Love Me Because of God

Limited Love

Kring..kring... “Assalamualaikum, brother”.

“Mother, Jee passed away,” The voice sounded sad.

“Abang, mother, mother died,” the words were spoken stammering. The tears began to fall. Whatever reason was obvious sadness could not be hidden.

“Jee, hurry up here, come home we're waiting for you. We both buried mother today.”

“Serakan mother brother's funeral, I feel very satisfied, take care of mother, it is very enough, carry out the funeral brother, do not delay again,” the door with a firm voice.

“Yes, you understand, you are patient, Jee, we both live the rest of this life, you do not be afraid, never feel alone, we are always together, quickly finish your lecture, you must not be afraid, we are looking forward to your arrival here, Jee. Oh yes, mother advised, you must be an outstanding graduate degree in economics, brother wants you to do it for mother, do not disappoint him, he said,” goes hand in hand with tears and a choking voice that says the advice to Jee.

“From now on, I will learn to love you in a different way. Mother has her own place in my heart, there or not, visible or faint, still mother will not disappear, and will never disappear. Mother is still mother even if she hides. Brother, don't worry about my life, I'll move on with my life even though I still doubt about my strength without mother. Promise me not to worry about me. Oh yes, brother also do not be afraid of the wishes of mother, I will do it, brother, Jee will try to change into like brother, mother always boast brother, so, Jee wants to be like brother, brother, Jee promise will change like brother.”

“Thank you, Jee, message your brother “be a winner even without a champion predicate, and be a star even though it does not shine,” said softly brother Jery ended the conversation via the mobile phone.

“Yes Allah, this is very heavy, but your path is always beautiful, and for this servant only a small part of Your beauty. Allow the servant to be strong even though he is not of great status, also allow the servant to be patient even though he will reap pain, do not let this loss stop the servant from reaching the path that You want, O Allah, do not make the servant afraid of solitude, protect the servant of Allah, take care of the mother for the servant of Allah, Aamiin.” Tears and smiles go hand in hand with Jery's do’a temple.

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Jery's cheerful face now began to fade, only the debris of happy memories dancing in her eyes. Not like before full of free chatter without any restrictions, talk at will, act childish. Now the figure is gone.

Now Jery is cold with anyone who is in his neighborhood. Due to the drastic changes, there were various questions from people who knew Jery. What happened to Jery?

Once Jery met a man with a tall thin stature, the composition of the man, he was kind, friendly, polite, and also polite.

Sometimes the man tries to get Jery to communicate. It seemed, The atmosphere felt stiff. There was no decent Q&A between them, with the same style and word Jery answered all the questions the tall man asked. Boring, yes, the word is worth giving to their conversation. Pahlavi, the name of that tall skinny guy. Say hello to him by calling Levi.

Sunday morning, the sky decorated with dense black clouds, running with the boisterous women who covered themselves with hijab, stunning, attracting the attention of Jery who was then standing right in front of the boarding door where she lived.

Amazed by what he saw, Jery took an umbrella as soon as he ran stealthily after the woman. The dense black clouds in the sky there broke, thunderbolts accompanied by rain greeted the cold this morning this week, the hijab woman had stopped by the shade in the third of the road around the cost of Jery stay, he said, afraid of being caught Jery avoids hiding beside a large tree. Before long, lightning greeted him with a sassy, loud voice Jery shouted “aaaaa, pardon Allah, pardon, pardon, ” his cry jumped up and down in fear.

Surprised, the woman searched for the sound of the scream. Look at Jery who looks like a rain shower. The woman smiled at Jery's strange skipping behavior occasionally covering her ears with both thumbs.

Hoping that no one would notice, Jery hurriedly took her umbrella then ran over, her facial expression at that moment, smiling without any clarity.

Still not satisfied with the presence of the woman he saw only the conspiracy of the second, Jery patiently waited in front of the house hoping that the hijab woman passed again in front of his house.

This week is a moment where Jery's face looks a little more blushing than his days ago.

After a loss, and a downturn. Will Jery open her heart?

The arrival of the woman he met a moment ago became a rare phenomenon in Jery's life, after that day passed, not once did Jery see the woman again. The wait seemed to be an obligation for Jery, after returning home from college, Jery took a little time to highlight the surrounding boarding road hoping the woman passed by again.

From a distance Levi waved his hand at Jery, with a sullen face Jerry raised his left hand, a gesture of disappointment as that came was not what was expected.

Levi with his butut bike, look rushed towards Jery. “Jee, wait for Jee, do not enter first, Jee..” his screams prevent Jery from entering the house.

“Jee, I bring..”.

“Iya thanks,” screams cut Levi's talk while stepping into the house.

“Jee, I brought Husna,”, Levi said, finishing his speech in a slow tone.

Husna just looked at her brother in wonder, round eyes, adorned with plump eyelashes, glaring sharply at her brother, Levi. “That's Jery, Husna likes Jery,” asked Levi gently. Husna remained silent without comment.

“The woman, not only annoying but also troublesome, hah... every day waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting, troublesome,” muttered Jery, “But, she is funny too anyway,” he continued smiling.

Such an opportunity continued to repeat itself but it was unfortunate because of Jery's dislike of Levi, those opportunities were easily missed. Yes, Husna, Levi's sister was what Jery had been looking for all this time. Another story is that if Levi was given the opportunity to visit Jery's house, it is possible that they, Husna and Jery could meet, he said, but that is how God governs everything with the best intentions and goals for each of His servants.

The month of’ban has passed very quickly the arrival of the month awaited by every Muslim in the world, the holy month of Ramadan.

In this holy month the warriors of Allah are so eager to convey the virtues, in the holy places of Muslims the voices calling to the good are louder and louder. On the streets, in other places, everyone was friendly to each other.

The breath of the proselytizing shiar, finally smelled also by Jery, began to open his eyes to the total in changing him, every study, present, present, every activity whose nature leads to the Islamic Jery very enthusiastically follows.

“Islam is your witness that there is no God (God) who has the right to be worshiped other than Allah and Muhammad is His rosul, establish prayers, perform zakat, and pray, shaum in Ramadan and go Hajj if you are able (to travel).” (CHR. No Muslims. 8, Abu Dawud No. 4695, Tirmidhi No. 2610, Ibn Majah No. 63 and Nasa’i No. 5005.

Allah says in the Quran :

“O you who believe, are obliged to fast, as they were obligated to those before you, so that you may fear.

(Yes) within a few days. And whosoever of you is sick or on the way (and he breaks), then (for him to fast) as many days as are left on other days.

And it is obligatory for those who are heavy in carrying it out (if they do not fast) to pay fidyah, (i.e.): to feed a poor man. Whosoever willingly does good works, then that is better for him.

And fasting is better for you if you know. (Some of the designated days are) the month of Ramadan, the moon in which the Quran is revealed (beginning) as a guide for man and explanations of the guidance and the distinction (between right and wrong).

Therefore whosoever of you is present (in the land where he lives) in that month, he shall fast in that month, and whosoever is sick or on the way (he shall break), (for him fast), as many days as he leaves, on other days.

Allah wills ease for you, and wills not trouble for you, and let you suffice the number and you should exalt Allah over His guidance which is given to you, that you may be thankful. And when My servants ask you about Me, then (answer), that I am (God) near. I grant the plea of the one who berTO’a, when he pleads do’a to Me, then let them fulfill (every commandment) Me and let them believe in Me, so that they are always in the truth.”

(QS. Al-Baqarah: 183-187).

Such is the message of da'wah delivered by ustadz-ustadz in the holy month of Ramadan.

Patiently Jery continued to learn about Islam more deeply, Jery tried to establish himself, hoping God gave him a way to develop his knowledge, also hoping God would ease his way to find a woman who could disturb his heart.

For about two or three months, the woman stopped by Jery's heart. Finally, there are some promising moments to bring them together.

Will they meet, how will their meeting begin, what will their first meeting look like?

During the holy month of Ramadan, before the end of the holy month. The streets are always crowded by hundreds or even almost thousands of people, enthusiastic people around Jery's residence to perform tarawaih prayers are very high. Many times the mosque was in full condition, with such conditions, Jery was increasingly motivated to worship. Long time no appear, Levi again appeared, their meeting, Levi and Jery, this time, a little different, every Levi asked a question, Jery answered like a conversation made by the people mostly. It seemed, their conversation was no longer boring.

Suddenly, amidst the excitement of the conversation, Levi's sister stood holding a rusty butut bike, glaring at her brother who was chatting. “Husna wants to go home now, oh yes, this is Jery, sister's friend,” As her right hand points towards Jery. The woman only gestured to her brother by raising her head and bowing it as if saying yes.

The first glance, the charm of Husna, stopped by again in Jery's imagination, his eyes, did not stop looking for the imperfect side of Husna, did not want to miss the opportunity he had waited for almost two or three months, Jery immediately offered his name and hand.

“Jery, call me Jee,” he said throwing a smile at Husna while thrusting his right hand.

“She, just call Husna, it's like it's her guy, shutting herself up with anyone. Oh yes, if not mahram, Husna does not want to be touched by the opposite sex,” said Levi.

“Subhanallah.”

“I'm sorry yes, Husna is so, I went home first, Assalamualaikum.”

“Waalaikumsalam, be careful brother,” close it.

“What? Just now you called me sister,” asked Levi in wonder.

“Engga, no.. Just misheard, hunt after Husna she was afraid of why-why on the road,” replied Jery shy.

Just counting the days then the holy month of Ramadan ends, the Eid al-Fitr holiday is getting closer. Not felt, as time went on, Jery began to reopen his stiff heart drowned in pain wrapped in loneliness.

The mystery of the hijab-wearing woman has not been fully revealed, who she is, why it is like that, many questions that plague Jery's mind.

Although Husna was closed like that, to Jery, the angel was still an angel even though he was hidden, even though the hijab protected his entire body, it did not diminish Husna's physical perfection in the slightest. Still, Jery's eyes looked beautifully upon her heresy, Husna.

The next day, on a third of the way near Jery's residence. Early in the morning Husna walked to college with a binder without a bag.

Amazed to see the enthusiasm of Husna who was willing to walk for the sake of studying in the conditions of fasting, then Jery took the initiative to do the same. The vehicle he was riding in was abandoned, running towards Husna quickly, pretending as if every day Jery left for college was just a walk away. “Eh, Husna,” said as if this meeting was not accidentally.

“Hey, you know how to meet me, don't want to ya?”

Husna was silent, with a gaze that only looked forward. His small steps are now getting faster, avoiding Jery who is trying to get close to him.

“Hus, wait... the road slowly can be, do not need to rush. yes..yeah I do not mind you kok, just calm, even I intend to take care of you, I do not want to take care of you, let no one disturb, Hus swore, believe me deh,” Pinta Jery.

Husna only smiled occasionally stealing glances at Jery. It seems Husna is starting to consider Jery's offer, to look after him. What will happen to their next relationship?

Allahu akbar. Allahu akbar, the echoes of takbir burst in the air, with so extraordinary, old, young, children, all mixed into one, all combined in a sea of love because of God. No matter what kind of strata, coming from what group, which is clearly eid al-fitri, make a beautiful city atmosphere, handshake, forgive each other, some cry, some laugh happily, some laugh happily, all combined into one. In the midst of the many atmosphere back Jery who was made to cry by the situation, the mother who always welcomed his arrival after the Eid prayer is now no longer waiting for him at the door of the house as usual, no more for Jery a warm kiss from a mother who is an obligation that he must get, plus this time Jery does not celebrate eid al-Fitr in his hometown, with the family he loves, Jery added, it's all gone, all not the same, as he felt.

Stepping up, leaving the eid prayer place, Jery was on his way home, just on foot.

Kringgg.kringgg, Husna's butut bike surprised him, waving his hand, Husna smilingly turned to look at Jery as if hinting for Jery to chase after him. “Woi... wait..woi...,” he shouted while running after. Clearly, a happy hue was engraved again on Jery's face after a time of debilitating sadness.

Suddenly the rain fell on the city, which was once a road full of a sea of people, now became deserted. They, Husna and Jery stopped by the third, took shelter, at the food stall exactly, saw the movements of Husna who was then tempted to see a variety of food menus, Jery felt pity, a moment, a moment, Jery searched for the rest of the money, left, right, behind, all pocket bags he was looking for, finally RP.50,000,- stuck in his hand. “Alhamdulillah, old date kayak gini, finding money in the pocket, it feels like I have won a quiz, what is it...” he said while sticking the money on the forehead. Husna laughed lightly at Jery's words.

“This time, I'll make sure you talk to me, ha ha ha. Let's say what do you want to eat? Come on, say, talk, I can't wait to hear your voice, Husna.”

Husna picked up the pen and the book in it, and wrote down his food of choice in the book. ‘I want to eat fried chicken, if you can use apple juice also yes :P,’ closed Husna on that writing.

“why don't you want to talk?”

“Kalo I said something, you want to not promise,” he wrote again.

“What promise?”

“Kalo you I told you you should promise we keep calm huh?” continue again in the previous post.

“Say?”

“Since birth, mmm.. I was born unable to speak,” he wrote with a sad face.

“oh so that, Husna, listen to me, God is all-fair, you were created in a beautiful physical form, if God let you speak, the other kasian, they will envy you, they will envy you, you are grateful,” the joke advises Husna.

Husna just smiled at him.

Time goes by so fast, the friendship between Husna and Jery intertwines for a year, many things they pass together, many laughs decorate their days, sometimes tears also stop by their simple friendship. Their admiration is now turned into love, open to each other in the story, mutual understanding intertwined between their friendship.

The lecture period has ended they are both awarded bachelor's degrees, each of them bearing the title of outstanding students in their majors. Mother's wish had been fulfilled by Jery perfectly.

Bliss overtook Jee, a call to Jerry. From the problem of achievement, ideals, until the woman Jery almost reached the perfect name.

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The rain fell very heavily, disturbing the vision of the road users, happened to be Jery and Husna were on the same road but with different purposes. “Husna,” shouted Jery calling. Repeatedly Jery called out, for the swift rain Husna did not hear. In the small pebble Jery threw in the attic where Husna was shelter, Husna still did not hear, in fact the distance between them was not too far, probably because the sound of heavy rain so that Jery's call was not heard. Again, Jery threw a pebble over the attic. Again Husna did not hear, at last Jery threw a pebble at Husna, right, from the wall bouncing into Husna's head. Husna looked around for the pebble thrower occasionally while rubbing the former throw.

“Husna... Heiii,” call Jery back. Shortly knowing the culprit, Husna immediately replied, sandals flying in the air. Plakkk, headshot, one pair of sandals dropped by enthroned in Jery's head, Husna could not control herself, laughed loosely, felt funny with Jery's expression. “Awas... Husnaaa, don't run you, I reply,” gregetan. Rainwater spilling between them, chasing each other, also flush each other, all eyes were on the childish behavior of the two adults.

The next day, Husna met Jery early in the morning with a piece of paper. He presented the paper containing the important writing to Jery. “Jee, thank you for the time you spent with me, may you sincerely accompany me, now you do not have to bother anymore to accompany me, because Ferdy, will accompany the rest of my life. If I could choose, you're a choice from my heart, but not for my parents, my life, fully-financed Ferdy, it's okay, maybe for you to lose the mute the usual thing. the mute is only a small part of the beauty of God on earth, seeking better than me is easy, perfect, that can make you happy with friendly words, this mute can't do anything, just trouble you. Jee, please let me marry Ferdy, thank you my friend, Jee. For everything,” wrote Husna.

“See my eyes, please, look at me, look, Husna, this,” Jee pointed at his heart, “ini, has saved a lot of hope, a lot of dreams, a lot of happiness, a lot of happiness, there are a lot of fantasies that you have. Why with you, why are you doing this. If coming is just passing by, why did you come into my life, why did you give me a reason to be happy, why?”

Husna picked up a pen and a piece of paper, “I'm just a mute who feels comfortable, feels safe next to a hotshot, so, is it worth it that I should avoid you. What is the importance of this mute, you can find the perfect one,” he wrote.

“Listen to me, before we met, I, not only am a mute, but I am also blind, I am also deaf, I am much worse than you. After my mother died I became mute, blind, deaf. I never spoke to anyone, I never saw anyone who sympathized with me, who cared about me, I felt in this world I was alone, I was blind. I also never heard anyone's advice, my ears were closed to the voices that wanted to enter. My heart was paralyzed, he fell, many dreams were buried with him. You come, with ease he returns perfect, with ease these lips talk again, with ease these eyes see again, with ease these ears hear again. You came, so easily I laughed, smiled, cried, so easily your shadow danced beautifully in my mind, you easily influenced my emotions. How devastated they all would be if I had to lose for the second time,” Jery said in a high tone of voice.

“Sorry for my stupidity, I hurt you, I stuck a thorn that would be there again, in your heart. I am nothing more than an ordinary man, just like any other, who always obeys the orders of his parents, who always want to do the best for both parents. You have to understand Jee, that love has Him (God), whoever He (God) leaves, we must not protest. Our job is only to establish ourselves for him who is bestowed upon us. We must also know whether what we love is a desire or just a need. Actually for me you want Jee but my parents need Ferdy, for their sake (parents) we parted well yes, there is no revenge on our minds. Sorry once again sorry,” he wrote to Jery.

Jery closed her eyes, trying to control her burning emotions, her vision was wild, left, right, her gaze was erratic. “Alright, we have our own way, from wherever we part, after this, may in the middle of the road we meet again with a new breath of love, without anyone disturbing, meet Ferdy, meet Ferdy, marry her, be the wife that the husbands crave,” she said ending the disappointment.

“But promise yes you must be sincere, must forgive my mistakes, must forget the pain of your concern to me. Otherwise I will not be calm, it will only interfere with my beautiful journey later to heaven,” he asked on a sheet of paper.

“If I don't do it, what do you want? Wanna mad? Or throw your sandals again? Or is there a more inhumane action? Hah... Hah... Haaah...” joking cetus. Husna only frowned, a sullen face pouted in annoyance, adding a few percent to her beauty. “iya. Yes you will enter heaven, even though you disappoint me, but still, you will still be, you are still an important part of every temple of my prayer,” ketusnya again by raising his eyebrows.

“Yeee,” wrote Husna in Jery's hands. Pinched Jery's left and right cheeks, Husna jumped up and down. “Masya Allah.. Hus, not mahram, Astagfirullah..,” rebuked Jery in a joking tone. Husna smiled shyly covering his face area with both hands before the end, Husna ran home timidly.

“Husna... Husna... You are flirty” He said slowly after Husna ran home, wiping his tears.

(Cover): Husna and Ferdy finally get married. The second year of her marriage, baby girls are born to decorate the beauty of their household.

Jery now has his own way of life, with new people wandering around him, now, he has found his new Husna, in a different package.

Jery's message to Ferdy: “Gold, diamonds, diamonds, gems, pearls and other beautiful ornaments would not be perfect Her beauty without the woman wearing it. The most beautiful jewelry among the most beautiful, is only the wife of righteousness, the wife of righteousness, and you get it, protect her with all your strength.”

The important lesson of this story that must be underlined is if loving someone does not have to give up the heart completely, it could be the person we love so much now, become the person we really hate later. Human love to human portion should be limited, limited love (limited love) is like, but not to love God, leave all your love to your God, if in this world we get true love, but not to love God, it is a bonus from God because we love Him so much.