I'm Tired, Love Me
Little Lie
It did not feel like the trip home was almost at the gate of my home complex, but Arlo chose to pull over his car and thrust mineral water on me.
“Drink to be calmer, and wash your face to look fresher, if you go home in this condition then your husband will suspect you.”
“She must still be asleep when I get back.”
“Lantas what would you tell him if he woke up and saw your eyes.” Arlo's hand wiped my tears, which I taped right away.
“Please take care of your attitude mas, I have a husband that I love.” Angry him.
“Pardon my presumptuous attitude Rheyna.” I hear a regret there.
“Please take me to the tomb of my father and mother only.”
“It's still 3am Rheyna,mending you home Rheyna.”
“If you don't want to take me to book a taxi online.” I answered while pulling out my phone.
“OK okay I deliver.” He answered while pulling my phone and returning to the car.
I leaned my head against the car door, and stared out the window at the funeral area but the drowsiness was on me, so I unconsciously fell asleep.
Tired of crying, the atmosphere is quiet, and the cool air is the right combination for drowsiness to pervade.
I don't know how long I've been asleep, which I must have woken up when the sunlight began to shyly greet me.
When I woke up I felt my eyes were so heavy with swelling after crying, I was surprised by the greeting beside me.
“Where's sleep? Yappy?” Ask.
“Heeemm.” Reply lazily.
“This is water, wash your face first there so it does not look tangled.” Pouring a bottle of mineral water at me.
I received the water and rushed to open the car door and immediately got off.
This morning the funeral parking lot is still very quiet, there is only 1 car and that's also the car belonging to Mas Arlo only, how not to be quiet if it is still at 05.48,where most people are just about to start activities, I'm already in the tomb.
I walked into the cemetery on my own, I left Arlo's mas and washed my face earlier. Walking towards my father and mother's grave, I wanted to tell you everything that makes me sad right now.
I fell to my knees hugging papa's headstone, crying there saying nothing just revealing everything through my tears. About 10 minutes I was just crying.
“I'm sure papa knows what's going on with Rheyna right now. What should Rheyna do? Rheyna is afraid of pa. Rheyna couldn't bear pa if had to lose again.”
I went back to being silent with an indeterminate thought, whatever I had to do I didn't know, it all felt like a nightmare to me.
“Pa Rheyna says yes, afraid Steve is looking for Rheyna. Rheyna did not stop by mom first pa, later Rheyna will come back here with the kids and Steve ya pa.” I decided to go back home, after about 20 minutes I was there.
From a distance saw Arlo standing in front of his car, I walked up to him.
“It's done? Let me drive you home.” He said with a smile.
“It's been a while, thank you for helping me.” I thank you sincerely, because I can't deny if it wasn't for him maybe until now I don't know what happened to Steve.
“I've booked a taxi online mas, and it looks like soon until.” Looking up at my phone. I did order a taxi online before saying goodbye to papa earlier.
“With Rheyna's mother yes?” Say hello to the driver to me.
“Iya sir.” Answer friendly.
“I first yes mas, once again thank you for helping me.” I reached out my hand to shake hands with her, and she returned the favor.
“Sama-sama, contact me if you need any help and anytime, please don't hesitate.” He replied then, I just replied with a nod and rushed into the online taxi I had ordered, and left.
***
“Good morning mistress.” Greet the house security guard when I get off the taxi online.
“Good morning pak” I replied.
“Sorry if you can know where to take a taxi online?” Ask the security guard after seeing the name of an online taxi company, and see my appearance is the same as last night when telling him to go to the back area of the house.
“Owh this sir, I'm discharged from my parents' tomb.” I just explained it, and left the security guard.
“Good mistress.”
I went into the house, and I found that the assistants had started to work with their respective tasks, some in the kitchen were preparing breakfast, some were wiping the furniture, sweeping and mopping. I rushed into my room to see Steve's condition. He was still asleep on his back to our bedroom door, I walked up to him slowly staring at his body that looked careless, I stroked his shoulders and arms that made him wake up and turned his body towards me.
“Baby,goodmorning” Her greeting still remains the same as her smile.
“Morning darling.” I returned his smile.
I found Steve's face looking pale.
“Dear you are sick?” I asked while sticking the back of my hand on his forehead, I was very worried about his current condition.
“No baby, I'm fine. Come here baby, give me your warm embrace.” He slightly shifted his body, Stretching out his hand told me to enter his arms.
I put my head on his chest, I don't think I can hold my tears, but I have to.
“Where's baby from? How to wear a sweater? Crying, huh? What's up baby? Here's the same story I yuk.” Steve rubbed my hair lovingly, even though his movements felt very weak but I knew he loved me.
“I'm out of my parents' graves baby, I miss them.”
“Whose ride is the same? How did I not wake up?”
“I left early this morning baby, take a taxi online. Can't bear to wake you up who sleeps once.” I try to reason.
“Other times ask for drivers who are among ya baby, do not go to take a taxi online. Or if you want to bring your own car.” Steve was too perfect for me, a good husband and a good father for our children.
“Iya darling, forgive me.” Unfortunately, not because I regret taking a taxi online, but I regret that I had to lie to him.
Steve just nodded, without a word.
“I love you baby until the end of my life.” The words that pierced my heart because I don't know how many times I can hear him say them.
Silence began to envelop this room, I felt the breath of Steve who initially slowly turned into a deep, long breath,no matter how long Steve's hand hugging my arm began to loosen and fall beside his body…..
