I'm Tired, Love Me
Awal
Hello Reader,
Greetings, I am the mother of 2 sons. A hobby of reading novels at bedtime, and began to dare to write little by little.
Sorry if there is a lot of wrong writing and less deigning ️,
Happy Reading My beloved Readers
9 years ago….
“Bagas, I got pregnant” while grasping the test pack I cried,
“……..”
“Bagas, how should I do now?” I asked in confusion
“You check first to Rhey doctor, but I can't help you, today I have Rhey” business replied Bagas sound a little there to worry
“We must marry soon Bagas, before my stomach gets bigger” my voice sounds soft which is accompanied by tears
Not because I wasn't old enough because I was 25, because I knew that I had let my parents down, because I had been pregnant out of wedlock, guilt enveloped my inner self,anxiety and to my worry for fear Bagas will run away from responsibility. Not without reason I worry excessively but because for 3 years of relationship with Bagas, during that time Bagas only promised to marry me, but there is no real evidence.
“If you don't want to take responsibility, I can raise this child myself, but don't expect one day you can meet him again” I'm desperate because I'm afraid that Bagas will run away.
“I am Rhey's responsibility, you check with the doctor first, check how his condition used to be, while you chek I will think of a way to talk to your father, mother, only then do we face mom papa kamu”. Answer Bagas trying to calm down
“.....” I can't say anything anymore
“Ya Rhey I closed first yes phone, later I contact you again” Bagas end our conversation.
***
“Ya Rhey?” the voice across the phone gave her a greeting,
“Retno”
“Heeemmm”
“Retno this afternoon you have the same event udin?”
“Gk no Rhey, why?”
“Meet me to the doctor want gk ret?”
“You are Rhey, you are sick Rhey?”
the hikss hykss
“Hei Rhey asked even cry ni kiddo, so sick huh? Yuk I anter now only if I have strong Rhey”
“I'm pregnant ret...” Hikss hikss hikss
“Haaaa? Don't joke Rhey!” Retno said she couldn't believe what she just heard
“Temenin I ret, later also you know myself I was joking or seriously” replied I tried to convince Retno.
“Ok ok I pick you up at 5 later, calm down yes Rhey, all will be well aja” replied Retno trying to encourage me.
***
At 16:30
Dreet….Dreeett
The sound of the vibration of the cell phone I put on my desk rang,
Retno…
“Ya ret...”
“Hunting down, I've been in front of your house nih” Retno greeting makes me shocked and ran towards the window, and sure enough the white car was parked in front of my house,
“What time is this ret? How was it picked up?” I'm confused
“Hour half 5 this, forward 30 minutes no papa is yes, I can't wait I Rhey”
“Wait a moment yes I'm ready to wait aja” said I ended the phone from Retno and rushed to get ready so that Retno does not wait long.
***
“Wah congratulations ma'am, here is the fetal pouch nih, the age is only 4 weeks yes ma'am, good this is healthy also ini” doctor's greeting like a hard slap for me, I'm happy,I was happy but on the other hand I cried because I let my parents down,
Retno's face that was looking at the USG monitor illustrates her surprise, she was convinced that I was really pregnant.
“Thank you doctor” replied Ku who is still confused what to say. I was amazed that something was growing in my womb.
“This is the first pregnancy huh ma'am? Her husband where bu kok gk accompany usher?” The doctor's question made me remember Bagas, “husband I still work outside the city of dok” replied me with a smile to cover my disappointment because Bagas did not want to come to deliver me pregnancy chek.
“This I prescribe some vitamins yes ma'am, taken according to the dosage only”
“Good doctor”
“There's more to ask bu?”
“Ti.no doctor” I don't know what else to ask
“Bok ma'am, usually in the early age of pregnancy is a vulnerable age, as much as possible in order not to fatigue ya bu” doctor as if understanding my confusion and finally give a little explanation to me, as possible,
“Good doctor, will I remember it”
“Alright, please make up for the vitamins in the medicine section yes ma'am, good luck always” said the doctor ended my consultation and examination.
“Good, thank you doctor” me and Retno out of the examination room
“Rhey, kok can be gini anyway?” Ask Retno between believing and not believing
“Bagas who at that time makssa I ret” I again moody recounted the incident to Retno while waiting for the prescribed vitamins
“Kok you want Rhey?”
“She promised I would marry Ret, if anything happened to me”
“Continue now where is Bagas? She just wanted anterin you check out Rhey”
“He's busy Ret”, I replied still defending Bagas
“Mother Rheyna Aurora, please get to take buid” via loudspeaker my name on call, please,
After taking the prescribed vitamins I returned home with Retno.
“I gk stopped by ya Rhey, want to go straight back, follow me pening Rhey thought you”
“Iya no papa Ret, thank you yes already menemenin”
“Sama-sama Rhey, take care of the health of your fetal mind, do not be too tired”
“Iya bahel” I replied with a laugh.
I got out of the car and rushed into the house, then kept all the vitamins in my closet.
***
The next day at Bagas dinner I told him to come home to talk about our marriage and also to tell my papa mama about my pregnancy.
“Gas in, already waiting for papa mama in the dining room” said I after telling Bagas to come in
“Heem” replied Bagas briefly, I saw a line of fear drawn on his face.
“Eh Bagas, here gas sit first yuk” greet my mama on Bagas
“Iya aunt” replied Bagas with a smile
My papa just stared at Bagas with a thousand questions, because Bagas did not usually come to dinner with us
“Excuse me yes Om” Bagas ask my papa permission to sit
“Ya..” replied papa briefly, as if knowing something was happening to his only daughter.
Dinner was in silence, until we finished eating and papa started to open the conversation.
“Tumben you came here at gas dinner?” Ask papa suspiciously
“Em... Yes Om it ...... anyone would like me to talk to Om and Aunte” replied Bagas confusion
“What is gas?” Tanya mama tried to mediate the conversation Bagas and papa
“On me and Rheyna aunt” Bagas replied while rubbing his hands on his lap, I know he was worried and confused,whereas I can only stay still and look down while holding back my gathered tears wanting to come out
“What is gas?” Mama asked a little worriedly, but he just kept quiet while looking at the two of us in turn
“I plan to marry Rheyna in the near future Om,Tante” replied Bagas to surprise my mother,
“What?” Mama replied surprised
I haven't been able to continue the question papa has interrupted, papa,
“How many months has Rhey been?”ask me who surprised me immediately,
“A..a...what is pa?” Reply stammered
“You know what Papa means Rhey” replied papa with a flat face but stored a sense of disappointment in his eyes
“Four weeks pa” answered me with tears in my eyes that can no longer be held
“Ampuni me pa,ma I have let you guys down” continued me with more and more tears
“What does this mean Rhey?” Ask your mother with a confused and worried face
“He's pregnant ma” replied papa while holding your hand to strengthen mama, even though I know papa was hurt
“Why can Gini Rhey” my mom's tears start to break
“Sorry ma...sorry...pardon me..” hikz hikz my tears are getting louder.
Bagas was only able to fall silent, though,
“This is also what made you resign from your job Rhey?” Ask papa
“Iya pa I'm ashamed” replied me
“Where did papa know I resigned?”ask me later
“Om Bambang who said, because he was surprised suddenly you filed a resignation letter on the grounds papa told you to go to college again
“I'm sorry pa” is just an apology I can say
“Bring your parents here right away, to talk about the continuation” papa said to Bagas
“Good Om, then I say goodbye first” replied Bagas
“Ya” replied papa briefly, mama is still loyal to her crying which then in handeng papa to enter the room.
***
2days after Bagas met his father and mother, Bagas came back here with his parents, to talk about my marriage contract and Bagas.
“Avents of agreement must be implemented immediately, no need to invite many people, just enough family near me” said papaku
“Lho pack does not need a reception?”ask Bagas' mother to papa
“No need, because it will only make disgrace more spread” replied papa cooler.
While the mother prefers to be quiet, listen to everything that papa and Bagas parents talk about.
***
1week after Bagas' parents came to see my parents, here we are, in front of the KUA ruler who was called to my house to hold their marriage contract with Bagas and me.
“SAH..”.
“SAH..”.
“SAH...” replied the witnesses
The event attended by family and close neighbors only went well, all who attended smiled gave a greeting to me and Bagas, as well as to our two parents.
But I don't know what I'm thinking, because I don't feel like happiness but like pressure, I feel like I'm choosing wrong, I should be happy but why I feel like there's going to be a big wound.
Seriate…..
