The Hurt

Deepest Regrets

Railway economy majors Bogor – Jakarta – Yoyakarta. The four of them sat face to face. Ahz sat next to Vhanz, and Natsu sat next to Juno. Return back to college to finish the final semester.

Tired, tired, lethargic, lethargic and weak. Maybe it's the 5L they're feeling right now. Everyone was sleepy and wanted to get some rest. Vhanz, Juno and Natsu had already thrown themselves into the dream realm. They sleep in a sitting position.

Ahz left those who fell asleep. “I'm sorry my friends” Inner Ahz. All his stuff is complete he brought. Get out of the car that will be angry.

Vhanz. Beside him there is no Ahz. “where is he?”. Vhanz looked out the window. Ahz stood. Ahz turned to look towards Vhanz. Ahz waved his hand. Vhanz hurriedly got out of the carriage. But it seems the train has gone. Too soon. Vhanz was afraid to jump. “Ahz” vhanz yelling as loud as possible. But all that remained was Ahz's shadow.

Ahz immediately stopped public transport. In a hurry he left the bogor station. Hurry up before the woman he likes returns to his town.

Time shows at 10 p.m. It's been since yesterday that Ahz hasn't slept. He should have slept in the afternoon so as not to be soiled. Ahz brushed off all his drowsiness. The car stopped at the Panghegar T-junction. He ran with all his might. Hopefully he's still in the pesantren.

Ahz entered the boarding gate. A black car passed through it. Bummer. The woman was in the black car. Ahz pointed at the black car with a feeling of unease. “AAaaaaaa” ahz yelling as loud as possible. The guards guarding the post immediately approached him. The black car stopped too.

“you why scream night-night” asked Satpam

Ahz didn't listen to him. Someone get off the car. That chick. Ahz ran away with all his might. Security guards followed him behind. “ah, why should I avoid him” Ahz stopped running.

The security guard hit Ahz with his stick

“you why inquired even lari”

“sorry sir, long business” Ahz ran towards the gate. But unfortunately, the black car was no more.

“Tidaaaaak” Ahz back screaming.

The security guard hit him again, but this time harder.

“now try to tell me what your problem is?” ask security

Finally Ahz told everything to a security guard named Heri. There was a sense of concern and also pity appearing in the heart of the security guard.

Contrition. It always hurts.

Ahz said goodbye to the security guard. There was no longer any reason for Ahz to remain in Bogor. And again Ahz had to apologize to his three friends for leaving them without saying goodbye.

It's been too late. Ahz's sleepiness felt like it wanted to explode. Since yesterday he has not slept. There's no way she's forcing him to stay up any more than this. Maybe Ahz should spend the night here. Enjoying the remains of memories from when he was in school.

The stars lead Ahz to enter the dreamland. Her bag made her a pillow. Sleeping in a security guard post. Hopefully his sleep will be good

—

“eh, instead of her brother Ahz” a little girl noticed Ahz sleeping.

The woman prattled him. Ahz holds a camera bag.

“oh, yes. Dulukan she never bidarin I make a model”

His ignorant hand secretly took the camera from Ahz's embrace. Prepare to take pictures. The woman splashed water on Ahz's face. Reflex. Ahz woke up from his sleep.

Czechoslovak.

Flashlight shocked Ahz who was still half conscious. A chance for the woman to shoot a funny scene Ahz.

Ahz rubbed his face. Where's the camera Ahz hugged. She still photographs Ahz. Ahz quickly grabbed his beloved camera. Where's security. Why can there be a sniff here. Inner Ahz.

“who are you?” ask Ahz

“Sister forgot the same I”

“who are you?”

“ih, it's me, the girl you used to ask to make a model”

“model, when did I ever ask someone to make it model”

“ih forgetfulness basics

“wait, when did I ever propose you make a model?”

“four years ago”

“ah, maybe I've forgotten”

“trus my name is also brother forgot?”

“iya, I forgot who you are?”

The woman took out a magazine from her bag. Missi Magazine. Opening the editorial structure. Designate a name that is at the top of the list after the supervisor. Amalia.

Ahz remembered the name. I can't remember the woman in front of him. It has been a long time since we met. Now Lia has grown up.

“Amalia, benarkan”

“Finally my brother remembers who I am. Come now make me a model sister”

“ih really ngarep you”

“kan first brother ever said want to make me a model. Let's prove brother”'s words

“ya udah.here let me take photos. Beautiful pose yah” Ahz start taking pictures of Lia.

The morning shift security guard showed up. Mr. Aep replaced Heri who was on guard all night.

Does not feel a variety of poses almost all Lia practical. The poses that Lia practices stick to the stand and stick to the principle of religion.

“kakak,” call Lia.

“There is one pose that has not been Lia try”

“what do you want to pose for?” ask Ahz.

“not ah” reject Ahz.

“suren't want?” lia Rayu.

“iya enggak”

“when else sister can photos with me”

“ih, so confident you”

“if you do not want a photo with me, the original brother camera memory I will not give you”

“hah.” Ahz. Quickly he opened the memory slot of his camera. “Sial. his memory card is replaced, also clever kamu” in the memory of the camera there are pictures of tasks for the magazine. There's no way she's back to last week to take pictures of the L’Ciel concert. The pictures he took with great difficulty.

“who used to dong, Lia”

“indeed why do you want a photo with me?” ask Ahz.

“hmm, anu, I” lia tongue so cheapskate.

“Yes already, Mr. Satpam, can ask for help”

“help what?” ask the security guard named Aep.

“Take our photos well” pinta Ahz. Ahz gave his camera to Aep's security guard.

Ahz stood next to Lia. It's about 1 meter. Lia tried to get closer. But Ahz forbid it “already there, do not deket-deket” Ahz give a warning

“photos are far apart sih”

“you have a lot of requests” if only the memory is safe in the hands of Ahz. Maybe he's been gone since.

Ahz stood next to Lia. But this time it was no more than 5 feet. There was a feeling of uneasiness when he was near Lia.

“ok, ready, smile” Satpam gives aba-aba “1... 2...”

Afraid of the worst. Before the security guard mentioned the number 3. Fearfully, Lia immediately turned around to hug Ahz. He's already getting ready.

“3” security guard takes burst shoot mode.

It turned out that Lia was jumping towards Ahz. Lia's hand tried to hug Ahz. Lia's face drew closer to Ahz's. This time he managed to prevent it. Lia did not manage to kiss Ahz. Lia's kiss was right about Ahz's palm. Ahz could not bear the weight of Lia who spontaneously jumped towards Ahz. They both fell to the ground. Lia's body was a little helped, not all of Lia's limbs were hit by the ground. Ahz had to endure the pain of Lia. The security guard continued to photograph it in burst shoot mode.

“Aww, sick” Lia rubbed his knee that hit the ground.

“you why jump, already crazy ya” Ahz scolding Lia.

“sorry, I just want to have a memorable photo with sister”

“Ahz,” call Juno.

Ahz through Juno, Natsu and Vhanz standing at the security guard post. Bummer. Since when are they here.

“Aahhzz” Vhanz voice like restrained. Looks like he's disappointed.

Vhanz ran away from the place. Vhanz could not see the scene. He is jealous, because he also likes Ahz. What a sad love.

“Sorry, Lia, quickly wake” Ahz trying to stand.

“sorry Lia, but it looks like I have to leave soon, may I have my memory back”

Still with the pain. Lia picked up the memory she had stored in her pants pocket. Lia handed the memory over to Ahz.

Ahz rubbed Lia's upper hair. “Do not be a ignorant woman yah”

Soon all the stuff was brought by Ahz. The three men left. Exit the boarding gate. Lia was still in a sitting position on the ground. There is a feeling of joy and also sadness.

—

Vhanz sat in a restaurant located on the outskirts of Leuwiliang road. Ahz asks Juno and Natsu to wait. Ahz wanted to approach Vhanz alone. It seemed like he had made Vhanz's feelings hurt.

Before he entered the restaurant. A woman called. A voice he was very familiar with. The voice she missed so much. And the owner of that voice is the one Ahz really likes.

The woman approached Ahz.

“oh yes, last night I heard you shout calling my name. But when I see it, you don't exist. I guess it's just an illusion”

What, he knows Ahz's voice. It was incredible. Ahz thought the woman would forget him. Turns out he was wrong.

“You, I guess you've come home,” Ahz it's a bit hard to say.

“Oh yes, you do not know yet, next week I want to marry Zein, in bogor, at Zein's house. Stone mountain”

Haaah, it feels like the rubble of love wants to crack. Hearing the woman's words made Ahz's heart hurt.

“Oh, congratulations, have not met four years, now you already want to have a family, great you, I was still mgejomblo, he he he he he” Ahz hide his sadness with a smile. The forced smile.

Now, is there hope that can still be maintained. When the worst possibility is the answer to a wait. It is possible to still like someone who wants to have a family.

Now there is only regret in Ahz's heart. Regrets are more painful than previous regrets.

Ahz waved goodbye to the woman. The woman left Ahz who was still standing in front of the restaurant. Dream women all the time. He is Ahz's inspiration to always be creative and continue to work. All the realities of Ahz's world forget. He walked down the road in disappointment. Could dying be better than accepting this kind of reality.

“Ahz” shouts with all his might.

Ahz returned to the world of reality. A car horn shocked him. He immediately dodged. Hurry to the side of the road. Juno, Vhanz and Natsu immediately approached Ahz.

“I'm sorry guys, I was daydreaming, now, let's go back to Jogja. Make final semester exam preparation”

Ahz threw away all the bitter reality. But he couldn't throw away his love.