The Hurt

Without you

“What?” my breath paused for a moment, my heart seemed to want to escape because of his words, as soon as my brain froze and either my mouth seemed mute, silent a thousand languages. I tried to hold something that would drip out of my eyes, but somehow it felt so heavy. The tears eventually fell as well. I hugged myself, as if something was about to break in my chest. My body feels weak even no longer strong memegan a mobile phone in my hand. I can't believe this is really happening. He said a sentence that somehow felt very painful in my heart.

“Sorry, from now on we go it alone, ” He said on the phone. Sounds simple but painful not (maybe for some people). That night, my eyes shed tears. I love him too much, it's hard to forget him. Every day we do various activities together. From leaving school, taking a break, going home together, even tutoring and najai were together.

“Oh God, can I do all that without him?” my thoughts

The next day went on as usual. I waited for the school bus to pick me up and the other students every day. On the bus, I sat in my usual place, where he and I always spent the trip from house to school talking. Take the bus in front of his house. He took the bus in a very cool style. I thought he would sit next to me, but instead he sat down with his friend.He didn't greet me at all, I was considered like a non-existent item.

“hemm, she stayed away from me” I muttered slowly

After getting off the bus, I also walked through the school corridor. today it was hard. still early in the morning, it feels like I already want to go home and serega locked my room, after that defiant. He and I were different classes, so we didn't enter the same room. Today's lesson, it seems like nothing is connected in my brain, it seems like today my brain is just programmed to think about it. When Istirrahat I rushed to pay SPP in Business Procedure. I began to enter the administrative room slowly. I was surprised it was him, he was sitting down and handing over some files that I don't know what they were. I moved closer to him, but at that moment he went away, I ignored him and immediately rushed to pay SPP. After paying the SPP, out of curiosity I asked the TU officer what files had been given by Jeje. Right, Jeje is the person I have always loved. after doing some pleasantries, the TU officer finally wanted to tell. And at that time I was really shocked by what the TU officer told me. It turned out that the files were files for a school move, and Jeje had it all completed.

“What?! Jeje moved school” my mind while leaving the TU room. I immediately rushed to get my phone and sent a message to Jeje.

“You moved schools? why don't you tell me” text me on jeje

A few minutes later my phone rang. When I opened it was a text reply from jeje

“I'm sorry, I didn't tell you. I'm afraid you're sad, I have to transfer schools abroad because my father has a job there. Tomorrow I have to go there, and my aunt who will destroy my administration, I will join the morning flight with GA-578, I hope you will be there for farewell.”

For a moment, I began to be stunned, even my hands seemed to be unable to hold a cellphone. At night, I don't know why my eyes feel sleepy. I went to the balcony and decided to look at the stars. For a moment the stars comforted me, but I thought back to Jeje, he's leaving tomorrow, whether I'm really ready to live without him. ahh, what am I thinking, what am I, jeje will be back someday.

The next day, at 7 am I left for the airport, either since this morning my premonition was really bad. Jeje leaves for America at 8 a.m., hopefully I'll actually get there on time. The road from my house to the airport is quite far, maybe about half an hour. about 2 km from the airport, suddenly my car broke down. oh god why could it be this way. I immediately tried to open the engine of the car. Suddenly a smoke billowed out. I immediately called the tow truck attendant. 10 minutes passed now it was 7:40, finally the tow truck came and I left my car to the officer who would tow my car to the house.

In 20 minutes, I stopped a taxi to drive me to the airport. In the taxi I kept looking at my watch and sometimes wished that time could stop for a moment. Finally arrived at the airport, now it is 7.55. after paying for a taxi I immediately ran towards the American flight check-in door. Sure enough Jeje was standing there. Jeje looked at me and suddenly immediately hugged me.

“I will miss you so much, Jeje” said as I shed a tear

“I'll be back here, every day I'll tell you and miss you, I love you”

“i also love you” I replied sobbing

“You don't cry, you'll be prettier if you smile” she said while wiping away my tears

I finally delivered Jeje and waved as a farewell.

“I'll be back soon, wait for me” she cried with a smile

I went home, set a mellow song and lay in my room. While lying down I looked at my picture with Jeje. Over time, I immediately vanished in the softness of the atmosphere, and finally fell into a deep sleep. The next day my mom and dad, as usual, were watching the news on TV, and I sat on the couch drinking my tea. Suddenly the newsreader read a news story that I really did not expect.

“ aircraft GA-578 crashed in the Pacific Ocean, reportedly not a single survivor, following the list of victims” said the news carrier

I started to get stunned and shed tears, and my mom and dad were stunned and asked me

“it's not the plane Jeje boarded, is it?” mother says

I ignored him, my eyes still staring at the names on the television. Suddenly there is a name and a photo of Jeje there. I also cried so much.

“ma, Jeje ma” My words while crying incessantly.

My mom and dad tried to keep me off the TV in the living room and tried to calm myself down.

“Jeje, why did you leave me?” yell at