Love Me Because of God

Too Far

Introduce my name aref, more complete aref innabilla, students of class XI at SMA 13 yogyakarta. I was born in a family that is grateful to be prosperous, know religion, and peaceful peace (hehe). I am the last child of 3 airs. My first brother named Joni works at the central agency of statistics in Jakarta, Indonesia, while my 2nd brother named here is still in college at one of the famous universities in Bandung.Yes maybe that is the reason why I was very noticed by my father and mother.

My life at school is actually smooth-surfing. friends also increase a lot as time goes on and my class level increases.all I consider friends there is no opponent that my motto in social, social, because of many friends, a lot of windfall too (hehe). I am also the type of person who is not too excited about the love of the opposite sex alias the same female.especially when class X used to be, absolutely not terbesit in the mind to approach girls let alone dating, let alone dating, ihh not really kalee (hehe). even so I'm normal, do not think I like the same sex, dih. I like a girl who used to when Junior High was my junior. but embarrassed to express it and I myself do not want it because if I reveal it to the person directly, maybe it happens we will be dating, if the courtship is most likely to break up, if you have broken up, you do not want to make friends again maybe even can be hostile to each other.hmm I do not want my relationship with her to end tragically like that. mending in pendam aja tomorrow if it's time to just get shot. cieee (this is what the hell? hehe)

I used to be more interested in thinking about making a business, more precisely in the field of clothing, because it was one of my ideals since the 2nd grade. and my 2nd goal is to be a civil servant because the salary is routine. (hehe) and now I'm in the process of realizing my dream, although a little I'm sure God can be a hill.



But all that changed when I started sitting in 2nd grade, the temptation grew, while faith sometimes went up. actually the heart has been firmly imprinted to say “SAY NO TO COURAN”, but even so the devil is so smart to persuade to do it. One of the real factors why I am tempted to date, but even so the devil is so clever persuaded to do so, because almost 90% of my friends already have girlfriends all. (lots of widihhhh) so easily his demons persuaded me to yaa dating.

One day, I was walking to the cafeteria walking with my friends to the usual cafeteria to fill my hungry stomach, after 6 hours of non-stop study, while on the way, temenku call her name piro she suddenly said “hey ref, it's there is a girl, very beautiful, she's single. araparin, you also don't have a boyfriend yourself right? gini day have no girlfriend? hahaha” taunted the rinto to me. I just laughed a little, well I consider aj Just a regular guyonan even though actually in me there is a love for the girl because she is beautiful, and wants to know her better. within still strong to resist the feeling of not dating, but has begun to grow seeds that intend to date, it is difficult to deny it indeed, but occasionally I fight and can.

Temptation increasingly comes crashing like a tsunami that hit aceh (wihh lebay.. hehe) when a woman named Lita, exactly who met in the cafeteria with my friends first said her friend liked me. the minister said “eh ref, lita likes you, shoot aja tuh. you also like right?” “ahh really? whahuh? I like lita? sotoy you” answered me while hiding my feelings behind my words.

“duhhh do not boongin yourself ref, ni I give you the phone number lita” said temen lita while thrusting a paper containing the number lita.

“ahh what do you do?” answer me, “already accept, later you also need kok” saut temen lita.

Takassa I received a paper containing the number of lita. The first thing that comes to mind is to directly throw the paper into the trash can so that I do not fall into a hole that is negligent is dating.however, I do not, satan was very smart to persuade me to keep the paper, and woala finally right also me klepek-klepek same satan seduction earlier.

Upon arrival at home, I immediately took a cellphone, did not wait for a long time I rushed to enter the number lita to hp, and immediately I also texted him. lita replied to my sms, familiar, and friendly like a very close friend.me and him mutual attention, mutual confide, anyway very deket dah, yes like someone ndeketin someone to be his girlfriend so.

After a few weeks of me and lita smsan, the devil was getting easier to tempt me to shoot lita, the devil said “eh ref tuh, easy target. lita seems to like you, shoot aja, pretty loh, pretty, pretty, rich, etc.” But my heart says “ahh, no, I don't want to model the situation”

Satan again said “loh try aja? you've never tried dating, have you? never been to a sport, have you? very good, later can also be as good as learning mu”

And at this point, I started not being able to think clearly anymore, I began to justify the whisper because yes, lita gave more radar that he liked me, and the easier it was to approach him, the easier it was to get close to him, I thought very briefly.I just kept approaching lita, without thinking there would be a consequence behind the cause.

“when the devil is in power in our hearts”

Until one day when I was walking home from school alone, other friends were having their own events. then the devil whispered to me “hey ref cepetan tuh shoot the lita, surely he wants, hunted. his time is pas loh,” when the devil first whispered the word, so, I can still resist the feeling.but, a few moments later, when lita turned around and said gently and mempeseona “eh aref alone on where?” while smiling sweetly looking at me. automatically I was caught in his sweet smile lita, while stuttering because fascinated, I replied “eee ee, me meereka at have lit event, do not know where.”

“emm, so yes. have you gone home on foot with yuk? same me” said lisa.

“eeeem oookee deh lit” said to me while happy at heart.

“eeh lit I want to say something. can't you?” ask me while holding back the groggy thousand languages? (what do you mean? hehe)

“got dong ref, please say aja” reply lita.

“lit, I love you, will you be my girlfriend?” while holding lita's hand full of romance (suit suit) hehehe

“i was wrong? yes ref, I love you too, and I want to be your boyfriend” lita replied with a shy smile.

Immediately, my heart exploded like a hiroshima nagasaki atomic bomb, and since then more time has been spent with lita, the time used to study, now even more often for smsan, in the past when I did not have a boyfriend when I was made to participate in the study, but now even make a meeting. and there is still much more time wasted just to satisfy the mere lust.In fact, you could say, I am getting away from God, as far as possible, often breaking prayers just to accompany lita go to and fro. astaghfirullah

Although the seem of the two of us have been dating for a long time, going to stay, I myself have not known lita further, and how his real life.we have been dating for 7 months.

Until the time came when the first semester reporting day, coincided also I invite lita meeting because it has been almost 1 week not meeting plans, actually one school but also rarely met, he said, accidentally when walking towards the front gate of the school I saw someone who was not a stranger in my eyes, I again thought who he was because the distance was very far, as I walked slowly closer to the gate, and to his surprise it was my girlfriend's lita! yes he was alone with a man, holding hands, and worse I did not know, obviously maybe not his brother, when lara heart approached, I held him back while waiting for the man to leave.

After the man left, I went to the place I was sitting in, I immediately asked lita who it was, because you are the type of person who is less patient when panicking. “lit who was it?” my many.

“not anyone, let's go, miss the same you” replied lita while holding the hand of aref.

“answer my question first!” my bluff, my bluff,

With a downcast face, lita answered softly and lacking energy “maaf ref, that was my girlfriend, before we dated, I already have a guy, but this wants me to break up for you! promise me!”

By enduring the pain in the heart that struck, I said “ga need! we broke up!” while leaving lita. well I became a broken heart, first time dating, uh immediately digituin. and worse I was also shunned some of my friends for choosing the same meeting lita rather than keeping promises with friends.

“when false love can blind actual love”

arriving at home, my mother's father looked like he was holding a very deep anger, “you all this time why? how can value drop dramatically?” asked my father in a rather high tone.I just kept quiet, while reminding of an incident that I know why my value decreased drastically.I just rushed to the room, contemplating why it could be this way, why, it feels like falling on a very heavy ladder.It feels like how heavy life, heartbreak when the problems are many and complicated hit.

Seen in the corner of my room is a mushaf alqur an, which is a bit dusty because I rarely open since I was dating the same lita, then I took the mushaf to treat the heart because the Qur'an is also the medicine of the hearts of the faithful who read it, yes, the heart feels more comfortable and calm,

There were no tears in my eyes when I remembered that I was most likely to experience something like this because God wanted to rebuke me because I had become distant with HIM because I often forgot HIS command just for meeting people which may not be a good companion for my life.

And since then, I tried to get up or her slang move on, so that my beautiful life used to come back again, re-occupy myself in the youth forum of the mosque, more regular learning, etc. and thank God since I tried to move on, the things that once disappeared from me back, from the achievements that dropped a little for a little bit to rise, friends who used to stay away from me now approaching again, etc. and I consider this event to mean that Allah is always concerned for His lost servant whom Allah wills, and remember that Allah's help is very near.subhanallah :’)