Romance Love Kanaya

Explanation of Savira

'We can plan with whom we marry, but we cannot plan with whom we fall in love. So too with me. I can easily make you marry me. But I can't make it easy for you to fall in love with me. Forgive me for forcing you to accept me, and it was my fault.'

#Dirga Gantara

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Dirga's gaze was so full of regret. Sit in the yard looking at the flowers that are starting to be exposed to the heat of the morning sun.

The song of nature seemed to be compared to the state of his heart that was being injured. What a beautiful song. Is nature laughing at him?

Could nature be cheering for the stupidity she has done?

A veil that he had forcibly removed from himself with his canoe was now as if it had come and wrapped around himself to the point of feeling suffocating.

Did Dirga start to be affected and the consequences because of the hidden activities he did with silence? yep! maybe it's true.

"Hurry to heal, Nay. And after that I'll tell you everything. Let me lose you rather than let you survive but with the suffering I'm making" murmured Dirga.

"But, how could I possibly let him go after I took everything from him. Oh my God, what should I do. I realize this is just one-sided love and his one-sided will be hurt because of this relationship."

Dirga again pensively, his heart continued to pray forgiveness to Allah. He was so presumptuous and did whatever he wanted and ignored the destiny of the Creator. Or maybe, it was a fate that had to happen.

"Ga," Savira's arrival surprised her. He quickly turned his head and looked at Savira who was getting closer and then sat down joined in the other chair but was nearby.

"How's he doing, Vir?" ask Dirga.

"Thank God, he's starting to improve. He had just finished cleaning up his breakfast too." replied Savira.

The eyes returned to look away a little blankly, after Dirga's actions became more frequent daydreaming, she felt very guilty about Kanaya.

"Ga, are you sure you won't say what happened to Kanaya? she's your wife, Ga. He deserves to know whatever happens. Kanaya is a good woman, I'm sure she will accept you sincerely and can help you to heal" Savira said.

"Come, Vir. But I'm so scared. I was afraid that Kanaya would stay away if she knew I was abnormal. I'd rather stay away from him than he leave me. I sincerely hate me for the rest of his life than if he could always be close to me" replied Dirga.

"What a difference, Ga. If you can accept each other's flaws why not, Ga."

"I'll think about it."

Dirga was silent again, and so was Savira. His best friend was so sorry if Dirga did what he just said, it's not true, right?

"Vir, what's likely to happen if I don't get treatment?"

Savira is surprised by Dirga's question, does that mean she will just give up?

"The result will be very bad, Ga. Besides you will continue to hurt him, it could be that you will deal with the law if Kanaya will not accept it. Also, if it lasts and is not treated immediately it can also result in brain damage and death, Ga," Savira said.

"Is that bad?" Dirga was so surprised.

If Dirga doesn't want to do Savira's advice on whether he'll be ready for brain damage. What about Kanaya?

"Yes, Ga. Therefore I suggest you should immediately do the treatment and treatment, Ga. I'm sure you'll be cured."

"Actually it wouldn't be too difficult if you could be more open with Kanaya. He's your partner. He will experience everything you do. You can talk to him very carefully and I'm sure he'll help you."

So many words Savira said. Give understanding to Dirga and tell what to do.

While Dirga, he was silent but was so attentive to all his words.

'Can I control all that? even I myself am like a person who is not aware when doing it. Is it because I experienced it first?' inner Dirga.

"Actually, what kind of abnormality, Vir?"

"The disorder is commonly called Sadistic or Sadistic, Ga. a s*x disorder. Which the person will not be satisfied if he does not see his partner injured. He would be even more satisfied if his opponent was injured and in pain. And most of the abnormalities occur in men." explained Savira.

"A sadist or sadist will gain satisfaction through the screams and cries of his partner who suffers from the physical torture he does during intercourse" Savira added.

Quickly, when Kanaya began to scream in pain also continued to groan for forgiveness Dirga even more satisfied and more eager to do it.

"It's just so horrible, Vir."

"Hmm, Ga. A_have you experienced violence before? I mean when you were a kid?"

Dirga fell silent, he thought hard with Savira's question. As he remembered, he had never experienced such things. Both of his parents are so fond of him, even mengewer never because Dirga is also a submissive child to his parents.

"No" answered Dirga confidently.

Then from which side Dirga could have a terrible disorder like this if there was no previous violence. It can be from several other aspects but most people who have the problem are people who experience violence during childhood or adolescence.

"I suggest you go to the doctor immediately. I'm sure there will be a best solution for you. I'm sure you can heal too. Remember all my words, Ga."

"God willing, Vir."

Savira moves on and she wants to see Kanaya again, maybe she needs her.

"The water!" calling Dirga and Savira to stop and turning, "thank you," Savira smiled at him.

"We're best friends, Ga. Even like a brother. Relax, everything will be fine" replied Savira then walked back.

'Said Savira right, all will be well, ' murmured Dirga.

He started getting busy with his phone. Find out the truth about what happened to him. He should know what he should do and what he should not do.

Some articles he managed to find, read one by one and make Dirga really understand what steps he should take.

"I need to be healed. I don't want to hurt Naya let alone leave her alone." muttered Dirga.

He moved, he wanted to come in. And how surprised, when Dirga stood up and turned his body he saw Kanaya standing by looking at him. Until now the eyes of the two met each other in silence.

"Na_Naya."

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Seriate....