I'm Tired, Love Me

Papa

After coming home from my parents' house, I stopped by a supermarket, bought some fruits and vegetables for supplies at Arlo's mas apartment that I had loaned out to me at some point.

After choosing some groceries, I pushed my troly towards the cashier. While waiting in line at the cashier, my eyes found the figure of Bagas who was hugging the woman, walking in the direction of the supermarket. I turned my face away and lowered my head so that Bagas would not see me. When it was my turn to pay, I hurried

“Mbak sorry can you please faster huh? My stomach hurts because” said I pretended to have a stomachache on the checkout guard

“Owh yes kak awaited for a while yes, it is almost finished kok” mbak cashier replied in a friendly manner

“Total one hundred and seventy-eight thousand kak” said mbak kasir informed me total groceries

“This is mbak, the return take aja” I said while handing over one hundred thousand two pieces of money and hurrying to pass away

The cashier looked up at my strange behavior like a thief who was afraid of being caught, but I ignored it and ran a little to go to the car park, take my car and gas it into Arlo's apartment.

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“Non already home” welcome mbak Sari when I open the apartment door

“Iya mbak, do not have the heart to be scared Sari alone here” I said with a small laugh

“Ih non, not behind yet non?” Timpal mbak Sari while laughing back

“Mbak Sari, there is something I want to talk about” I sat on the TV room sofa after putting my groceries on the kitchen table and was arranged by mbak Sari

“Iya non, briefly yes enter vegetables first” by immediately arranging vegetables in the refrigerator

“What's wrong non?” Sari said while sitting

“Gini mbak, mbak Sari must have known my problem right?” Yes mbak Sari already knew my problem and also Bagas affair from Arlo mas that night, when mbak Sari came here.

“Iya non, what will non do?”

“I want to file for divorce mbak”

“Yes God is not patient yes, do not want to talk about non?” first Sari tried to give an opinion

“We won't be able to be together again mbak, this is the second time he had an affair with the woman, and it's time I have to go for now. Maybe if Vano is still there, I will think about it for Vano's sake, but even now Vano does not have mbak” I said that again shed tears of my eyes considering Vano

“Hopefully all non-take decisions are steps for non” happiness said mbak Sari sincerely

“Aamiin, would Sari like to stay with me? But maybe later I will contract a much smaller house or rent an apartment that is cheaper and smaller than this apartment mbak”

“If it is still allowed I want to join non aja keep”

“But I can not pay Mbak Sari as much as mbak salary so far, mbak know myself I am still trying to work again” said I explained

“Gak pa pa non, not in salary is also not pa pa non, which is important in the place to shelter only I have Alhamdulillah non” words mbak Sari actually make me touched

“Aaahhhh mbak Sari made aja” I said as I stretched out my hand as if to embrace her

“Ow yes non earlier den Arlo came here nyari non Rheyna, I said still to the hostess and mistress, I said, he said tomorrow want to come back here again” mbak Sari gave information that mas Arlo was coming when I went to papa mama's house “Ow yes non said den Arlo asked that non Rheyna unblock the number is from non phones, so you can contact non directly he said, if not unblock it later non Rheyna phones are stolen from non he said” continued mbak Sari

“Iya mbak I open soon, there-there's a reason that people” said I

“If it has been opened told send a chat to den Arlo non” said mbak Sari again

“Ih mbak Sari is now right hand mas Arlo ya?” I said pretend to pout

“Hahaha is not non, just convey the message of course” said mbak Sari then passed to cook

To: Mas Arlo's

‘Nih I have unblocked mas WHEN eh wrong mas Arlo’

I sent a message to Arlo. While waiting for his reply, suddenly there was a call from mama

“Assalamualaikum ma” sapaku on mom

“Wa’alaikumsalam hikkss hikksss, Rhey papa” said mom while crying, I heard the sound of Ambulance siren

“Maaa, papa why ma?” I began to shed tears and was confused

“Rheyna directly there ma” said I immediately took the bag and car keys

“Non where are you going to cry?” Tanya Sari was confused

“Papa mbak, papa fell in the bathroom and now brought to the hospital” I said shuffled

“Non can I come with?” Ask Sari to doubt

“Bby mbak, let's quickly leave” I said’iya’ request mbak Sari.

On the way to the car park again there was an incoming call, this time from the Arlo mas

“Assalamualaikum jutek” say hello with joking

“Wa’alaikumsalam mas hikss” somehow hearing his voice made me want to complain to him

“Hey you why?” Ask

“My father, my papa fell in the bathroom and is now rushed to Pelita Harapan” hospital I explained

“Who are you there? I'm with ya?” He said he offered to accompany me

“I'm the same mbak Sari mas, this has been rolled to hospital”

“Ya we have met in the hospital if so, do not speed yes, be careful in Jalan” he said then ended the phone connection

Arriving at the hospital, I immediately looked for a mother who turned out to be in the ICU room, crying bitterly alone

“Maaaa” said I ran towards mama

“Papa Rhey, papa go ninggalin kita” like in the dagger of my heart that has not really healed from the departure of Vano, now must accept the departure of my papa

I went into the ICU and saw my papa covered with a white blanket. I slowly opened the blanket, I looked at the face of my paled papa with lips that reviewed a little smile, he said,

“Papaaaaa why papa ninggalin me, I still need papa's advice, I still need papa's embrace to strengthen me, papaaaa” I cry while hugging papa

Suddenly someone's hand was holding my shoulder, trying to lift me up so I wouldn't embrace my papa body anymore,

“Ikhlaskan Rhey, do not cry like that” voice that voice mas Arlo, I straighten and turn my body

“My papa mas ninggalin I also huaaaa hikssss” I cried bitterly and subconsciously hugged Arlo mas, crying in his arms

“Kuat Rhey you have to be strong for your mama, if you like this who strengthens your mama? You're the daughter they love” she's trying to strengthen me, caressing my back and hair, I just nod

“Out yuk kasian your mama just accompanied by Sari aja” he said while hugging my shoulder, memapahku out of the ICU room, sitting me next to mama, hugging mama tightly, hugging mama, with a sobbing mama's cry severed my heart

“Tante, Rhey, I'm sorry to take care of the body of his administration first yes” said mas Arlo asking permission to take care of papa's body

“Iya son, sorry to trouble” said mom on mas Arlo

“What is buried near the tomb of Vano aunt?” Ask then

“Iya just there, so it can be close to his favorite grandson” said mama laughed

“Good aunt, I'm sorry”

“Dragon mamamu, do not cry if there is no me” whispered mas Arlo right in my ear with a very soft voice, and caressed my back, and I can only answer with a nod.

All the process went well, from the release of the body to the funeral all went well with the help of Mas Arlo.

“Mbak Sari, I live at home mama, mbak Sari want to stay in the apartment used to not papa” I said to mbak Sari when we were on our way home to mama, mama, escorted by Arlo mas and my car was brought by Aman driver Arlo mas.

“I follow non and madam only non” said mbak Sari later

Mas Arlo just looked at me from the rearview mirror, watching me sitting in the back with my mom, while he was driving with Sari's mom next to him.

Papa's funeral was only attended by us because it remembered papa who was buried at midnight, and all papa's brothers had rested.

Seriate…….