Pursuing the Details of His Love Tasbih

Chapter 100 - Bonchap

Assalamualaikum, the father of the children I loved so much as my own.

I don't know where I got the courage to write you this letter. Perhaps, the courage of the twins, especially Syauqi who once expressed his desire to make me his mother.

At that moment, I refused with a signal. By saying that I would not be perfect to be a mother, but she answered all my reasons so perfectly that I was at a loss for words.

It was from him that I realized that I was not perfect but I had what they needed.

Is it wrong if the woman who has a million shortcomings proposes to you?

Am I being too brave?

I want to be a mother to your children, I want to be a mother who accompanies them to sleep, play, do chores and take them to school. I want to be the mother who rebukes them when they are wrong, and supports them when they are right.

I want to be a Mom wipe away their tears while crying, and always say thank you when they smile and are happy.

I will not ask for a position as the lover of your heart, let alone replace the throne of my best friend in your love story as the queen of your heart.

I only want to have a position as Mother in this world, and in your home for Syauqi and Ashwaq.

At that moment Syauqi showed me a picture, in which she said I was the mother at home, and Meizia was the Mother in heaven.

Can you make that a reality?

I'm sure Meizia will bless me. Because I used to dream a lot with him, even when I woke up from a coma 7 years ago. It's because I dreamt of Meizia. 

When I fell and fell, when I felt like my life was over, I felt that Meizia was encouraging me with the book she left behind.

And now, to repay that kindness, I want to take care of the twins as best I can. I will love and take care of them until death takes my life.

I will try not to be your burden even if I have great limitations.

Can you realize my wish?

...🦋...

What is someone looking for and fighting for in life?

A beautiful ending, that's all.

That was what Hana, Ameer and Meizia had been fighting for all this time. And they got it. Although the end of the story is not the same, but all are true and right in the portion.

"Adek was still wondering why Ummi died and it could be a good thing?"

Little Syauqi muttered as she played her feet soaking in the river water. "Then Adek knew the answer."

"What?" asked Asywaq who had also done the same thing since then,

They are currently camping, enjoying time with their loved ones. In a cool, quiet and beautiful place.

Syauqi turned his head and instantly a wide smile was imprinted on the boy's lips as he looked at Hana and Ameer who were chatting while laughing under a tree.

"A few days ago Adek will follow Abi to fill out the study, continue Abi explained what martyrdom is and who are martyrs. One of them gave birth."

"Ahem, then?" ask Asywaq.

"Then now Adek understood, maybe Ummi died because Allah wanted Ummi to enter heaven times, yes, Brother. Heaven is said to be very beautiful, and a place for those whom God loves."

Asywaq gave a smile and nodded slowly. During this time he did not talk much like the Sister, but of course he also had various questions why his mother died while giving birth to them?

"Abi said, whatever happens, it's all because God loves us. That's it" said Ashwaq.

Yeah. The answer was what made him refrain from asking this and that. Ameer and Meizia's daughter chose the path of resignation and believed in God's provisions.

"But now that we have two mothers, Adek is very happy!" shauqi exclaimed in excitement, that radiance of happiness was clearly visible in his eyes.

"Sister is also happy" said Asywaq who saw his parents also looked very happy. "Now everything's fine. We have a mother who will take care of us."

"Gaziness!" shauqi. "Then let Ummi do PR Adek, yes."

"Eh, can't be!" assywaq.

"And Mom's there to take care of us, including PR, right?"

All this time, Syauqi had been very spoiled for the Father, and when they had Hana as the Mother. Syauqi is more and more spoiled, as if he wants to pay for the times when he cannot indulge in a mother.

"Want to eat, honey?" ask Hana.

"No" replied Syauqi, leaning on Hana. "You want milk," whimper her,

Hana also took a bottle that is always filled with milk for the youngest. "Asywaq would like to?" ask Hana.

"No, Ummi," replied Ashwaq. "So, I want cake."

Hannah gave her what she wanted, and they went to the river.

Ameer helps Hana to sit on the rocks and soak her feet in the cool river water. However, unfortunately Hana could not feel the cold. Reminds Hana of her dreams first.

"Thank you" said Hana.

"Together, dear," Ameer replied with a smile, making Hana smile.

They got married, exactly a month ago. And until this moment, Hana still felt awkward because the man she had considered as her own sister had now become her husband.

In fact, sometimes he is still surprised when he wakes up in a room that is not his room.

During this month, Ameer treated him very well. He gave full rights to himself and the twins. Hana also carries out her duties well, as a wife and a mother even though she has limitations.

"When I'm in a coma ...." Hana made a sound while staring at her reflection in the clear river water. "I dreamed I did this with Meizia, then I told her that I could not feel the cool water on my feet. And you know what Meizia said?"

Hana looked at Ameer who was also staring at Hana's reflection from the water. "What?" ameer asked while keeping his wife's face in the water.

"Meizia said, but you've been feeling it all this time."

Ameer scrunched her forehead, she raised her face and looked at Hana directly.

"What Meizia said as if asking me not to complain if I can't use my legs, before I can already use my feet very well."

Ameer smiled at the wife's statement. "The three of us are in a circle with no end" Ameer said.

"Hem, and the circle gets stronger with them." Hana looked at the twins who were now engrossed in playing water while laughing. "They're so happy, it makes me feel happy too."

Ameer gently hugged Hana and said, "Isn't a mother always like that? The happiness of his children is the greatest happiness for him."

Hana nodded with a smile, then she tried to move her legs that were in the water and at first glance she saw that there was a shadow of Meizia in the very clear water.

Hana could only smile, and hoped that greater happiness would wait there.

He will also never forget the woman Ameer had brought in that night, when it rained heavily. As Hana's family and Ameer's family gather waiting for Ameer's arrival.

Ameer came with a woman, and it was Meizia. Hana's dear friend and Ameer's true love.

...🦋...

Assalamualaikum, sister.

I am writing this letter to express what I want and what my children want. Although I really do not know where to start to express my wishes, let alone remember I once hurt your heart.

However, a few days ago I accidentally overheard your conversation with my son. She wants you to be her mother. I asked Syauqi again as well as Ashwaq, they were so enthusiastic and said they would when I asked if they would if Aunt Hana would be their mother.

During this time, I also often dream of my wife and also you. In that dream my wife always said "There's Hana outside the house, don't you want to open the door? He needs shelter, and the kids will be happy with his whereabouts."

At first, I ignored it until I realized it might be her blessing.

But, I can't lie to you either, Hana. Meizia is still very much in love with me, I still miss her and her name is still etched perfectly in my heart.

If you accept my wish and my children's desire to make you a housewife in our home, then I will give you a special place in my heart. I will also engrave your name on my heart, and make you queen for the rest of my life.

I want to ask you, Hana. Made you the mother of my children.

I want to make you my companion, I want to hold your hand in pursuit of the details of His love. Until death separates.

Will you, sister? Accept the three of us who want to make you our queen?

...🦋...