Romance Love Kanaya

Single-minded

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The slowly dry wound was now re-opened after Dirga's arrival and was even worse after she left.

Why come if only to scratch the wound again and get deeper. Wanting Yuan to scream out loud but he couldn't do that.

He tried hard to heal the wounds, forget all the sweet memories that ever existed and now all those memories seem to keep spinning sweetly in his head.

Why his love could be so big. He knew there was no way he could have it. Why did his feelings for Kanaya could not just leave like the wind that kept blowing and leaving.

His intention to go home and rest now finally Yuan even reached one of the beaches in Jogja.

His wound wanted him to dispose of along with the whirling of the welcoming waves and then let him go all the way.

Not a crowded beach that Yuan was heading to but a very quiet beach because Yuan wanted to hide his pain in the World even though nature could not be lied to.

"Armghhh!" Yuan collapsed to his knees in the sand of the beach. Finally he could shout as loudly as he could and hope that his burden would be reduced or even lost.

Her tears let her flow. If anyone knew, Yuan would be considered the dumbest man by crying over a woman who could not be his.

Both of his hands were raised, rubbing his face violently. He was so frustrated with this situation. Want to regret also can not change everything, time will not be able to be turned back just with regret.

"Why did You let this taste grow and develop when I finally could not have it" Yuan sobbed in tears. He realized he was really stupid now for being too fragile just because of love.

Crying won't change everything anymore. But it could at least reduce the pain in his heart. Is that right, right?

The whirlwind of the beach feels so slashing that it hurts his heart niche until now to just make a sound it feels like it does not have that ability.

Yuan let his heart get even more hurt letting the afternoon breeze on the beach continue to greet and as if to let it fly.

Why should this be the way. His heart seemed to be toyed with and tossed like the beach water in front of him.

"You should be able to, Yuan. This is the path of destiny that you must go through. You must be sincere," he said that came out to make his heart even stronger.

His hands lifted and slowly dried his cheeks from his tears.

"La ilaha illa anta subhanaka inni kuntu minadzolimin," he said with a real respite.

It is wrong if Yuan considers Kanaya to be his, it is wrong if he also considers his love only to Kanaya. Maybe that was his biggest mistake.

Kanaya belongs to the Creator as well as to his love. He cannot patent his love for whom because it is not his right to determine it.

And that's what's now kept going back and forth in Yuan's own imagination. He can't do that, can't control everything no matter what he wants.

He was just a servant who could not determine his own path all of it was out of his control.

Only prayer that he can always pray and ask for the best destiny is the right one.

Strengthen and strengthen it. Strive to be sincere and give all to the Creator. That's the best way.

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Guilt also enveloped Dirga's heart. He knew this time it was his fault. As it turns out, her love for Kanaya is not as great as Yuan's love for Kanaya.

Yuan's love is so sincere, so eternal and not a love filled with obsession.

Love Yuan can be happy if he sees the loved one happy but his love? his love is so selfish because it forces and snatches love from others.

His eyes were empty after the car stopped. He also did not understand why he had become like this. How could he have such a greedy heart that it forced someone to belong to him.

How can he ruin a man's happiness for his own happiness. Will his happiness always be eternal? nay!

"Oh my God, what should I do" he lamented.

Yuan said rightly, he should be honest with Kanaya with what he had done. Actually without getting any advice from Yuan Dirga had already thought of that, but he was waiting for the right time.

'Be honest with Kanaya what you are doing. It will reduce your guilt. After that, let him determine for himself what he wants to do, stay afloat or have gone. But I'm sure, my Kanaya isn't that kind of woman. His heart won't be that hard and will leave you. The principle is too great that I myself will not be able to control it either.'

Yuan's words reverberated in his mind. My kanaya? even Yuan had long since patented Kanaya was his but he had destroyed all of it.

So vile for separating the two people who love each other and also full of dreams that they already want to go through and make it happen.

'You can always have a soul, but you can't have true love inside. I'm sorry if I can't give up that love for you.'

That's right, what Yuan said is very true. He can have a physical soul of Kanaya but not with his true love. Although Kanaya always smiled happily while with her once in a while Dirga still heard Kanaya calling out Yuan's name in her subconscious.

"I promise, Yuan. I'd make her happy all my life if she chose to stay with me. I will give her love until she forgets the pain of the past. I promise I'll make it happy."

"Thank you for being sincere and giving up your responsibility to me to take care of him. I promise, I won't demand his love" he murmured.

But how can. He didn't want that love for him. How could he allow his wife's love to belong to someone else.

"If God gave me destiny. Then I can get his love."

Both are equally good, both want the happiness of Kanaya. But Dirga has more power to it, while Yuan? He can only pray.

I don't know who will really get Kanaya's love later on. Either Yuan Prayoga or maybe Dirga Gantara.

A love that cannot be controlled by the human mind. Only God can decide everything. Who will get his love, who will live with him or maybe who will only dream and always be sincere in his story.

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