Pursuing the Details of His Love Tasbih

Chapter 32 - Restu?

"Aunty?" meizia muttered to her mother Ameer came to her house alone.

"Busy?" ummi asked Nayla and Meizia just shook her head. "May I have a minute?" tanyakanya.

"Please come in, Auntie."

Meizia opened the door wider, letting Umm Nayla in. Jenny who saw Ummi Nayla immediately greeted kindly even though it was still a little awkward.

"You two live here?" ask Ummi Nayla.

"Yes, Auntie," Meizia replied who also looked awkward. "I used to live with my mom here, Jenny lived in ...." Meizia accidentally goes on, that Jenny is actually living in a brothel.

"Tante understands" said Umm Nayla. "It's okay, don't always look back. You better focus on what you want to achieve." Further.

"Thank you very much, Auntie" said Meizia and Jenny, who were delighted by the small support.

"I want to talk to you alone, Meizia, if you don't mind," said Umm Nayla then who instantly made Meizia a little anxious.

While Jenny who understood the wishes of Ameer's mother immediately moved from her seat. "I'm leaving first huh, Mei, after all you're going to the restaurant while I'm going to the dress shop."

Meizia could only nod small.

"Do you love Ameer, Meizia?" ask Ummi Nayla shortly after Jenny leaves.

Meizia who got such a question could only be dumbfounded, even her gaze immediately dropped as if she did not want to collide with Ummi Nayla.

"To be honest, Meizia" Umm Nayla said. "Because Ameer seems to love you so much, her grandfather also supported it and even persuaded us to grant her love. In addition, Ameer often gives us subtle insinuations to let us know that she really wants to marry you."

Meizia was stunned, not expecting Ameer to have gone this far for her. He was more and more at a loss for words.

"Why silence?" urgently urged Ummi Nayla to wait for Meizia's answer.

"I'm sorry, Auntie" Meizia said later. "But I don't deserve a perfect guy like Ameer. I'm so grateful that he helped me and my friends, but I don't even want to be friends with Ameer because I'm afraid my past tarnishes Ameer's good name."

"You mean?" asked Ummi Nayla who slightly did not understand Meizia's last sentence.

"Didn't you want to fix yourself now? You can be solid for Ameer."

"But the shadows of my past will not leave me, Auntie, even that could tarnish Ameer's good name in the future. Perhaps one would say that an Ustadz like Ameer married an ex-prostitute. I don't want that to happen, you guys would also be ashamed if I were part of your family."

Meizia's tears spilled, but she immediately wiped them. In fact, the woman also still had time to sing a smile to cover the pain of not being able to be with the people she loved.

While Ummi Nayla was only speechless at Meizia's length, this was the first time the woman had spoken to her so much.

"Any more, Auntie?" meizia asked as she threw her gentle smile.

"Ameer loves very much, Meizia. He tried so hard to save you, even going into the trial to defend you. Is that not enough for you to accept?"

Deg

Meizia was stunned, did Ameer's mother just ask her to accept Ameer?

"As a mother, Auntie really wanted Ameer to get the best woman, from a good family, Meizia. But also as Mother, Aunt cannot ignore Ameer's happiness and her desire. She wanted so badly to marry you, even though we had her betrothed to Hana, she refused and told us honestly that she loved you from the first time we saw you."

Deg

For the second time, Meizia was struck by Ummi Nayla's statement. Especially when the middle-aged woman called Hana's name as the woman who will be betrothed to Ameer, a good woman, graceful, polite and of course from a good family.

"Tante knows, it's going to be tough for you and us, Meizia. And maybe there will be a lot of people who scorn, but our happiness can not be hung on the judgment of others, right? If you want to be a good wife to Ameer, we'll be very happy because Ameer will be very happy."

Meizia was speechless, this was beyond her expectations.

"Think once more, Meizia," pinta Ummi Nayla. "If you decide to accept Ameer, then Auntie please, take care of her good name and her honor."

"I'm afraid of failure" Meizia replied at last.

"As long as you persevere in your hijrah, you will not fail."