Pursuing the Details of His Love Tasbih

Chapter 90 - Live Lessons

"I'm sorry" Syafiq said, bowing deeply, feeling sorry and concerned at Hana's plight.

While Hana was unable to answer because she held back crying. "I hope you don't hate me, Han." Shafiq paled, making Hana feel touched.

"It was his fate" answered Hana finally who made Shafiq sigh in relief.

While outside, Abi Thohir tells Riana that he wants to go to Ameer's house to serve. "Abi already considered Meizia as Abi's own daughter, just like you and Hana."

Riana nodded in understanding, let alone at the same time that Ilyas came. "Are you from Ameer's house, Mas?" ask Riana quickly.

Ilyas only nodded with a sad-looking face. "How's it going in there, Mom?" ask Riana again. "Is Ameer okay?"

"The physical looks so," answered Ilyas. "Said om Zaid, she cried all night at the side of her children. And he also looked very struck, his eyes very empty."

"She loves Meizia so much, it must be a tremendous blow to her" Abi Thohir said. "But at least Ameer still has the twins, maybe it could be a cure for her."

"Om and aunt also said so, Bi," said Ilyas. "If it wasn't for the twins, it might be worse than it is now."

"I have to go there now" Abi Thohir later said. "You have to look after Hana," she said.

On the other hand, Ameer shut himself up in his room, unable to see the people outside who had come to offer condolences for his wife's death, it was very natural but somehow for Ameer it was like deepening her grief.

He sat in the corner, hugging the first clothes his baby bought with great zeal by Meizia.

"Omm?"

Ameer looked up when she heard the cry. "Om sad?"

Adiba's small legs stepped closer to his, making Ameer's heart a little calmer. Especially when he saw Amina also came with a glass of water.

"Say Grandma, Om hasn't had a drink and hasn't eaten yet" said Amina.

"Then why just bring water to drink, brother? Why not bring food too?" ask Adiba.

"And little sister's hand, Dek," replied Amina innocently. "It's just water."

"Then let Adek bring food," said Adiba.

"No need, Adiba!" prevent Ameer who does not want to eat at all.

"Oh yeah, when do we pick up her baby sister?" asked Amina while thrusting the glass filled with water to Ameer.

"Tomorrow, dear," replied Ameer. He took the glass, but somehow his breathing again choked, his eyes again felt hot and teary.

"Om sad because his ummi baby sister went to Heaven?" chirps Adiba with his innocence. "Don't be sad, Om, said abi heaven is so beautiful, everyone wants to live there."

Not his comfort, Ameer just now let go of her crying again. Moreover, his chest again felt tight imagining this was not a temporary farewell.

"Drink first, Om!" Amina pushed Ameer's hand so that her Uncle would drink. In tears, Ameer sipped the water.

Not long after, the door opened again and now Abi Thohir who came. The middle-aged man held his breath looking at the state of Ameer, a wise man who may not have cried since he was a teenager. The man who always looked strong and calm, now really looks destroyed.

While Ameer directly wiped her tears with the back of her hand, she took a deep breath and tried to look tough.

Abi Thohir who also lost his wife of course really understand what is felt by Ameer, especially until now the pain is still there.

"Kids play outside for a while, yeah!" exclaiming to Adiba and Amina, the two little boys immediately ran out of the room.

Abi Thohir approached Ameer, touched the man's shoulder and patted him slowly. "They're in a much better place" she wrote. "In a place where there is only comfort and happiness."

"I just can't accept why it's this fast" Ameer murmured. "My kids haven't even gotten her mom's hug, the exam is too painful for us."

"God will not test you beyond your means, and God does not test anyone except to forgive his sin or to raise his degree."

"Everybody says that." Ameer said again. "I also know that, even I often explain it in studies. But now__"

"Live lessons." Abi Thohir interrupted Ameer and her niece nodded.

"Ame!" exclaimed Abi Thohir while holding both shoulders Ameer, making the nephew immediately look at him. "You have to stay strong, son, let alone have twins who still need the perfect father figure. And you have to exceed that father figure, you also have to be able to be a Mother figure for your children."

Ameer was still silent, but her Uncle's words were so touching to Ameer's heart and as if resuscitating her.

"Om know you're grieving, a week or two, even a month or two won't be able to make the wound heal, but we have to stay strong for the sake of our baby, like Om who has to be strong for Riana and Hana. You also have to be strong for the twins."

Ameer let out a long sigh, she looked back at the baby's clothes and remembered the request of Meizia first, who wanted Ameer to make her children strong and great children.

"I'm going to the hospital now, Om," Ameer said later. "Only the twin's face can ease my pain."