I'm Tired, Love Me

Cheated on?

“Darling you didn't pa pa?” This morning I woke up with a view of Steve sitting on our balcony patio chair.

“Morning baby.” Steve greeted me with a smile.

“Morning. Didn't you wake up, did you wake me up too?” I approached her and confirmed my nightgown.

“You look exhausted dear, so I can't bear to wake you up.” I stroked Steve's back fondly, then Steve pulled my hand out so I could sit on his lap.

“Why baby? Anyone want to ask?” Steve seemed to see something I wanted to talk about, but I was reluctant to start.

“Emm.” I was thinking about whether to ask or not.

“Why the hell? What was? Here and here try saying.” Steve hugged me tightly, making me comfortable expressing whatever I was thinking.

“If I ask, don't get mad ya sayag?”

“Why be angry? It's just aja.” Steve kissed my forehead.

“Honey? Are you having an affair?” My question surprised Steve, but then he smiled.

“Why baby? Did you find anything suspicious?” Steve's question I answered with a nod.

“What is suspicious?” Steve asked again, but I was confused as to what to answer.

“No idea.” I just answered not understanding.

“This is what I saw in.” Steve went ahead and took his phone. “This is me seeing calls in and out, you know them all and they're all men. These are incoming messages you can read everything, if there is a suspicious you can directly ask.” Steve thrust his phone for me to see, but I turned it down with a shudder.

“Owh or want to see account mutations? I open it, I already told you baby. Whenever you want to see please, there is nothing I hide.” Steve put his phone on my lap, and he leaned back, still holding me.

“I will never do anything stupid by cheating, I have everything from you, so what makes me have to cheat, and sacrifice everything I already have?” Steve's eyes looked like they were glaring.

“But why have you not spoiled with me for so long? Not on top of me anymore.” I was embarrassed but I ventured to myself, with my hand playing Steve's pajama button, I just lowered my head in shame.

“So that's why I thought I was having an affair?” Steve smiled and lifted my chin. I nodded slowly.

“Usually it is almost every day, can not see I use a negligee must have been hit, this has been a month but never like that again.” I went back to expressing what I felt.

“What customers want?” Temptation Steve.

“It's just aja.” I threw my face away.

“Every day I see you take care of the children even though assisted with mbak Sari and mommy, but I know if you must also feel fatigue, too, there was my wife my friend because she was tired of taking care of her children and the house she ended up sick and died, I don't want to lose you like that. If you have to go let me go first, not you, because the children still need you very much.”

“Do not talk like that, children also still need the papi.” My answer is a little firm, because I already know what it's like to lose a parent, so I don't want children to lose their papyri when they're very young, well even Rejeki, Jodoh, Death is a divine secret, but speaking and wishing for the good never hurts.

“His mom needs her papi too no?” Steve already stroked my thigh and kissed my nape. I just nodded.

“You are here or in bed?” Steve whispered in my ear.

“On mattress only, here can be free spectacle people.” Steve picked me up and carried me into the room, put me on our bed.

After the end of the romance is not as usual, because this time Steve seems more tired. Maybe it was because we were new to Germany that Steve was still exhausted. He closed his eyes even though he was not asleep, he adjusted his breathing which was still a little hunting.

“You are going to Junior school today or tomorrow baby?” After his breathing returned to order, Steve inquired about the Junior school enrollment.

“As far as you are dear. If you are not tired today, but if you are tired, tomorrow is also not pa pa pa pa. You start to enter the office again when?” I put my hand on Steve's chest.

“The office has been sorted out anyway, if nothing important I better work from here only, so can be closer to you and the kids.” Steve stroked my hand that I put on his chest.

“Darling if possible, tomorrow I want to shop for the kitchen, in the supermarket near here.” I asked Steve for permission to shop.

“Yes we're out of Junior school tomorrow, we're shopping. Want to go to the mall? You must have not been to the mall here for a long time.”

“Emang can?” I asked Steve.

“Aahhh tengkiu darling.” I kissed Steve's cheek.

“Just cheek? This is not dapet?” Steve pointed at his lips, I quickly kissed him.

“I take a shower first baby, you want to shower too or want to sleep again?” I'm back on my negligee.

“I slept again, felt sleepy again.” Steve answered, pulling the blanket.

“Ya already, will you check what?” I walked towards the bathroom.

“You do not have to cook, let the mbok just cook, you take care of me just like children. Hahaha.” Steve laughed as he closed his eyes.

“Aduh so babysitter four babies dong.”timpalku.

“Not a babysitter, but mommy is greatest for me and the kids. No need to cook baby, let mbok who cook, I had ordered for our breakfast, you will ask for help mbok to bring breakfast here aja.” I just nodded at Steve's explanation, and then I went into the bathroom and started my bath.

After finishing the bath I walked towards the kitchen to tell mbok Fitri, to deliver breakfast Steve to the room only later.

“Mbok.” Sapaku on a Fitri mbok who was washing dishes.

“Good morning mistress.”

“Morning mbok. Mbok later breakfast sir Steve please transfer to the room only yes.”

“Good mistress.”

“I want to see the children first, have they been on wake ya mbok?”

“Tadi mbak Sari has made milk and bread for the children of the mistress, but the children have not come down.”

“Owh yes let me see first then. Thank you yes mbok.”

“Yes mistress, equally.”

I left Fitri and walked up the stairs to go to the children's room on the 2nd floor. From the stairs I heard their voices laughing.

“Good morning.” I opened Junior's room door.

“Morning. Junior is ready for breakfast.” My son is always an adult.

“Mandi by yourself dear?” Directly answered with his nod.

“Iya dong, Junior is already big, but his clothes are chosen the same budhe Sari.” Junior asks to call mbak Sari with call ‘budhe’

“Ok good job dear, mami call your sisters first yes.” Junior replied with a nod of his head.

I switched to a twin room with shades of pastel blue and pastel pink, later if the twin has started school, then they will occupy their respective rooms.

“Haiii good morning.” I sweep when I open the door.

“Mamiii” Rafa ran to hug me, while Lea just looked at me, because she was wearing clothes by mbak Sari.

“It's ready for breakfast this beautiful and handsome guy?”

“Ready.” Reply Rafa excitedly.

“Mami, where's papi? Why don't you pick me up?” My daughter's question is very close to her papi.

“Papi is still sleeping, Lea want help mami wakein papi?” I bid on the boy who must always ask the papi.

“Mau, come mami.” With her cute voice and tiny hands, Lea grabbed my hand and walked down.

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