The Hurt
Not Snow White
dear diary's..
every time I write my story in this diary, it means that my life is no longer long, the more sheets are filled, the more empty sheets and so my life, he said, just like a blank sheet, so little and so short, I don't want to be in the last days of my life, I have to let others down, I want everyone to feel the warmth of the atmosphere when I am present in it. Even though my lifespan is no longer long, I ask for a request for the last time, he said, I ask that I soon find a person who loves me very much for the rest of my life, and I want to see him happy even though one day I have to leave… I'm not demanding anything, I just want to be able to feel all that for the rest of my life which is only a few months' stay 🙁
****
the night after I struggled and pondered in front of my diary I did not rush to sleep, the night was so late while I was still awake on my bed, as my eyes continued to stare at the cellphone monitor so bright, and the, suddenly my mother surprised me from behind the door of my dark room.
“shilla, you haven't slept? this is very malem loh shill, tomorrow you are late to school.” said mamahku.
“shilla does not want to sleep mah..” I said while hiding my head in a pile of pillows.
“why shill, don't you see? it's almost midnight, and tomorrow.. tomorrow your class will have a tour out bond from school right? if you do not sleep your mood tomorrow will drop shill.” said mamahku.
“KALO I SLEPT, I AM AFRAID THAT TOMORROW I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO WAKE UP AGAIN MAHH.. Mamah I can never understand shilla anyway mah?” I said as I continued to hug the bolster and flooded it with tears slowly hitting my pillowcase.
“shilla, you don't say that dear.. everything will be fine, kalao so, now you sleep and mamah will continue to be beside you, so later when there is an angel of death invites you away, you will go to sleep, mamah will drive him out and tell him that the most beautiful mama's son shilla still has a lot of hope that has not been achieved and immediately the angel will leave here and stay away from you…” said mamahku soothing. huhhhh whatever it is I really do not believe, but because my eyes are no longer able to look at the ceiling of the room, finally my eyes closed slowly and closed, closed, I don't remember anything after that.
early in the morning at about 05:30 my mother shook my body, but I felt nothing, mamah worried that if I really did not wake up again at that time, various ways to surprise me to wake up in vain, I was so tired, my eyes seemed reluctant to open, but when I woke up I saw my mother crying in front of me and she hugged me so tightly as if she did not want to be separated from me. I who do not know anything just cengo see mamah who has flooded my shoulders with crystal clear.
“mamah why?” tanyaku plain.
“mamah is afraid that you will really not wake up again.. hiks hyks...” said mama sobbed.
“who can't wake up? it is clear that I am now talking in front of mamah.” answered me with a thin smile.
“mamah inget your words semalem shill...” said.words? a semalem? jeez I really do not want to semalem I say what to my mother so that now mamah cry in front of me at this time.
“maafin shilla, you know that shilla has dropped really, sayings shilla likes to digress mah, ohyaa mah, today shilla really wants to go to school delivered the same bang iyel mahh, brother iyel can not yahh?” my spoken.
“bang iyel can definitely kok later mamah to iyel ya shill..” answered her. I nodded while trying to get up from this so soft bed.
clockwork is already stuck in the number 7, that's a sign I have to quickly tancap gas to school. “mahh, shilla depart!!” from the dining room.
“shilla... shill... bang iyel is still in the bathroom!!” mamah replied from a distance. Suddenly my steps that have reached the front of the gate must stop, I completely forget that I today asked to be escorted with brother iyel. pfffff, I really forgot, what are you doing, man? long time ago, while I crossed my hands, while I was knocking my feet with the rhythm of music that I was hearing through my ipod.
mmmmmmmmmmmm…
now this is the person I was waiting for, bang iyel already came and ready to take me to run to school.but when I arrived at school it turned out I was late, I was late, all my classmates had vanished were taken away by the bus that was parked yesterday afternoon in the school yard, which means bang iyel had to take me again to the mountains in the corner of the city.
“again I have to skip for that start huhhhh...” ketus iyel.
“sorry bang... shilla also do not know if everything is already on the go, brother sighh was in the bathroom a long time ago.” replied me.
“ahhh you usually ngerepotin I know not sighh, mending lu cepet-cepet die aja deh shill, if your life is just disturbing me!!” ketusnya again.I just cengo listen bang iyel scolded me, the glass in my eyes seemed to be soon broken because of the words bang iyel earlier, so useless was I in my own eyes? is that stupid of me? is that troublesome for my brother? to the point that my brother could say that before my eyes?. I lowered my head.
“i already want to die bang, but so useless do I in the eyes of brother?” my many.
“gak same skali, you tuhh just usually ngerecokin my life!! the proof is now!! I should now have been in the same campus me, ehhh but apparently because of you, I still have to go here and there is not clear the purpose, now where are we? bego do not outrageous dong lu..” snapped iyel. I keep calm.
“we are hilly near the city park bang..” I replied resigned.
“ya already hunted up, ahhh long ago sighh.” snapped again. I immediately raised my body on the ninja brother, after ready I sat down I again felt my chest back pain, I immediately raised my body to the ninja brother, and the pain hurts more than usual, maybe my heart relapses? and maybe I should go back home, but I can't say go home while bang iyel is still emotional. When I get to the out bond place I keep my promise to express all my feelings.
“bang, shilla's heart hurts again..”.
“you want to do again? tell me to make you go back? sorri can't, I also have a lot of business, and I don't just take care of elo!!!” snapped iyel then drove his motor away from where I stood. While I smelled the smoke of the motor bang iyel which long disappeared its fragrance, I was increasingly unable to withstand the weight of my body, I instantly collapsed in that place as well, vaguely before I completely fainted I saw the figure of a man then carried me to the P3K post.
after I realized next to me there were already people who loved me so much, there were ify, rio, sivia and alvin. They were my best friends, my best friend since long ago I have not been like this now, he said, they are loyal friends with me not because I am beautiful, smart and rich, but they are loyal because for them I am part of their lives.
“shilla, you're okay, right?” ask ify who was holding my hand.
“engga anything kok fy, I'm good.” reply me. I said like this because I don't want them to worry.
“shill seriousness? I as a guy who has been a girlfriend elo can not be quipped like this dong.” said alvin.
“ehmmmm.. Can you not reveal the past again? kasian sivia, besides you are not the best to be my girlfriend again, you are already my best friend who can understand me like ify, brother rio same sivia..”.
“dengerin tuh shilla said, after all he has no taste of elo!! so from now on can you accept me as I am? don't keep gini?” snapped sivia on alvin.
“can I love.. sorryin I yes vi, all this time I tried to deket same lo so I think I can reverse the same shilla again, but it turns out I was wrong, but I was wrong, so far I was wrong, my heart prefers elo to fill my heart,” said alvin while looking into the eyes of sharp sivia.
“nahhh so dong guys.my eyes so cool hehehe...” my chirps.friends just a little laugh accompany me.
“shill, do you know who brought you here?” ask ify.
“engga fy, who is it?” tanyaku plain.
“what brought you here was our school head sausage!! the coolest guy, the coolest, the most other guy in our school you know who he is?” ify attack.
“emmm, you serious? brother Cakka who brought me here? after me he is famous jaim really lohh what else to the girls how can he bring me here?” I said berentet.
“ahhh already that you do not need to think about, which you have to think about now that...all cassowary children nganggep you that his girlfriend kakka… gileee really shill you will be popular in school later.” said ify.
“hahh but I'm the same brother cakka right engg.”.
“alah lahhh, the proof is kak cakka stay cool aja tuhh same atmosphere, that means the lamp ijo for youu shill you can dapetin kak cakka easily, right? yeyeyeyeyeee” authentic ify.
I still don't believe the same thing that Iify said just now, but my friends seem really serious about talking about it anyway what should I do? from the first time since the first MOS I already like the same brother cakka, but because he is too popular in school everyone knows him, while I am in fact a new student, but because he is too popular at school everyone knows him, how can rival my senior class brothers, and finally I decided to no longer think about it not to mention my recent illness that began to get worse, I was more and more afraid to like kakka, said mama if it was not possible for me, I just recognize him as a kind-hearted upperclassman, no need to force myself to be able to match the status of a girlfriend with him. said my man is beautiful but I do not feel it with kidney failure that I suffer from this.. I'm afraid to admit the fact that my life is not long anymore, all my friends know that I have this disease, but not many of them know how severe my disease is. ahhh, say what I am. after a long time of daydreaming at this P3K post I decided to get out of the tent, I looked around and it felt like everything around me was moving floating, God what happened? I'm afraid, scared, and afraid that if I have to leave those I love this way, it's not the way I want to go. when I started walking foot out of the tent I stumbled upon a rather large twig in front of the tent. A man stuck his hand out at me. Gosh... That's my sister? now I just believe that this guy actually care the same as me, but I still doubt sihh…
“thank you brother..” says.
“makanya if still not feeling well do not go where in the past if gini continues who bothered? other children are also bothered, just enter sonoh to the tent.” reply cakka.
huhhhh, this is a real person jaim sih, he said care? but in fact half dead jaim!!! I sprained the same sister cakka, but if you think of kakka there is actually also sih, because brother I also hate very much the same me, how is sister cakka? who is nobody I.. 🙁.
“udah, you are here until all activities are completed, if you do not feel at home you can meet me in the river behind the post P3K” said cakka sage.
“mmmm, brother can I come with sister? I was scared in the tent alone sis..” my door.
“ahhh, very scared sihh... ya already ayooo...” take her. I really like kakka can accept me to be with her at this time.
***
on the river, I sat close right beside my sister, it felt so comfortable, I felt like there was a figure who could protect me when I was afraid. I felt something different when I looked at Kakka, yes firmly different, I once liked him, and maybe now I fall in love with him again, but he doesn't know at all about how I feel about him, and hopefully he'll never know about this. I don't want to change because he feels sorry for me, ahhh I'm starting to digress again,
“kak, sister cakka again daydreaming huha? brother galau? or sister..”
“dieem napa sihh? brisik really, know gini I stayed you in the tent earlier. ahhh...” sahut cakka. he was amazed to see me down, he felt I was very fond of him, he felt I was very fond of him, though I like it and I hope he has the same taste without me having to confess my feelings to him, I hope.
“you're so moody? I'm sorry yes.. SH SHH SHII SHILL SHILLA.” said cakka.
“kak cakka know my name?” ask me confused half dead, among the thousands of girls in SMU Kasuari and one of them I he knows me?
“ya iyalah I know your name..who sihh do not know Ashilla Zahrantiara class X-1 who plans to enter the IPA department, already beautiful, well, pinter again his son..” says cakka rather smiling.
“hahh, serious brother?” I'm getting curious.
“helloooo... yes it is also shill time, I am the chairman of the isa. as a good KETOS it recognizes every member, how sih you?” said cakka again. huhhh..
“kirain I so popular, hehe..”.
“ahhh really ngarep sihh you!!!” reply cakka.
really, this is a jaim guy.
after the event, I decided to go back to see my friends in the line of participants, I walked slowly towards my friends, but in the middle of the road kakka back block my steps.
“you are still weak when you go back to the tent, do not have to join the closing ceremony” said brother Cakka while continuing to embrace me into the tent while in the ranks of my friends…
“ehh, I think kakka actually there is a similar taste shilla dehh, you all look at it now, he's very attentive guys..” babble sivia.
“iya, I really believe that they now have nothing.” replied ify.
“you mean anything how is fy?” ask sivia.
“ahh you are slow too sih, lest they have been made, right from then it should be kakka keep the tent continues… and continue to theya..”.
“ahhh continues to mulu, confused I fy, next to another story ajahhh do not chat cakka ama my ex..” ketus alvin.
“it looks like there is an envy nihh say.” said rio nudged ify.
“what is sih lu yo ahhh..” snapped alvin.
“heheheh..” tawa rio.
****
in the evening, my bedroom hurt again, my stomach was rebellious, my body was limp and I wanted to feel like I was lying on my bed, but I was again afraid of my death. I was afraid that I would leave everything behind.
BLIPPPP…
my phone rang a message from an unknown number landed on my screen.I was not eager to open it but when I read word for word I was touched…
0852 – 227x – xxxx
hay shilla.. Good night, at this hour have you slept?
from: cakka
I vigorously replicated the message, and there was some conversation.
shilla
brother cakka. I'm belom sleeping brother…
cakkas
why do belom sleep? it's so malem, tomorrow there is a music competition at school, you follow shill? I can't wait to see your performance tomorrow, so now you sleep well..
shilla
I'm afraid to sleep, I'm afraid tomorrow I can't wake up again 🙁
cakkas
what are you talking about? do you have any disease? is that so bad until you say so?
shilla
kidney failure, brother must promise not to leave me after brother knows I'm sick…
cakkas
until anytime, brother will not leave you kok shill, bobo ya shill.. I call you and sing a song for you, and you promise to sleep yes..
shilla
okay sis..
**
1 mins…
2 mins…
finally a call came to my phone
*phone on*
“hallo?” cakka said from across the phone.
“hay kak... kak cakka want to sing for shilla now?” my many.
“iya, denger ya shill.. (hey shilla do not be afraid, do not fret... if the room lights begin to be extinguished... I will slalu sing this song.. until later you sleep covered in dreams… don't forget tomorrow we have an appointment the sooner we sleep, the sooner we meet again....) emmm, shill, hello?” I was silent that night because I was sleepy, and lay beautifully on the bed, and at that time my sister turned off her phone.
*off*phone*
the next day, I woke up early in the morning, all the preparation for profit performance later in the school sudai ready to be used, my favorite white guitar that I took to sleep last night still faithfully accompanied my departure to school, right at 6:15 as usual I headed to the garage, I waited for the figure of Mr. iyan out driving my car. But when sir iyan came suddenly the sound of a motor horn echoed around my yard. and that's sister Cakka, why would she come to my house? what's the business, huh?
“hay little baby... Are you ready? with me aja yukk..” bargain cakka. I just cengo look at the shiny cakka motor, and the curves of the face of the cakka in detail, and, and it turns out that cakka if looked closely and long ago did not doubt his good looks, jeez this can make me fall in love again rich first…
“hahhh, sister cakka ngajakin shilla left for school together?” tanyaku ngawur. I should want to be invited to a cakka even though riding a bike or walk, this is my will from the past. really want to know the name of a cakka nuraga, even though, now the thing I want to happen, gosh.... I really-gener in boncengin same cakka? the artist at my school who no longer doubts his whereabouts.
when we arrived at the school we both became a spectacle of several tens of pairs of eyes of the school residents, the,
“kak, they see we are very strange brother..”.
“you do not have to worry shill, sooner or later they will also know our closeness..” replied cakka. with the word closeness, I was so confused, I was confused, what does it mean to try to talk like that to me.
but before I could ask again to sister cakka, she had already disappeared from my eyes. I immediately turned my head and immediately ran to class to get a turn to perform in the music competition today, I have been required to give my best for kakkah, kak, hopefully today he's not disappointed, and I didn't let him down.
***
“this morning for the opening performance, we will show the performance of X-1 class children named ashilla zahrantiara with a song titled “bieb” chek it out.” said a host from the stage, hearing my name thrown, I was immediately ready to go up the stage that stood majestically in the hall of my school that was so big. slowly I plucked the strings of my favorite guitar, I was, tone by tone, verse by verse success I displayed, thankfully for the circumstances I did not make anyone disappointed.
participants after participants perform their best songs, ify duet with rio, and, sivia then alvin also came along when it came to the last sequence there kak cakka went up on stage and said my name to accompany him above, this is a fortune that I can not stand, I can not raise, who would not want to be with a chakka, watched hundreds of pairs of eyes anyway, huhhhh just straight up I climbed back on the stage, the atmosphere turned into silence, the spotlight was on the two of us and it was just us, as if the atmosphere of the event was at night, the setting was so incredible, romantic, mm…
“with the establishment of me here, I want to present a song to the girl who is beside me,” said cakka with her sexy voice.
JR.JRENG…
armed with just the same acoustic guitar as me, he performed a song so beautifully.
cakka: “You who are there Do you know I like you When you first meet your face I will not forget You’re the best You’re the best you’re my world.”.
shilla : “Beautiful I think when near you My heart floats remember you You are the one who can captivate my heart I will not refuse if you want me.”.
cakkshill : “You’re so fine You’re so amazing You can make if you try Let it flow, I can love you We can make if it we try You’ my shining star.”
cakka: “You who are there Smiling shyly Always want to be together When sad and cheerful Oh girl you are my world Happy I feel When I am always close to you.”
shilla : “withmuuuu.”
cakkshill : “You and I were meant to be Nothing can keep us apart You’re so fine You’re so amazing You can make it if you try Let it flow, I can love you We can make if it we try.”
shilla : “Beautiful I think when near you My heart floats remember you You are the one who can captivate my heart I will not refuse if you want me.”
cakkshill : “You’re so fine You’re so amazing You can make it if you try Let it flow, I can love you We can make if it we try You’re so fine You’re so amazing You can make it if you try Let it flow, I can love you We can make if it we try.”
“thanks everyone.. With all of you here, you will know, and you are witnesses of our love, so how shill, you want to be my little baby now?” ask cakka and make me more dizzy, I have to say yes, and say no to reject it, but it has not been spoken yet it feels like my body has collapsed first, he said, at that moment I fell down and could not hear the sound of the audience shouting again, all it felt was dark and silent, from a distance it felt like someone was calling my name, I recognized the sound of their voice my friend, my friend, my friend, I woke up from that fainting.
when I woke up, my vision was still so unclear, all I could see was the connecting curtain curtain curtain in this UKS room, he said,
“aku where is sih? my stomach... ouhhh my stomach.. arggghh... my head....” said I half groaned in pain.
“you're in UKS shill, you're okay right?” cakka.
“kak cakka.. my head hurts.. My waist feels like it's going to explode brother arggghh...” I replied.
“sick isn't it because I shot you earlier right shill?” ask again.
“ehhh... not brother, probably ayakuu argggghhhh...” I was unconscious again at that time, from a distance I saw a speck of light across there but I did not know what the light was, is it possible that the door of heaven has been opened? and is that my death? my mind floated with my body, I felt flying in the clouds my feelings were very peaceful, the pain I usually felt when this was all gone, I was like a light cotton, I was like a light cotton, my lips do not want to turn away from this long smile.is this the end of my life? if the time comes I would prefer to follow the angel of death because here it feels so peaceful, but on the other hand I was jolted because I was afraid of losing my friends, at last my body was shaken by someone, her gentle whisper made me wake up again.
“I want to go to that paradise..” said I was half shocked.
“hushhh... You say what shill? do not do it ahhh, pamali lohhh..” said ify while glaring.
“tau nihh shilla, by the way very digelantur... like your life is not long anymore, we are here faithful to you shill, why do you want to go to heaven? here we love you..” said sivia.
“makasih guys supportnya, butiiiii..” kak cakka close my mouth with the tip of her index finger, I feel cornered and do not know what to do, I just resigned.
“kalo you want to say that you have to think a million times first dehh, here there I wrote and afraid to lose you, until whenever you live, no matter how short our journey, no matter what, and as long as I'm like this, I'll try to stay there when you need me shill, I'm not messing around with my words, I want you to be my girlfriend…” said cakka, my heart touched to hear cakka say like that, it seems my life is really on the verge of death, because now I have found the man I mean in my diary.
“stoooooooooop... what the fuck? galauan?” yell alvin.
“why bring a helmet to UKS gini? you think you don't wear a helmet in the room, do you? ewww” reply rio.
“ahhh you don't gaul sih yo, I'm here bring ginian to ngajakin elo all HARLEM SHAKE guyssss... 😀 lets gooo...” says alvin again.
“error nihh child, sorry temen-temen..” said sivia while tugging at her lover's body.
“again on terkebaru even invited harlem shake... ckckck, harlem shake itself aja sonoh equally tenacious feather.” chirp rio..
“hahaha, how is the shape of ductile fur harlem shake? you yo :p” laughs ify break the silence.
“hehhh, you can't all be selfish gini especially elo kka, lo shoot shilla this junior boy, while I? whose status is now the girlfriend of elo want lo humanity?” agni from the corner of the room.
“ka agni? oh my goodness, so beautiful? long time no see brother, now so changed huh brother... ehhh wait.. kak agni this girlfriend kak cakka? awww so good!!!! yipiiiiiyy..” chatter ify.
when there was brother agni dateng, my mind immediately jolted, I did not know what to do, I did not know what to do, it feels like my path to be with sak cakka really is over and will not be like the past days anymore.
“ka agni?” I said slowly, cakka just cengo looking at this view.
“shill, I did not think yes the same lo, I think lo it's my cousin who can understand me the most, it turns out you are also rich in other girls, just as cheap and love to marry from behind!! disappointed I'm the same lo shill..” Agni said to me.
“ehh, what the hell is this storm like? you think this is a market? this is the UKS room, this is again a girl one looks really blurred, who you enter our school? want to find a riot lo?” alvin suddenly appeared.
“who lo? his martial little boy was half dead!! you tell me nihhh class brother lo cakka!!! don't ever cheat on me, what else is my own sodara!!!” agni to alvin.
“lohh mba, just a usual time to say, do not use this sauce, iuchhhh very sih, so this cakka your boyfriend? yes I told you myself, do not need to tell me, elo who is the boyfriend he is not me!!” refute alvin.
“lu be a little girl so cute sighh!!!” agni slammed her hand and left.
with the sweet word cakka, I felt that there was something different from him, whether it was sincere or not in fact when it was near him and heard his voice, my heart and mind felt peaceful and comfortable, but when Agni said as before, my heart grew wounded,
“yaaaa.. indeed this heart is still wounded.. *ting... ting... tingg...* my love is present in vain... *ting... ting...* lukaiaaaa.... tapiii..... angel comes from heaven… ohhh SHILLA...” the clinking piano sound and the typical sound of cakka echoed in my ears, the source came from the stage of the race, jeez as close as that cakka took my heart? I believe his love is sincere, but his status with kak agni has not been separated, I will be more sinful if taking cakka from agni. agni is just a girl who is innocent and does not know any cakka activities during school, and I was once also told to watch the movements of this man, but I even fell in love with her myself, he said, everything I do goes awry, am I living in this world also the biggest mistake? true said bang iyel, I have to rush to die so as not to bother many people like gini, after all my presence here has not been strengthened as it used to be. Many people begin to forget me, many people stay away from me because of my illness, after all, my presence here has not been strengthened as before, a lot of people don't trust me because of my illness, I'm weak, but I'm not as weak as they know, I can do anything like most people in the world, like, without having to fall and crawl like a baby, sometimes my mother also always forbid me to do this that she considers it harmful to me, but I want to immediately rise from all this adversity, I do not want to continue to be considered sick, even though my condition is sick, ahhhh, hearing the sound of a cakka that is so sweet my ears feel comfortable and lead me to go back to sleep.
SKIPPPP
2 Hours passed, I realized from a dream about him, about the cakka who always loved me. loving with all his sincerity, sincerity that comes purely from within his body, ahhh what I am, love with all his sincerity, when I woke up I was surprised that I was already in my own bedroom, a wall of fucshia colored with cartoon sticker sticker on each wall, it made me feel comfortable, the second most comfortable after Cakka.
“kok I'm here?” ask absentminded.
“hehhhh traitor!!! you're just like my guy!!! satisfied you now?” agni.
“cakka nganterin me? you're cakka's girlfriend? why didn't Cakka ever tell me? he said he broke up and because he was disappointed with you!! which one is it?” my spoken.
“ahhh know lahh,”
“he's my ex shill, you don't believe anything he says, he's a girl don't know shy, don't know himself and don't know anything else -_-” cakka chirps popped out of my room mouth.
“kak, for the last time I ask, brother never hurt sister agni!!!” I said as I carved a river on my cheek.
“gak!!! he who has hurt my heart shill!!! I don't want to know him anymore!!” cakka.
“lo it's really a play boy cak!!” agni.
“sorry cave is not a playboy, I just choose the best for me, and it is on shilla, not elo ag..” reply cakka.
“arggghhhh, you two make me so dizzy tau tak?” my snapping.
“hehh elo elo elo and elo all who are here, why so much noise sihh? this is one more sick child.why is it still here, not dead all at once?” ketus bang iyel hard.
“ehh bang, I know shilla is sick, but shilla behak determines his life, brother who wants to live shilla? prophet Brother? The angel? or God? ishhh, just know there is a person as bad as those two people.. agni? bang iyel, you guys also fit tau not in so-called couple enemy wanabe!!” chirps cakka.
I saw how great the defense of the cakka was. I also saw with my own eyes kalao agni approaching my brother, what exactly is their plan for me? they both wanted me to get out of this world quickly, but my age was soon…
“yel, I failed to make sure cakka from shilla, adhek lo like love died tuh same cakka.” whisky agni.
“gue also failed to make so that cakka jauhin adhek ngue beloved, I do not want in this family there is a man who is more handsome than me later.” reply iyel.
“hahahha.. so that alesan lo hate them both wwkwkwkwk funny also you so yel people :p” exclaimed agni, the atmosphere turned to silence
“ka agni same bang iyel why?” many wonder.
“previously sorry nih shill, sister just told this brother of yours so that among you there is nothing, because your brother is afraid to lose competitiveness of his joys as cakka hihihi.” said agni honestly.
“astaga sister iyel!!!” grunts cakka.
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skipp…
at the beginning of the summer holiday arrived, I changed my sleeping costume with a beautiful and graceful beach dress, I waited for the cakka lover to come to me. after waiting for about 15 minutes in the living room finally the roar of the vehicle was present in the courtyard of my house, with a pair of cheerful faces I immediately threw him, again feeling the vibration of the heart that was not supposed to be, it feels like I'm allergic to the fragrant perfume cakka, the fragrance of this perfume always makes my heart beat fast, after a month I love him and then this cat I took the road together with him pffffff…
the marina beach was the destination for both of us, sitting on the edge was the thing I had dreamed about all this time, but amidst the beautiful story, my waist again felt a tremendous pain, she said, my head seemed to want to explode and my mouth seemed to want to remove all the contents in my stomach.
“you why shill?” ask cakka.
“pusing kka...” said I then successfully my body back in the lap of cakka, he brought me to the hospital with anxiety he clasped my hands tightly, I felt everything, I heard his sobbing, he said, I knew how fast his heart was pounding, I knew how worried he was about seeing me like this, and then I saw a small speck of light again, now transformed into a 3-dimensional circle full of fragrant smoke around him, could this be heaven? so close? is this maybe the time? when I have to leave everything? I cried in my subconscious, and my tears came out in my conscious. I felt someone wipe away all my wounds, maybe iu cakka, why can't I wake up? why are these eyes so hard to open? is my path over? am I far from the real world? am I in heaven?
a few minutes later I realized I was smiling at everyone around me, Iify, rio, sivia, alvin, bang iyel, sister agni, mamah, papah and also cakka. one by one they held my hand.
“shilla love all of you, and you are cakka” I said. After I said that word, I felt my whole body cold and vibrating, I no longer felt pain, I felt pain, what I feel is peace…
and everyone is crying about the departure of shilla. shilla left with her last word “shilla dear to you all, and you are cakka”
“shillaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, lo it will never be in our gang, inget it yes shill” said sivia.
“shill, your departure so tormented all of us, I also love you shill” babble ify.
“maafin mommy darling!!”
“maafin papah too, because papah has never been for you,”
“sorry very yes my sister.. brother always wants you to die quickly, whereas brother loves the same time you shill.” said iyel while peeking at his sister's forehead.
“shill, during your life I belom ever harlem shake same elo shill hiks hiks..”.
“shill, do not dreadin alvin, mending gangnam style of harlem shake..” reply rio.
“ahhh elo no gaul, harlem shake again tauuu...” sahut alvin.
“ahhhhh silly both of you, shill sorryin I've been a barrier between your love same cakka.” said agni last time before the doctor brought shilla to the morgue. Everything came out except cakka, he continued to accompany the body of his lover with the doctor who was handling it, he continued,
“muachhh”.a cakka warm kiss landed right on the lips of that freezing cold shilla.
“safin I shill, I'm sassy kiss you, I know you're not a snow princess who when I kissed you then you can wake up again, but we're just ordinary people, so let me land that kiss on your lifeless body this shill, i’m always love you.. You will remain my little baby for good.” said cakka remain with her calm style. and he saw the lifeless body of the shilla smiling, that smile was the last smile for Cakka..
