Romance Love Kanaya

Hani's Regret

'Maybe I don't deserve it. Not worthy of happiness, nor worthy of standing with all of you. I'm evil, I'm evil because I can't do anything you want. I'm sorry if it's still forgivable.'

#Kanaya Setya Ningrum

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News of Kanaya receiving Dirga reached Hani's ears. She was so in disbelief, how could Kanaya take it for granted.

It's nothing, but Kanaya always asks for her opinion first before accepting all the decisions, but now?

"You have to give me a very clear statement, Ayy. I need to know what makes you accept it. Though a moment ago you were so sure of rejecting him because you were waiting for Brother Yuan," muttered Hani who was sitting alone in his house.

Hani was silent for a moment, imagining how Yuan's heart would feel if he knew what Kanaya's current decision was to marry someone else.

"Ayya, did you not think at all about Kak Yuan's feelings?" muttered Hani again who felt frustrated himself.

"Assalamu'alaikum, Han!" kanaya. The person who was being talked about by Hani came alone apparently without being called.

"Long live" Hani murmured as he stood up to Kanaya, "Wa'alaikumsalam," so uninspired Hani replied after arriving in front of Kanaya she turned the direction and just sat on the chair so indifferently to Kanaya.

Of course, what is Hani's current behavior raises a big question to Kanaya. Why is his best friend so self-abandoned as he is now?

"Han, what the hell are you doing?" Kanaya follows sitting on the chair with Hani. Staring fixed his friend who was silent also turned his face lazily.

Hani did not answer, he still quietly did not respond.

"Hani, what the hell are you doing?" now Kanaya moved to sit next to Hani. Staring with the face of his best friend who still continues to ignore him.

"Han, are you mad at me?" the question came from Kanaya. How not! usually Hani was so excited at his arrival and now? even he only answered the greetings and then did not touch him anymore.

"Hani, don't be like this. If there is a problem we can solve it together. If I have anything wrong, just say it. I'm sorry too. But don't cuddle me like this. Not good, Han?" so begged Kanaya to Hani. Please explain what was his mistake.

It's true, it's silent it doesn't taste good at all. Especially by friends who are always together. Friends smile, laugh, sad also friends tears.

It was seen Hani sighing deeply then sitting facing Kanaya. Both of Hani's hands were raised and directly on Kanaya's shoulders.

"You still think I'm a friend, don't you, Aya?" obviously Kanaya nodded and looked at Hani seriously, "then explain to me, why did you accept that master Dirga's proposal. You didn't tell me, Ay! I heard the news from someone else's mouth. I doubt it, actually you really think of me as a friend no really!?" Hani again dropped both his hands and turned his face very annoyed.

Indeed, they have no brotherly ties but their bonds of friendship did not exceed that of yesterday. But what is this now? Even Kanaya hid everything from Hani obviously Hani looks very upset and angry.

Kanaya. Actually he came at this time to tell all to Hani, but his best friend was already upset.

"I'm sorry I was late for telling you, Han. But it's not like that. I deeply acknowledge you as a friend, even I acknowledge you as a brother myself. But..?"

"But what, Ayy?" Hani just looked around for a while and then turned around again.

"It seems like you really want to get married? Why don't you think about the feelings of those who love you, for example Brother Yuan."

Kanaya's heart beats as Hani pronounces Kak Yuan's name before her. His heart was painful but not bleeding. It hurts, but Kanaya doesn't know what it's about. It was likely all because of the influence of what Dirga did to him.

Kanaya seems to not care about the others, all she cares about for now is that she will marry Dirga in the near future.

"Ayya, don't you think that you who received lord Dirga will make Brother Yuan hurt. Where was my Kanaya yesterday, Ayya. Where!?" many times Hani turned his head while talking but always returned again turning his face again and again.

Kanaya silently looked down. His chest felt tight, even tears had also flowed just like that. But he didn't know why or why, nor could he explain anything.

"At least you think of Brother Yuan before accepting it. You tell her you want to be a bride. I'm sure Brother Yuan will definitely try to tell his parents and propose to you soon. But what now, Ayya? you didn't even think about that at all, did you? You have the same heart, Brother Yuan, Ayya."

"Or do you accept lord Dirga because he is richer than brother Yuan? and you feel secure in everything if you accept it?"

"What's this, Ayy? why did you become like this?"

The more hurt Kanaya is. She continued to cry with her head down and continued to hear all the words Hani had said.

"Sister Yuan's struggle is so great for you, Ayy. He always tries to make you happy, always tries to be by your side and when you need to. But what now is your reply, even you will leave him to go with someone else. You have heart, Ayya."

Increasingly crowded and claustrophobic Kanaya teak. He wanted to refuse but he himself could not do that either. His body was locked to one man, Dirga.

"You have the heart, Ayy," Hani once again stressed without her seeing how devastated Kanaya is now. Not seeing how Kanaya who is like a lost person and does not know the way to go home.

It was not Kanaya's lost body, but her lost heart. Being misled from the path to the heart is actually the goal.

"Don't know what Brother Yuan would feel if he knew all this, Ayy. I feel so sorry for him. But you have so much heart for her, Ayy. You're so hearty."

"You gave her a wish, but now you just drop her heart when that hope has grown there. You're evil, Ayya."

So much Hani talking. Saying whatever he wanted to say without first hearing Kanaya's explanation. But maybe for now Kanaya himself will not be able to explain what is the cause.

"I'm evil, Han. I'm evil, I'm evil..." Kanaya got up from her seat, walked back and away from before Hani. Staring at one place, Hani who is now silent to see it which is so destroyed is also filled with tears.

"I'm bad, Han. I wouldn't deserve to be with good people like you. I'm evil" Kanaya tears, until she finally can no longer look at her best friend's face and runs away. Get out of Hani's house with destruction that no one knows about.

"Yes, Yes!" Hani moved on, now he was aware of his mistake. He shouldn't have said all that.

"Astaghfirullah azim thing, what have I done," Hani rubbed his face rough, he was very sorry. His mouth was too buckety and did not want to hear anything first what his best friend wanted to say.

"Kanaya!" quickly Hani runs, chasing Kanaya who seems to run to the garden. Heading to the garden very close to Yuan's house.

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