Pursuing the Details of His Love Tasbih

Chapter 92 - Should Justice Be Questioned?

"In addition to your injured spine, your spine is also severely injured and that's ... It causes you to not be able to give birth."

Hana was instantly stunned, her mind blank. He held his breath and his heartbeat seemed to stop.

Abi Thohir who saw Hana's reaction felt even more anxious, especially when Hana let go of her hand just like that.

"Hana?" call him so softly. However, Hana seemed to be unable to hear anything.

Hana was so shocked to hear the news, the news that was many times more painful than the previous bad news. Hana's world collapsed instantly, her life history seemed to end just like that.

Abi Thohir was about to hug Hana but the daughter refused, she pushed the father away making Abi Thohir's heart as if torn apart.

"Patience, dear," he whispered softly but Hana seemed to care less. He just threw away his face with reddened eyes, his face was flat and cold. In fact, the tears seemed to freeze as his heart now suddenly felt so cold.

"I am patient in all Your trials, but what great sin have I committed until You have punished me this much, O God?"

Inner Hana cried out in anger, disappointment and sadness. For the first time in his life, he felt that his destiny was so unjust that he could not accept it.

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Sometimes, something hard happens to someone and that person will say, "*I can't accept all this."

"I won't be strong enough to do this*."

"It's not fair, why should I accept this injustice?

He judged himself so badly, but day by day he passed by that fate. Heavy, but he was able to pass through.

It hurts, but he can hold it.

He felt unable, but he was always able to handle it.

Conscious or not, what the Khaliq promises is true that He will not test a Servant beyond his means.

Consciously or not, it is true what is in His Word that He is all-knowing of all things that are unknown to mortal beings.

Consciously or not, what is considered unfair is actually justice that is so deserving of Him.

However, one would not realize it in anger, ignorance or arrogance.

Just as Hana and Meizia experienced, though in different circumstances and times.

In the past, Meizia felt her life was unfair because she did not know that God was all-fair.. And it has been taught in both the scriptures and the books of the scholars, things that Meizia had never learned before.

Losing Mom, losing friends, losing the ability to stand and walk, then now she's missing the chance to have offspring from her own flesh and blood?

Can he now question the justice of his life?

In the past, Hana always felt that she had to be sincere with all the things that happened to her because sincerity was the key to the tranquility of life.

However, can he admit that he cannot be sincere now?

A few days had passed since Hana knew her situation, she was so angry and disappointed with the situation, that she ignored the people who tried to comfort her or strengthen her.

In fact, Hana was reluctant to speak even a word. Making his father and brother confused, what else should they do?

Not only that, Hana also canceled her match with Syafiq. No matter how much Shafiq assures her that he will accept Hana for who she is, and she still loves Hana sincerely. However, Hana felt that Shafiq only felt sorry for her so she insisted on not wanting to be with the man.

Ameer who knew the situation of her cousin's sister was certainly also surprised, she also took the time to meet Hana, asking her to be patient but Hana completely ignored her.

"Enough, Honey!" Abi Thohir looked at Hana with nanar. "When are you going to do this?"

Hana did not answer, her eyes were empty. It is like a body without a soul.

"At least talk once, Han, Abi can't keep seeing you like this, honey."

"What should Abi do to get you to talk?"

"If you could, Abi would take all your pain. Abi won't leave her even if it's just a fingernail, but .. but Abi can only strengthen you."

When Hana's tears fell, every day the father always said that sentence, the actual sentence tore Hana's heart.

"I'm just confused as to why this should happen to me, Bi," said Hana in a choked voice. "I wonder what great sin I have committed until I am punished like this?"

"God does not give a severe ordeal as punishment, dear," Abi Thohir said as he clasped Hana's hand as if the rest of the bone and skin. "The greater His love for you, and the greater He believes in your strength, the greater His trials are given to you."

"But this is too painful" said Hana and finally she came back crying after so many days just moody. "I can't get through this, Bi."

"I can't bear this burden."

"It's not fair to me."

Abi Thohir spoke no more, only hugging Hana and letting her daughter cry and say whatever she felt or thought. Hope it can reduce the pain even a little.

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