Pursuing the Details of His Love Tasbih

Chapter 48 - True Love

Ameer will always support whatever Meizia wants and wants, as long as it's good for her and their families.

Meizia was very serious when she said she would always follow her mother-in-law to go to school anytime, anywhere, except out of town of course.

Thanks to that, now Meizia and Umm Nayla are getting closer. As time went on, there was no more awkwardness or dislike in the heart of Ummi Nayla in her daughter-in-law, especially Meizia showed a strong determination that she really wanted to improve.

Meizia also often invites Jenny to study when her friend has time, Meizia does not want to improve her life alone, he wants his friends to also feel his beautiful and sweet journey while wanting to improve themselves.

Day and night come and go, the sky is not always bright, of course, it is not always cloudy. That is what Meizia also felt, her journey was not easy. Moreover, what he predicted did happen, there were some people from his past who came and made Meizia remember back in that dark time.

However, Meizia did not want to fall, did not want to be inedible insult even though she used to be despicable. He was always reminded of the story that Ameer had told him, the story that became evidence that God had such a broad buffer.

"Let people say anything about me, let them guess how big my sin is, let them guess what my soul is. I don't want to care, all I want is for God to know that I really want to improve."

"If a man who kills 100 is forgiven by God, why am I not? While I am also his servant."

"No one in this world wants to be born from a bad mother, no one in this world wants to be a dirty person. But, sometimes fate won't wait for compromise, destiny will continue to go along the line that has been set."

" I can't change my past destiny, but I really want to change my future self."

"Lord, if my identity used to be a sinner, I accept. But please give Your love to me, for I want to be Your lover. It is okay for people to think I am a sinner, if You put me among the people who repent."

"No one needs to know that I'm crawling now, chasing after the grain of Your love, you know that I'm doing it."

"If you punish me for a past sin, I know I deserve it. However, I also know that You must know that I will not be able to accept the punishment."

"Lord, I'm just an ordinary human being, born of a prostitute, I don't even know who my father is until this very second. I also spent part of my life as a prostitute. But are you not a forgiving God? You are also very loving. So give me Your mercy, and forgive me. Now, I live only for that."

"Lord, thank you so much for your mercy for sending me a wingless angel. I love her, I love her so much. If there's no one, I don't know what to do with my life. Therefore, I beg you not to take his life before me, I will not be able to step without the grasp of his hand."

Ameer gave a smile reading the diary of his wife, who wrote about her travels, feelings and thoughts freely.

He was also moved to see Meizia's struggle to keep strengthening the faith and keep relying on whatever happens, and the expression of love.

"O Allah, Your servant never ceases to seduce You, please answer that appeal with Your grace, also with Your heaven."

Ameer jumped when she suddenly heard the loud voice of the wife, she immediately turned her head and at the same time Meizia grabbed the diary book that Ameer was holding.

"Why? Can't I read my wife's book?" goda Ameer blinked one eye.

"Maybe, but don't" Meizia asked as she put the book in a drawer. "Tumben you're coming home at this hour?" Meizia glanced at the wall clock which still showed at 4 pm, her usual husband came home at half 6 or 5.

"Suddenly I miss you," Ameer said as she hugged Meizia spoiledly. "So I came home sooner than usual."

"We meet every day, how can you miss me if you're only a few hours apart?" Meizia kept Ameer away from her after which she sat down at the dressing table to dry her wet hair with a hairdryer.

"Of course you can, honey, because I love you" said Ameer, who took over the hairdryer, then dried the wife's long hair.

"I think you're overreacting" Kekeh Meizia. "What if I die?"

"I'm going crazy" said Ameer spontaneously and Meizia suddenly fell silent with a changed face.

"I think I'll go crazy if you go" said Meizia, looking up to see her husband standing behind her. "I always pray with God, asking that He does not take you first, I will not be able to live without you."

"Shhttt...." Ameer immediately put her finger on Meizia's lips. "Not to talk like that, honey."

"I'm just scared" Meizia said with a faint smile. "I can't imagine what I would do without you."

"I pray instead" said Ameer as he continued his activities. "I always pray, may we always be together while alive, even when we die, then we are resurrected together and may God take us both to heaven together. I don't want to let go of your hand either."

"Aamiin's." Meizia assures quickly. "Don't that mean our true love? The love that was brought to death."

"God willing."

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Speaking of true love, I remember Azhar and Nasha