Chandanas

Section 33 (The End Of Interval 1)

Kiran took a breath, then resumed her story, "Finding the same name from two different books that I borrowed from different places was strange, especially for those of us who rarely experience coincidence. I began to wonder, I began to often think and imagine what kind of figure you are. Until one day you and I met for the first time at that bad time, but at that time I did not know that you were Chandana. Other coincidences began to happen often until I was more interested and more often think of you. I want to be close to you, Chandana."

Kiran paused to turn to Chandana, "And the best thing about it was, for the first time I didn't feel the slightest fear. I feel like I have to do something good every time I see you. You are the reason I smile so much. You're the reason I wanted to change and tear down the wall I've been building myself. You also introduced me to this strange feeling, the feeling of longing, the heart pounding, and so on. You realize that?" Kiran looked at Chandana with sparkling eyes.

Chandana almost choked. His breathing was hunting hearing everything Kiran said. It shouldn't be like this. They shouldn't be like this. Chandana didn't know how to react, but she ended up shaking her head slowly, "I'm sorry for not being aware of everything, Kiran. Forgive me for this is not all that simple," Chandana spoke in a quivering voice.

Kiran was still looking at Chandana, not wanting to turn away from her in the least, "You're afraid of men right? You can't get close to men?"

Chandana is shocked to hear Kiran's words. Although it was true, Chandana wondered how Kiran knew. Has Kiran been aware of it all this time?

"You're right, Kiran. There is a reason why I always feel scared and panicked whenever I am around men. But you should know that I don't feel that way about you. I don't know why, but when I'm around you I feel safe, I feel comfortable. I might scream, cry, or feel uncomfortable if a man touches me, but I don't react as soon as it's near you" Chandana glanced at Kiran, since then he kept his head down while playing his fingers.

"But this is not all that simple as Kiran. We can't be together just because you want to. I will only bring bad things to you, I will only hurt you if you continue to be near me. I'm not as good as Kiran looks, I'm not as beautiful as you might think. I am full of flaws, I am full of problems. You won't understand" Chandana got up from her seat, she stood with both legs shaking. His tears are flowing more and more.

Kiran was silent for a moment, a few seconds later she stood up, trying to chase after Chandana who had walked several meters away.

"Indeed what is more painful than the grim life I have lived all this time, Chandana? Any form of pain is meaningless to me. You made me be myself, Chandana. You make me feel happy just by seeing you smile. You're the reason I no longer feel bad. There's nothing better I can hope for than you, than to be with you!" Kiran exclaimed with a quivering voice, she walked beside Chandana who was still stepping fast while muffling the sob with her palms.

"I can't, Kiran. Please understand. I'll just hurt you more!" Chandana was still walking fast as Kiran grabbed her arm, grasping it tightly to the point where Chandana came to a halt.

"Chandana, how do you know? How do you think like that when in reality we are both not going to know what will happen in the future. What I understand and understand is the fact that for now I and you need each other, want each other. No matter what happens in the future, let it happen, I want to face everything with you, by holding your hand, so that I feel calm because at least I am not alone. You're not alone" Kiran shed a tear in the middle of her sentence. He loosened his grip slightly when he realized he was holding Chandana's arm too tightly.

Chandana was still sobbing, she was speechless.

"Don't you feel the same, Chandana? Don't you want to be with me as I want to be with you?" Kiran let go of her grip and looked at Chandana fixedly with her two wet manics when she found the girl looking up.

Chandana threw away her face, still sobbing, "What difference do I want to make or not? In the end I will still hurt you if we are together, Kiran. Please don't be like this" Chandana looked at Kiran. Highlighting his eyes looking clear, he was at a loss as to how to tell Kiran. There were too many things about her that Kiran had yet to understand. Too many.

Kiran was bowed in lethargy, is it that hard Chandana believed her?

"good. I don't want to force you. But I don't know what to do with all these feelings. I was confused as to what now-"Kiran was still circulating his gaze in all directions to try to think as his words came to a halt as Chandana pulled up her sleeves.

"I believe in you, but I can't believe in myself" Chandana said softly, almost like a whisper.

Kiran clenched her lips and grabbed Chandana gently and hugged her feelingly. Kiran drowned her face in Chandana's delicate and fragrant hair, while Chandana cried in Kiran's chest that was fielded.

"I will be there for you, I will be there. Even if it's not my body, let my heart be with you, Chandana," Kiran gently brushed Chandana's hair as the girl in her arms returned her arms.

It felt like the world was collapsing under Kiran's feet, she had never been this happy and happy in her entire life. In the end he could tell everything, he could make Chandana believe in their existence.

Under the moonlight that night, the two hugged each other for a few minutes. Pouring out all the longing feelings that they had been resistant to. Kiran embraced Chandana sincerely and with all her feelings. Inwardly, he wanted time to stop right then and there. He wants to stay in this position for a long time, forever.

Inwardly, Kiran promised herself that she would do her best. He will do all he can to make himself and the girl in his arms happy.

Back then, unaware of how great the danger would be to them in the future, Chandana and Kiran put all the worries aside. They're together now, and they're grateful for that. Let the future remain a secret. Now there is no more panic and anxiety because there is no greater fear than losing each other.

After being satisfied with each other, Kiran slowly took off her embrace. He looked at Chandana's face, they laughed at each other after seeing how messed up each other's faces were due to crying too much.

"Can I hold your hand?" Kiran asked doubtfully. His ears are red and hot.

Chandana nodded then linked her tiny, flickering fingers with Kiran's. They walked together to return to the villa. And of course by throwing each other shy smiles and reddened faces. They walked side by side without being able to dampen each other's chest pounding as fast as a lion was targeting its prey.

Still watching Kiran and Chandana drift away, the figure revealed a smile that no one could understand. A mysterious smile filled with meaning and plan.

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Roka rubbed her hair with a towel while facing each other with Bagas. Both of them had expressions of wonder and confusion. Even Roka's famous nose is now seen kempis kembis not because.

"Why is that a boy?" Bagas stood up to line Roka's fingers, his eyes looking at Kiran who was now wrapped in a blanket while smiling.

Roka slicked her shoulders and threw her towel at Kiran, "Are you crazy now?"

Kiran grabbed Roka's towel, hugged her tightly while still developing a smile on her lips, "Thank you both are top markotop!" Kiran rushed towards Roka and Bagas, hugging the two simultaneously.

Roka increasingly did not understand, he released Kiran's embrace and then cupped her friend's face with two hands, "Lo why? Yes, now your form of depression is not moody anymore even so jablay gini?" Roka flipped through Kiran's face, trying to resuscitate her.

"Gue equals Chandana.. aww!" Kiran threw away her face while covering her face.

Kiran still could not move on from the happiness that had enveloped her heart since last night. He could not even sleep peacefully because he continued to imagine the romantic scene that occurred last night. He also repeatedly scanned his arms, then hugged the air before him as if it was Chandana. He doesn't mind being called crazy because that's what it is. He was crazy about happiness.

Roka almost choked on her own saliva hearing Kiran's words and reaction, what the fuck this friend of hers, "My equal is me! What is Chandana abis? Why are you so rich in this uget-uget anyway? Lo diapain!"

Bagas who had witnessed this rare scene did not stop laughing. All his life this time he saw Kiran acting like a drunk, yes, drunken romance. But Bagas was relieved because Kiran finally understood and realized her mistake all along because she was too distrustful of herself, did not trust the people around her.

"Gue is with Chandana now! You guess not? Didn't expect it, did you? I'm not really too!" Truth be told Kiran could have acted normally and controlled herself as usual, but this time she wanted to share her happiness with Bagas and Roka because these two people had helped her a lot.

Roka widened to hear Kiran's words, she jumped up in excitement while hugging Kiran from behind. His reaction was even more frenzied than Kiran herself.

"Lo yaaa finally! Gilak gilak! How can I tell a story? Wow you should treat me as much as you can just watch out! I'm finally crazy!" Roka flanked Kiran's head on her armpits, then rubbed her hair into a mess.

Roka couldn't feel happier than this. Now he was finally able to do a bit of useful things for Kiran. Now finally he no longer needs to see Kiran grieving and moping. No need to see his best friend was tormented because he always acted indifferently which is very contrary to his conscience.

Seeing the chaos that occurred, Bagas did not stay silent. He jumps towards Kiran and Roka, embracing Kiran's success or perhaps more precisely their success.

Now Kiran realized that relying on others is very important and useful. He may be able to solve everything on his own, but when together, everything becomes lighter and more fun.

While Roka, Bagas, and Kiran did not come to the bottom of their luggage to gather in the field and return home, Chandana and Naya were busy tidying up their belongings.

Last night, Chandana told Naya everything. He had told her what happened to him and Kiran by the time they left the night of the bonfire yesterday. Although initially hesitant to tell a story, Chandana finally wants to tell the truth because Naya continues to urge him. Naya could not bear to see the joyous expression and glowing eyes Chandana showed last night upon her return to the room.

Though if remembered again, Chandana was very moody all day and cried a lot. His eyes were swollen and his shoulder face did not show any expression all day. But suddenly Chandana returned to the room with a face full of happiness. How could Naya not notice? Of course he'll know. Of course Naya will be happy with Chandana for everyone.

Even so, the worry in Naya's heart was still not completely gone. Naya knows that Kiran is a kind and understanding man. But Naya still worried about how Kiran's reaction and opinion if she knows all Chandana experienced so far. Naya fears Kiran is unable to do so and leaves Chandana. Naya couldn't even imagine it.

Life is always full of mysteries unknown to man. Or, perhaps, not yet known to man.

If two people who like each other are given a choice, choosing together to knit love but hurt each other which will even lead to each other leaving or choosing not to be together and forgetting each other, which is better? Which will give you satisfactory results? No one knows. Because life is a choice, and choice is a belief. And really, with conviction, you will have no regrets. You won't look back again, imagine what I would have been if I had chosen A or what I would have been if I had chosen B.

- The end of interval 1-

To be continuous to interval 2...