
'Why should this be the way. Why should this be the fate that You gave to the servant. Strengthen me, expand my chest to receive all this. And don't let me hurt her again.'
#Dirga Gantara
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So sorry Dirga now. Even though he had arrived at his home in Semarang Kanaya had not been aware of himself. Even the personal doctor who is actually Dirga's best friend has also done various ways.
Maybe it happened because Kanaya was too depressed and too weak to make him unconscious quickly.
"Ga, in five minutes he doesn't wake up we have to take him to the hospital. We can't ignore this. It's actually fatal, Ga. If anything happens to him not only you but I will also be punished," said Savira doctor and friend of Dirga since childhood.
"You're crazy, Vir! If we take him to the hospital it means we're also turning ourselves in to the police station!" Dirga Seru.
"But it's been so bad, Ga! Do you want him to do anything! You're crazy, Ga! You are imposing your will to make him your whole possession cruelly! You not only forced her but you also tortured her! What happened to you, Ga. Whaaat! I know you from childhood, you've never been this bad to anyone else, even yelling you've never been, but this? She's your wife, Ga. Wife!" Savira said at length.
"I don't know what I've done to her either, Vir. At first I wouldn't torture him like this. I will keep asking her gently and lovingly. I want me too she's equally ridho. But when he refused and I slapped him my passion was mounting, I liked it more and more when I did it with him who was getting in pain."
Dirga's outpouring of heart that he himself is not sure why.
"I'm more satisfied and excited when he's in pain, Vir. Now tell me, what happened to me Vir. Say it!" So confused with himself.
In his face Dirga very closely. Vira can confirm what is happening to Dirga at the moment.
"You have to do the treatment, Ga. You can't ignore this. If you ignore it you will continue to torture your wife when you want her to. It should be treated soon, Ga." Savira.
"What do you mean, Vir. I'm that sick?" Dirga's eyes poked towards Savira.
"This is a disorder, Ga. You will never be able to do it in a gentle way. The more he is in pain, the greater your passion. So you won't be able to do it either if he's in good shape." Bright Savira.
"Astaghfirullah azim thing," Dirga sat down limp. Why could this happen to him. She loves Kanaya so much, she wants to make Kanaya happy. But if this is not possible Kanaya can be happy with him. Because Dirga would always hurt him.
"Tell me what I can do to recover from this, Vir. I don't want to keep hurting him, I don't want to lose him" Dirga was so resigned to Savira, hoping that his best friend had a way to make him heal like a normal man in general.
"You'll be healed, Ga. Sure. Trust me. Now that I'm out first, if there's anything quick call me," Savira rushes off. Leaving Dirga who was slumped in the room by continuing to look at Kanaya who was lying on the bed.
Slowly Dirga stood up, stepping over to Kanaya in a limp with the pain in her heart. Not sick from his jealousy but sick from the harsh reality that happened to him, to make the people he loved suffer.
Dirga collapsed sitting limply next to Kanaya, she cried in front of Kanaya who was still unconscious.
"I'm sorry, Nay. I'm sorry," Kanaya's hand, pecked repeatedly and occasionally on her cheek.
How not to hurt that much. This is the first time she loves a woman, obviously it is also her first love. She wanted to have it so much but after she had it she hurt her instead.
Why does fate torment her so much. Who is tormented in this journey of his newly started household, Kanaya or himself? Both will be equally tormented.
"Wake up dear Naya. Don't scare me and feel more guilty" said Dirga, whose other hand had gently caressed Kanaya's cheek. Cheeks that had several bruises due to his slap.
"Astaghfirullah azim thing.., I'm sorry Nay," The more heart slashed Dirga when she saw Kanaya's face now. If his body was opened it must have been even worse because there were also so many wounds from the sabetage of his clasp.
"Hemm," Kanaya's voice sounded. But his eyes were not open. His body was shivering but feeling hot. Kanaya fever.
"Astaghfirullah azim things, Nay. You fever! Nay, Nay," Dirga stroked Kanaya's cheek in a panic Kanaya's body was getting hotter now.
Dirga runs out intending to call Savira who is waiting outside.
"Savira! Viras!" Shouted Dirga loudly. He's very panicked right now. He again ran in and came over to Kanaya who continued to shiver also continued to make a sound.
"What's up, Ga!" Savira panicked. He immediately ran after getting a call from Dirga.
"Naya fever, Vir! Her body was hot, "Dirga was so panicked.
Savira moved immediately, took the medicine and then he injected it through the infusion. He also directly checked the deteriorating state of Kanaya.
"Ga, we need to get Naya to the hospital" Savira said.
Dirga's eyes immediately glared. He was so afraid that Kanaya would be taken to the hospital and everything would be revealed. His image will be destroyed and he will be very embarrassed to be found to have unusual abnormalities.
"No, Vir. I don't want to do that. I'm sure you can save him without going to the hospital. I beg you, Vir. I beg you, "As soon as Dirga begged Savira. He's afraid of everything. If Kanaya goes to the hospital for what she did, what will her parents do.
Obviously, both of his parents would be very disappointed they would also definitely be very angry. That enormous anger he couldn't bear. He was too afraid that his deformity was also known to his parents.
"But, Ga!"
"I beg Vir. You can definitely cure him. I_I will also continue to wake up for him. I will continue to take care of him as well. Please, don't let everything sound outside including what happened to me. Also don't you ever tell both my parents or Kanaya herself, I beg you."
Unheartened Savira, she never saw Dirga so begging like this to herself let alone to others?
"alright. I will do my best" replied Savira who finally granted Dirga's request.
"Thank you, Vir. Thank you," said Dirga.
'O Allah, why do You test Dirga so hard. Strengthen him O Allah, and quickly lift up what makes him suffer like this. Let her be happy with Kanaya, her chosen woman, ' Savira's inner being feels sad.
Savira fell silent, she felt guilty because she also deduced whatever circumstances had happened to Dirga. He shouldn't have told her that straight away. It must go through the examination first. But what Dirga experienced, Savira knew very well. That it is an abnormality of a man in conjugal relations.
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