I'm Tired, Love Me

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The departure of Vano and my parents with the time close together makes me feel lonely living in the house of mama, always remember how my life without them, although Mbak Sari there accompany me but all feels different. In this house I spent my childhood with my parents who loved me, but all is not the same now, quiet no sound of their joking.

“Mbak Sari, I have to find a smaller rented house, would Mbak Sari still want to follow me?” I asked Sari when we were having dinner

“Anywhere non go I follow” replied mbak Sari sad

“Why are you so sad?” I asked when I saw the look on Sari's sad face

“I pity the same non, unfinished sorrow non lost Vano, non already faced reality den Bagas cheating, not finished with that sir come along and now the mistress is gone, the, I do not know what happens if it happens to me non, maybe I will not be as strong as non” mbak Sari began to shed her tears, sad because of all that happened to me

“My heart was destroyed mbak, my life as if there is no spirit now, what am I fighting for? Who am I fighting for? When all those I fought went away from me” I fell into my tears and stopped eating

“I'm sorry non, have made non so sad again” mbak Sari as if regretting with her sad speech

“No, we both have to fight together, but as I said the other day in Arlo's apartment, I can not make the salary mbak Sari big because I also have to contract the house and ready for work or business first mbak, I am also confused to start everything from where. All of a sudden everything made me have no preparation whatsoever” said I explained

“Nothing non, I'm not in the salary is not a problem non, the important thing is to be able to ride and eat non only I already thank you very non” maybe mbak Sari is just as desperate as me

“Come we may seek happiness for ourselves, do not think too much of others mbak, because not necessarily we think of us” I began to think to be selfish

Sari just nodded and smiled as she lifted the dirty dishes in front of me and brought them to the kitchen.

The Flash Back On

I drove Arlo to come home this afternoon, because I knew he was tired from dawn and helped me take care of everything. At first he refused but I could convince him,

“Mas go home first sana” expel me at that time

“Don't want, I want to be here aja temenin you until tomorrow” reject it

“Tasteful same neighbor dong mas” said again

“Biarin aja, no one knows also I am here, my car has been brought pack Aman to the office” answer is still forcing

“If you don't want to go home, I don't want to see you again mas” threatened me

“Ya I've been here so you continue to meet me” he said no less threatening

“Later tonight I video call if I want to sleep” bargain me

“So you lied” he replied

“Janji” answered me while brandishing my pinky

“Honey first if it's” while pointing at his cheeks

“But home yes?” I said reassuringly

“But video call me yes?” He made sure back

“Iya mas” I convinced her again

“Yes if so I go home, but darling first”

I kissed her cheek so she would go home, and she smiled sweetly after getting my kiss even on the cheek, she said,

“I go home first ya” he said that I replied with a nod “Don't forget to eat, later I chek to Sari you have eaten what not, if until you have not eaten, if until you have not eaten, don't blame me for coming straight here and sleeping here next to you” he said threateningly

“Yeee it is you who hope” I said scowling while hitting his arm softly, and replied to his laugh

“I go home baby, Assalamualaikum” cup he kissed my forehead and gently rubbed the top of my head.

The Flash Back Off

“Mbak Sari please clothes mama and papa in the closet mbak remove and mbak put in the cardboard yes mbak, want me to donate to the unable” I give instructions to mbak Sari packing all clothes mama and papa and I will donate to the less fortunate

All my mother's jewelry, and my mother's and papa's valuables have been put in 1 box and I keep it in my suitcase with some of my clothes that I will bring to move to a new place.

Time has shown at 8pm, and I've gone into my room to call Arlo's mas,

Tuttt tutt tutt

“Assalamualaikum darling” said with a sweet smile

“Wa’alaikumsalam mas” I said with a slight smile

“Have eaten, right?” Ask a probing question

“Already dong” “Mas still in office?” I asked when I saw the background video that appeared

“Iya I slept here, end you throw out hahaha” he said blame me

“Ih yes go home dong, why sleep office? I don't have a home” I said meledek

“I've already said out of town with Lila, yes so I sleep aj” kasian office once he for my sake until willing to lie to his family

“I miss you” her face turned serious

“No fit in style like ABG so hahaha” I laughed at his words

“Knowing you and loving you makes me feel back young hahaha” she starts teasing

“Eleh-eleh the om do not want age nih” said I was teased

“But not 40 already said om, I bite nih ya” he did not accept me call him om “if I om, you sugar baby yes, okay siiip deh” he back mocked me

“Can be set origin transferan match hahaha” I joke with him

“Eii start naughty yes, jewel his ear nih” while bringing his finger closer on the phone screen

“Ampun bang Jago” while laughing out loud I mocked him

“I am happy to see you laughing, especially your laugh because I” his face back serious despite a smile on his lips

“Ahhh melted my heart hear your seduction mas” I said while pretending to limp and then laughing

“You are very excited anyway, so want to hug the luuuuaaamaaa”

“Start lebay deh” with a shy blush I smiled

“Guide me to sleep ya”

“Ha? How?” Ask me to be surprised

“Ya stay online until we fall asleep aja”

“Ngabisin dong” quota I start calculation

“Need how much quota anyway? Relax later also keisi full again” the words of the person whose account is without limit nih

“Heeem cocky” said I quipped

“Lho is arrogant? I'll tag it to Bagas hahaha” damn he tried to provoke my emotions, I reply by turning my lips

“Rheyna…. Where're you? Come out here” the sound of someone shouting shocked me and Arlo mas, reflex I told mas Arlo silent by coding the index finger on my lips

“Don't be hung up his phone” said mas Arlo while whispering which I replied with a nod of my head.

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