The Hurt

Be late

“Funny Ziv, funny isn't it? Purple again, my favorite color. How does he know I like MiniWatch? Yesterday all of a sudden Okta gave me this, he said yesterday he went for a walk just as well as he kept me and love gifts. Is he really good, Ziv? Oh yes, you know not kalo”. Not finished Kinan's story at that time, suddenly in front of his mouth a chopstick had blocked his little lips to continue to chatter.

“Iya yes I know, funny really, funny clock from Okta. Now eat or ga lo I stay”. Kinan pursed his tiny lips in annoyance, Raziv who looked at him so anxiously, gently rubbed the top of the girl's head.

”Kinan darling, later the story can be finished again, now you want to bell in, the food is cepet diabisin yaa” said Raziv while pretending to glare at Kinan.

Raziv and Kinan. The two students of Class 2 of Single High School Ika are close friends since three years ago. Kinan's childish, chatty, spoiled, supple, and very cheerful nature is truly like the earth and sky with Raziv characters that tend to be more calm, mature, and not much to say. They were created to complement each other. Kinan as a storyteller while Raziv as a loyal listener. This long blabbering kinan was offset by Raziv who listened patiently and solemnly like ‘bak garbage’ which held every word that came out of the girl's mouth. If we do not know them more closely, would be wrong to think that they have a deep relationship or we usually know ‘dating’.

They were always seen together at every opportunity, whether it was in class, eating in the cafeteria, leaving and going home to school together, there Kinan there will also be Raziv. Though they have explained all the time, they are just ordinary friends, no feelings, no special relationships like others talk about. Even what others have seen all this time, it's not like that.

But a few months ago, it was discovered that Kinan already has a girlfriend, his name is Okta Herfian student from the most elite high school in Jakarta, Tunas Persada High School. Many people do not believe this reality. In fact, it was true, because one afternoon, Okta picked Kinan home from school.

Once Aji, Raziv's friend in 1st grade, asked. “Bro, actually elo the same Kinan tuh dating ga anyway?” Raziv who is immune to hearing such questions only answers lightly.

“And I've said many times, Kinan is my friend from Junior High, I'm the same he's already like sodara”

Aji clicked his tongue while shaking his head “Not that man, if I pay attention to the way you squirm him, watching his every behavior, his speech, there is something different. Kayak, you want to always be there for him, protect and keep him, right?” Raziv smiled faintly at Aji's slightly strange explanation.

“Aduh, so much lo memuratin I” Raziv chuckled “kan emang it's use bro” friends

“Bullshit man! It turns out lo ga as mature as I thought sob” Aji sighed heavily.

“Lo said what just now?” on the corner of the upper arm of his friend, Aji just put his shoulders and left without leaving Raziv who was struggling with his own feelings.

“Am I that obvious? Do I look so much like Lo Nan? Now I can only diem, waiting elo who is aware of the feelings that I pendem make you almost after this”

—

Today, the final lesson is the practice of Biology about plant tissues. Students of class 11 IPA 2 flocked to the Biology lab located on the bottom floor with monocots and dicots brought each from home. After greeting and prayer, the tools are prepared on the table, light microscope, preparation table, razor, some of the main parts of the plant, and other tools needed in the experiment. Some children have already begun the early stages of observation.

“Mother is in the teacher's room for a moment, after you've observed it in the microscope, pictures of the results then collect on the mother's desk when the doorbell home school” orders Mother Sumi followed by a compact choir “Iya bu” by her students and she left quietly.

A few minutes later…

“Ih, hahaha how funny the shape is, the bulb is there bubbles of color ijo! Raziv! Wiry up!Here I take from the rod monocots nih, you're a pinter I'm afraid less focus microscope! Here see Ziv!” cerocos Kinan zealously without a semicolon without removing his eyes from the microscope he held tightly.

Raziv, who had memorized Kinan's habits when dealing with the practice of microscopy, smiled warmly just before moving to the Kinan group table. The other friends who were initially surprised were only as comfortable as a wry smile knowing Kinan's behavior as a 5-year-old who had just seen a bird with engines (re: aircraft)

“Iya, this is already true, just a little less focus aja sih” explained the guy kalem

“You wait here first, I focus, later I show you again, wait loh”. Raziv stood still watching Kinan's little fingers turn the knob to focus the shadow. “And if you knew what I rasain to elo now, would we still like gini nan?”

“Nih, this is belom? Look deh, loi” the sound of Kinan's bells disperse the daydream of pseudo wishful thinking that danced on Raziv's head, He then just nodded small.

The bell went home right when the 11th grader IPA 2 finished making a report.

“Ziv, sorry today we did not go home together, you went home by yourself right?” kinan said to Raziv while carrying his cellphone, like someone had contacted, Raziv glanced at the phone and understood what the cause was.

“Ooh, you want to go home with Okta? If so I first ya” reply Raziv then waltzing go out the lab door, ”Hearts on the road ya!”

“Nan, sometimes I like to think, you are more suitable with Raziv than the same Okta” Kinan staring at Annisa confused, do not understand Annisa's speech just now

“Loh, how do you say that Nis? I'm the same Raziv is just temen”

“Kalo see from the way Raziv mandang elo, he loves so much lo Nan, I see that is not the way people look at his best friend, which I feel more than that. I just belom can describe, maybe love may not. Elo aja who had been aware, well, I think kayak so” Kening Kinan increasingly contorted to hear the statement that he thought the more chaotic, it is not possible that Raziv has a special feeling with him.

“Udah ah, you say how to ngaco anyway? Raziv same me it's nothing, not more, not more than a ‘friendship’, bener deh”

“Whatever you say lo deh Nan, which is important one thing you should know. Raziv love very elo” said Annisa then she went out followed Kinan, Annisa continued in the mind Kinan “Sayang.... as a friend right? What is... is there a ‘lain’?”

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“...when I saw Okta again Ziv road with other girls, hand grip again, friendly again. Okta really evil kok same I Ziv? Why Ziv? Wh why? Am I a gapantes as his girlfriend? Am I wrong what is the same with him? How can he make me hurt? … ” Kinan confided to Raziv in the living room of Raziv's house that afternoon filled with sobs. It had been almost 15 minutes that he had rumbled, saying the same words with tears. Raziv who was looking at the fragility side of the girl in front of him could only desperately resist the turmoil in her heart to simply hug Kinan to calm her down. Therefore, the action he could do was to gently wipe Kinan's back or top of the head, as if afraid to make the creature next to him more broken and fragile.

He held strong also his anger that overflowed on Okta, he was already suspicious of the guy from the beginning. Rumors are easy to hear, Okta is a boy player who likes to play with girls at will. He thought after dating Kinan his nature would change, especially when Okta planned ‘shooting’ Kinan first, Raziv came to his house threatening him never dare to hurt Kinan, or Okta would know the consequences. But it seems, Okta does not want to take a headache, the proof is that a girl he loves the most is now crying because of the playboy.

“...I phone said it again go the same temen-tennya, it turns out what? He's kind of alone with that girl. Anyway, who the hell is a girl? What if Okta had a girlfriend? My heart hurts Ziv, it hurts!! Does he not love me anymore?…” Kinan said non-stop, still sobbing. Kinan's crying became more and more, making Raziv want to hit the jerk right in front of his face.

After some time, Kinan's cries subsided, the tissues were scattered on the table, bench, until the living room floor. “We go yuk, where is it. We haven't been together for a long time?” Kinan lifted his head from his position, bowing his head from the start.

“Ke... where?” kinan said stammered, while Raziv began to remove the remains of tears flowing down Kinan's pale white cheeks with her thumb.

“Where possible, around Jakarta also gapapa. I'll be back home, and tomorrow we go. Now elo rest first gih, tired right cry continues? gamungkin also elo go home with a gini-like state. That I thought I was doing elo again, back and forth puffy eyes so” Kinan Smile slowly crept, his heart began to feel calm and extraordinary relief. He also nodded small and tried to sleep selonjor on the bench like his own home. While Raziv to the kitchen made a warm drink for him.

—

Tomorrow morning arrived, as promised at exactly 9 Raziv arrived at Kinan's house, After getting out of the car and saying goodbye to Kinan's mama, they sped away. ”Every boss! Let’s go!!” say the girl's spirit 2013.

12 Hours later, they arrived home. Almost around Jakarta! The beginning of the destination to Ragunan Zoo to just see and have lunch. After that proceed to the Old City, visit the Fatahillah Museum and the Bank Indonesia Museum, then try culinary dishes in cafes in the far reaches of the Metropolitan city, moving their afternoon to the Fantasy World, last to Ancol to see the natural panorama on the beach at night. A tiring day, quite also to refresh the brain from all the fatigue of UAS and daily routine about something called ‘school’. Also forget for a moment yesterday's events that are quite draining of Kinan's heart, mind, and energy.

Before returning home, Raziv had seen a flower shop on the side of the road, his heart moved to give some stalks to Kinan. “Lo get in the car first, I want to buy something” Kinan only mangosteen while licking the sweet arum. Raziv returned and immediately placed the flowers on Kinan's lap.

“Flower? Yellow tulips? Who is Ziv?” for Kinan looked at the flower with a puzzled expression

“Create lo lah”

“White rose gagambarin my feelings to elo Kinan” replied Raziv then turn on and insert the car gears.

—

Today the class holidays have begun to enter the second week, Ika Single High School gives full 1 month off for its students, this is not kept secret by Raziv. He immediately went to Jogja to visit his grandmother's house as well as reunion with old friends when he was in elementary school in the education city. Understandably, he had just moved to Jakarta during the 8th grade Junior High and now had a long vacation and returned home.

While Kinan, right in his 4th month or third day of the first week of vacation, they broke up! Tus tus tus! Kinan Kapok dealing again with a guy who plays girls like Okta, instead of making a smile even make tired. Mending is cut off, right? But he couldn't hold back his tears on the phone the night he went back to Raziv. Raziv that is across there can only calm down with “Sabar ya nan, your decision is really how mutusin dia” or “Udah dong ya, do not cry, do not cry, not tired of nangisin people like him? ”. Moreover, Okta is Kinan's first girlfriend, it is not possible that Kinan cried. To relieve her heartache, she then invited her Junior High friends to reunion as well. As if there is something that can get rid of Okta far from the girl's mind.

Unfortunately today his friends there is nothing he can invite to go out, therefore he is only a DVD marathon accompanied by snacks. Accidentally on the TV room table, he found a magazine open on one of his pages. Mama may have read it but it has not been cleared. Instead of returning the magazine to its place, he was interested when reading one of the articles titled “Arti Behind A Bunga”

White Rose

Symbolizes heartfelt sincerity.

If someone gives you this flower, it is

this means that the person is very sincere in helping

your.

Aster flowers

It is a symbol of love and beauty.

Aster colored Pink Carnation interpreted ‘I don't

will forget you’, while the yellow one

it means rejection or disappointment

Daisy Orange

This flower is

symbol of warmth, joy, spirit.

“Tulip Yellow”

As his mind drifted to the last few days he met Raziv before the holidays, the day his best friend took him almost around Jakarta. His curiosity increased after tracing the description under the writing. A sincere and unrequited love. A love that has no hope. If someone gives you this flower, he doesn't want you to know how he feels, he chooses to shut his feelings down.

So... So Raziv loved him all this time? Loved her? But... love is unrequited because it exists... Okta? He even chose to keep it a secret from her. When he felt guilty, why did he realize now? Today then? After all, since when has Raziv harbored feelings for her? At the beginning they were friends? or the end of this? His mind was at a dead end. Why didn't he notice it at all? Indeed, everything is too LATE.

—

“Ziv, have you come home from Jogja? Is it the belom house? ”

“Udah kok this morning, this again sorted stuff. Why nan? ”

“Hmm... I... To your house huh? I... want to tell you something”

“Think, you're weird again. Yaudah I wait ya” Phone connection interrupted

After his breakup with Okta, Kinan began to think more maturely, began to understand more of the feelings of others and of course, his own feelings. Ever since learning about Raziv's feelings, he started thinking about the guy. What is Raziv inget. Where to get Raziv. The boy's attention to him, the help that's always been there for him, Raziv who has been beside him, including Annisa's speech in the bio lab first. Because of that, every time he was hanging out with Raziv on the phone for example, he always spoke nervously. Until the astonished Raziv several times asked “Lo why the hell? How to bring it back as usual? Demonic diem what the hell?”. He realized, he began to love his best friend, Raziv Satnawijaya.

About half an hour later, Kinan appeared in front of the fence of Raziv's house. After being invited to enter and sit in the living room, a moment of silence. Nobody started the conversation, Kinan just kept his head down while playing the end of his lace.

“Gue grab souvenirs make you first. Abis it lo story what's up. Lo's weird. Serius”

Once back, Raziv carrying two plastic bags that read ‘I LOVE JOGJ’ and then put it on the table, right in front of Kinan's face. The girl gasped, a sign that she was daydreaming while watching the tiles. Kinan raised his head, then looked at Raziv fixedly. Look at the face of his friend carefully. From her fairly thick eyebrows, her black eyeballs that Annisa said had a different look at Kinan, her pointed nose, then stopped at Raziv's thin lips.

“Nan, how come you are looking at me and all? Just realized that your best friend is very handsome?”

“Ih, it's so bad. Since when did you become that kepedean?” Kinan pursed his lips.

After Kinan said so, Raziv immediately turned the sitting position of his entire body focusing on Kinan. The girl was surprised and then reflexed backwards until her back was attached to the sofa.

“Keep why hmm? You didn't see me, did you? Dateng dateng did not use a smile, daritadi I noticed you just daydream. Just a few weeks ago your attitude had changed 360 degrees. Lo why the hell? Any problem? Usually also if the story does not use babibu directly nyerocos aja” Mimik face Raziv looks so serious, at this time he just wants the question was answered completely by the girl in front of him. All the. Also the oddities when they communicated yesterday first.

“Typically ak-..”

“Excuse me.. Assalamualaikum.. Permisi” In such a precarious atmosphere, suddenly there was someone out there teasing. Raziv, who felt the problem had not found a way out and randomized his hair was upset, he would not want to serve the person. While Raziv met the man, Kinan rearranged the sentence he would say to Raziv later, that he already knew Raziv's feelings and that he was in love with her. After feeling fit, he sat down leisurely waiting for his best friend to return.

He was surprised to find Raziv back with a native Javanese girl behind him. ”That's who?” he said in his heart. As if hearing Kinan's heart, Raziv said something to Kinan like a slap. The slap that made him fall into the abyss of regret.

“Gara because of the strange nature of lo from yesterday, I so gaenak make this story to elo. Guess who this is? My girlfriend, Ristya” Girl was smiling sweetly. The shocked! Kinan's heart was broken to pieces, it felt like his mind was empty, at that time he even wished he was deaf, not having ears if necessary. “Pa-boyfriend? How come you didn't tell me from the beginning? Bad indeed” Actually when asked that, he really pretended, his feelings mixed into one.

“Kan I said, your attitude is very strange at the end of this. I'm so reluctant to talk to elonya, guenya again seneng but lo her again there is a problem. Though from the beginning of meeting him, I want to go straight to the elo” Kinan gripped tightly by-by from Raziv. There was only one thing he wanted to do at the time. Quickly leave.

The girl named Ristya had the initiative to approach Kinan first, reached out to meet “Hai, I am Ristya. Kinan? Raziv often tells stories about kamu”. Kinan hesitantly greeted Ristya, “Haaai, congratulations to you! Not expecting people kayak Raziv can have a girlfriend too, beautiful again”. Ristya blushed shyly, “Masa’ anyway?” Kinan just nodded with a faint smile, but he was insisting on holding back his tears so as not to come out in front of Raziv, he did not want the guy to know his feelings at this time. He just wants to go. From there. Immediately.

“Kalo so, I go home ya Ziv. Thanks for that! Go first, Ristya! Once again congratulations to both of you, Ziv treatnya do not forget at school!” Kinan got out of his seat, then ran out no matter Raziv who shouted his name, fortunately Raziv did not catch up. Maybe because he immediately intercepted a taxi as soon as he reached the stop near Raziv's house.

In the taxi he was crying, why did this happen? When he realized Raziv's feelings, and Raziv's feelings, why did this happen? Wh why? His heart was like it was pierced by thousands of needles when he heard the word slide from the mouth Raziv “ Guess who? My girlfriend, Risty”. His tears rolled, he was sorry. Why did he belATEDly realize from the beginning that Raziv loved him, why was he LATE to express his own feelings until now he languished? Why is everything so LATE?