Love Me Because of God

Keep It First

“I beg you to forgive me..”

Viby put his fingers in Husna's hands. Spontaneously Husna tried to avoid holding the hand, avoiding the husna hand separating the two men, Husna and Viby. Unexpectedly and unlike in soap operas that are usually a man running to relieve the anger in the heart of his dream woman, Viby himself ran into the school corridor, away from the husna with tears in his eyes, unstoppable, the asanas were too strong that he had to wet his cheeks.

“Cowok ko nangis, sissy lo..!” the sound at the end of the corridor broke the turmoil of viby hearts, accompanied by the terrible moss green shoes like buried for millions of years.

“Who are you?” viby's narrow eyes get smaller trying to sharpen his vision to people who only look silhuetnya, formed from the blinding light of the eyes.

“hahaha.. Viby, inget lo position in this school tuh head of OSIS want to be accompanied tuh wibawa lo kalo sampe children at school on know if the chairman of OSIS his cengeng kaya lo..”

“Tommy... That's you right?” the man's voice began to be familiar in the ears of viby, yes Tommy viby's closest friend.

“Yoi masbro, why else? Can mess up the reputation of a Tommy if the best friend of the cave ketauan saltwater clearance,”

“What lu tom, so you prestige his story has my rich friend?”

“jiah elu vib, do not know I strung the word is very difficult so you kaga nangis. Bro lu tu cow men, inget!!! A friend ga will be willing and ga will be resistant to clay his own best friend slumped rich gini.”

“Tumben lo, dapet vocabulary about friends from where? Haha, talk to me about stuttering,”

“eits don't get me wrong, I'm hard-earned words from the book imprisoned Husna, which is The secret what is hard… it used to be a girl-girl acquaintance of mine, hahaha,”

“Severe luh..” bitter smile painted on the lips viby back looks moody when thrown the name Husna in Tommy's speech.

“Well, napa lo moody again. Very cheerful at the moment. Is it not because of Husna's name?”

“Tuh you know,”

“Well, why else would you? Not yet you express your feelings to Dia?”

“That's exactly..”.

“Defused? Hemm... I join ngenes bro!” tommy patted viby's shoulder.

“Kalo I rejected, I will not be rich gini-gini very.”

“La continue?”

Viby started telling Tommy everything starting with his story on a Sunday night with a box of bugs.

“Since the satnight, when I ventured to his house bring a box of bug biscuits his attitude so changed, even though it was the time that received his mother, so he did not come out. He started to get away from me, yeah, but he didn't look at it. We're an organization, but his attitude can't lie. As usual we still like sms-an, and a week it was really a phase that was not comfortable for me, in the real world he began to keep my distance, I, though that was just the beginning I signaled by giving him a cake. In sms he was different. And it was time for Saturday night when I dared to text him about this feeling. I waited a minute two minutes, an hour and two hours finally drowsiness usher me to dreamland.”

“stop stop, to the point only again, so what's the end. Don't tell me you want to tell me your dream again,”

“santei dong masbro.. please patiently horrify me,”.

“oke. How else then?” Tommy tried to strengthen his eye defenses so as not to fall asleep, anticipation viby story to and fro, viby habits if again vent. Viby continued his story of what happened the next week, when his eyes opened the first thing he did was clear, without thinking his hands were creeping around the area around his bed, YES! All he did was look for a mobile phone, his heart was racing as if there was a great hope of Husna's name in the Inbox phone.

Hem..unlock and then press the star. Taraaaaaa.. appears red and white flag wallpaper image on HPnya, does not overlap with any message. Unfortunately, there was no reply from Husna. Restless, embarrassed, sad, disappointed began to fill his mind at that moment. The off button pressed it with all its might, hovering the HP and landing among the scattered pillows. Thinking hard, he did not want Husna to stay away from him, which was in the mind of viby, Husna did not want the existence of the viby heart to stop in the heart of husna. Behold.a small sigh from his heart. Getting up and taking water wudlu is the thing to treat the pain in his heart.

“Assalamu’alaikum.. Assalamu’alaikum.” greeting after prayer is heard from a small mushala near the room viby, a faithful timepiece sounds back, indicating exactly three in the morning. Viby walked out of the mushala, swarmed with curiosity to unlock its HP. Perhaps Husna had slept last night and in the tahajud he always woke up. A step, ah he undoes his intentions. The shadow of disappointment haunted his mind. He still remembers the first time his HP rang exactly at 02.30 wib, that day for him was so special when he was going to participate in the basketball championship in the region of Bandung he got a text from Husna for the first time when he sat in class VII Junior High School, which contained “Sholat tahajud first yu, yu, in order to be able to smooth when his match..” is really happy not to play. The first sms from Husna, a woman they called the Muslimah the dream of the brothers. How sweet! The Muslimah now serves as the head of the spiritual sect at OSIS. He is also the coordinator and driver of ROHIS for the children at SMPN 23 Antapani, Bandung. How not, from the start of class VII, viby already harbored his feelings for Husna. All those memories really broke his heart. Until finally in the bench of class VIII is viby reveal his heart that is not reciprocated from Husna.

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Tommy nodded his head, though,

“woy Tom, sleeping lo..? I'm a long story ga you dengerin,”

“huaa.. viby masbro, like my gut feeling. The bonus story is mostly. Sleepy cave,”

“tega is really luh,”

“yowis, keep positive thinking viby masbro, maybe not yet time he reciprocated lo. haha” love

“He is different..”.

—

Sms reply from husna never come, of course HPnya off by viby. However,

Sunday, July 9, 2009 at 16:43 WIB. Viby thumb presses the power button to turn on for mobile viby which then still ininizialiting SIM. 2 minutes passed viby continues to look at the wallpaper phone. *tuttenenett* that's roughly the sound of HP Viby hinting there's a text coming in. Viby rushed to unlock the hp button, clearly emblazoned with the name husna on the screen hp viby, the excitement of his heart beat the movement of the harlem shake as cool as it was. Slowly but surely, the thumb of the viby does its job to open the text so that the contents are known by the eye. And open sms it, sms from husna:

“Bismillah…

Viby forgive husna.”

Although Viby knew Husna's intentions were undermining his hopes, he was M E N O L A K V I B Y .

However, viby still replied to Husna sms :

“iya husna, I understand. Sorry if I was sassy. Why is husna apologizing? Husna need not apologize. It should be Viby who apologizes to Husna, I beg pardon me, I don't want Husna away, I'm sorry L”

Again came Husna's reply,

“what do you mean vib? Sassy? Why why anyway? No, husna apologized for with a heavy heart tomorrow husna could not participate in the peski event, even though it was the responsibility of husna. Husna was not well, and Husna had to see a doctor. So also convey the husna request to another friend, afwan (sorry),”

Viby doesn't understand why Husna didn't even talk about the text viby sent last night. Viby began to be disappointed, angry and misbehaved. He instantly turned off his HP back. Until Monday morning, at the school Viby did not see Husna, in his little heart he mendo’ Husna soon recover. Evening and night time there is no text from Husna. Restless continuously in mind viby, mathematics as his favorite lesson he left a moment, because mathematics can not be collaborated with deep turmoil. *JLEB

Tuesday morning, Viby left for school with no spark on his face. The class sister who admired him also lost the joy of the head of OSIS at his school. Viby bowed his head, continued and continued until he finally arrived at the classroom. The viby class is next to the Husna class. That morning Viby had a raid assignment. Husna was able to enter the school and take part in the task, they passed by. Husna gave a smile but only a bitter smile from viby's face.

Tuesday afternoon, when the entire OSIS gathers a mandatory routine meeting every week.

“Assalamu’alaikum.” husna and meymey appear late to attend the collection of OSIS.

“Wa’alaikumsalam, where have you been?” Viby's question looks even more cynical.

“Sorry viby we were called ma'am goddess for the event yesterday peski,” replied Husna.

“Viby ga nanya Husna, but viby tanya meymey. Lagian Husna did not attend the peski event yesterday. Why should follow involved evaluation, husna rest only, if the pain will be troublesome,” viby eyes can not see husna.

Husna did not understand why such a viby attitude to Husna, obviously the words made husna heart tattered. Husna simply fell silent, his eyes fixed to the floor.

“Vib, sorry if because yesterday husna sick continue not to participate in the event, should viby be that angry? Husna does not want to viby angry, again please forgive Husna” [successfully sent to Viby 085220230620, Monday 10 July 2009 at 15.45] A moment later reply to text from viby…

“ya... but all that makes husna do not understand and sad when viby attitude is not like usual”

“sorry yes, husna healthy? emmm... husna, back then there was a text from viby?”

“which time? Thank goodness healthy”

“night last week, really husna didn't know about it?”

“sms which vib? Mean what? About what?” Husna was getting less and less understood. Viby was even more clueless, in the sent box when it was said to have sent a message that night.

“you sure husna? No text from me? Or are you just pretending you don't know? I know I'm not what you expected L” to be

“Husna increasingly do not understand vib, about the organization? At night time husna week does not hold a mobile phone, the phone is in Ayah”

Handled tightly Viby mobile phone, his father? Could the sms be erased? for a moment his eyes looked at the ceiling full of colorful rubber star patches. “Should I repeat? That night alone took a high degree of courage” implied in viby's mind.

“husna... I once read the prophet's hadith it is explained that the Prophet said to a man: if you love him then say” Viby only reply to husna questions like that.

As soon as he read those words, husna's eyes sharpened. DON'T-DON'T YOU? Husna's heart suspected something would be revealed by viby. He tried to stabilize his feelings.

“Lantas what does viby mean to tell you about the hadith?”

With no longer thinking, Viby immediately replied to Husna with courage.

“Viby .. love husna, viby love same Husna and this love really drowned in the heart of viby all this time, since Husna was still in a red and white uniform with a ribbon veiled husna when MOS. I remember when our computer teacher said we had something in common. Husna this feeling I really can't contain anymore, that viby really loves husna from the heart of viby that is as deep as it is just for a husna, a woman who is so different.”

Huh.he finally revealed as well.

Meanwhile Husna was pensive, the inner conflict that struck his heart like a meteor war and other celestial bodies, such was his imagination after reading his space book. His face flushed red, the temperature of his hands dropped drastically. The mystery of his heart was still not revealed, he was so afraid. Astagfirullah, pat him on the cheek. “Husna, come on.. manage your heart” Husna trying to stabilize. “I do not trust you Vib” he said ketus in his solitude in the room 5 x 6 meters it. Soon he replies to viby's message.

“Keep husna should how viby?” ask husna plain.

“masa husna do not understand, like other teenagers. How does husna respond to viby's feelings? I'm sorry viby has been sassy and already said this.”

“I understand you mean, viby.. I like you too. (*viby face excited, good start. Viby continued to read the text from Husna*..) However, my tribe towards you is the same as my tribe towards Tommy, Indah, Fauzy and other friends. Especially about yourself with academic and non-academic achievements. Husna likes all that. Yes but, like husna only to that extent, husna can not exceed all that. Viby Husna's best friend during this time, husna loved all his best friends husna.”

Husna stopped talking there.

“...” Speechless, viby is unable to speak anymore, in other words Husna refused it.

Uhuh. Husna sighed. His eyes sparkled, thickened by water. Sukhuwah's disease that he had been afraid to shadow his heart. “I know it is not your random faith, but it must dwarf my main faith,” said husna accompanied the irrigation around the area of her cheeks reddened.”

“thank you Husna for your response. Wassalam..” answer viby briefly. Husna knew, viby must be disappointed, attention viby who had been feeling, viby attitude that sometimes strange, unnatural behavior, APPARENTLY? It's love. Love, a series of five different letters. Never try to string all the letters together if you do not understand how to respond to the words produced when everything has been assembled.

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“Woy Vib, jiah even go to bed. Where did he tell. Build woy vib, already want Ashar nih,”

The gentle breeze was still loyal and then passed in the corridor. Viby who was sound asleep released all his memories of husna after they both did not greet each other also the events of hands off at the beginning was the last time they communicated on that day.

“Shodakallahul’adzim.” Husna closed Al-qur’annya after the duha study that morning. Meymey.

“Na, what do you want to write?” looking at the husna who took out a binder with the picture of Angry Bird from his bag.

“Surat” Answer is short.

“Hah? My gut feeling was meant for Viby, did you change your mind about how you felt? Beware na, do not let your heart get close to zina,” unexpectedly meymey hurl words a friend intended to remind Husna. Meymey is more innocent than husna, childish nature is still attached to him, but for religious affairs he is so eager to deepen it.

Husna turned his head and saw meymey, husna changed the position of his head which from earlier lowered. Just a blank stare thrown husna, powerless to see meymey. Until he finally finished his writing. The letter of Husna:

For viby

On-Site

Bismillah…

Viby, there are a few things I want to say.

Firstly,

Regarding the hadith, I also read, but there is a description. The Prophet at that time his position with a man, he said “ya apostleullah, my friend was very close to Allah. I really love him because Allah” whereas what he calls a friend is a man too. So the point is, a Muslim can tell his feelings and if he loves someone then tell him. Love there is not lust love, but love over awe about kindness. May say love, but for example from the Brotherhood (male) to the brotherhood, from akhwat to akhwat (female). Even if you want to say that love to the opposite sex, say to many people not only focused on him.

Second, ich,

In the depths of my heart, hidden holy hope, you need not see it. No need for words. Staying away from you is my way of replying to the poignant urge from my little heart. Although I am determined to express my feelings, it should still be drowned here in my little heart, but your wait for me all this time, I really appreciate. if you choose, I will wait until the time comes. Now is not the time, I will repay your love. Verily, Allah is the One who knows the heart of every servant. Waiting for me is limited in time.

Bandung, July 12, 2009

Husna

Husna folded the letter, and hurried away. Meymey stopped husna's move, though,

“apa Mey? I just want to give you my last letter to improve my friendship with him,”

“Didn't that say a signal or code for viby that you indirectly express your feelings?”

Husna jerks. Meymey continued her words “Will you let the feeling continue to flow in the heart of viby, thinking of yourself who has not been halal for him in the waiting of viby? We are still SMP na, far from thinking there, our feelings are still rightly called abal-abal love which is very minimal in benefits. Can you wait so much?”

Husna hugged meymey, and slipped the letter in her diary, let it be stored there. While Viby with his basketball in control of the court, Husna and Meymey passed the basketball court.

“Husna..!” viby shouted to stop his basketball drible. Husna looked towards the viby, looking,

“Come make a proposal LCC yes,” said viby with sweat adorning his cheerful smile.

“Iya ready to do..”

“it seems that he was not so bad, why you had to fall na,” whispered meymey gave a code for Husna to forget it.

“Husna? Anti Galau. Haha” J while running.

“Hemm Chase husna. Viby hid his smile.