Love Me Because of God
Dating, Halalkah?
A week Arini had received a letter from Rangga, whose contents are not much different, so it must be an expression of love. Arini males replies, but is only kept under a mattress. Because he did not have time to reply due to the hectic activities and also his brain felt desperate to reply to a letter from Rangga.
Monday arrived, Arini came in a white dress gray skirt plus a white silk veil that adds to her beauty. So he is a lot of struggle to be courted men who always scramble even sometimes to fight to get the first order in the approach with Arini, the most beautiful and smart student in school.
“Rin, this is a deposit from Rangga.”
“Thank you.” Arini said softly.
Arini knew that the letter she was holding was not much different from the one Rangga had sent yesterday. So that He was not in the mood to read even He put it in his pocket. He walked to the office not knowing what to do, but before arriving at the office he met Reri who must have been the first place to approach Arini because he won the lottery.
“Hai Rin..” said Reri kepedean
“Wa aleikum Sallam.” Reply Arini while smiling.
“Gue forgot, Assalamu Alaikum.”
Reri said with a smile made as sweet as possible so that Arini returned her smile. Reri then stepped closer to Arini who was now about a meter away.
“Toooooooooooooooo. What's up Rer?”
“Rin, would you like to be my girlfriend, please answer now yes?”
“It's not that easy, you're my girlfriend.there's paper equal pen?”
Arini asked with an ordinary face not surprised by what Reri said. Then Reri opened his bag to pick up the book and pen after he could give it to Arini. Arini took it with her right hand and glanced at Reri. Arini looked for an empty page and then he opened the pen, without thinking long Arini wrote something on the blank page, after he finished giving it to Reri.
“Arin to office first yes!” arini said after giving the book to Reri.
“Ya..”
Only that word can be said Reri because the charm of Arini's face can weaken the heart of Reri. After Arini stepped away, Reri opened the book and looked for the sheet where Arini had drawn the pen. After meeting Reri read: “What is the law of courtship in Islamic law?”
Because he did not know the point, then Reri stepped after Arini who was a little far away but because Reri walked half-run so overtaken too, Arini knew that Reri was behind him.
“Arini, it's in apain?” Reri asked as he stopped stepping and at that time Arini had stopped and turned to face his interlocutor. With a smile because he saw the behavior that made Arini shake his head because Arini felt that the person who had just asked him to make a relationship better known as courtship turned out to be rather stupid.
Without thinking for a long time Arini tried to answer according to the situation and conditions that should not offend Reri. With a fixed look on Reri's face, Arini said meekly.
“You do, I'll answer tomorrow at the latest?” arini said and ended the smile on her lips.
***
After school, Arini changed her clothes. When he started to undress he remembered a letter from Rangga. He felt lazy to read it but he tried to resist the drowsiness that reached him, while leaning on the bed while his hand opened the sheet of paper. After getting a comfortable position Arini began to read.
Make Arini
Assalamu Alaikum's
Arini, forgive me for interrupting your days with my letter. I purposely wrote this letter with a full request to reply. You know from the letter I sent. I do this for a reason that is a feeling that torments my heart, so rather than being tormented I would rather say, because of the pain and pain in this heart I feel. So, I decided to write it all without me covering up so that my heart would be calm, if indeed you don't have a speck of feelings for me it doesn't matter to me.
Rin, this is how love feels, I just realized how painful it is to hold the romance and feel the fear that the loved one is gone or owned by someone else. That sense of unwillingness is what I feel, so I deliberately write all and have you read. Not that I don't want to see you but you're always a lot of activity.
Rin, if you think of me as a friend I thank you and consider me a friend forever. Forgive me for loving you and forgive me for all the words you have ever said and written for you.
Wasalamu Alaikum's
From your best friend
Stifling
After reading the letter from Rangga, Arini felt how disappointed if he was in the position of Rangga. He regretted not replying from yesterday about the response requested by Rangga, Arini rose from bed to the study table. He took a book and pen to reply to Rangga's letter. Arini wrote word for word but did not fit and something was wrong, so he squeezed the sheet of paper and threw it into the trash box next to him. It happened so many times that the litter box was almost full. Arini felt tired and her eyes could not be compromised so she stopped writing. Then Arini laid her body on the bed and fell asleep Arini was cradled in a dream.
After Isya, Arini took the paper on the bookshelf, he will reply to Rangga's letter which has not been replied to for a long time because it did not have time. Ariniber thought for a moment about what he would write on the k sheet of paper. He did not know what to start with words like and what kind of series of words did not hurt Rangga too much. Thirty minutes Arini had thought while writing but had not met the intention that was in accordance with what he wanted. Arini then stringed the words from the bottom of her heart without being covered in the slightest so that the scratches of the pen carved the word.
Make Rangga
Assalamu Alaikum's
Rangga forgive me for not replying to the letter you sent, not because I do not want to reply but because there is no opportunity and time to write a letter for you. And this is the reply that I can frame with words that I can engrave on paper.
Rangga, I understand your feelings at this time, disappointed at not getting any reply from me and also no answer about the feelings you convey. Thank you for saying the thing in your heart. I understand your feelings that you express through the words I have read. But I wasn't ready to respond because I thought carefully and again this matter is quite complicated for me.
You know yourself, in school I became a snatch of guys even some who put a lottery for the sake of approaching me, even betting everything, you must know. All this time I did not respond too much to those who approached me, wanting to make me a girlfriend. I understand the feelings of those who are very disappointed because of my actions, but I have given understanding to some people who have invited me to be and even now they become best friends and friends for me.
Feelings of love must be owned by everyone, but everyone must know what kind of love to say and prove. Love is beautiful but blinding, I once felt in love but I felt the pain of a broken heart and that's where I think about my life.
Rangga, I really understand your feelings, because I have felt the way you feel and I have also felt what you have done but I am disappointed with what happened. Love must be lost only remains the debris of hatred when our loved ones have owned others or he made us toys. I understand why you are doing this, because you are afraid that I will belong to someone or you are afraid of losing me forever.
Rangga, we are born into this world has a purpose, our parents enter the school so that we demand knowledge and someday can be a child that can be proud and useful for anyone. It is not the school goal that we are looking for just a girlfriend and just a fun or gathering that is not certain.
Rangga, I want to use my time in this school to find knowledge in order to become a useful woman and also one day be able to admit that I am needed. Not the courtship goal I want, I do not want to be tied to a famous bond called courtship.
I'm sorry Rangga, I can't make a bond between me and you because I don't want to be bound and also my life goals have been assembled. Right now my goal is to go to school not to date but to seek knowledge. If indeed you truly love me, love me as I am today, do not expect too much because destiny is in the hands of God. If one day you still have love and I am still alone, hold me back. I would think of accepting or rejecting your proposal and another loving not to have but to make friendship, to love one another, to keep one another honor and to counsel one another.
Rangga, forgive me for the words engraved on this paper, for making your heart hurt. Please understand my situation, I want to know if we're going out? That's one question you should think about.
Wasalamu Alaikum's
From your best friend
Arini
***
Ten minutes before entering exactly at 07.15 am. Rangga who was busy sitting under a banyan tree was surprised by Ratna, his close friend who used to invite him to chat and also study together.
“Rangga.!” call Ratna
“What's up, Rat?”
“This is a reply from Arini, ntar if you have read. Ratna wants to read too, can you?” ratna asked softly while smiling.
“Iya.”
Rangga replied flatly while raising his eyebrows. Rangga is always open with Ratna even about her heart, Rangga is open so that Ratna understands her feelings that like Arini. But Ratna can be invited to compromise especially about love and the secrets of the heart. After taking a reply, he opened it and read with a pounding heart something written on the letter.
Word by word which became the sentence, Rangga read carefully until it was finished then Rangga smiled in front of ratna.
“Where, accepted what? ask Ratna
“Read by yourself.”
“sini, so it is clear that it must be read.”
Ratna took the paper from Rangga's hand, then began to read carefully and carefully so that Ratna knew what Arini meant. When Ratna finished commenting.
“If kayak gini floating between the sky and the earth, really bad Arini time Rangga that as good as this is rejected, Gimana Ngga? Disappointed what, Ngga?”
“I'm not disappointed, this is even the best for me. I knew what was in the bottom of his heart. She is a forward-thinking woman, and she can understand the conditions of life she must determine, unlike me, not clear.”
“Udah Ngga. Don't cry. Please note that one day someone has Arini.”
Rangga smiled and replied
“I didn't expect more from Arini, because I thought wholeheartedly about my future. What I think now I have to go to school to find knowledge for my sake and my future life is still young, I will not waste this one opportunity. An opportunity that won't exist a second time, what are you? Have you thought about your life. Remember that we eat must be full, if nudai science can be smart, but if dating is not satisfied even though it has been a thousand times.”
Ratna responded to Rangga's words with a smile while thinking.
“True you said Ngga, we will not be satisfied if you already have one definitely want more and the other, that's how it really is. Soon we enter, have no need to cry again.” Ratna said in a mocking tone to Rangga.
On Monday morning after the ceremony was over, Arini responded to Reri. Rangga's heart was very happy not to play like getting a collapsed durian, when Reri brought a reply from Arini. At that time Ratna also knew from the gelagat reri, Ratna also followed all the way into the class.
“Rer..!” pangil Ratna's
“There's a Rat.”
“Just want to know aja, lo today seneng really can durian collapse yes, but you do not miesel if duriannya ngak mateng or dah rot.” Ejek Ratna laughs and looks at the expression on Reri's face.
“Kubaca first, ntar I tell, mateng or rotten durenya.”
“Read a real capable sports teacher not in.” Said Ratna who had been sitting not far from Reri.
Then Reri read the letter from Arini.
Create Reri
Assalamu ‘Alaikum
Reri actually I can not scratch the words, if the words hurt your heart but what can I do with sincerity I answer what your question with full consideration and the results I wrote on this paper. I know your sacrifice, you are willing to bet for a chance to approach me, I know that. I understand you did just that, but what a real goal or just want me to be your girlfriend. And yesterday's question I deliberately gave you so that I am not disturbed by my activities that accumulate, not that I want to prank you or reason or even to test your Iqmu.
Reri, you asked me to be your girlfriend, I honestly said I can't not because I already have a boyfriend or because I want to be a celeb at school. I went to school here to study not to date, I hope you understand my reasons. Besides, my mom and dad banned me from going out. My parents allowed me to be friends with anyone who was different in ethnicity or religion, but had to know the limits in religion in making friends. That's a little message my parents both still remember to this day.
You must know Reri, love does make humanity willing to sacrifice and many are willing to sacrifice for the sake of his lover. Even if your sacrifice is enough I cannot fulfill your wish, I'm sorry. Even so I hope you do not hate me, love me as your friend, I promise I will never hate you as long as you cherish this friendship as a cord of friendship.
One more thing, I haven't been able to choose someone I can love because what I'm thinking about right now is learning to add science to reach my goals so that my future is bright. Forgive your hurtful words, accept my decision with grace. Because I'm not doing this because I'm selfish, but for the life I ever hoped for.
Wasalamu Alaikum From Your Friend
Arini
After reading the letter from Arini, Reri looked at Ratna and then Ratna felt why Reri was so. Ratna kept asking.
“Where is the durennya, Mateng?”
“Not mateng.” Answer Reri slowly
“Truly, here let me try reading.”
Ratna began to read a reply from Arini, not long after Ratna knew what was in the letter. Ratna did not say the answer was the same as Arini's answer to Rangga.
“The answer is the same, like Rangga. Durennya ngak mateng.”
“Means?”
“You said Rat, I have to think like Arini. Demanding science is not dating, now for me illegal dating law than chasing girls is better I will pursue science so that someday I can be a person who can provide knowledge to others. That's the hell if I really learned it.”
“Basically you are Rer, I guess the spirit of 45 turned out to be only crackers.”
“Now I promise, I want to learn but just like you, the three of us are studying together. Threesome with Rangga.”
“Telat lo by the way, Rangga has moved from our school, he moved to Aceh.”
“When?”
Yesterday afternoon about three o'clock. He moved because he joined his father who became a DEPAG employee. She lives with her grandmother who I asked her about. Rangga ningalin me, you and my dear Arini.”
“You are Rat, not saying anything from yesterday, I can ask Rangga to go and do not have to come back so that Arini can make a wife. Let Rangga search in Aceh.”
“your basics is Rer. Let's play batminton, I'll bring the racket.”
“Oke.” Answer Reri briefly.
After school, Ratna waits for arini at the school gate. Not for five minutes. Ratna is not alone but accompanied by two friends Arinda and Anita who are also in a class with him and his house is close to Ratna's house.
“Rin, wait a minute.” Ratna
“What's Rat?”
“This is a deposit from Rangga as he sends greetings to you.”
Two of Arini's friends commented
“So, secretly made also the same Rangga.”
“This is indeed a letter, but the contents later if I open new I know what this letter is. Thank you Rat, greetings to Rangga. Where does koq not enter?”
“Tail you just Rin!”
“Koq late, what is Nit?”
“From today onwards you will not be able to see the handsome face of Rangga, because yesterday he took a plane to Aceh for good.” Said Anita again.
“Means changing schools.”
“Bener 100%.” Arinda added.
After school Arini and her two friends were in the room, Arini who had changed wedge and had lunch was tired. He remembered Rangga who went to Aceh without thinking. He remembered the letter from Rangga that was entrusted with Ratna, Arini wanted to read it but there were still two friends who were also curious about Rangga's letter so that Arini wanted to read.
“Rin, this is a letter from Rangga earlier yes. I read ya?”
“Don't Vin, that's for me. Don't read.”
“Tau ngak Rin, Rangga is rather ancient. Nowadays mobile phones are scattered, but instead send a very ethical ngak letter, if you like binang aja so that you can be called a brave man.” Vina
Then Reva answered
“Rangga is handsome, but he is quiet let alone the problem of a closed woman, but know-know he now likes you Rin, what is wrong ?”
“Silent all of you, that train practice I want to read mail.” Arini said when Rangga's letter was on his side, his two friends were silent as well. Then Arini went out of the room and locked the door from the outside.
“Rin why locked the door?”
“Bar you ngak ngangu I read the letter, ntar when I'm done I'm finished building the door rather than you guys angry better do the exercise while eating a snack, really sorry ya.”
“Lo sucks Rin, I also want to read.” Vina Sahut.
“Already Vin, meningan we do training mumpung no time. Let Arini read while pervading the contents, ntar we can also read, lau ngak in love we look until we meet okay.” Kats Reva's.
“Ya. Now we work on training, let Arini read until satisfied.” Vina said a bit.
Arini who came out of the room to the back garden that there is a chair on the top floor, because the house is multi-storey. Arini took a seat according to taste, sat in a long chair with straightened legs like sunbathing on the beach, impatient Arini just opened the wrapping of the letter. Then unfolded the paper with a pounding heart Arini began to read.
Make Arini
Assalamu Alaikum's
Arinmi, let time greet you with smiles and tears because those two things will never disappear from your life and also every drop of dawn will drift expecting dusk from you, and let the twilight stick at the end of the evening. Because it gives hope in every wait. I'm just a life confined to the breath if it doesn't wither I guess.
Arini, thank you for the reply you sent, maybe when you read my letter I have arrived in Aceh, my new residence. Sorry if I didn't have time to say goodbye to you, I don't want to say something as a thank you, because time can't, because I have to quickly take care of the moving letter and others, because I have to quickly take care of the moving letter and others, so that I can't come to your house to say goodbye. In exchange I take this letter as my mediator which I entrust to Ratna.
After I read your letter, I came to understand who you really are. You are indeed a woman worthy of example, you live by principles, goals and ideals unlike me. I read your letter so carefully that I discovered a principle that I would try to follow in the hope that I would be able to get what was my ideal.
Arini, the decision that you choose is right, for your life to require knowledge is very mandatory because one day the knowledge that you learn will definitely test, because, the ideals that you dream of are indeed a spirit in your life because with human science can think about everything, even with science that man can assemble ideals.
I have come to understand how to love and love someone, actually from the first moment I met you I felt attracted to you by the way you talk and get along. At that time I did not know what the hell is dating, let alone the name love! I just understood how upset I would be if I did not meet and the longing that I had only been able to pour in the poetry sheet that you might always read. I love to write poetry and I always put it in your book, you must have read more than a hundred poems that you find in your book.
I'm sorry I did that and it makes you wonder who wrote the poem.
Arini now I am pleased with the words that you engraved on the sheet of paper in return for my letter, you gave me a wish as well as an abjection. But, I don't know if we're a match, nor do I know about the future I want to achieve, the dream of my childhood.
Forgive me, for the mistakes that have been said or sculpted and also the things that I do not deserve to do. Take care of yourself because I can't take care of you.
Remember the honor and holiness you have, do not cast it away because it is more precious to you than your life. Pursue your dreams that make your heart strong and the ideals that give you hope in your life.
All the words I can say, good-bye Arini. Take care of yourself, your honor and your sanctity.
Wasalamu Alaikum's
From your Friend Rangga
Arini crying.
The tear drop is a witness that he only knew a secret that the poem he had been getting and reading was the poem of Rangga's longing. Arini regretted something that made her heart crumble.
Arini opened the room door, greeted by her two friends who were waiting. Both of her friends were just dumbfounded to see Arini crying. Then Vina started talking.
“What is Rin, koq you cry?”
“Rangga, Vin!”
“What's with Rangga?” ask Reva.
Arini then walked towards the pile of books to pick up something that she felt was the most beautiful memory of Rangga. Arini found a book that was in volume, more than a hundred poems.
“What's with Rangga, Rin?” asked Vina who was a dumbass.
“Tau what are you? Which all this time slipped a poem in my book that is currently already I have a very romantic content and makes me always imagine who the author is.”
“Who Rin?” Vina asked less.
“Rangga, Proud to give you all this poetry, why doesn't he say that he is the one who wrote the love and longing poem.”
“Rangga, you mean Rangga, how could he possibly write poetry?”
“State who speaks.”
Arini said that he still could not believe that the Ranggalah was far away, which is now in Aceh. But , suddenly Arini's PDA rings, Arini picks up the one not far from him, then he sees on his BB screen there's an E-mail. Arini opened with a thumping feeling, in the E-mail written a poem.
Poetry of Love and Longing
To my beloved whom I miss
If time keeps me away, I'll still go.
Because the future ‘kan step meet me.
If a lover holds me back, I'll just prank.
Poetry of love and longing for her far away.
Love, longing comes with sprinkling.
Rained out. On the cheek and in the chest, that's a cry.
‘Kan pick you up when your heart feels.
If he is far away that is the lover you love.
When the rain falls on my cheek, I'm sorry.
Who can't remove your miss drops.
Shift away your worries and your troubles.
With ink blotting longing.
Pour the details of love in each seedling.
Ku ‘kan try to anchor the screen from the ocean.
Remember every drop ‘kan I washed it.
For one three-word kiss.
Compassion. If I love, I will say.
I love you for my life and my death.
And forever, until I don't breathe.
For you is my love and longing.
By Rangga
After reading a poem from Rangga sent by E-mail, Arini could only smile and shed tears and her heart said: “Rangga, I love you.”
