Romance Love Kanaya

Love or Ego?

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Kanaya fell silent, sitting limply on the bed. His eyes continued to stare blankly at the door that made Dirga disappear in his swallow.

Her tears kept flowing, obviously she was sad and even very disappointed. Kanaya couldn't believe that Dirga could do such a thing to her. It turned out that his consciousness yesterday-yesterday was only half, even barely conscious.

It is almost impossible to imagine that someone as good as Dirga could do that. Though his religious knowledge is also very much even more than Kanaya. But why is it like that?

Mahabbah like what Dirga did, how the law in religion, Dirga must also know that right?

"Why do you have to be with Aya?" he murmured with eyes that did not turn away.

It hurts, Kanaya's heart is obviously hurting.

Her spirit was gone this morning. His intention to pray Sunnah now his intention is ignored. His heart was completely muddled due to Dirga's confession.

He thought Dirga's fault was in him for doing things that coincided with his deformity, but it turned out that it was because of the mahabbah he did to him.

Now should Kanaya be grateful or sad?

Is it true that the sense that has come and its comfort lately is the effect of the mahabbah?

Kanaya's heart continued to fight. Is it true that the effect will disappear when Dirga has said it and apologized sincerely to him?

Kanaya was still searching for a taste in her heart. Distinguish which one is going now or which one is coming.

Whether anyone survives or all goes with Dirga's departure from the room.

There is no flaw in the affection that Dirga has given her now. All are absolutely sincere and do not seem to want a return.

Kanaya is so confused, is it really a form of sincerity from Dirga or just to cover up all his actions?

It was difficult for Kanaya to discern which one was the truth or which one was only a guise. Perhaps because Kanaya's heart was still full of mist of disappointment so it was very difficult to discern.

"What should I do?" Kanaya was getting sobbed in tears. He was confused as to what to do and the decisions he had to make.

Does Kanaya really have to survive? Accepting all of Dirga's shortcomings and forgiving all that he had done despite his heart being so hurt and disappointed.

Or he had to leave, bury everything that had happened after this moment and assume this was just a nightmare. But what about going forward? Is it possible that someone will still accept it?

A widow who leaves her husband? In society, many people may view it negatively.

Kanaya slowly got off the bed, walked to the bathroom to pick up ablution.

It is not the sunnah prayer that Kanaya is doing today, but the dawn prayer.

In disillusionment Kanaya can only leave everything to the Creator. Give up all her troubles and surrender to her. That's the best way for him now.

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There is no love that has no ego. People say love doesn't have to be. But what good is love not to have? Because the feeling of love is the feeling that is present when you want to have it all.

But it turns out, sincerity is the highest peak in the nature of romance. A sincere feeling of letting go, sincerely accepting shortcomings and sincere when in love happy with others. But, it seems easy to say but hard to do.

"Look, Ga. Even the moon this morning laughed at you. Laughing at you so selfish."

Dirga sat alone in the back garden, staring at the moon that might be almost hiding as time would change.

The moon that was shining brightly dim as if it was really laughing at him.

Although there is fear but his heart is relieved and now lives how he learned to be sincere and make love is not selfish love.

Event after incident awakened Dirga, maturing until now he can successfully say everything he did.

Now Dirga just silent, aloof in the dark even the lights he turned off. Trying to get nobody to see it now. Not even for Kanaya.

Although it had been there for a long time and the dawn of the morning had reverberated Dirga was still very reluctant and hesitant to return to the room. Dirga was still afraid that Kanaya was still in disappointment or maybe she would be angry with him.

Because the Azaan has been reverberating Dirga still moving, he usually prayed at dawn with Kanaya this time he decided to congregate in the mosque. Dirga just wants to give time to Kanaya. Maybe the time is not right to meet now.

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Kanaya still prepares breakfast for Dirga. He did it all with all his heart.

Muna who had just arrived felt very curious. Kanaya kept silent even when Kanaya arrived as if she did not know. Not only that, but the greeting is not in the message.

"Mbak Naya why?" Muna was very surprised.

Muna approached and what she saw surprised her. Even the dreamy Kanaya did not feel that the knife she used to cut the garlic had hit her own hand.

"Astaghfirullah things 'Pty, Ma'am!" Muna quickly pulled Kanaya's hand and took the knife and kept her away.

New Kanaya is shocked when Muna who suddenly pulls her. It was only seen that there was blood dripping in the middle of the onion cut there.

"What happened, Ma'am. Astaghfirullah azim." Muna pulled Kanaya to wash her fingers in the dishwasher.

"What's up, Muna?" So hasty Dirga came after hearing the screeches Muna just now. Dirga who had just returned from the mosque immediately approached because he was very curious to know what happened.

"Astaghfirullah, Muna please get me some medicine!" pinta Dirga who immediately approached Kanaya and pulled her hand from Muna's hand.

"Good, Mas!" Kanaya ran away.

"Astaghfirullah, Nay. Why did it get like this?" Dirga was so panicked he also directly grabbed a tissue to clean up Kanaya's blood that continued to flow.

Kanaya kept silent, there was no desire to answer yet but her eyes kept staring at Dirga, looking for something she might be able to get.

What is Kanaya looking for?

The love and sincerity that Kanaya wants to seek and see from Dirga. Is it true that Dirga loves him sincerely or is just an obsession.

Kanaya continued to follow where Dirga took her like a buffalo in the nose of Kanaya continued to follow where Dirga pulled her.

Until arriving in the living room and Dirga asked Kanaya to sit down.

"Mas, here's the cure," Muna again her breath sounded a little dull.

"Thank you, Muna," grabbed her medicine box by Dirga and quickly she took whatever she needed.

Slowly but surely Dirga treated Kanaya's wounds. True worry was clearly visible on Dirga's face.

Muna thought that both of them were in trouble choosing to leave. She did not want to hear and know about their problem because it was their household problem.

"Mas, let Muna alone cook her," Muna went from there.

"Hem," Dirga turned her head for a while and then refocused with Kanaya's hand.

Unblinking and not turning away Kanaya's eyes looked at Dirga. Everything was very clear now in his eyes. Is this really clear? or are there still effects of the great Dirga?

"Well, is love really real?" he asked and managed to stop the movement of Dirga's hands as well as his attention.

"What is the purpose of marrying Aya?" ask again.

Kanaya's tears flowed slowly and became more and more violent and unbearable.

Dirga thought everything would be fine after he was honest but it turned out that he was wrong, he scratched a very painful wound in Kanaya's heart.

"The way we're wrong, but Mas's love isn't wrong, Nay. Love is real, I love you so much" replied Dirga.

Kanaya moves on, Dirga thinks she will leave him but it turns out that Kanaya instead pulls Dirga's hand and invites him to the room.

It is a family matter not good if anyone hears it though it is Muna, Dirga's own cousin.

Now Dirga who according, did not comment even though Kanaya continues to pull it. Dirga was also silent because she knew what purpose Kanaya had to take her to the room. Everything has to be talked about there.

The more fortunate Dirga is if Kanaya stays with him, Kanaya can always think of kindness, and strive to cover up the family's disgrace, including her disgrace.

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Seriate.....