Love Me Because of God

Dusk Dipadang Ilalang

The twilight today is so beautiful, the breeze is so melodious followed by the gentle dance of the weeds. This atmosphere reminds me of what happened two years ago before I was hospitalized for a coma. Somehow my life immediately changed drastically 360° like hypnotized by dedi corbuzier. Just a word said by the hooded girl, my heart was immediately torn apart like a tsunami that attacked Aceh at that time. The soft sound, and the green-colored veil toyed by the wind made the elegance of a divine girl. I remember when I was 16, not yet in the adult category for a man like me. That's when my curiosity about everything came about one by one eating away at my life. What should not be done, I was forced to do because of my curiosity about new things that could harm myself.

It was under an acacia tree near a stretch of thatch not far from the village where uncle and aunt lived, I took my heartache out on my parents who never cared about me. Every time I get frustrated with the problems I face and no one cares about me, it's the illegal drugs that always accompany me and become my true friend. It is difficult to escape the influence of the demon pill that makes my body weak helpless when the medicine is not consumed by me. I was rushed to the hospital and almost my life was drifting because of the demon pill, but maybe God still wants to see me alive and can repent in his way.

At that time I was in a state of SAKAU alias (Sick Because Putau) because I did not consume the demon pill because the pocket money given by my father was not enough to buy it. Finally, I was in a state of chaos and continued to run confused and frustrated, accidentally I was lost in a village not far from the city where I live. At that time I was drooping, the body felt sore like a sharp knife sliced. Because I could not lay my body under the acacia tree near the beautiful field of weeds. It was like screaming out loud to ask for help for people to come help me, but what a word of power is hard to get out of this mouth. I can only resign to my situation now, suddenly there is a girl in a green veil approaching me. “adik, are you okay?” ask the girl in a soft voice. I don't know why my body seems energetic after hearing the girl's voice, with a calm and shady feeling seeing the look in her eyes I can also answer her question. “I need your help, I need your help, take me to the hospital I'm not strong!”. The girl had said something and left me, but I was half conscious so that what she said was not so clear I heard.

From that moment on I can no longer remember what I have been through, the person who helped me and the person who took care of me. But when these eyes opened after a long time closed because in the doctor's verdict I fell into a coma, all I saw in front of my eyes was an empty room with the smell of drugs so stinging in my nose. “it feels like I just died, why should anyone help me should I be left to die in that place rather than me alive but no one cares about me”. I thought to myself with great concern about my situation now. “It turns out the sister has realized yes?”, the voice of a woman who suddenly surprised me. It turned out that the woman was a nurse in the hospital where I was treated. “iya mbak”, I answered briefly because my condition was still weak. “Alhamdulillah well deck, finally you realize also after a long time lying coma”. Said the nun who was looking at me with pity.

“Sus... sus... ter, I want to ask sister”. “Sorry dek..not that I do not want to be asked but the condition is still weak and still need intensive care so the question should be saved only, later when the condition has improved then the question I ladeni”. replied the nurse with a sweet smile to me. “Oh... thanks a lot sus..ter”, “sama-sama deck. Meningan now adek rest first so that his condition improves”, said the nurse before she left. Slowly my condition gradually improved, the time it took me a long time until my condition was completely stable. I'm glad the time finally came when my question to the nurse was answered already. Almost half an hour the nurse told me about the incident I had experienced from the beginning I was treated in this hospital until now. It turned out that the green-hooded girl was a helper for me. I thought he didn't care for me but it turns out he went to seek help from the villagers.

One year and seven months I was in a coma, I knew all this from Sister Rina's story that had been taking care of me until I woke up from a coma. After waking up from the coma it took me 5 months to recover. It turned out that I had been lying in this bed for two years without being able to do anything about it. Today is precisely the date.This is the day that has been scheduled by the doctor to release me home. After saying goodbye to the doctor and the nurses in the hospital, especially Sister Rina, I stepped out in the hope that I would set foot in the hospital for the last time. In a hurry I wanted to go home and hug my parents. Although until now they had not paid much attention to me but at least they were the ones who had raised me and financed me until now. I want to apologize to them, because I have done so much wrong.

The atmosphere of the house that I missed turned out to not change at all, remained quiet and only the sound of squid mbok always decorate it. I was confused because I forgot my own room when my room was my personal paradise. It was in that room that I often shared with my true friends that illegal drugs. I slowly opened my room, I peeked at the gap little by little nothing changed still like two years ago. I can't wait to lay this body on a soft mattress whose bed sheets have been replaced with sheets of inter milan logo image, my favorite football club. Mbok Sumi already know that today I can go home, so mbok sumi directly replace my bed sheets with my favorite sheets. I stared at each of my rooms nothing special, but something caught my eye. A pink letter turned out to be a wedding invitation. I opened the invitation with curiosity, word by word I read carefully. But I was still confused by the invitation, suddenly a piece of photo fell from the package of the invitation.

I've been traveling around all day looking for the girl, but I haven't had any information about her whereabouts. I finally decided to go home and look for him tomorrow morning. Today was exhausting, but I won't give up. “I have to find the girl even though I have to go around the contents of this world even though”, said Rio optimistically. That night Rio was so agitated that he could not sleep thinking about the girl. The girl he had been looking for, it would soon belong to someone else.

The next day when the sun greeted me with a warm smile, I continued my search which had been stopped by the darkness of the night. Kawasaki ninjaku who was ready to accompany me, now drove at high speed like a GP moto racer who competed at speed in the race arena. From one city to another I searched but found no trace of the girl. Until now there was no result that I got, only a sense of fatigue lodged in my body that is still weak. Twilight was already in the dispute, I turned the direction towards a place that always gave me a sense of tranquility. “Rio... Where are you going, you don't want to stop at uncle's house?” shouted uncle when I saw me passing in front of his house. “I want to go to the hill of the thatch near the river uncle, I will stop by” for a while. Said Rio while reducing the speed of the motor he was driving. From a distance rio saw the figure of a veiled girl who was dancing around enjoying the beautiful twilight at that time. The closer the position of Rio with the place the wider the smile on his lips. He was sure that the girl he was seeing right now was Zahra he had been looking for all along.

“Hay... You remember me?” rio said with a big smile at the girl. “Waalaikum greetings warahmatullahi wabarakatu. insya Allah I still remember” replied the girl in a soft voice. I still looked at the smile from the girl, so soothing. To the extent that these eyes did not blink seeing such a beautiful smile for the second time I saw that smile. “Afwan kanda, it is not appropriate for kanda to stare like this, because it can make an eye for us both”. I suddenly came out of my sight, because of the words that came out of the little girl's mouth. I don't know what he said that was clear I don't understand what he said. Spontaneously I laughed out loud while saying “sorry..I do not understand what you said earlier” said Rio who misbehaved in front of the girl. I held out my hand and was about to meet her, but she just smiled sweetly while sticking her hands together and putting them in front of her chest. “Afwan... We are not muhrim” said the girl briefly.

The twilight was so beautiful, adorned with a sweet smile and a white veil that danced in the wind. For almost an hour I had a conversation with the girl, there was so much I could learn from her words. Not a single word of harshness came out of his mouth. It was only the word Subuhanallah that he deserved for flattery for a girl like her. That word I cheat of the girl, an angel of the world who is not dark eyes with the life of the world. “Afwan... kanda, dusk is almost leaving us. It is time to go home because it will soon enter the time of prayer magrib”. Zahra said as she stood up and left. I also stood up while rushing to follow in his footsteps, “Zahra... I forgot, I want to meet you to say thank you very much for your help at that time”. “Sama-sama” said Zahra briefly adorned with a sweet smile on her lips. Since then Rio never met Zahra again, maybe it was the last meeting between the two of them. Because after Zahra married an ustadz choice of his parents he had to leave his hometown and immigration to the country of Neiran Malaysia following her husband who got a job there.

Zahra is my helper who was deliberately sent by God to straighten the path of my life. Thanks to the advice of zahra which for me so short turned out to bring a myriad of knowledge. Even though my meeting with him was very short but I am grateful that my life can change thanks to him. As great as Ustadz Jefri spoke, not as good as Zahra's advice to me at that time. Now I realize the world is only a temporary place of rest, and the hereafter is eternal. From now on what Zahra said then, I will apply it to my life and I will share my experience with those closest to me. I still remember the words Zahra “the more we share knowledge with others, the more worship charity that God will give us”. Rio said to mbok sumi as he told about his religious experience with Zahra the girl of his dreams.