Love Me Because of God

When Love is Spoken

Love is a natural instinct that grows out of every human being. Love is a pure and holy feeling of the heart. The vibe of love sometimes incarnates into a nice knotty smile at the eyes. But not infrequently, love turns into a blaze that burns the body's soul. To love and be loved is the nature of every human being, no one can resist if love has penetrated into the heart. Every human being has loved and been loved. But, whether the love that is in us can bring us closer to Him, or vice versa.

The atmosphere of the dining room was harmonious and quite located, that afternoon looked tense and stiff like never before. His family members are incomplete. There was only a couple and their daughter sitting there. Their eldest son apparently preferred to stay in the room.

“Just mama ga’ likes to see you hanging out again with the boy. You should realize from the beginning that the actions you do are very overdue. What people say out there if they see the daughter of a Hajj, haja turns out to be dating other religious people. Don't you think that what you did was so humiliating and shameful! Anyway if you ga’ want to hear the words mama, will mama move your school.”

The family meeting was soon over when the hostess had issued her decision then hit hard on the table and left. That moment looked like the atmosphere of a real court in Kaisa's eyes. While the father can only encourage by stroking the hair of his beloved daughter. Not long after, Kaisa left the dining room and immediately headed for her private room. Ever since that conversation, not a word came out of his mouth. Now he can only stay at his desk. Think about all the mistakes he has made and figure out how to solve them all.

Kaisa was indeed a kind and obedient child. He always prides both his parents on his achievements and obedience. It is not excessive if he is very spoiled. Moreover, he was only 2 brothers. His older brother is 3 years older than him. He is a man who is less obedient and his achievements are not good. Therefore, Kaisa's parents put more hope in her. So it's no wonder that her parents didn't allow Kaisa to go too far with a guy. Especially that guy is a follower of another religion.

Kaisa herself understood the purpose and purpose of her parents. He himself could not explain how the beginning of his relationship with God, a man called his mother as his girlfriend. In fact, God himself had never expressed any feelings to her. So far, their relationship has flowed naturally without any obstacles. He always feels comfortable being next to that guy. Still clearly remembered by Kaisa when they first met, which is when MOS entered Junior High School. It was the god at that time who acted as the guide's brother. From there, their relationship continues as a friend and friend. There was not the slightest concern in his second heart about the status of their relationship, as they considered it a reasonable relationship. where a person will be able to interact well with others if they find a match with the person. That was how Kaisa felt at that moment. Which in the end, it became a boomerang for him.

Until one day Kaisa hears with her own eyes that God likes her more than just a friend. It was then that Kaisa began to be confused, regretful, but she felt there was another side in her heart that was smiling, excited, clapping happily. At that time, he could not deny that the same feelings befall him. Good-natured god, handsome God, chairman of OSIS, member of Paskibra, idol guy!

That's when those goddamn demons worked. They successfully launched attacks that made Kaisa klepek-clepek, flying high into space. Continue to imagine how perfect life is if God becomes his lover. How the shirk gaze of the girls of one school saw him join hands with God. Deities.. Oh Gods…

“Not...” Kaisa tried to break the wings of the devil who was inviting her to fly high with dreams that were impossible to happen. “This cannot happen. This isimpossible. Me and Lord are different. Different religions, different beliefs.” Kaisa downcast limp, “We won't be able to unite.”

That was the moment when Kaisa first learned the true feelings of God in her. Since then, he has actually started to launch self-evasion actions with the idol guy. But he also could not avoid disagreeing one side of his heart over his actions. At last until this moment he could only be mediocre. He will never know his true feelings either.

“Little by little I will forget about it, even if I can find another girlfriend. But not doing it all at once. Must slowly. Yes, it should be slow.” That was Kaisa's final decision at the time.

Until the accident happened this afternoon which made Kaisa tried by her parents. More precisely by his mother. Accident that happened starting when Kaisa finished the sport, cloudy looks so terrible. It is even certain that the area to the north has been flooded with rain. Kaisa, who was waiting for her brother's invitation, can only grimace and want to cry when she can text from her only brother that she can not pick him up because the motorcycle tire suddenly leaked. Kaisa. Where the other friends have gone home. It was at that time that the God who was then exhausted by the meeting with his cool style and innocent face, offered to take him. Kaisa of course as much as possible refused, but, the circumstances at that time really cornered her. He had absolutely no other choice. Finally the demons were able to laugh happily that afternoon because Kaisa was ushered home with the Lord. Just two. It was a beautiful romantic moment. Evening spatter, falling on the boat, eh wrong ding, on the idol boncengin. Such were the songs of the devil that were pouring down on Kaisa's mind.

The scene was finally seen by Kaisa's mother. The mother who had often heard that her only daughter was close to other religious men at that time immediately boarded the pitan. The highlight was at dinner last night.

In Kaisa's room

Returned the last words spoken by his mother earlier “Just if you ga’ horrified the words of mama, will mama move your school.” Kaisa thought for a moment, “emang how to move my school, not going to be really heavy huh?” He thinks again rearrange the words spoken by his mother earlier so that it becomes more reasonable. “akan mama move your school, eh no, will mama move you from that school, Yes.. that's the answer.” Kaisa smiled in satisfaction not only because she managed to compose her mother's words correctly, but more than that.

“It would be better.” Mumbled

The next day at school

When the first hour of rest arrived, Kaisa was about to go to the cafeteria but suddenly a God appeared and approached her.

“Please open its middle page,” Dewa said in a medium tone but very clearly in Kaisa's ear. After the old man died, Kaisa immediately opened the middle page of the book that had been given by God and, and his love for God when he first found out that God loved him.

I was horrified myself when Brother God told Kak andre that he likes me more than a friend. It feels like a dream, brother God that perfectly likes me. Tp, anyway. I can't deny if I like him too. But.. He is different religions with me, so it is not possible, we are united. whereas I!

It felt like there were nails piercing each other in Kaisa's brain. But then on the same paper the next page is seen the hand carving of God.

Love is a natural instinct that grows out of every human being. Love is a pure and holy feeling of the heart. The vibe of love sometimes incarnates into a nice knotty smile at the eyes. But not infrequently, love turns into a blaze that burns the body's soul. To love and be loved is the nature of every human being, no one can resist if love has penetrated into the heart. Every human being has loved and been loved.

After reading all that Kaisa permission to go home on the grounds of illness. He could no longer bear to linger on his stool. He may have fainted from shock. The feelings that he had been keeping and covering up tightly had been exposed, even directly to his target. He continues to regret his carelessness. He was also unceasingly thinking about the words that the God had written earlier.

After that incident, Kaisa never again met the God. They are seen to keep a distance from each other to make room for their respective hearts to think about all the events and problems that are happening.

Until one day, the news reached the ears of God. After school the Gods approached Kaisa.

“Hai Sa..”

Kaisa was a little surprised to see who greeted her, but she kept trying to control herself.

“hai also sis.”

After their positions were aligned, they continued the chat.

“I heard you want to change schools huh? Is that true?” god brokered Kaisa question

“Yapz,” Kaisa replied with certainty.

“What order?” ask the gods again

“Not in any order ko, let ntar feel good to enter his lecture”. Kaisa gave a fairly reasonable answer.

“Lecture?, also class ten.” God's a little bit mocked.

“Ye..barely eleventh class too right? After all, in the tenth grade, why? No ban?” Kaisa welcomes the ledge of the gods

The atmosphere has begun to melt between these two lovebirds. They then looked for a shady spot on the volleyball court to continue the chat.

“Keep when the plan departs?” the gods began the conversation

This time Kaisa did not answer. After a moment of enjoying the breeze and people passing by he answered the question of the god who had hung.

“Saturday tomorrow.”

The gods were surprised for sure

“not now friday huh, you mean next Saturday time?” he asked again to confirm Kaisa's words.

Kaisa turned her body towards the God and repeated her statement earlier

God finally just believed that he had not heard wrong.

“where did you tell me to move?” tanyanya welcomes the ledge of Kaisa

“Where cake, to the planet Mars also gpp kok”, replied Kaisa origin.

Both of them smiled back in silence. As usual, the Lord started the conversation

“Ko suddenly bgt anyway Neng?”

“Ga suddenly, people have been planned from far away hari”. Kaisa's trying to find an excuse

The god smiled wryly, as if forced

“I'll definitely miss you Sa.”

The demons will again launch their attacks. But Kaisa had anticipated that. He tries not to get carried away and carried away. Finally, to make things easier, he decided to end the meeting, that day, those times together.

Kaisa finally got up from her seat and immediately went home. But, before he did not want to let the guy who always filled the day and his dream was 100% disappointed at his inhuman actions.

“I will also definitely miss big brother ko”.

Those were the last words he painstakingly put out. More or less enough to represent his heart. While the Gods were quite satisfied to hear that statement. A few seconds…

“Kak, I go home first yes, I have to get ready nih.” Kaisa ended the meeting.

“I take ya?” Dewa volunteered, but surely Kaisa refused him “Ga should I pick up papa at the store across there all want to buy snack”.

“O.. yes already so, you are careful there yes, jogja is a city of students who rame right? You must have a lot of new friends there. Don't forget me! I won't change my number to.” The god conveys his final message and aspirations to Kaisa.

“OK to be sorted.” Kaisa replied as she passed away.

That's how Kaisa finally stepped out of that school. Even more than that he left behind all the mistakes he had ever made. Start everything from the beginning. Indeed, after realizing everything, Kaisa considers the love story she had experienced was a big mistake that should not be repeated again.

3 Years later

Kaisa seems busy cleaning her practicum tools in the laboratory of a famous public university in Yogyakarta. He looked very painstaking and carefully cleaned and inserted the tools into the preparation room. It also seems that some of his colleagues are doing the same. After moving to Yogyakarta Kaisa completed her SMU education, and continued studying at UGM Pharmacy. No wonder that every day he had to spend at least 2 hours in the laboratory.

“Sa, today you are going to start Net ga?” for a moment Kaisa turned her head and watched her interlocutor. “Of course Ka, any problems?”

“Eng, I think ga’ can anterin you today, coz I have to go to school Dina to take the report card. My mom called Dina ga’ to take coz must say there is my neighbor who died, gi where donk?” Kaisa just smiled “Yaudah, let me alone, you to the skulnya Just there! Ntar late again”. Ika still felt bad but Kaisa hurriedly pushed her body outside the lab.

After Ika's departure, a friend of her study group, Kaisa immediately continued her task of cleaning practicum tools. Not long after that he immediately moved to do other tasks, namely taking on group assignments in print at the rental behind campus. Kaisa sped up her pace as the weather looked increasingly cloudy. Only he would approach his Vario in the parking lot, the rain finally fell quite profusely. Kaisa temporarily abandoned her intentions. He took shelter in the courtyard of the hall not far from the parking lot. He opened the bag and was a little grateful for not forgetting to bring an umbrella. He then sat down for a moment thinking how to immediately get to the start of the Net. Especially as the day gets late afternoon. He was afraid that the rental was closed, but the task must be collected tomorrow morning. Had he not stayed at the college rental, he could have taken up his duties at night. But, equally, all this time he as much as possible avoid going out at night. “Ugh...” error.

In the middle of her heartache, Kaisa sees Mila, the architect's son who seems to be going home. There was little hope for him. “Mil, you want to go home?” the veiled girl Kaisa greeted immediately approached her but Kaisa instead hurriedly approached her first. “Iya, I want to go home, you alone?” Kaisa conveyed her intention “Actually I want to take the task at Start Net, but like it's not possible to use a motor deh, I'm walking with you aja ya.” “OK deh.” Answer Mila for sure.

They walk down the street talking. Right at the intersection they split up. Now Kaisa is walking alone. Not a few later, he was close to the rental. I hope the rental is not too late. When he saw there were several motorcycles and a car on his page, he had complained, “hopefully ga long nih.” Finally he intends to just go in so that everything is sorted out quickly. Right in front of the entrance when he was folding his umbrella, there was a pair of eyes that from a few minutes ago were watching him, and when he turned around…

“Kaisa's…

It feels like a flash back of film playback with a backward groove. Moments where Kaisa is new to the world. When he is ready to step on his own. He met a handsome and kind prince. The prince always accompanied her. Fill her beautiful day with jokes, laughter, and faithfulness. He finds love and compassion in a heartfelt, pure, and holy relationship. The relationship that ultimately makes the two human children must end everything. A forbidden relationship that cannot continue. Even then, the seeds of love that had grown and almost developed were not fully able to be trashed by the girl. It takes effort and hard work to do it. Yes, it's not as easy as turning the palm of the hand. Faith and faith are always strengthened. But remember, those damned demons will never stop their attacks.

“Kak Dewa,” Kaisa blurred her voice after a moment of silence.

In his heart he regretted the meeting. “Why God?, so soon You brought us together?, I was not ready God. But, help me to deal with it.” After a long time the two people looked at each other, now they try to control themselves. Just like before, the Gods had always been the ones who initiated the conversation.

“You seen many changes Sa”. For the first time Dewa commented on Kaisa's new appearance. Indeed, after changing schools and parting with the Gods within 4 years, there have been quite a lot of changes in Kaisa. Be it the outer changes that are now being seen by the gods, or the changes from within the beautiful girl. Now he has veiled, wearing clothes that do not form the body. Looks more caring izzah and attitude. He has now become a Muslimah or rather always trying to become a true Muslim. Since the end of his forbidden love story with the guy in front of him, he is more careful in this one business. He further deepened his religious beliefs. He wants to redeem everything. He gave all his life and love to God alone. Yes, only to him. He is the true owner of true love.

“Kakak also looks different Brother, how is it?” for the first time Kaisa started the conversation since the two were long in silence.

“Yes, as you can see now, I'm a good, healthy walafiat. You alone?”.

“I'm fine Brother. Oia, I'm studying here you take pharmacy.” Kaisa was trying to melt the atmosphere.

“Oya, finally your ideals sameness too. I'm glad to hear it.” The gods try to behave as reasonably as possible. Though his heart was as ungodly as Kaisa's now. Maybe even more so.

“Kakak himself has any business here?” Kaisa asked again.

“I'm just on vacation at my cousin's house. It just so happens that he is in college now. While waiting for him, I was just talking.”

“Oh,” for a moment both went silent. It was at times like these that the damned demons were trying to get into Kaisa's mind. But Kaisa is now different from the old Kaisa. Kaisa who is now more rigid and mature. More able to control lust. So even if the demons tease him, God willing, he will survive.

“You look beautiful and mature with your current appearance Sa,” Dewa again makes a sound.

“So can't do it, thank you. He also looks handsome and mature. Aren't we adults now?”

Both smiling.

Not a few later, the brief meeting of the 2 human children ended. They return to their lives. Kaisa walked the path of her life. In his heart he smiled proudly happily. He began to accept reality and open his heart that this is the way now. The goals and ideals of life are increasingly clearly displayed in front of him.

“This is me, I am Your servant. I am the caliph of this earth. I am the successor to the ideals of Mother Aisyah. I am the successor of Siti Hadijah's struggle. I am yours. My life and death are for you. Everything is in your grasp. So I Alwasys love U Rab. my Truly Love..