I'm Tired, Love Me
Wrongfully
After finishing dinner, I brought Vano into the room because it was time for Vano to change the pressers and put on a nightgown for Vano.
Vano had started to fall asleep, I left him and lay in my bed watching television, but the show was nothing good,finally I took my phone and I remembered not telling the MOMENT that the rice field he sent me was delicious and also a large portion of hahaha.
HOUR
“Thanks for the rice field, as well as a large portion of hahahaha”
I sent a message to whatsup WHEN, whatsup that never had a profile photo, either because my number has not been saved or because he did not give a photo to his profile.
Long time no reply, the clock has shown at 10 pm, finally I decided to sleep and put my phone on the nightstand.
I heard the sound of Bagas cars entering the garage of our house, our house was not a big house like the officials, he said,just a simple house that has 2 car garages and there is a small garden in the middle of the car garage that is directly opposite to our living room door, in front of the garage parked my car there is my room and Bagas,while in front of the garage Bagas car is a kitchen, and in the back there is a small garden and a place to dry clothes.
I grabbed my phone and saw the clock showing at 00:34 almost every day Bagas always came home late and ignored me, I put my phone back and pretended to be asleep when Bagas came into our room. He walked into the bathroom, and I heard the sound of water rustling, about 15 minutes the bathroom door was opened and Bagas came out and took the change of clothes I had provided,yes every night before falling asleep I always prepare clothes for Bagas dressing. I never prepared dinner for him because he definitely wouldn't eat. Already old brp he started never eating at home. After putting on her clothes she kissed Vano and then got into bed and slept behind me, just like the nights of yesterday, I was invisible to her.
In the morning, as usual I woke up at 05.00 dawn prayers then continued to the market because there were no vegetables and side dishes. After the market I gave Vano ASI that I pumped and I put it in a bottle, I am grateful because Vano is not fussy when going through the transition. I can go back to the kitchen and cook, with the help of Mbak Sari which I tasked to wash and cut vegetables and fish.
After I finished cooking at 07:00 I went back to my room and woke Bagas up,
“Pah let's get up, it's time to get ready to kantor”
“Pahhh I woke him up while shaking his shoulder slowly
“What’an anyway, I'm still sleepy” replied Bagas rudely snapped a little
“You don't want to work?” Ask slowly
“Bangunin I just an hour away” said he was still with his eyes closed
“But it's already seven pah” I said still with my confidence to wake Bagas
“Had been so chatty you're this” said Bagas snapped at me and then stood up and nudged me while walking to the bathroom
“Why did he get so rude like this Allah” I spoke to myself, and wondered what was going on with us, he said,I prepared the clothes Bagas would wear to the office and then I went out of the room and prepared breakfast for him.
30 Minutes passed and Bagas had already exited our room and picked up his briefcase which was placed on the computer desk which was located next to our room.
“Bah let's have breakfast first, here I have cooked your favorite red bean and egg soup” I invite my husband to breakfast his favorite food
“I'm still full, I immediately leave aja” he said cold
“Owh yes already if that's the reward, be careful on the road ya” said I hide my disappointment
“Heem” only he replied with just a coolness
After closing the fence for Bagas, Sari took her home and saw me sitting limp on the dining table chair,
“Non,non Rheyna not pa pa?” Tanya was Sari who saw me shed tears
“No pa pa mbak Sari” replied me while wiping my tears
“The patient yes non, the strong” said mbak Sari gave me spirit
“Insyaallah mbak Sari”
“Yuk mbak Sari we have breakfast first” invite me to mbak Sari
“Iya non, I have breakfast in kitchen” said mbak Sari
“Breakfast here aja mbak accompany me, long time I ate no friends mbak” said I was sad, no matter how long I always eat alone since Bagas came home late at night,even in the morning at Bagas breakfast, I often can not accompany because the routine every morning Vano must always mem*su.
“But non...”mbak Sari looks presumptuous with invite me
“No pa pa mbak Sari, we are both human, our degrees in front of God are the same” I said with a smile
“Ba...good non” replied mbak Sari who was still hesitant, then kedapur to take the cutlery
Sari hesitated to sit near me,
“Sit mbak” take me
“Let's eat, don't be afraid so” I said with a smile
“Iya” said mbak Sari returned my smile, then we ate together.
“Mbak Sari don't want to marry again?” I said open our conversation
“Emmm, not yet my mind is non” said mbak Sari
“Why mbak?”
“Still trauma non, fear can it as yesterday” mbak Sari is a victim of divorce due to KDRT until she who was pregnant for five months must have a miscarriage,finally she chose to divorce and went to Surabaya to stay away from her ex-husband who was in Kalimantan
“If ex-husband asks for a reference how mbak?” Ask me again
“Say people throw the former in place of non, so it should not be collected again hehehehe” said mbak Sari while cengengengesan
“Hahahaha his ex is already in the trash can ya mbak” I said while laughing
“Iya so non hehehe” said mbak Sari still with his cry
“Mbak Sari can aja” I said, umur mbak Sari is not much different from me, only 3 years older mbak Sari
Suddenly I faintly heard my phone ringing,
“Mbak Sari continue just eat it, please later have me in concise aja yes mbak, I want to pick up the phone first” said as I passed to the room
“Good non”
WHEN CallING……
“Assalamualaikum”
“Wa’alaikumsalam, good morning sweet mama”
“Pagi” my answer is short
“Morning how do you think you've been-te gini? What's up?”
“Nothing” I said still with a jutek tone
“Money shopping less? Or is the cooking a scorch? Or miss me? Hahaha” said it started making beautiful
“What’an anyway use kangen all, kekaininya bin tau rasa” said still not good
“Ya, I used to know all you know can get along hahahaha” he said still joking
“Ih more ngaco aja nih people, why call me early in the morning?want to have breakfast?” I said scoffed
“Who's a good idea, then may I ask for breakfast? What cooking is it this morning?”
“I can't cook, can't come here” I said quickly
“Not be that way, you know who I am hahaha” he said laughing
“Dih very pe-de anyway,wapain phone? If there is no need I close ya” I said lazy
“Don't jutek dong, I want to apologize because when you sent the message last night my phone was off,if at home I always turn off my phone because I don't want anything to interfere with my time with the kids” long explanation that makes me a little envious, ' he said,and think ‘if Bagas like him who is good at giving time to his son’
“Happy to be your wife and children” I said softly
“What did you say?” Said
“Ah no pa-pa” said I switched the conversation
“Hei sweet mama, listen to me carefully yes, you are too precious for something that never sees you, you deserve to be happy, give yourself time to be happy, be happy,if you want I can send a nanny to your son”
Deg heart racing faster,’don't pay attention to me like this, I'm afraid to have more taste, I'm an ordinary human’
Seriate……
