Pursuing the Details of His Love Tasbih

Chapter 58 - The Happy News

You always wonder why I made your life so miserable, and I always say because it was your destiny. Should I tell her that you are not the only one who is angry over the state of our lives? I'm also angry, I'm tormented so much that I don't know what to do but to vent it on you, Meizia!

Just like you, I was also forcibly immersed in that black world. I wanted to stop and leave, but I never could. Until the end I found you in my womb, my life was getting ruined. And I don't know whose seed produced you.

Meizia's tears dripped down the paper she was holding, her chest back asphyxiated reading the mother's message.

*In the beginning I wanted to kill you, I was sure you would only be a burden in my life. However, I was not heartless and afraid so I decided to let you live. When you start growing up, I feel happy, your smile and laughter seem to make me forget the sadness that I always hide behind anger, and I want to save you from this dark world. However, when driving you to school, or shopping, or even just when just out of the house, people throw their disgust at us. Even to you who are still holy, makes me sad and angry again until the end I force you into my world. I was thinking, there's no place for us out there. So why are we out of our world?

But now that I realize, there's still room out there for people like us. You have proven that to be true, you have found an incredible place, by your husband's side.

Meizia, you were born from your sin, even your presence always reminds Mama that all this time Mama has lived in sin. Even so, Mama actually loves you very much. It's just that the affection was lost to anger and hatred for the state of your life.

So now Mama's going away, away from you. And never look for Mama, don't remember Mama. Because Mama knows, every time you see Mama you will be reminded of the dark times that Mama gave in your life.

Sorry, Mama's sorry for everything. May you be happy on the path you are on now*.

The sobs of Meizia could not be contained reading a letter from Mami Lala, a word of affection and forgiveness that she had never heard for 22 years in her life, now the mother wrote those two words in a letter.

Meizia is happy because her mother has confessed to her, but Ijuga is sad because now her mother has left.

"Sshhhtt, don't cry!" Ameer wipes Meizia's tears before the end of her drawing the wife into her arms. Meizia's cry broke out, her anger and disappointment at Mother was indeed great, but no less great than her love.

"You did it" Ameer quickly denied. "With Mama you went to jail, you got her out of that dark world, you made it, honey."

Meizia did not respond, she just hid her face wet from tears in Ameer's chest. Until her husband's shirt was wet.

"Now he has chosen his own path, and so have you." Ameer. "There's nothing to regret, all we need to do is focus on a better future."

Meizia nodded, she raised her face and wiped the rest of the tears on her cheeks. "Let's go home" Meizia asked. "Suddenly I was hungry and wanted to eat Ummi's cooking."

Ameer chuckled while nodding.

Ameer drove her car at a moderate speed, occasionally glancing at Meizia who was still holding a letter from Mami Lala. His wife's gaze still looked sad, it was very natural because no matter how the bond between mother and child could be released. However, Ameer is happy because Meizia really does not want to find her mother anymore.

While Meizia knew, what her mother said was true. The two of them will remind each other of the times they should have forgotten.

Meizia tore the letter then threw it out of the car, letting the wind carry every little tear of the paper, going nowhere. Just like the pain Meizia had also gone.

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