Love Me Because of God

Mujahid is in love

My phone rang an incoming call sign, Andi incoming call on my phone's LCD screen. It turns out that my cousin was that!

I lift, “Assalmu’alaikum Ndi?”

“Wa’alaikumussalam mbak! Piye kabare mbak Rahma?” the voice of a brother across there, Andi; my cousin's sister whom I love the most.

“Alhamdulillah deck! What's wrong Ndi, magrib gini you called?”

“I want to spend!” whining. Andi is like that to me, according to him no one can understand him other than his sweet cousin's brother hehe :’)

Whenever there was a problem Andi always came to me, whether it was venting or asking to help him solve the problem, or what was it. because I know and I really understand my cousin's sister. He was born as an only child with no brother or sister. Before Andi moved to Mataram, Andi lived in my house. We were close since childhood because Andi from small “dititip” on my parents. Not without reason Om Rahman and Aunt Bety (andi's parents) entrust their children. As far as I used to know Andi's parents worked odd jobs, so his son was pinned on my parents.

Apart from the story of Andi, I tried to ask about what made my beloved sister's heart gray.

‘Ndi, what's the problem?” my many.

“I'm in love again mbak, and I'm in a big dilemma!” the answer without hesitation.

“What? In love?” ask me to convince myself that what I just heard was not wrong. Andi answered my question. I gawked at it. Which woman made my sister's heart hit by the arrow of romance that so made it in the arms of the dilemma.

True this is a dilemma, I alone who is older than him have never felt love, and I do not want to love a real creature is still not lawful to me. Why Andi can be so yes.which demon has grabbed him so that he dared to fall in love.

“Ndi? Which woman has captured your heart?” my search.

“She's a schoolmate, she's a beautiful person mbak.. she's her son kalem..ndak neko–neko! That's what makes me love him!” obviously at length.

“Ndi? You are not aware! Ndi Ndebut.. Speak!”

“Lho it is me why to mbak! Wrong if I fall in love?”

I was silent about it. Andi continued with a reason.

“Where is my fault? You know, I'm human just like you. Because I'm not a robot! I understand that we are wrong to love someone who is not lawful to us. But how God has bestowed a “rasa” for us. What I think is unique, I do not want to bury it until it rusts, I want to use it to love a servant so beautiful in my eyes, and it also expresses gratitude for the grace that God has given.”

“And your eyes have been covered by the blank sheets of night, so dark that even a speck of light is invisible to your two clear eyes. If you fall in love with someone who is not yet lawful to you, do you understand how Godly you feel for His love!”

“Mbak, Wallohi! I was just using the taste God had given me, and I was just dating.!”

“What? Just some! That easy you say? Darling.. love does not mean you have to date!”

“Andi, male–laki sholeh that does not invite his loved ones to date but directly walimah. When you fall in love, then your heart that was originally only contained the name of God in it will have to be replaced by the name of a woman who is not necessarily halal for you. Your mind will continue to think of the person you love, whereas in the past you always remembered God in every sigh of your breath. Now you miss a woman who is not halal for you, not like before when you continue to chant nasyid–nasyid longs for the Allohu rabb. Are you going to keep doing that?”

“Mbak!”

“Andi. mbak love you deck, mbak do not want your heart, mind and feelings disturbed by the presence of women who are still not halal for you. Focus Ndi, he said you want to become a mujahid,. masa’ mujahid kayak gini!”

“Mbak, then the solution how?”

“Stop all this pseudo-play, break the ties that hold you back with it!”

“But mbak!”

“Mbak knows it will be very painful, but try to think about.sihat at the beginning is still not how much suffering compared to regret in the future, however much you tie the heart that you love, if not, then it will also be lost! Well you better let go of that bond, let God's scenario determine the path of life. If indeed the soul mate will definitely meet, we must be optimistic about the future that has been carried by the time!”

I'll continue back

“Andi dear.the true brother will not allow himself to be the third person among the closeness of his loved ones with his god. Not also become a thorn in the heart of the person he loves.not also become gray in the life of the person he loves. And not also be a ghost that runs through the minds of loved ones. Well choose where? Break up or continue to be the third person?”

“Ah.. mbak like it!” lamented Andi.

“Lho.. koq mbak anyway! Now how, it's up to you! Even you who fuss, the mujahid is not this crybaby. Cobak Andi thought again, just so this Andi was already heavily smelted, eat ati lah.. what is it. what if it had been a year. two years.... how many cobak already You have eaten? How many sacrifices have you made. The uncertain wait whether at the end of the story will be happy like Cinderella or vice versa,.. Think deck! Your age is still young to think of such things–hal, your da'wah spirit is still needed this religion.. He said he wanted to be a true Mujahid.?!” light up with a little bit of his teasing.

“Iya. yes.. Andi will try it, Andi will break him! Andi is a true Mujahid.” lack of spirit.

“That donk! His name is Andi Khaerul Umam the true Mujahid.!”.

“Terus.. if mbak Rahmaku dear, when would you marry him?” the question that made me flinch.

“Andi... You are always alone! Your work continues!”

“Cieh.. ramble! Andi cariin ya mbak!”

Tut. tut. tut.. immediately closed, the basic tuh the most doyang Andi seduced me. Not directly when I meet eh. by phone too! But really what he said, until this moment I am not married, even though I am young but. anxiety often comes ambush when I know friends– my age has married, but my age is still young, even the last word I heard of Ukhty Izah has given birth.

There was indeed a hint of envy when hearing all of that. But I may not force myself to get married while the dream mujahid has not yet been seen coming. Just be patient.g ga what–apa koq, besides that I still have a lot of time to love God completely, without anyone touching the heart, mind and feelings. Allah knows what is best for us, although in each temple–bait do’a there is always hope to meet the mujahid but God has arranged everything perfectly and neatly. I believe God has prepared something special for me one day. Because I know that God is a creator full of love.