The Hurt
God Knows
I walked down the stairs of the plane, for a moment I stopped looking around. This is the first day I came home after almost 5 years I wander, I miss this place.Jakarta city is full of crowds and wild memories, I look for someone who will lead me home, jakarta, a girl in red and red clothes stood in the crowd with my name on it. Tika is my lover, we have long been separated by distance.just by air and just hear the sound, but our love is so strong, at least that's my opinion
The motor steps run through the night.
The cold tonight adds a deep sense of longing to tika, it is clear tika also miss me so much, seen from the embrace in my body that is so strong and mesraanya.
A twilight brings warmth where my family and I chat with each other sharing laughter.It turns out that much has changed, many have left and many have come.
The past situation I will always look forward to is my childhood, running without direction, enjoying a day without purpose, playing and judging friends is my hobby. Now everything has changed, a time where I will always look forward to and I remember coming back like this, even though I know it will not be able to be repeated in the past.
I stand contemplating on the balcony of the second floor, contemplating about the cuteness of the past, Still want the year of our SD-SMP jman who ever Trend?
* JOSHUA's child artist (In the obok-obok), SHERINA (She thought, a film that brtitut sherina adventure I still remember)
* Read the comic Doraemon, Dragon Ball, Kungfu Boy or Conan in the class until the teacher's arrest
* Main designation Ding dong Machine. If you buy Nintendo, Sega, or Gameboy to play Mario Bross games with Sonic.
* Ngabisin koinan in Telpon general ataw Wartel, PDKT same acquaintance.
* Main Monopoly, Snake Ladder or Hologram Card, Quartet lost in scribble with powder
* Maen TAMIYA to forget the time, until skipping school finally Ortu dateng cariin to the track where maen tamiya
* Buy Chicken Jago chocolates with SUPERMAN brand chocolate wafer and Eat Neon Champ let the tongue change color
* buy fuji, taro, kenji, best selling if there is a gift.
* Eating snacks Noodles Anak Mas most ciamiik Jilatin sembunya sampe dower
* Watch Jiraiya, ninja hatori become the Knight of Black Steel and Saint Seiya Sama Power Ranger every morning in rcti or indosiar, Sunday is usually rame
* Buy a skolah shoe behind it ad the light on (PRO ATT) trus on show to classmates
* Ngumpulin TAZOS from Chiki, Chitato who has a lot of proud collections, usually there are pictures
* Gossip klo there used to be a very fragrant drug pen
*Feas less slang klo not yet ngisi Diary has temen “My Biodata” X_X
* the gum that composes the letters Y-O-S-A-N from the time of the Prophet isa ampe now there is no letter N.. what forgot in production huh? wkwkwkwkwkwk
the most beautiful time on appeal is now the 21’an Century
Suddenly a warm hand coiled around my body was very strong
“sad too long you were far away, until I forgot to tell you about my feelings left in another heart. “tika said tightening embrace, her hands and heart were shaking strongly on my back. I can feel his fear.
“what do you mean tika?”.you are kidding right?, “you think how long we have been dating, in sms and on the phone you apply as if there is no problem, no problem, now you want to say your love is lost in another heart.where the logic is”. I said without looking, my eyes widely follow the air
“forgive me, it's hard for me to embrace, when you're not here or not, I'm locked up, and someone is present in my life, regrowing the love I consider dead”
“what's wrong if I have to be honest, I just don't want you to come back and ruin my wedding next week, the invitation has been spread all the way, do you have the heart?” his embrace clutched even more in my body, enduring the turmoil, the burden in my heart.
“Don't remember me anymore, just think of me your past” the circle weakened in the steps tika passed down the stairs
The rain fell all over the earth, I fell silent fixated here, I don't know what I feel right now, I want to scream as loud as possible, I can't believe all this time I've been in the duakan, I want to scream as loud as possible, it felt like my return only added to the burden of my life.not as beautiful as I imagined. met tika who I love…
I can understand why tika. want to get away from me, maybe because of my busyness in business, and rarely call, even though I just say I love you. or this is not my way of life.
A man got out of the car following the steps with an umbrella and welcomed the man's warm embrace, How painful I am, seeing this state, he said, it felt like I wanted to jump out of here and put an end to all the heartbreak.for a while tika looked at me who had not yet left this balcony, and disappeared in the dark of the night with a red car on.
I walked slowly to my room and locked it, I let a music from (judika – I was hurt) flowed in this room. It was heavy to lie, he said, the love for tika ends today with all its lies. Tika's marriage with her boyfriend, finally finished telling me in loneliness. covered in destination without direction
The warm welcome I gave was really a compulsion. My heart was crying bitterly, Tika was with another man, tika who used to be mine, tika with whom I felt great, now all felt far away
I ran with my bike stopped at a discotheque. DJ song is not able to change the heartbreak.was unable to mengubris my heart that was already injured, Some beer bottles are not able to control me. although I felt that the problem was gone and came back just like that when my logic was playing back, I staggered and fell unconscious.
A clear voice I no longer know. When I woke up the atmosphere of the room with a beautiful woman sitting next to me.
“sorry sir jojo, do not move much later the wound gets worse. “a word with a warm smile ejected from the ranum of his lips. Soft hands that care for me, After explaining. it turns out I fell from the motor. ana's the name of this innocent girl.
Every day I was taken care of, played with.. Sometimes in the middle of the night, when the animals sleep at night Anna appears just to see my situation. Am I okay? Sometimes fantasies about tika appearing in my long dream made me scream and wake up with a warm clap and hug. When I woke up some flowers beside me, with warm porridge and some bread.
“eat me know your condition is starting to recover, in a few weeks I'm sure you can walk” a message in the mail..
I embrace the porridge, it feels very warm. “maybe because it is made wholeheartedly and full of love.” thought me while smiling..
I forced myself to stand up and sit in a wheelchair beside me, but because my legs were not strong enough to support me I finally fell, crashing on the floor. It was all dark until a hand rolled around and I slowly opened my eyes, “thank you anna, sorry I have troubled you, but we have not known before.” Anna simply smiled warmly and tidied up her clothes.
4 Weeks later
Today my condition has recovered. Anna and I sat in a restaurant, for a moment I looked and looked at Anna's eyes, for some reason I seemed to love her.
“What happened to you, it looks like you experienced a very bad thing. When you fell asleep I often heard you call tika name?, what happened?” anna asked me while smiling at me.
“ah, I don't know, it hurts to remember her. The night she got married, I did come and regret it. But my heart hurt so much at that time, my heart was like it was pierced softly and deeply, I drove my bike through the cold of the night and I didn't feel afraid to die, just a few minutes I was in a place, sipping as much beer as I could and last I remembered, I was beside you… I don't know if there's not a helper angel like you, maybe I'm somewhere else, with my hayal that I can't enjoy.
We looked at each other and were silent, beautiful to me, I grabbed her hand and wrapped my finger, a firm and warm grip, but Anna tried to take it off, and I let go of my hand, and we kept quiet for a while.
“sorry I have to go, get well quickly huh, jojo sir?” it will hasten my return.” anna said and passed behind the light.
His statement gave me a lot of meaning, It was like a farewell above me and I was bored, for some reason there was something stuck here in my mind, heart and soul.
2 We had no news, no matter where, with whom it was obviously a big question mark for me, I missed him half dead. I was pensively pensive under a tree with a swing and swinging my body, looking at the blue sky.
“jojo this riva?” the voice of my father and a woman who knows when behind me.
I stood up and shook his hand.
From that brief introduction, riva and I got closer, whether arranged or not, but I just made it my escape, at least that's what's on my mind right now. I clasped his fingers tightly and we walked through the night, standing looking up at the sky at an intersection.
“beautiful once tonight, are we always going to be with”. I said as I kissed riva's lips, which were countered with his warm embrace on my body.
“leave a time that replied” replied riva cool
It didn't feel like we had reached riva's home destination, a warm hug before I disappeared into the darkness of the night.
24 09 2012
I know today anna's birthday.a rectangular gift with red ribbons I deliberately strung for anna. Whether he wants to accept it or not, but I've tried. I ran through the hustle and bustle of the city. My heart is blossoming right now, my only goal is anna. I miss her solitaire.maybe this is suprise for her.
I knocked on the door and it turned out that the one who opened was riva,
“riva? why are you here?” I said surprised
“aku same anna want to go shopping, you yourself why?”. “that's what's behind you?” riva glanced over and grabbed a red box that I had reserved for anna. Riva opened a box containing a ring and a letter that only Anna should be able to open.
“looks like you guys already know each other huh? a voice from behind.
anna?, do you know this is my fiance jojo? riva answered as delicious,
For a while Anna and I were silent, riva was confused
Huh huh? the fiancee?
“ouh this is your fiancee huh?” anna said with a glare and forced a wry smile, I don't know what was in her heart. When I stuck out anna's hand pulled her over and pulled riva's hand away with a sedan somewhere they went.
the suprise tart that I gave out turned out to be a disaster, I went home and cut and sang the song in a tone of deep sadness, and finished off a piece.
“dad why not say riva and anna are sisters?” I spilled all my heart on my father
It turns out that riva is the soul mate that you set for me while my heart is already adrift to anna, someone who is able to make me understand the meaning of a warm togetherness, and make me able to momentarily forget the tika my lover first.
The next night I came back to Ana's house, I opened the door and was stunned for a moment, I led Anna into the house and told her to blow the tarts and say a wish while closing her eyes firmly.
I'm sorry anna. I honestly and riva do know each other but my heart has gone to you, now blow this candle and say your deepest desire, even though that desire drives me away though. I'll leave if you will at this time.
Anna was silent for a moment and for a moment she spoke her wish
“make me and pak jojo one. I was too long locked my taste and it makes me sick once, what else when I realized pak jojo has been engaged to riva my own sister. amiiiii”
Anna opened her eyes and was stunned as in front of her I knelt with a ring while behind me my father and his family clapped in joy.
“Anna thank you for your words, now I believe you are the angel I have been looking for all this time.would you promise to love me with all my weaknesses. I promise to be there for you until death do us part.
For a moment all was silent and silent,
“braak” door room in open, riva come and slap me strong. “but beware yes, if you dare to play my brother's feelings, I'm the first person who will make you unsettled, like my current feelings,” I realize love can not be forced.”
Riva's behavior makes my father and his mother's father and anna mutually unable to understand.
“forget it. I'm the first person who will be happy because my beautiful kaka is soon to get married, he is jojo” sir. riva said as she glanced at me with red eyes and grabbed Anna's hand and put it together with mine.
I grabbed it and put on the ring I had provided. I got up and hugged Anna's body tightly. Anna's birthday party is not too bad.at least it looks from her charming smile.
