty Jeng. Let others also see it” Lala pulled Ajeng's hand out of her room towards the lower room which was crowded with people. Ajeng stopped being propped up, looked down and seemed hesitant about Lala's idea just now. “I'm afraid La” Kata Ajeng next. Lala who looked a little confused then smiled bracingly. “I am on your side Kok Jeng, you can use me as a knife if there is someone who threatens you” Lala teases Ajeng who is worried. Ajeng only smiled thinly and then sneered thinly at Lala who tried to act like an angel. They then continued their steps, heading towards the large hall with that many people.

Lala clasped Ajeng's hand, taking Ajeng around while occasionally introducing Ajeng as her best friend to her guests. Once again people looked at Ajeng, but this time with a look of admiration for her elegance and beauty that looked very bright. Ajeng can control his shy feelings back then, until a man holds his shoulder and

“Ajeng” The man was half surprised, happy, scared, sad and all the clear expressions were reflecting his heart at this moment.

“Mas Aldo” Ajeng was surprised but was soon able to control himself, he then smiled after seeing the beautiful woman who was a little confused next to the man named Aldo.

“Congratulations yes.” Ajeng extended his hand to Aldo. Aldo who had not been able to control himself stammered and shook Ajeng's hand.

“You must thank God for having a friend as good as I” Lala whispered in Ajeng's ear, then held the hand of the beautiful woman beside Aldo with both hands. “Mbak Nia, it's me Ajeng mbak. Ajeng, it's Nia. Can I come with Lala for a minute? Lala wants to know mbak with other Lala friends. Don't mind Aldo?” Lala blinked one eye at Aldo and Aldo looked very understanding and immediately nodded. “Borrow aja dek” ‘the old yes’ continued Aldo in heart.

Ajeng notices Lala and Nia who then disappear among the crowd. Ajeng realized that his heart was currently beating faster than usual, but he would rather deny it if it was all because Aldo was now standing next to him.

“Yes, I'm lucky. At least he wants to see me when he's talking to me”.

Ajeng lowered his head, sighing deeply at Aldo's reply. Ajeng moved his head, venturing to look at Aldo whom he had always longed for.

“I know a good place to talk to both. I want to show you. You want?”

Ajeng is only silent “I assume it is” Aldo to make sure for himself Ajeng's answer that looks doubtful by him. Aldo walked in front and Ajeng followed him from behind. Ajeng hoped that Aldo would now pull his hand from this place but he understood very well why it had become so impossible this time, in the middle of this party.

Aldo stopped near a koi fish pond beside a small cottage that was once often used as a playground of Ajeng and Lala if bored in the room. Aldo leaned against the piling of the little hut, while Ajeng sat on a mini bridge that split the koi pond, playing with his legs that looked thin but very white.

“Why take me to this place?” tanya Ajeng pretended not to understand.

“Why did you come to this stupid party?” Aldo raised his tone, looking annoyed at the question and Ajeng's seemingly indifferent expression.

“I got an invitation to kok” Ajeng to act tough, hide his uncertain heart again at this time.

“Why choose to come?”

“Because I saw you were happy Mas” Ajeng half-screamed, let himself succumb to his feelings, succumb to Aldo's gaze which from earlier was not friendly with him.

Aldo approached Ajeng, sat down right beside him then held Ajeng's cold and trembling hands holding back the cries. “You don't have to do this Jeng. I don't want you to keep getting hurt. Think happiness. Or have you changed your mind? You want to go with Mas? Leave everything? It's just the two of us. You want a deck? Mas still wish you were next to Mas, so the mother of Mas's children, we're old together, we tear down all the walls that block us, we just deck, you want?” Aldo softened and tried to look at the eyes of Ajeng who had been bowed. Her words reminded Ajeng of 6 months ago when they ended their love affair.

It was the most foggy day they had ever lived their entire lives. Many people will be hurt if they survive as lovers. Aldo from a very rich family is certainly not the reach for orphans who rarely meet their own mother despite living in the same house as Ajeng, he was lucky to have a best friend like Lala but it wasn't enough to convince Aldo's parents that the two of them could be together.

Ajeng did not blame anyone for his disadvantaged life. He hopes his love story with Aldo ends like a fairy tale or television soap opera, but he knows if this is all the real world, not all stories can end happily as he hoped. Sometimes people have to make a big sacrifice for something big, but that doesn't mean he has to sacrifice Aldo's life, his life, Lala's life his best friend and the family life that raised them. Sometimes love also has to sacrifice a lot even though it is itself.

Aldo rested his head on Ajeng's boat and made Ajeng back into the real world. Ajeng let go of Aldo's hand then grabbed Aldo's shoulder and hugged him tightly. “Do not regret Mas. Just let the memories write our beautiful story. I'm sure God has a better plan for us even though in that plan we are not a couple but all of it must be better. I want to continue with you Mas, through the twilight together with our children and our dreams, aging with you and going through all these difficult times together, but we are not Mas's soul mate, as hard as we force still we are not a mate Mas. We must be strong, we must accept this situation. All this is not the end Mas, this is just the beginning, everyone has first love and this is our first love Mas. I love you Mas” Ajeng let his tears spill again, sobbing in the arms of Aldo who is no less tight. Aldo was the same, just letting his tears fall, not holding him back anymore. All that was so shocking Ajeng, never before had Aldo cried in front of him, let alone sobbing like now.

“I don't want to let you off deck. Want to stay like this” Aldo hide his face in Ajeng's boat.

“I'm Mas too, but I'd rather we lose everything, lose all chance of seeing each other again. Master ourselves Mas” Ajeng slowly loosened his arms, raised his reddened face, wiped the tears from Aldo's cheeks, gave a friendly kiss Aldo, then pinched both Aldo's cheeks “Dasar cengeeng..” Ajeng jokes that make Aldo smile. Aldo always liked Ajeng's spontaneous and sometimes touching actions. So many things he liked from the woman until he did not know what exactly made him fall in love with Ajeng. Aldo chuckled, laughing at everything that had just happened.

“Mas like a child who persuaded his mother yes dek” Sindir Aldo

“Emang who's his mother? A jerk? Ogah ah had a son like Mas Aldo” Ajeng replied to Aldo's insinuation while smiling widely. They got up from their seats now and stood face to face. Aldo held onto Ajeng's two hands which were already slightly warmer.

“Mas is still hoping for a matchup Mamas.”

“Loh continues to mbak Nia whose soul mate? Mamas' soul mate is that too? Wah greedy Mas” Ajeng trying to master his heart filled with the words of Aldo.

Aldo just smiled sweetly, landing his lips frowned Ajeng who was covered in bangs. Ajeng closed his eyes and enjoyed Aldo's lips which slowly fell to his cheeks and then his lips. The young woman realizes that this is her first kiss. Aldo let his lips last long enough on the surface of Ajeng's chewy lips until Ajeng felt hot and released the kiss before he could open his lips. Aldo let it go even though he really wanted more than that.

“you are greedy mas, have taken my first love, you take also my first kiss” said Ajeng who made Aldo laugh amusedly heard it.

“That has not been said deck kiss, would you like to know how the real kiss is?” Aldo countered Ajeng and made Ajeng's heart beat again. Aldo did not do so despite wanting so badly and Ajeng just let it all go, holding Aldo's hand and guiding him out of this romantic place. Aldo who understood Ajeng's actions just followed him, smiling and sad mixed in, but no regrets, everything might be better like this.

They returned to the luxurious party, Ajeng met Lala who was immediately greeted with a smile by the beautiful woman, and Aldo found Nia who had been confused looking for him. Ajeng and Aldo glanced at each other before then everyone gathered around Nia and Aldo with all joyful smiles. Aldo put on Nia's sweet chase ring, while looking at Ajeng's smile, still hoping if the fingers he now holds are Ajeng fingers. But Ajeng's smile as if talking, it would be better like this and Aldo believed.