Love Me Because of God

The Best Gift for Wardah

“Saur saur saur”

The sound of people waking up the saur with the sound of a fart making wardah awake. The clock has been showing at 03.30 around the time. Wardah got up from her sleep, started with do’a and folded the blanket that hugged her while sleeping. He immediately went to the bathroom in his room. His family said the family is well-equipped so it is not surprising that each room is equipped with various facilities, not least the bathroom.

Wardah immediately entered the bathroom doing his wish in continuing ablution with all its sunnahs perfectly. Just as he was leaving the bathroom, his door was knocked by his ashes.

“tok tock, wake up wardah. It's half-four o'clock, it's late.”

“labok abi's. Wardah is already well. Pray first. Abi sama umi sahur then later wardah nyulus.”

Wardah also continued his activities, berasbih, conversing, and glorifying the Asma of God.

He prayed two raka’at with the intention of praying witir, praying qodoil hajah, istikharah and absolute sunnah prayer. He knows, to do prayer as much as it takes extra energy and longer time. The time to stay for a while. It just extends do’ it. I don't know what he asked and said to God. He was so solemn’, raising his hands with tears streaming down his smooth cheeks. He knows only he is with his God.

After being satisfied to have revealed his heart to the kholiq, he tidied up the mucus he was wearing and immediately headed to the family dining room to sahur together.

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“bismilbornrahmannirrahim. Qul huwallahu ahad” alikhlas surah alikhlas in kumandangkan beginning wirdullatif reading led by ustad zainuddin, his brother wardah after morning prayers berjama’ah. Wardah, umik and his sisters followed the abah's reading with khusyu’. They are used to wirid berjama’ah like this. They know the wirids taught by old people are very powerful to grant all their wishes and protect themselves from various dangers, whether it be from humans or jinn. If there are family members not following the wirid then the abah, ustad zainuddin looking everywhere until met. Then he punished by not being given pocket money for 2 days.

After the wirdullatif and the other wirid are finished reading, they continue by reading the alqur’an together, alternating and listening to each other until the clock shows about half 6 am. Then they continue their own activities. Ustad zainuddin himself usually went directly to his personal library which he had built starting he was still a santri in the lodge of the salafiyah sunniyah boarding school. He did not tire of repeating the lessons he had learned while studying there. The wife prepares breakfast for her children. And the children of ustad zainuddin all prepare to go to school except wardah. He is no longer in school, only he is still a santriwati in azzahra’ hut, a branch of the salafist sunniyah pesantren for the women. It has been 2 weeks this wardah is at home because it is on cottage holiday. Tomorrow is the last day of the holiday, the day after the cottage has been active again like normal days.

“Tok tok” wardah room door was knocked by uminya when he was busy smsan with his friends.

“wardah, are you inside? Your brother wants to talk to you in the family room.”

“iya. Wardah back there.” said wardah while tidying up his clothes and re-wearing his hood.

He saw a clock on the wall hanging over the wall of his room.

“h 8 kok tumben abi call me yes? What's up, huh? Not usually deh abi call wardah at this time” said wardah in a heart full of wonder.

Then he stepped out of the room towards the middle room where the abah and umi had been waiting for him there. Arriving there he said hello to the two then greeted and kissed the hand of his brother and uminya.

“abi, umi. Tumben called wardah early in the morning? Is there anything important you need to know?”

“wardah” said abinya. “abi and umimu last night have deliberation together. After we thought it was the right time to ask you something. Now you have graduated from pesantren. Abi wants to ask. When are you ready to get married?”

Hearing the word married, the face of the wardah reddened. He just looked down. He's not ready for this one thing. He did not think that his brother and umi called him for this problem. Not for the first time he was asked about marriage, but many times he was asked the same thing and always with the same answer, not ready for marriage. He refused to marry because he was still seeking knowledge. Now he is not ready, but he has put his heart on someone who he always berTO’a with tears for him. He had never met that person but got the story of his sister who was still studying at AL-AZHAR Junior High School, which was founded by a Salafist Sunni foundation as well. And he got his picture from his sister too, but without his knowledge of his brother and umi.

“It's time you got married. Many have come here, to meet your brother just to ask you. When are you ready? Abah already has a candidate for you.”

Now not only did he bow but now his tears were streaming down his cheeks hearing that his ashes had chosen a candidate for him. He did not dare to tell his parents the truth that he had put his heart on someone. Now his hopes have been crushed to hear that a candidate has been prepared for him.

“wardah not ready abi.”

“you always answered not ready. Until when do you think so. You're all grown up. You should think with an adult mind” said his ashes rose apitam.

“baby, patience.” the wife calms.

“patient, patient how mi? Abah was ashamed of the people who came here to ask for a wardah. What should I tell them?”

“forgive wardah bi. But wardah is not ready to marry” he said with sobs.

The momentary state became quiet.

“well. I love you in 1 year. If you still say not ready, forced abi married you to the person who abi set”

Hearing her brother's words, wardah was a little relieved. Now he still has hope to marry the person he has longed for.

Almost a year has passed since his brother's question about his marriage, wardah more confused because until now there is no sign that the person he had hoped not to appear to propose him. He was almost desperate for her hope. He became convinced that he would marry his brother's chosen one. He could only look at the picture of the heart.

Sundays wardah brothers holidays. They invite wardah to walk together to relieve fatigue after one week filled with various lessons. Wardah immediately agreed to their invitation because all this time he had never breathed fresh air outside with them. When they had gone out the house the Umi cleaned and tidied up all the rooms of the baby. But the Umi was shocked when tidying up the wardah room, he got under the pillow a photo of a man and behind him it says:

“I always say’a to Allah so that someday you will come to ask me”

umi did not want to ruin the photo, she knew it meant a lot to the wardah. He just kept it and he will tell the photo to Abah.

Finished cleaning the contents of the house, Umi went straight to the library intending to convey what he found in the wardah room before the wardah went home for a walk with his sisters.

“assalamu’alaikum” the umi say hello while entering the library.

“wa’alaikum salam” replied the husband while closing the book he was reading.

“maaf bi. Umi interrupted abi's time. Umi just wanted to tell this to abi.” while presenting a photo.

The husband received and said” from where did umi get this photo?”

“umi can from under the pillow in her room wardah. Try abi read behind him.”

The husband immediately flipped over the photo and read the writing behind the photo. He was a little surprised and then looked at the photo carefully.

“maybe this is the reason why wardah always answers not ready when asked about her wedding”

“kayaknya abi know this man.” he thought for a moment.

“ya, he's one of the managers at the sunset cottage. His name is abdullah”

Both of them know it turns out that all this time his beloved daughter put hope in abdullah.

They agreed to immediately marry the wardah before things happen that are not desired.

Two weeks later.

“wardah” says umi.

“it's been a year since abi and umi asked for your wedding first but you always answered not ready. Now it's up to abi and umi. The candidate your ashes chose has arrived. This time you can't refuse again.”

“iya umi” replied wardah in a moody tone. He almost cried because today he had no more hope for his heart. Heart's broken. But what can he do can only obey with the words of his brother and uminya.

He walked with a tray containing 2 cups of tea and one jar of snack. He just looked down. As soon as he arrived in front of his brother he put a glass full of tea that he brought on the table. Before he left, his brother prevented himself. Even his brother told him to sit next to his brother. He stays down.

“wardah, I know all that you keep secret from your brother and umikmu. Actually your brother and umik already know that you have put your heart on one of the managers in the sunset. So every time you are asked when you get married always answer with the same answer, not ready yet said you”

Wardah lowered his head in shame because his secret was already known by his parents, especially his brother told it in front of people he did not know who would be his life companion.

“now after one year you have not made a choice. Your brother will meet you with the person you want. Abdullah”

Wardah was shocked not to play, he unconsciously turned to the face of a stranger in front of him. At that moment he looked down and cried.

“if abdullah is your choice. Abah agreed once and abah has expressed everything to Abdullah and yespun assented.”

Wardah's crying is getting worse. It turns out that do’a which he has been saying is not in vain. It turns out that God granted do’a. He is more grateful to God.