The Hurt

Love Triangle

I cannot lie to my heart, my love for you is so deep and I am tormented for the umpteenth of time. My body here with your shadow and my mind there overshadowed my longing for you adam, was there a chance for us to start over, I was really hurt, I was weak, did you realize, did you, it turns out that I can't do without you. It's quiet here to plunge through my blood and stab my heart, in my nights I've been pondering about you. always like this.

I wrote and put the letter on the middle page of the adam book I had just borrowed and handed it back to the unsuspecting adam.

Tonight I hope there is a phone call from Adam coming in, the clock in my hand keeps turning and the phone turns rangga my lover, we talk at length, and smile for no apparent reason, he said, I was forced or insincere, because I still hope to Adam who has been with me for 2 years, fill my days, introduce me to the meaning of love. Besides adam I feel safe, I feel safe, always every time.

My relationship with Adam broke up erratically on the grounds that we would face UN (country test) which would last a few months, although I know in fact the problem between us is the one who speaks more. After we broke up a few weeks rangga came with a thousand meanings, I who can not forget adam tried to present rangga, besides I know the rangga sincere, I know the rangga sincere, but still I realize that I can't lie about my love for adam, and that's what makes me not sincerely love the roost completely, I hope that I can understand this situation, it is not easy to forget someone even with my various activities.

I stepped into the kitchen and took the cold water to calm my mind, I came back and my phone was listed 3 unanswered phones, Hp rang back an unfamiliar voice I heard.

“nadia why you hurt my heart, you know that rangga is my friend, and again you make out in front of me, where the logic is nadia, do not contact me again, please, anyway I will try to get away from your life if I turn out to be just a barrier to your happiness, I have a nadia heart, just keep hurting, until I die!” adam's voice spoke before I said it and just turned it off.

I was drooping weakly, laying my body on the bed, it felt like all this trouble was leaving me uninspired. At the school the rangga suddenly became strange, I said and thought there was no reaction, made me go wrong, he was weakly bowed in a chair and sometimes his gaze was empty no matter what he felt, he said, while Adam today did not enter, somewhere else, I was really in a dilemma thinking about this situation.

I approached the rangga. on his desk adam's book and he read a letter that only Adam should know, I bowed down to lay down beside her who was still speechless with the shabby paper she might have accidentally scraped off.

“rangga why is adam's book with you?” my answer held my chest that shook violently, my lips twitched

For some moments of silence and no answer, Rangga stood up to pound the table and passed out, making me shocked, I picked up the book that fell and took the paper into my pocket, put it in my shirt, I went out looking for Adam, he was pensive under a tree near the garden. Pensive to himself without a word, I approached and sat down next to him.

“I want to be here with you even for a moment, it's up to you to hate me. ta.. but” I stopped my words.

“but what, but you are not satisfied to lie to me and hurt my heart again, go” answered rangga flatly

“but rangga” I looked into her watery eyes.

“but you will know my past adam and you my future, I need time to forget adam, you will know” I lowered my head holding back my tears that I can't stand anymore

“all night I went to Adam's house and borrowed his book. It turns out something that makes me not excited this morning, do you know what it's like to be loved without pain, nad. pain so much, so much pain, you better slap me and it'll go away, but my heart can't be treated, now you choose me or him?” rangga looked at me very sharply

I bowed for a while and I hugged my body

“I love you rangga, let me try, you are happy me” rangga reply to your embrace

From far behind the school fence, I saw Adam on a motorbike, wiping away tears and passing in the crowd.