Pursuing the Details of His Love Tasbih

Chapter 52 - Between Love And Stain

"That's probably because of the effects of her pregnancy, ma'am."

Ameer was flabbergasted to hear what the Doctor said, as well as Hana.

"Well, what's the matter, Doc?" ask Ameer stammering.

"Pregnant, sir," replied the Doctor with a smile. "Mother Meizia is pregnant, and to know the age and condition of the fetus in her womb, I have asked the Obstetrician to check it, wait for the results soon."

"O Allah, thank God" murmured Ameer, who was teary. He could not express his joy with words. "Han, you're right, Meizia's pregnant," Ameer told Hana.

"I'm so happy, Ameer," said Hana with a big smile. "Thank God, may Meizia and your baby-to-be be okay."

"Aamiin, O God," Ameer said wholeheartedly. "Doctor, can I see my wife now?"

"Of course you can, sir, please. Meizia's mother had also been conscious of her stupor."

Without wasting any time, Ameer went straight to Meizia's ward. There he saw Meizia still lying limp on the bed. "Darling?" call Ameer so gently, the man's face is radiant, his eyes are shining brightly.

"You know what the doctor said?" ameer asked as she held Meizia's hand and then kissed her gently, she really could not hide her happiness now.

"I know," Meizia replied in a soft voice. "I said I was pregnant." Meizia said that with a face that did not look happy, but it was what she had hoped for long ago.

"Why don't you look happy?" ask Ameer who can feel the change in Meizia's face. "What's up, Meizia?"

Meizia's tears spilled again, she was bowed while biting her quivering lips. "Mayezia?" Ameer flanked Meizia's chin, forcing the woman to look up.

"I'm afraid, Ameer," Meizia said in a choked voice. "The woman who was"

"Forget the woman, Meizia," Ameer said, cutting off the wife's words.

"I can ignore it, I might even be able to forget the past. But others will never forget it." Meizia said emotionally even her tone was quite high, leaving Ameer both shocked and confused.

"What happened today made me realize that up to any time I remained stained in the eyes of others." Continue her.

"Meizia, how many thousands of times do I have to remind you that we don't have to think about what other people say?" his Ameer is sharp and emphatic. "Please stop talking about that, honey." He asked by softening his voice.

"I can stop and what about them? What if one day someone told my son that his mother was an ex-prostitute?"

"If people insult me, maybe I can close my ears, but what if they insult my child later?" lirih Meizia while touching her flat stomach. "I've been too naive all this time, I thought I'd be so happy to have a child that at every prostration I asked for that gift. But now I realize what this child will experience when it is born into the world."

Meizia bowed, her sobs becoming more and more. The dark shadow of the past seemed reluctant to escape from her.

Hana who was at the door heard Meizia's heart, making her feel unbearable to the friend she had considered her own sister.

"Darling...." Ameer pulls Meizia into her arms. "Don't be afraid of something that hasn't happened, we just pray that God will keep our children away from the bad."

"I'm scared." Meizia immediately shed her tears in the arms of her husband. "How will it feel if someone comes to me and reminds me of the past? What do I have to answer to her, Ameer?"

"There is no need to say anything" Ameer replied as she rubbed Meizia's head. "Because that's not necessarily the case, honey, don't give birth to the no-no."

Meizia was speechless, now her life seemed to be mixed between Noda and love. Two very different things, but fused and stuck in him.

Outside, Hana wipes away her tears which inexplicably also spill over imagining Meizia's fear. Simultaneously, the obstetrician who had examined Meizia came and Hana immediately invited her in.

Meizia who was still crying in the arms of her husband stopped immediately when she realized the presence of the Doctor, she wiped the tears that wet her cheeks.

Ameer also rubbed Meizia's cheek gently as she said, "It's better now that we focus on the present, honey, don't dwell too much on the mysterious future."

Meizia nodded, although her heart felt tight but she did not want to make Ameer too depressed because of it.

"How's my wife doing, Doc?" ask Ameer then.

"Mother Meizia's condition is good actually but her gestational age is still weak, let alone this her womb is only two weeks old," said Doctor. "So I strongly recommend that Mom take a complete break, yes. Do not get stressed and do not get tired, the condition of a young pregnancy is very vulnerable to miscarriage."

"Did you hear what the doctor said, honey? No stress!" Ameer emphasized the word to Meizia.

"Yes," Meizia replied with a faint smile.

"And watch her eat too, yeah. It was very important for her fetal growth. Do not forget to check also regularly, so that we both know the development of the fetus in the mother's womb."

"Thank you, Doc," Meizia said quietly. He touched his stomach. "O Allah, he is the fruit of our love, the gift of You that we always ask for. Why am I afraid of his existence? I'm afraid he's suffering because of me."

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