Pariban So Rokkap
Living life the wrong way
Aunty I added” I said like people don't eat for a month, Papi was silent to see me.
The stomach must be filled as well, seeing the gaze of Eva's sister who saw me like a prey ready to be swallowed, I had to eat a lot, to be ready to answer their questions.
I added twice, while Papi in his plate was not finished yet, I was done.
Intended to go up to my room to take a shower, my body began to feel very smelly, from a distance of two meters still feels stinging.
I'm sure they're all confused to see me, but I don't care, hungry to eat, sleepy, want to get entertainment just go out looking for entertainment, that's how I enjoy life for the moment.
Feeling full, I stood up to take a bath, because between itching and hunger is just as excruciating, but I chose to eat first to be strong to face their questions, all of them, seeing the gazes investigating all my family, I felt like I was surrounded by all of them.
“Where are you going Tan?
You think it's just like that, come, eat, then sleep?”
“I want to take a shower first.”
“At least you explained, you are from anywhere, where is your car, keep the money three million for what?
you have to explain
we've been waiting since, when you told us to wait for you jug” Kak Eva's eyes stared intently at me.
“Iya, I take a shower first,”
“Tapi”-
“Have not been forced, said Lae, he wants to take a shower first.”
Eva's husband stopped her.
I went up with a normal attitude as if nothing had happened, if usually I had a lot of respect for them, but this time I felt very changed
“Why the hell Pa?”
I was standing in front of the stairs hearing Eva's sister reprimand in annoyance.
“Ma, he was discharged from the Bar, with such an appearance did not go home for days, mama can not guess it?”
said lae in a soft voice.
“What? you're saying papa he finished makai satan goods?”
“ Sttt slowly your voice, Yes,” said Laeku, from the speech lae I can know, he knows a lot about my current situation.
“God, he has ruined himself, this sucks, he changed greatly after Netta left
It can drive me crazy, first Arnita, and then Jonathan, these two guys piss me off, they both go crazy,”
said Eva covering her face in disbelief, I saw Papi petrified with a blank look, but I could not tell the reaction of Mami's face.
I don't care, even though Mami's face is pouting though.
A few minutes after the shower, fortunately my brain can still be invited to think, I went down to keep my promise to talk to my family.
When I got off I was waiting in the living room, I sat near Papi.
“Now tell me what happened, insisted Eva in an unsettled manner, looking very disappointed.
“Which do not want to hear?” I asked casually, strangely, I've made so many mistakes like that, but I don't feel the slightest bit guilty.
“Everything Jonathan, yes my goodness…!
Where have you been for four days, what's wrong?why?” sister Eva's face stiffened in anger.
“Indeed you were a little boy Tan, you don't know what happened to you?” Ask Eva.
“Iya I don't know what next, the mobile phone wallet of the car is all gone,” I said, Mami looked at me with a panicked face, she has already calculated all the losses, in his mind maybe Mami has summed up the same losses that were in Bandung.
“Crazy, keep you just not doing anything?”
Those eyes were looking at me sharply .
Mami, Papi and Eva's husband were silent, silent and good listeners.
“Keep I should how?” I also looked back no less sharply
“You lost everything, do you want to destroy this family, do you have to be like this?”
“What's it like?”
“You have changed so much now, this is since Netta left Eva said, mentioning Netta's name again made me angry, I took pains to forget the name from my mind, but Eva's sister casually brought it up again.
“So why carry his name again?,” I said annoyed.
“Yes right, since he went your life is broken Tan, you seem to punish yourself, you do things that damage yourself,” said Sister Eva.
“Already, Ma should not be urged on, let this lae sleep,” sister Eva's husband stopped, he knew that I was getting angry.
At this time Sister Eva had been living in Mami's house again, when Arnita was no longer there, Papi persuaded sister Eva to stay home again, fearing Mami and Papi were lonely, even then, Papi, the two old men had been quiet with each other since the burning of Mami's treasured property.
Luxurious bags and in shoes at exorbitant prices, I could see them sitting quietly at home.
“Don't reveal him again, I don't like it, the brother is too pussy, lazy to return to this house, better I don't go home.”
Standing up left them, looking at Papi's car keys on the table, picked them up and left.
“Tan, where are you going, papi car want you to disappear again?” yell out Eva.
“Borrow.”
Papi was again just silent, seeing me getting more broken, more and more broken,
before I drove the car out, I saw Papi at a glance, he massaged his forehead looking at my behavior, I'm sure Papi was very stressed to see my behavior getting more troublesome.
But Papi held back he just kept quiet.
Driving at high speed, aimless again, I do not know where else to go, do not have a job, all my personal belongings and identity are lost, now do not know anything else, cell phones don't have, get out of the house and want to do something? it's like a fool.
When I passed the road I saw there was a car sales place, happened to be a friend who had, I had to mortgage Papi's car, because I had no money to hold.
It's nice even though I only borrow 20 million, the important thing is that I buy a cell phone first.
Now that the phone is in hand, I'm playing to a friend's house, a friend in college
it turns out they're in his apartment playing cards again, but using money bets, I think if I win I can get extra money.
Instead of winning I was destroyed, I was not too focused, just a distraction so that the burden on my mind was reduced.
I don't really think about money, I just think of it as entertainment,
hope this burden decreases, the problem of money is still a lot of money Mami, as if I avenge.
Turns out I lost, the phone I just bought is now a bet
Destroyed start this life.
Seriate....
