Romance Love Kanaya

Is This Really Love?

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This was where Dirga as well as Kanaya were, in the room of the two of them. In the warmth of the morning sun but the opposite influence in both of them are shivering because of the turmoil of the taste of both.

Disappointed, sad but there is a vibe of love that is in the middle of it and feels hiding behind a more domineering sense.

Disappointment fights with regret. The two sat side by side but with their faces down and not looking at each other.

The atmosphere changed instantly, from a blissful peace now to gripping with a restlessness.

"What if I leave?" the closeness that originally used the word I has now turned into the word Me from the mouth of Kanaya. Was it so much of Kanaya's disappointment? so quickly changed Kanaya's heart that she could not really forgive Dirga's mistakes?

"Are you really going to be sincere and willing to take responsibility for everything that has happened?"

Kanaya's speech became so formal as well so cold. This is how Kanaya was before getting the dirga dahabba, is it true that everything has worn off and there is not the slightest left?

Is it true that there is no longer a little taste in Kanaya's heart and only a bad Dirga only visible in her eyes? is all the goodness and sincerity Dirga so far that he did not seem even a little?

Dirga just resigned, maybe this is what he should accept. The hatred of Kanaya and soon she may be left behind. But, at least he was relieved, all had fallen in his heart, the obligation to say honesty also admitting mistakes or apologizing he had done.

Finally, only Kanaya can decide and Dirga will be sincere even though what he can will be very painful.

"Are you really going to bring back my smile, my happiness?" Kanaya is back. One word did not come out of his mouth.

Dirga's mouth was like a mute and could not speak. His throat felt very dry also felt choked by the situation.

Dirga's breathing, clearly irregular and his chest rising and falling as if it were not in rhythm. Is this pain when it comes to honesty?

But, if you ignore honesty will forever also be happy? will there be no suffering until later? Nah! grief will be greater because regret and guilt will always haunt you.

"A_i'm sincere. If you'd rather go I'm sincere. It's your way of life and I'll take responsibility for everything I've broken."

Little Dirga glanced towards Kanaya looking at her woman with who still continued to cry uneasily.

"Are you not going to hold back?"

"No, what am I holding him back for. Just because of my love I sacrificed your happiness. You deserve to be happy with anyone, Nay. And I'll be sincere even if it's not with me."

So sure did Dirga say but not with the state of his heart that was so sick. His heart was much worse, his wounds were imprecise but the pain was excruciating.

Who would not be sick if they let go of a loved one. Letting go of all the good dreams and being forced to bury them deeply.

"In life, we can indeed expect something, we can dream something but it all depends on fate as well as fate that has become His provision."

"Maybe, you can only be my hope, my dream, and the sweet memories of my life. I'm sincere, as long as you're happy with whoever you love."

"I don't want to be selfish by keeping you with me. I don't want to keep making grief in your heart."

"I'm sorry for your happiness, love and the beautiful dreams I've taken from you."

"Are you really not going to hold me back?" once again Kanaya asserted.

"If I follow my ego and my love, I will hold you back. I'm going to imprison you forever and I won't give you a chance to get out."

"But in a bond not only ego but also one-sided love is needed. I want a bond that can give each other love and can build a strong bond together without being won by the ego of one of them. I want love, Nay. Not ego."

"Now there's only love in my heart, Nay. I don't want to be controlled by my ego. If you do choose to leave me, I'm sincere, I will try to be happy and accept with whoever you are going to be."

"But if you choose to survive. I will try to make you happy. I will never demand that you give your love, because I know it will not be easy for you to give it. But at least, put a little bit of my name in your heart."

Dirga was silent again, while Kanaya? he turned his head towards Dirga asking for the authenticity of all the words from the look in his eyes.

Grief is also true regret seen by Kanaya.

'Why does my heart feel this sick seeing him like this? what's wrong with me?' inner Kanaya.

Why, as if Dirga's suffering became his suffering as well. All the feelings Dirga felt why felt divided in him.

Is it really because of love?

Is it true that there is nothing left after all that has come because the mahabbah is gone. Does that mean there is love coming from the Owner of Love?

'Am I starting to love him?' inward Kanaya again.

Kanaya's heart is still at war distinguishing it really is love or just a taste that is present because of pity.

"I'll help you pack. After that I'll take you wherever you go." Not without reason Dirga said that. But Dirga concluded it was because of Kanaya's silence.

It was not Dirga's intention to expel Kanaya quickly from her home. But isn't faster better?

"I'll take you to the one who really loves you and the one you love. Yuan, he must have been waiting for you."

It was not easy for Dirga to say that even she had stood up and hid her suffering that kept coming out along with tears.

He was determined to hand Kanaya over to Yuan.

Kanaya stood up, she walked up and stood in front of Dirga. See clearly his pain.

"Why, is it true that you don't love Aya? Would you let go of Aya after she took everything from Aya?"

"There's nothing left, man. Everything was taken from Aya. Smiles, happiness, the future, dreams, honor all taken. Then you want to just throw Aya away?"

"Where is your love, my dear! where's all your promises?" kanaya's eyes are so full of courage. Looking at Dirga without fear.

"Are you going to throw Aya away after everything you took?"

Kanaya grabbed Dirga's shirt, she looked so emotional at the moment. How could Dirga be releasing herself after she had already taken all of it from him. "Say, Mum! say it!"

"Where is your heart, Mommy. Where!" Kanaya gets stronger even she also pulls Dirga's clothes so shabby.

Both of them cried the room like a flood of tears. The room bears witness to the first debate between the two of them.

"What if Aya says that Aya's love has also been taken, will mas still release Aya?" aya's crying was getting broken.

Dirga's eyes rounded along with the tears that kept coming out.

"You've taken everything, Mas. Even my love you've taken away how Aya can go."

Kanaya's face crumbled on Dirga's chest above her hand that was still clutching Dirga's clothes. The crying broke even more and the sound was also very loud.

Between believe and not, did Dirga really make Kanaya love him? is love really there for him?

Dirga sniffled but she was still fixated in confusion and disbelief.

"You're bad, Mas. You are evil" Kanaya said on the sidelines of her cries.

It made Dirga realized, his hands were so brave to lift up holding the wife who shed tears on her chest.

"I'm sorry, Nay. Sorry," he said.

"Now I'm going to get in your way if you want to go" he said tighter. Both of them kept crying.

Dirga's taste was so mixed, he couldn't believe that he could make Kanaya love him so quickly. She can't believe that she finally got Kanaya's love, but now she's avenged. What kind of happiness did he expect that was greater than this.

Kanaya had chosen him, and chose to stay and put aside all his mistakes.

"Don't let me go" Kanaya still sniffled.

"No, I won't let you go" on Kanaya's face, wiped all her tears dry but still wet again because Kanaya was still crying.

Canaya could not bear to cry again hugging Dirga very tightly. He doesn't want to let go.

'I don't know when I started loving you, Mom. But I want to be with you always. I miss you when you're far away, and I want to be with you always. I was also sick when you were grieving. It's really love, isn't it?' inner Kanaya.

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