Love Me Because of God

For God Or Lust

“I never knew what it was like before I knew you. I have known you for a long time and why at the end of my heart I can almost forget you come again to give me a million memories. Somehow with you, all I know now I LOVE YOU ADIT. Even so I am still confused I love you because of God or Eve of Lust?”

Today is the happiest day for me because I can stay in my house. Well, it's because I'm a santri boy from the Ummul Makassar boarding school. This is my first day on vacation, I miss my parents and my sister and now I can deliver. I am named Hasanah Daniyah, can be greeted Ani. I was sitting in 10th grade with a face that was not quite beautiful, I was just an ordinary ukthy who was not concerned with my self-care but that was when I was Junior High, everything had changed when I was in High School.

I had a very sad past, my Junior High was the time I disliked the most because I was often ridiculed, ridiculed and beaten up. So sad and I've been intending that the time of High School will change. I will change my appearance and change my style and now it has come true. Everything has changed, I am not the Ani I used to know.

I've been different, I've opened the sheets and locked my old diary. Diary with a story that is relatively much sadness, I lock tightly.–erat does not want to open it so I key I never again open Twitter and Facebook, Facebook, I don't want to hang on to my past and I change my phone number, I'm a hypocrite and I really can't do that but I want to open a new page, without anyone knowing me and in the Ummul pesantren that's the school I chose, the place to realize my dream of becoming a Ustadzah and open a new page.

“Mama, I really miss you” the first sentence I said to my mother the first time I stepped on my house, the noble figure who had conceived and cared for me until now. I miss him so much, my mom was the first person I ever said my feelings of kangen.

“Iya son, I also” said my mother while hugging me, warm and soft her embrace exceeds the most beautiful blanket in the world.I was so fond of my mother, I was so happy with my mother, 6 Months I left my mother chasing my dreams in the sky and now I can meet her. Today is school holiday day and 2 this week I do not spend every second with my family.

Followed by Dad, the hardworking person who supported us. My father patted me on the shoulder and put a smile on his lips, I saw that his face had changed. My father was different from the old man and next to him I saw my brother very carefree to see me show his dimples and then my beautiful and white sister held my hand and pulled me into the room.

“Mama, Dad I borrowed for a while first well my brother this” said My sister and Mama Papa just laughed at my sister's funny behavior.

My sister took me to her room and then I sat on her bed and took off my bag which I hugged and my sister started to open the conversation.

“So how is it?” asked my sister while tidying up her wavy hair decomposed by squinting her hair using a hairpin over her ear.

“baik– alright, if SMA later follow brother well in Ummul boarding school?” I said and advised my sister to follow in my footsteps. My sister is now in 1st grade at Neg Junior High. 2 Maros where I used to get my school diploma.

“I won't sister, be afraid! O yes brother said mom and dad brother rengking 4 General in school well?” ask my sister curious me memgebu–gebu

I smiled knot “Iya, smart brother after all still my sister lost anyway let's pursue the rank of brother” said I don't mean to brag about me but I want to see my sister can be a smart person and sholeh child.

“Ihh brother I can definitely dong like big brother, the hell I lost? See if I'll be smarter, brother. I'm sure it is!” said my sister while raising her hand and cheering “I can definitely be like big brother”

This is my sister, sometimes she pisses me off at her behavior but she's actually really nice. And started my sister's ritual from childhood until now, My sister confided in me. Well that's the nature of my sister, I still remember since childhood every time my sister would vent dehh, my sister considers me like a friend confided. I'm so glad I got into my sister's life.

“Kakak, I want to vent?” (-_- the nature of my sister is still like this anyway?)

***

In the afternoon in front of the laptop, fingers–fingers my hand swiftly typing scientific papers for the se–provensi race, I was very happy because I could represent Sulsel for the scientific work race. I never imagined I'd be chosen from my school representative, I could cross the hurdle–obstacle from kabupatan to provention.

Because of my focus on my work, I did not realize my sister was beside me.

“Kakak!” my sister said that I was surprised and I could only stroke my chest. How not? His voice was huge and his distance from me was only about 5 cm.

“You are, what is it?” I'm still focused on doing this scientific work.

I saw motion–gerik my sister suspicious “My good brother, accompany your sister to her friend's house” pinta my sister to me. I turned my head to face my sister, I could only sigh when I realized that my sister wanted to. He deserves to be so kind -__-

“Yah, okay. Where is it?” I asked while turning off my laptop and sipping water beside the laptop.

“I don't want to, you forgot well called home road Arga” reject me

“Kak, I'm going to my friend's house not to Arga's. After all, sister also does not know which is her home so sister must not meet kok”

“Tapi”

“Kakak has promised. I don't want to know, you have to keep me company!”

How's this. O Allah, may I not meet Arga, if I meet Arga how to try my fate. Before I introduced Arga, she was my junior sister at Junior High, I didn't understand why I liked her. Love comes by itself and I can't avoid it.

“Yah, alright” I said softly

***

“Stop Pak”

My love to Mr. Driver, so I got out of the car with my sister pete–pete and paid the fee.

“This is pak” I said then reached out my hand giving the money.

I got into the street with my sister, and in the middle of the street, my sister stopped her way in front of the stationery store and either my sister repeated her eking again, well ecting ask please (“_” STUPID)

“Kak is beautiful..! beautiful bangett... help your sister this dong?” she asked me while putting on a face like a cat asking for food. Ohh, my brother is so good at making my heart melt. The story is I don't want to, he's draining my savings. It costs here with my money and now my money is being made ’-_-‘

“Alright, here brother buyin” I said as I turned my mouth and pulled my brother's arm to the store.

While I was in front of the store, my heart was beating erratically like a bomb ready to explode. Stupid, why am I following my sister. Bookstore, my God why my brain is so negligent why can I forget that Arga has a bookstore.

“You bought what?” ask arga who is busy playing his HP (NOT SUITABLE TO BE A SELLER IF GINI! HISHAM)

In a loud voice my sister said while pointing to–hint the thing she wanted to buy and that's when Arga kept her HP in the right pants pocket and served my sister and had not noticed my presence.

“Pulpen Angry Birds well dik, what color?” ask Arga.

That tall guy hasn't seen me yet. Thank God, I pretended to see–look at the streets for not wanting to be caught. I'm ashamed, no one in my past has seen my change now but fate is destiny and still I hear my sister talk.

“Blue color and also red color for my sister Beautiful Ani” with loud voice. I clicked my tongue, my sister intentionally did it because she knew it was Arga, I turned my body back to my sister and I turned my head.

“That evil brother dehh, payin tuh! I go first yah” said my sister ran away leaving me alone with Arga. I now understand what my sister meant she did this on purpose and also the Angry Birds Pens, she already has her collection (Something sucks*_*)

I faced Arga, trying to raise a smile but it was hard to ask for mercy, he looked at me with a hard-to-fire expression.