Chandanas

Reed (1)

The deafening noise of the ears continues. Screams and screams were all simple. Dozens of people look surprised instead of playing while the rest scream hysterically and pull out a cellphone to capture the tragic moment presented before them.

Train stood with trembling legs while tears bathed her two beautiful sweets. Up ahead, the man she liked was lying covered in blood. Up ahead, the hero who had just locked up victory for their school was lying helpless.

Ratih closed his eyes, making a drop of clear grain flow on his white and smooth cheek. He could not believe what was now in front of him. He could not believe what he now had to see. A few minutes ago Kiran was still running around the field dashing and cool, with her smile and good looks. Then a second later all changed with screams and heartache over the terrible tragedy that had just happened.

Unable to look out onto the field anymore, Ratih slammed himself into the audience seats. For some reason, the event where he met Kiran for the first time replayed in his memory.

That afternoon, Ratih was waiting for Rendi who was busy doing data collection for extra basketball equipment. Because of boredom, Ratih decided to go for a walk around the extra basketball room which is located quite far from the row of classrooms. Due to the quiet and calm atmosphere, Ratih can clearly hear the sound of a cat meowing around the extra basketball room. With all the curiosity and confusion that ensued, Ratih began to look for the source of the voice.

He walked around the extra room until he finally saw a kitten wedged between a wall and an unused table. Immediately, Ratih ran over to the cat while pulling the table that squeezed him.

Train crouching while lifting the body of the cat, "You okay?" ask the cat. Despite realizing that he would not get an answer in human language, Ratih felt increasingly worried about the condition of the cat as he responded to Ratih's question by meowing.

"You wait here, I'm looking for food" he said, lowering back the lethargic, helpless kitten.

Ratih walked away leaving him while occasionally looking back. He frowned sadly as he watched the kitten lay weakly on the ground.

Confused about where to go, Ratih returned to the extra basketball room to meet Rendi and ask her permission to buy cat food because she was sure that Rendi would be furious if Ratih went without asking.

"Huh? What the hell! You're mother? Always doing useless things! Go there, I'm dizzy again too!" The joints that were made dizzy with the record also barked in a high tone, making Ratih again feel upset because of his actions that could never control emotions.

"Why the hell? I am your boyfriend! Not where you lanterns all your hard and upset! What am I samsak? What's so hard about talking all right?" Ratih also spoke with a fairly high tone. Some children who were in the room looked shocked and confused to see the quarrel that occurred in front of them.

"That's a lot of noise! You should understand! I'm dizzy again why even addin anyway? If you want to feed your cat, eat there! If you need to feed a kitten one country!" Rendi shouted back. He is really typical of people who are bad at holding back anger.

Ratih looked at Rendi in disbelief. The resentment in his heart was now at its peak, "I always knew you huh. Come on, it's better if we break up!" Ratih replied to Rendi's words by half shouting. I have been tired of this relationship for a long time. There was nothing left between them but their own egos.

Although not really like Rendi, Ratih tried hard to stay by her side because she knew that Rendi needed someone by her side. Although he very often got out of control, he often regretted his actions because he was not intentional anger. But if it continues like this, Ratih will also torture himself. The joints never change and on the other hand he is getting hurt more and more. If Rendi does regret her attitude, the man should try to change himself. But until now nothing has changed from him other than getting worse.

With a very bad mood, Ratih walked out of the room, leaving Rendi who was now filled with regret because he was back out of control.

"Ratih, I'm sorry! L'm.. I'm not making a meal"

"Every day you apologize. Every time you apologize. You said you were sorry. Butwhat? Has anything changed? Not at all."

Ratih walked away leaving Rendi stifled in the extra basketball room due to unfinished business. After making sure that Rendi went back inside, Ratih who had walked tens of meters from the extra basketball room ran small and returned there to take the Little Cat with him.

When Ratih was about to walk to the back of the extra room, there was the soft voice of a man from there. Feeling curious, Ratih walks slowly so as not to surprise or cause a sound that can attract attention.

"I'm a suir, huh?" said a male student who was seen crouching next to the kitten.

Practice peeping in silence. The man is seen putting his lunch box on the ground and then feeding the chicken meat that should be a side dish and then given to the kitten. He stroked the kitten's head with one hand while the other pulled out a bottle of mineral water from the bag. Put a little water on the bottle cap and thrust it into the kitten.

"Eating a lot of yes," he said softly, still continuing to stroke the back and top of the head of the kitten who is now busy chewing the chicken meat he gave.

Train smile knot. Just this time he saw a boy who cared so much about a cat. Wherever, surely Ratih had read that men who love animals are men who are soft-hearted. And the man who was crouching was definitely one of them.

Still in a peeking position, Ratih tried to see the man's face. He tried hard to peek at him but the wall next to him made his vision limited, he could not see the boy's face clearly.

Their eyes met and for a moment, Ratih was stunned by how handsome the man was. He lowered his eyes down, towards the nametag attached to the handsome man's right chest. It says 'Kirandana Bagaspati'.

Train back to smile when the man unconsciously cleaned his provisions and drinking bottle then stroked the kitten once again before he walked in a hurry in the direction opposite to the direction of the arrival of Ratih.

From that day on, Ratih kept thinking about the man. He gathered all the information about him and found out that the young man's name was Kiran. For several weeks Ratih tried to find out everything about her including the information that Kiran hated women. Initially Ratih had felt disbelief but if you recall how Kiran's reaction when she found out that Ratih was peeping at her made the girl inevitably start to think the information made sense.

While Ratih was busy exploring information about Kiran, Rendi never stopped bothering her. The man continued to try to bring her back together but Ratih continued to reject him and said that Rendi tried to improve herself before returning to find another partner. He cannot continue like that all his life and hurt those around him constantly. Ratih wants Rendi to change in a better direction and forget himself, but the man is very stubborn as he is very difficult to control his emotions.

The climax is after Ratih expresses his feelings for Kiran. For days Ratih gathered courage and determination to put aside his pride to prove his sincerity to Kiran. Although initially hesitant to express feelings openly, at the suggestion and insistence of some friends Ratih began to be influenced and gain confidence.

On that day, Ratih stepped shyly towards Kiran's class. He had deliberately not approached Kiran before because people said that it would make the man feel uncomfortable. Therefore, Ratih never approached Kiran and even tried to get to know her and decided to directly state what he felt to Kiran. That way he hoped that Kiran could see the sincerity and earnestness of his heart.

Who initially only walked in the company of some friends, now began to crowd Ratih and escort him to Kiran class. He does not know how all these people know his intentions but they support the desperate actions of Ratih because they judge Kiran and Ratih will be a compatible couple. At that time everyone was sure Kiran would accept the feeling of Ratih because no one would reject a girl as smart and beautiful as Ratih.

Upon his arrival in front of Kiran's class, some of the boy's friends are madly aware of what's going on. They look hysterical while trying to pull Kiran out of the classroom.

Practice pounding. Shame and impatience in his heart. He frowned while looking back to gain the confidence and support of his friends.

"You sure?" ask Ratih. He was trying to gather courage by reassuring himself that what he was doing was right.

His three close friends compactly nodded while smiling enthusiastically. Not only Ratih, they were also impatient to see how Kiran reacted when she saw the girl who was dubbed as the most beautiful student in this school expressed feelings of love for her.

And that's where it is. Kiran stood up nervously and confused. His expression showed that he did not understand what was happening before him, why so many people were crowding his class while smiling and cheering his arrival.

Ratih who covered himself with a heart-shaped cork board only smiled knots while looking at Kiran who looked confused from behind the heart-shaped cork he was holding. Ratih admitted that the man looked very adorable with his astonished and confused expression.

After being coerced by some of his friends, Kiran had now stood right in front of Ratih. Ratih lowered the heart-shaped cork, showing her beautiful face in front of Kiran who looked increasingly confused while scratching her nape.

His heart began to beat. The words and sentences that he had previously prepared seemed to evaporate, lost somewhere. The confidence that he had previously managed to get is now back to disappear because of the nervousness and groggy self-control. With trembling lips, Ratih tried to say any sentence that could represent the feelings and intentions of his arrival.

"Gue likes you. If you are willing to be my partner, you accept this heart. If not, you broke his heart!" Teach with a fast tone. It has no power to withstand the beating of the chest which is beating very fast and unstoppable.

Kiran showed a surprised ecapression. The man was silent as if enduring pain and tightness. Ratih's feeling said it was a bad sign.

And sure enough, it didn't take long before Kiran held the heart and broke it into two parts and said, "Sorry!" running and out of the crowd.

Train down with tears welling up. Although what Kiran broke was a cork, her heart seemed to be broken along with the rejection that the man gave. Ratih's whole life has never liked a man this serious. He never even tried so hard to find information and beat you a man more than he did to Kiran. And now the only person who can make her feel truly in love officially breaks her heart.

Train to throw away the broken heart while walking weakly to return to class. Without feeling the tears kept flowing from his eyes, wet his cheeks and neck like a waterfall. Ratih had never felt a broken heart until now he really understood what it was like.

The pain did not stop there. Even after the incident, the whole school talked about it like a song. Everyone memorized and knew the story like a beautiful poem that soothed the hearts of female students. The students who had hated and envied how lucky Ratih was. As for Kiran, the same thing happened. Cheap gossip that says that he likes men began to spread to make Ratih sick to hear it because because he was the rumor spread. Because he was too selfish and reckless, Kiran had to accept hatred and become a gossip.

For several days Ratih fell ill from guilt and heartbreak. He thought that after Kiran rejected him, the feeling would go away and leave. But Ratih is wrong, his love is only increasing. His feelings for Kiran continued to grow and develop even without ever being watered, without ever being cared for. The feeling spread like wild grass, which although it has been removed to the roots, will continue and still grow abundantly.

Ratih rubbed his tears violently when he saw the medics start arriving and transported Kiran's body using a stretcher.

Hope you're okay, Kiran. Hope you're okay.