Romance Love Kanaya

Equally Injured

'It's a bloodless wound but it's so painful, that's what you give it. But I can't blame you either. It's not purely your fault, it's my destiny, you and him. Let everything happen according to fate, even though my destiny cannot have you, but my love's destiny is with you.'

#Yuan Prayoga

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Guitar passages accompanied Yuan who was sitting alone in the middle of the darkness of the night. Lamenting his sadness that felt so heartbreaking.

Be ill. Yeah! his heart aches for a fate that is not in line with what he wants. She lost her daughter who now belonged to someone else.

Pretending to be happy in front of everyone, Pretending to be tough even though his heart actually cannot be that strong.

'When you sleep oh eyes, remember what is gone

Close, close until your eyes are asleep

Try to remember the shadow_nya

Just torturing....'

Can not be his heart even though trying hard. The night wind was hurting him even more. Why is it so sick? to close my eyes it feels impossible.

Honestly, it was already so deep in Yuan's feelings. It was also a big dream that he had knitted in his daily life to establish a future with Kanaya. But, he's late. He lost quickly to Dirga.

He thought, all togetherness all forms of affection that he did every time was enough but it turned out to be wrong. Love is not only by behavior, but also by proof by words.

'Please let go, longing in the chest

Because I really don't want to get hurt anymore...'

The more the night, the more Yuan dissolved in a rhythm filled with wounds. Not caring about everyone who has had a night break because Yuan believes the sound of his guitar will not be too heard.

Plukkkp...

"Patience, Bro. Rest assured, this is the best path."

Instantly Yuan stopped the guitar passages and turned his head. He saw one of the roommates who came and sat down next to him.

"I just don't think, Surya. All those years we were together, all those years I've been trying to look after and make her happy, and it turns out? everything I did was in vain," Yuan turned his eyes back.

"There's nothing in vain, Yuan. There must be some wisdom we don't know."

"Just be sincere, Bro. That's all you can do. Sickness and soul mate will never be changed. If he is your soul mate one day he will come back. But I hope, you can reduce a little or maybe eliminate that desire. I just don't want you to get ruined because you can't forget." said Surya.

"Hem," Yuan nodded, forcing himself to smile before his best friend even though his lips were very faint.

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Although sad and in regret, Yuan's life must still go on. Although he cannot forget Kanaya and there is still hope but other dreams can not be ignored.

Yuan has to keep fighting for the better. The ideals that Kanaya had previously wanted also made Yuan more spirited. Yuan has to prove that he can be successful and he will be proud when they meet someday.

There was no dream too grandiose of Yuan now, he just wanted Kanaya to be happy and away from all the dangers and all the troubles that would make her cry. Realizing, Yuan could no longer comfort Kanaya like he used to.

"May your husband be really kind and be able to make you happy, Aya." she hoped. His feet slowly stepped out of his house in the early morning after dawn.

Yuan had to leave early in the morning to Jogja. His dream was waiting for him there.

The motor was on and at that time his parents came out to deliver the departure of his son in studying.

"Be careful yo, son. Don't speed around to make it to the destination" said his mother Yuan.

"Yes, Mommy." replied Yuan.

"Remember,Son. Learn the right thing." said his father.

"Yes, sir," Yuan greeted his parents and rushed to Jogja on his bike.

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Kanaya slowly calmed down. Not as scared as yesterday.

From yesterday Dirga was also invisible. He didn't come to Kanaya when he woke up, but not last night when Kanaya was sleeping. Himself coming.

"Aww!" kanaya shrieked as she wanted to get up and feel pain all over her body.

"Day!" the door opened and Savira ran after hearing Kanaya's scream just now.

In order to ensure that Kanaya Savira did not return home, she stayed there at Dirga's request.

"What's wrong, is anyone sick?" Savira immediately sat down in front of Kanaya who was already seated. Sick? It was clear Kanaya felt pain due to all her injuries.

"Hem," Kanaya nodded, "uh! I want to do something!" kanaya shouted as Savira was about to see her wound.

"Just want to see the wound, Nay" he replied.

"Oh," Kanaya finally found out and then she let Savira see the wound.

Savira's eyes were so sharp that he saw all the wounds on Kanaya. How could Dirga do all that.

Slowly Savira applied the ointment and Kanaya appeared to grimace. Maybe it feels very painful.

"M_move, where's Di_he?" kanaya asked with a slightly trembling voice. Clearly, he whom Kanaya was referring to was Dirga who from yesterday was nowhere to be seen.

"Who?" Savira pretends not to know.

"Hem, Tu_tuan Di_Dirga," just said his name as if back in memory. All the treatment was inversely proportional to before the time they were married.

"Did you miss him?" Savira stopped her hand and now stared intensely at Kanaya's face.

"My_sa?" where there might be a longing for the moment, there was only Kanaya feeling in disregard.

"Sir, a_does he really like my sa_?"

"Why do you ask like that, do you doubt his love?"

"Ka_if he loves ti_can't he hurt me right, Ma'am?"

Savira remained silent. It is true that there can be no one who loves but can hurt like what Dirga did to Kanaya.

What if Kanaya finds out if she'll still think that Dirga doesn't love her? Even in every breath of Dirga now there is only Kanaya how could she not love.

Savira knew it well, though Dirga did not say it but she could see that even in her eyes there was Kanaya there.

Not only that, in sleep Dirga also can not forget Kanaya all there is only Kanaya and Kanaya.

"What does your heart say? does your heart tell you that it hates you, or does it love you? don't be too quick to conclude with what he's done to you, find out first what the truth is that made him do it."

"As long as I've known him, he's never hurt anyone else. Not even talking rudely. I'm sure, there's a reason behind his treatment being like that."

Kanaya fell silent, digesting all the words from Savira.

'Did he do it because I made a mistake yesterday? was he angry because of what happened in Wak's garden yesterday?' kanaya thought.

If what Kanaya thinks is right, she is the source of Dirga's anger.

"Do you want to meet him?"

As Kanaya turned her head, she shook her head in doubt as she felt she was not ready. The shadow still scares him.

"I know it's not easy to forgive someone who has hurt. But at least think of his heart. Maybe she's just as tormented as you feel."

Why didn't Savira tell me what happened to Dirga. Why should with a puzzle that makes Kanaya even more confused.

Could Savira have made a pact with Dirga?

While on the side of the wall in a different room, Dirga was sad while listening to the conversation of the two. Still clad in white cocoa clothes as well as a black sheath he stood up and stuck his ears on the wall.

He again sat on a green prayer mat depicting Mecca with his hands still hugging the Qur'an which he had read after dawn.

"I'm sorry, Nay. I've hurt you so much. I'm sincere if you hate me, maybe I deserve it," falls again water of regret Dirga.

"How long do you ask for the time I will give, I will wait until you ask to see me. I'm sorry, Nay. Sorry."

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Seriate....