The Hurt

Just as Hard as Rain

The rainy season has begun to feel, every afternoon the rain begins to pour into our city and my situation does not change still like 2 months ago. “ifa.” my mother's voice is always heard at this hour to just remind me to swallow my medicine which makes me feel burdened my parents who every month have to buy medicine for me. “iya bu.” I start running my wheelchair and open the door.

“Kata dad, this month you can already join the therapy dear.” by peeping my forehead and giving medicine to me, mother's voice as if to make my heart so happy I finally therapy in order to walk again.

***

8 Months ago radit was my fiancee we were serious about all this, we were as serious as radit, radit was serious with me and with mica.

“sayang you this afternoon sent me to the bookstore well, there is a new issue that I want to buy”

“ifa...emang no other work other than reading the book illusion?” reply radit by sipping my homemade tea.

“you why the hell? usually also do not protest anyway, what problem are you?” I said with a small embrace of radite.

radit hp from earlier on the table looks lit and vibrating, yes. My hand was immediately pulled as soon as I was going to take his phone. “ he said to the bookstore, there ready ready first.” while reading the message he spoke to me, never before had he been more concerned with his hape like that, he said, but I don't want to think negatively about the person I love so much. After a small smile I go into the room and change my clothes and get ready to go to the bookstore. After leaving the room Radit was in his car and called someone, as soon as I got in he got out of the car and continued his phone.

“Who calls?” that's just spoken in my mind, because I hope that radit will tell without me asking

“We want to go to the usual store what is fa?” while turning on his car without looking at me he asked like that.

“Whatever, the book already exists where kok.” I answered soberly by closing the car glass and staring out.

***

3 days after that he was never heard from, even when I went to his house they had moved house, I was confused for about 2 weeks until I finally decided to meet Era, his close friend

“it's been two weeks radit disappeared” ceplosku so era saw me in front of the door.

“Ifa, you why.” The era of my memes was as soon as I started to see me cry

“it has been two weeks radit no news even his house is empty, said neighbor he moved a week ago.” after sitting I started to tell him.

“Loh, I don't know fa, it's been a long time I don't know the news of radit, I'm busy with my office duties fa, what are you guys?” the era put down a drink and began to sit next to me.

all I'm telling you is from strangely radit attitude towards me to the frequent radit receiving texts and phone calls from someone. Era that does not know anything comes asking radit to all friends radit, the result is nil. Even we have been looking for radit on campus and radit has long left the semester. I was more confused, so did Era even we had to ask all the radit friends in the campus, they did not know.

***

We are preparing to come to the birthday party of my friend who is also a friend of the office of the present era, very extraordinary our journey, and, only two by using an era car that has not been used to this far road my guess is right, on the road the car broke down era, we finally waited for the car to be repaired by the nearest repair shop.

“Lagian your office at home is far away ra?” while fixing my broken make up.

“he said this is special so he said in the house of his future fiancee.” is still busy paying attention to his car.

“but right..” said I stopped instantly when hpku with a special ring for radit number rang.

“apa fa?” looking up at me with a full face to heranan.

I just smiled and picked up a call from my fiancee who has disappeared from my life for 3 months. “where are you?” my voice was soft and loving as I answered her call. “Ifa... I love you very much, you know that, I really want you to be happy I want you to be happy ifa...” sounds a little crying, it has been 2 years we are dating and only now I hear it crying. “radit... my fiancee.” “ifa.. we can't continue our fiance this fa.”

“Radit, why are you? what was? same story I.. Radit.” I could only stare blankly at the world as the radite disconnected his phone after breaking up this relationship of ours, I really did not know what I was feeling right now.

“Ifa...” Era immediately memeleluku after tau who called is radit, the person who disappeared suddenly arrived.

“oh, yes this take.” Era immediately led me to her car.

Two hours in the car I just kept quiet and thought what's wrong with my radite, what's the problem?

“Ifa, if you want to go home, I don't mind fa.” looking at me questioningly

“engga papa Era, we have to come, ica used to be my good friend.”

***

It is true that Ica wore such a beautiful dress, her birthday was so luxurious, her guests so much. Instantly my thoughts about radit disappeared, and also felt the excitement again taun this close friend of my smp. Maybe ica was too busy because so many guests were coming that she did not see me and Era was already present at her party.

“Thank you in advance for the arrival of all of you at my engagement party event that has been a week ago.” welcome Ica once all the guests arrive

All cheering and smiling feeling deceived, they thought this was a birthday event, deserved so crowded and luxurious.

“Include my name Gian, thank you to all who have come to our event.”

The party was so crowded and fun at home. Oh my God, it's a radit car! that's radit's car! I ran around feeling very anxious to hug her because so evil she disappeared from me.

Oh God what's up, why is everything down when I come, why is everything silent and why is radit with a woman I don't know yet.

“I'm home.” I carelessly entered the room without looking anyone in the face anymore.

“get out first son, radit want to talk.” mom keeps knocking on my room door.

My only thought was one, it was radit's new girlfriend and she wanted to apologize for betraying me. Out of the room my mother smiled wryly and led me to radit.

“Ifa..ini Sely.” greet radit with a little lift his eyebrows, habit of radit while being groggy

“Sely..” Say sely and then look down. and suddenly get up from the chair and call me.

“Mika has been in a coma for 6 months, after waking up she just called the name radit, and always radit. kaka often contact radit to just visit mika, mika already…” he said tehenti and his crying became more and more.

“sit down cell first.” says radit and try to calm him down.

who's mika, coma, what, what's this. I was just silent and confused, wanting to feel like I was crying when my negative thoughts filled my brain.

After being explained it turns out Mika is a radit class sister at High School and is a former radit, but not like radit who can forget her and get engaged to me. Mika taun taun can not be far from radit, the bus tour troupe toppled which caused Mika coma. Mika could only remember a little about what was in her life, she was amnesiac. And radit could be a doctor because Mika never loses her memory with radit. I don't understand it, why raditku why radit, and why they have to get engaged just to restore lost memory? why don't they create new memories and not bring radite into them?

I was frustrated and started taking illicit drugs that made my nerves weaken, after my leg nerves remained weak and became like this now. All I hear is Mika starting to remember her memories and I hope she returns what she borrowed afterwards.

***

“Mother, my therapy starts when?”

“You are patient, later I will explain it further.”

I just smiled at the rain out there, and believed that as hard as it was raining, it would definitely subside.