I'm Tired, Love Me

Enjoy God

After being satisfied to see the sunrise, and the sun was fully visible, Steve invited me to move from this place.

We went back up the Hardtop, and into the savannah. The grasslands are spread like tapestries, people usually call this place as 'Hull Teletubies'. Why 'Holder Teletubies'? Because the grass that grows there looks like a Teletubies house in the children's event.

Teletubies Hill in Bromo

Teletubies and home Teletubies

The green color refreshes the eye that is looking at it. With a fresh expanse of grass and cold air, 'whose other delights do you deny?' I muttered to myself.

"Good look at the view!" Steve spread his eyes across the grass that was in front of us.

"Hu 'um... Here's your phone let me take a picture of you Steve" I put my hand in front of Steve.

"Now" Steve took the phone out of his pocket and gave it to me.

"Your wife is beautiful Steve" I saw a picture of a very beautiful Caucasian woman, which became the background screen of Steve's phone.

"Hahahaha she was so beautiful, she was my first love" I don't know what Steve was laughing at.

"Yuk you stand there Steve. One...Two...Ti.ga" I gave a cue to Steve "One more time Steve, smile Steve" I returned to photograph Steve.

"Udah ah, here replace me who photographed you" Steve asked for his phone.

"Don't Steve, I'm lazy to take a picture" I gave the phone and passed away from Steve.

"Hey, what's going on?" Steve taught me my way.

"Nothing" I answered briefly and stopped at a place where there were not many visitors. I stretched out my hand, closed my eyes, inhaled a deep breath of fresh air, then I twisted my body, imagining I was flying.

After I was tired of spinning I knelt down with my fallen hands supporting my body, "Vanooo mama misses you, hikss... pa.. ma.... why stay Rheyna alone?" I cried to miss them, I remembered my dream when my mother left me.

"Cry, if you need to yell to ease your pain." Someone stood behind me.

I still keep crying. It turns out I'm still hurt to lose them, I still feel lost and still feel alone.

"I'm sorry Steve" I said softly and wiped my tears.

"For what?" Steve looked at me in wonder.

"Because it's troubling you. Give my apology to your wife" I'm still down.

"Nobody is bothered, and there's nothing to forgive. Everyone has arranged for Rhey, believe me there will be something beautiful waiting for you."

"You don't know what it's like for Steve to be betrayed, abandoned by loved ones in the near future. I alone had to accept the pain, as hard as I could try to shift my mind, but it all came back to stifle my chest." I spoke with excitement, as if I were expressing my disappointment.

"i've never been in your position, I've only ever felt betrayed. But I know for sure, God gives every trial not without cause, and surely all of that has the answer Rhey. Wait, and be patient because tomorrow will be much better" he replied, caressing my back.

I don't answer Steve anymore, I shut up and think about all of Steve's words. In the corner of my heart I wish that everything Steve said could be real.

I stood up from my prostration, wiping away the remains of my tears.

“Do you still want here Steve?” I smiled at Steve who was looking at me strangely.

“It's done?” Steve asked back, I replied with a nod of my head.

“Ya, come on. You want to go to the desert or want to go back to the car?” Steve stood beside me.

“Ke aja car yes Steve, I'm tired” I walk slowly

“Okay alright” me and Steve walk towards where the hardtop is parked.

We're headed to where Steve's car is parked. Just the roar of the machine was heard, I was silent and just looking out the window.

“Iya quite sir, sleepy sir only two hours aja” Steve little chat with his charming smile.

“Near here are many lodgings mister, who knows would like a short break. But yaaa not a luxury hotel that mister” driver was offering lodging.

“No sir, thank you. My wife is more comfortable sleeping at home” reject Steve friendly, while I just keep quiet just do not care about their conversation.

“Indeed mister right, the most comfortable place is home. What else if the right home is welcomed with wife and children, well it feels like pegel was lost already” replied the father enthusiastically.

Steve just smiled and looked at me, but I still didn't care.

We got to the car stop, where Steve parked his car.

“Thank you sir” I smiled at that driver, and stood next to Steve. When I got off the hardtop, Steve helped me hold my hand so I wouldn't fall, because the hardtop was pretty high.

“Sama-sama mbak” replied the father was friendly.

“Thank you pak” Steve with his smile and his hands outstretched to greet the father.

“Lho mister earlier would have paid” the father was surprised, because Steve gave him money.

“Rejeki for mr” said Steve relaxed.

“Thank you, thank you mister. Later if you go to Bromo again just contact me aja mister” the father looks very good.

“Sama-sama pak” Steve is indeed a person who is friendly to anyone he is friendly, not distinguishing rich or poor.

“Ready go home?” Steve looked at me, and I nodded.

I took off Steve's jacket, though,

“Let me wash first yes Steve your jacket, later I return the time my laptop is finished.” I folded up Steve's jacket I was wearing.

“Yes you take it first, actually do not need to be washed no problem Rhey” Steve stater his car and start running it slowly.

“Don't, later your wife suspects that she washed it”

“Hahaha” Steve laughed, and suddenly stopped his car.

His face looked serious, with his body leaning towards me, getting closer, I was just fixated like a shirt mannequin, holding my breath, his face getting closer.

“This is installed first dong, let's not sound” by pulling the rope attached to the wall of the car, then pressing it on the connecting box until it sounds ‘cklik’

I finally breathed with relief,

“Hehehe yes sorry I forgot” I scratched my non-itchy nape, to dispel my embarrassment and nervousness.

“What do you think hemm?” With an ignorant smile and teasing him he asked.

“A..I didn't think of anything” I answered nervously.

“You want me to make your thoughts come true?” By moving his face and body towards me.

“Ti... No” I rewinded my body to hit the car door, and closed my mouth.

“I guessed what you were thinking, hahahaha” with his booming laugh, because he saw me shut my mouth.

I cursed myself ‘Sialan, why is it that my hands are closing their mouths. He knows what I think.’

“What’an anyway, let's hunt back. Many things I have to do nih” said I sewot to cover my embarrassment.

“Siap Boss” answers still with laughter left.

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