The Hurt

The Hypocritical Heart That Speaks

When the heart is anchored to a long wait, there will be a war going on between the soul and the mind. Rani is still thinking these words, suddenly she jolts at the amazement of her best friend Aya.

“Siang Bolong gini ngayal aja you, later kesambet loh!” Said aya while smiling sweetly

“Hmm. What is clear is that if I invite you to be the first target that I will take, hahahaha”. Rani Canda. “What are you doing, a great hobby ngagetin me?” Further

“Once you are too, a great hobby. You're thinking of Ali yah?” Temptation Aya

“Yee... who thinks of Ali, who knows!” Rani Cibir. “Mending thinks of the handsome Prophet Yusuf more than Ali.” Rani continued very expressively.

Aya just laughed at Rani's behavior.

Later that night, Rani cries in her room thinking about Aya's words. “I did think of Him (Ali) Yes!” lirih. Rani then play the song Elyzia – Love The Impossible

I close my eyes, I fall asleep without sleep

But I dreamt you were mine

Your voice is still ringing

Even though I realize there is no

But I am happy your song is mine

Lovely smile, you,

It can never fade

It's getting beautiful in my heart

Even though I realize

Love that might be

Whatever you create

I will fight to get

If you're happy

I'm getting happier

Lovely of your face

It will never disappear

The brighter in my heart

Though I realize

Love that might be

Even though I can't have you…

I will not turn away

The more I love…

I took you lover

Let's fly high

Love is impossible

High flying

Suddenly Rani cries as if to hear the song, she recalls yesterday's incident at school.

Flashback

“Ran, to the canteen yuk?” Take Aya.

“Ayuk!” Rani answered while holding Aya's hand towards the cafeteria.

“Ihh, don't let me Ran. Like a little boy. Answer Aya ketus.

Rani just fell silent then followed Aya from behind. As if nothing had happened, they joked. Dikantin, seen Ali, classmate Rani and Aya had first become residents of the canteen.

“Hay Aya?” call Ali.

“Hay, why call?” Aya answered with a smile.

“No papa, basic chatty!” Reply Ali.

“Ihh...” replied Aya as she passed leaving Ali.

Rani just followed behind Aya. In my heart, Rani was a little sad because Ali did not greet her.

“Not only did you not greet me, for almost a year you never greeted me other than because of schoolwork. Why should it be Aya you greet? Why am I not Li?” Batin Rani is sad.

Since ascending the XI class, Aya and Rani are indeed very close. However, in his heart Rani does not like Aya too much, because the attitude and behavior of Kolerik Aya who according to Rani is not in accordance with her Pleukmatic personality. In addition, Aya is very close to Ali, the guy that Rani has liked since taking the XI class. So often Rani is sad and disappointed with Aya who often does not keep her feelings that clearly know how Rani feels about Ali.

“Why the hell, you are not sensitive! I liked you a long time ago. I realized I wasn't the perfect Aya. But should you be cold to me? Haa... why?” rani was a little angry.

Rani and Ali are very rarely talking, can count their fingers talking. Until they want to go to class XII, less than 15 times they talk. It was also because of school work.

“Yes, you know I like Ali. Why can't you take care of my feelings? You always say you want to take care of my feelings, but why can't you prove your words? I know, you must be aware of that.” Continue Rani while sobbing.

Rani can only cry at the thought of her raging feelings, and unknowingly falls asleep in the anxiety that leads her into a dream.

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“Rani...” shouted Aya excitedly calling Rani who just came to class. “You're late again Ran? Haha. You want to be sent home a third time? Hahahaha.” Continue Aya while teasing Rani. Rani only looked at Aya with a forced smile.

“Tak need while shouting times say Yes, can not you just a day not make me dongkol?” Inner Rani sighed in annoyance, but not shown. He sat down next to Aya, because they were my friends.

The bell for the first lesson reads, the teachers enter their respective classes. At 14:00 WITA, the bell rang.

“Rani, anterin to the mall first yes take home key. I forgot to take it again.” Bujuk Aya's.

“OK,” Reply Rani. They also went home together. On the way, Aya saw Ali was angrily kicking his motorcycle tire.

“Ran, that's Ali, right? Why is he? Does the motor break down?” Ask Aya.

“It seems so” reply Rani search.

“Samperin yuk Ran, who knows if we can help.” Aya answered worriedly.

“Ya!” reply Rani around. “Aya really attention anyway?” Inner Rani asked.

“Ali, why? Strike?” Aya asked who was running small towards Ali

“Hey you Yes, yes the motor broke down. Don't know why, make it hard.” Ali replied with a annoyed look. Rani just looked at the two of them without taking out a single strand.

“Until when the hell do you not want to greet me? Why does Aya keep going? He also paid attention to Ali. Does he like Ali too? But it is not possible, Aya is very consistent do not want to like the same guy who other people also like, let alone the guy whose best friend himself likes.” Inner Rani sighed. Suddenly Ali looked in Rani's direction.

“Loh, there are you too huh Ran? Hmm, you ride the motorbike, right?” Ask Ali.

“Iya, what is it?” rani replies wrongly because Ali asked her to talk.

“Can you ask for help?” Ask Ali carefully.

“By, would you like to ask what?” rani's reply was a little awkward.

“Motor I'm breaking down, can borrow the motor not?” ali replied without hesitation. You just calm down, I'll return to your house without any defects. Promise me, suer!” he continued very expressively.

As if not believing what he just heard, Rani felt crushed in his heart by a large object. “once speaking he just wanted to pimjam motor? It's also because the motor broke down!” inner Rani. He nodded his head in agreement. Without asking a second time, Ali then asked for the key to Rani's motorcycle.

“Ran, I'm with Ali yes, because I'm in a hurry!” said Aya

“Ya..” Rani says only one word.

“complete already, he just hit me because again need. But does it have to be with Aya to go home? Without thinking how I went home! Waw, perfect!” inner Rani.

Aya and Ali pass by leaving Rani alone. Rani could not hold back the tears that had forced her out, but she could still hold it. Rani then stopped the public transport, and after reaching her house she ran to her room. In her room, Rani was crying. After nearly an hour of tears spilled on his mattress, he suddenly heard the sound of his motor horn. Rani then rushed to the bathroom to fix herself, then rushed to Ali.

“Sorry long!” rani surprised Ali.

“Oh, no papa! Btw, thank’s yes motor?” reply Ali.

“Yes, equally. Keep you home ride what?” Surveys Rani in a still very awkward tone.

“Tuh outside already have an invitation, I first ya?” ali replied as he passed away.

Rani stared at Ali's departure blankly until she was nowhere to be seen. He then returned to his room. In the room, Rani asked herself “Am I too stupid to love someone who doesn't think I exist at all? Talk as if he were reluctant. Why should I like it? Why should I leave my feelings for her? Is my heart too hypocritical to keep a taste for her?” Rani could only take out all a million blows in her heart with a question she had no answer to.

*********

The dark dawn with a cool breeze accompanies Rani's excitement. He looked resplendent and smiled looking at the twilight sky. “I will begin to become the twilight sky, which accompanies every event that exists on the face of the earth, accompanying every step of the creature Sang Khalik through all the twists and turns of his life, he said, and always smiling shyly show a beautiful color when the middle creature feels the beauty of combining heart twinkle.” Rani muttered softly with a meaningful smile. “Can I be like the sky?” continued.

Flashbacks

In the classroom, as usual the atmosphere is full of excitement, there are those who gather to talk about topics they like, there are those who are busy drawing, there are those who are fun playing guitar and dancing together, and there are those who are interested in drawing, and some are busy doing schoolwork. As with Ali, he was busy preparing chocolate to be given to women who would be used as fillers for his heart.

“Aya,?” approaching Aya who was busy gossiping with her friend.

“Iya, why Li?” answer Aya accordingly.

“By saying no? Please, can ya?” Buuk Ali's.

“Hmm, maksa nih. Ok then! Come on, what the hell do you want to say?” Aya asked curiously. Without having time to reply to Aya's question, Ali immediately pulled Aya's wrist and slightly ran towards the middle of the class.

“Ya... I like you! I've been feeling this way for a long time, ever since we were in X class I've liked you. You want to be the filler of my heart?” ali said expectantly.

Unbeknownst to them, Rani, who was standing at the door of the class, came home from the library to see what Ali was doing.

“What? Ali shot Aya? She's liked Aya since X class? I can't believe this, why should he like my own best friend?” Inner Aya asked.

“Ali... are you serious about what you say?” Aya asked in disbelief.

“I'm very serious Yes, I haven't been able to suppress this feeling for too long. I'm su... No, but love is with you! I like your selfish nature, your cheerful nature, your chatty nature, anyway I like everything that is on you.” Reply Ali expressively.

“Actually, I also like you Li, but..” has not had time Aya continued, Rani has cut the conversation.

“But, he hasn't got the blessing of I'm Li, hahaha. Yeah, now I'm blessing your relationship. Alibi thank Ali.” Rani said with excitement but her Inner was very painful. “I support you guys, too. Is that my friend?” Further

“Iya, agree!” answer his classmates simultaneously. “alah Yes, just accept, pity tuh Ali until the cold sweat. Hahaha” continued one of them.

“But..” Aya immediately pulled Rani's hand out of class. “Ran, do you like Ali?” whispered Aya.

“Ah, I like Ali? Yes, I am not, dear. I may have liked him, I used to like him, but that was a long time ago. In the days of ancient man. Hahahaha.” Rani replied with a very forced Laughter.

“Bener..?” search Aya.

“Yailah!” rani replied firmly with a reassuring look. Rani then pulled Aya's hand back to the middle of Class and shouted “Temen-men, Aya nerima Ali became her boyfriend. Congratulations yukk!” Rani continued very expressively.

Finally Aya and Ali officially dating, Rani could not hold back her tears but she was still able to hold it. Finally the bell rang.

“Aya, sory yes. It's not that I don't want you to come home. But, because there is a new partner, so my bike does not accept the bonds that have been paired. Hahaha.” Canda Rani

“ye... nasty you Ran!” Cibir Aya's.

“hahaha... Yaudah deh, I went back first huh?” without even hearing Aya's reply, Rani passes by leaving Aya and Ali. Rani then ran towards the motorbike and immediately drove the motorbike and drove it with a density of 60 km/h. He cried when he was motorized at a speed above normal. Rani is riding a motorcycle without direction, she does not want to go home yet. After almost an hour of driving aimlessly, Rani then went home. Arriving home, he ran to his room and continued to mourn him.

“I now understand everything” he said staggered. Rani cannot remove any strands from her mouth or mind. He felt a very painful pain.

“Yes God, thank you for all the trials you have given me. In the end, all of this must have been his silver. I am not yet the time to love others, because in fact the love I have was created just to give it all to YOU. Thank you Aya, thank you Ali, now I have been able to soften my hypocritical heart. I will teach a valuable lesson to myself. May you be happy.” Rani prayed, then continued to look at the twilight sky.