Pariban So Rokkap

Anger in the office

“Already!

come to the police station, bini you let my men who deliver, if your kayak people are allowed, will be in the habit of later eating others and deceiving others by forcing and using violence, he said, that was your horde, right?”

beny said firmly.

He was taken to the police station and his wife was taken home.

I let Beny finish his job, although his heart slightly felt sorry for his wife, but the police must not be negligent, who knows if it was his wife or a fraud.

Ah never mind, this is all because Netta made trouble early in the morning, made all this happen.

Take a deep breath before running my car.

My heart has not been completely calm, my heart is still beating unstable, I feel my day is bad since waking up in anger.

It was all because of Mami's demands that forced us to have children, when Netta wanted to examine me, I was offended, it should be okay because her intentions were good, but my ignorant brain could not accept.

My brain and my heart are now opposite, when my heart says it's for my own good, but my brain says it's degrading.

It would be difficult if the heart and brain were not in line as I feel right now.

I was forced to stop and marginalize my car on the side of the road to avoid the bad thing that happened earlier, because my feelings were also still not calm, leaving Netta crying at home made me not calm actually,

he must have been hurt when I reneged on our hard-earned promise to repair the cracks, but I foolishly destroyed it.

Arrive in front of the office

“Good morning sir, greet Toni.

“Morning,” I said without stale ado.

Gawking into my room, if you have seen the look on my face like that, children usually immediately go kocar-kir take their respective activities.

If you usually still relax, but this time all take their respective positions.

Sitting in my cubicle with my head throbbing and neck veins still hardened against each other.

When I gawked in the kids were joking suddenly silence .

They must have known I was angry.

I came out again, their eyes glancing from their respective chairs timidly.

“What's up sir?

what do you want kopi”

ask my secretary to stand up.

“Contact Lina, tell the police station.”

I said with a firm tone.

“Bring me all reports, project reports that are stuck right now in my room, get Mr Toni in my room too now!”

“Ba-good Sir.”

If it's like this, I can guarantee there will be no more children hanging out for coffee at the Pantry office.

When everyone will look busy, or just busy themselves.

When Toni arrived at my room to file a report, my emotions exploded again, this black man, so my anger was released.

“Bapak how the hell!

all of this in the contract letter is past the time of payment. Did you not charge?

the people will not pay themselves if we do not win sir, how I want to pay the salaries of employees and operational costs.

If all the payment is stuck like this,”

I said slamming the paper hard on the table, the man, could only duck.

“Already sir, I have come directly to his office Sir, indeed the funds are not there he said,”

the man said timidly.

“When?”

I asked to stare hard

“Promise three days Sir.”

He pulled the file out of his bag again.

“Good try until there, you can come out,”

The good boss should be able to distinguish between personal affairs and work affairs.

But this time my brain was possessed by a huge ego, and my heart seemed numb, then everything was wrong in my eyes.

Angry from this morning, in three places as if to make me run out of energy, I feel weak, than I get angry making others hurt I think better sleep, trying to calm down.

If I force to take care of work when angry, everything will be more messy, everything if done with anger then the result will not be good.

The best way, calm down and try to close your eyes forgetting all the bad.

But when closing his eyes came the shadow of Netta who was crying this morning.

I felt my heart ache, I wanted to call Netta, again the ego was more overpowered, several times I typed in an apology message and several times I deleted it.

Putting the phone on the table at the end of the message that I will send to apologize I did not go to do, try to close, the intention of the heart wants to win the mind, the heart wants to win the mind, but my stupid behavior this morning came to haunt me.

The words why, suddenly lined up appeared in my mind like a digital billboard

Why should I be angry this morning?

Why bother with that again?.

One day it might be a bad day for the kids in the office, because of all the impact, I also felt my neck veins tighten because it was from morning until afternoon

nothing was right, why all of a sudden I felt everyone in the office making a mistake.

Those who made a mistake or damaged my brain I don't know.

It was getting late in the afternoon because I was angry that I felt the clock today was slowing down, I woke my head in the chair and fell asleep.

The knock on the door woke me up,

“Pak’ Mom wait below,” says Lina

“Whose mother?”

“Wife pak”

'Netta?

Tumben he came to the office'

" yes I'll be down,”

I said to get my hair and clothes.

Hearing Netta come actually I was very happy, not usually he came to my office,

Geck, tok

“Iya log in.”

“Abang not home?”

netta's face looks very pretty this afternoon, her appearance is classy, the smile on her face is blushing and the smile looks sincere and what it is.

But my condescending words this morning made me no longer confident to look at him.

I actually wanted to hug him and apologize, but as a man who was well-established and had high self-esteem, I didn't.

I busied myself tidying up the files and closing the laptop on my desk and turned my eyes away from Netta.

“Abang the room is good,”

said Netta starting a pleasantry, I silenced her she asked this and that I chose silence, Netta seemed to let out a long sigh like lost patience to see my attitude that inhabited her.

I don't mean to be quiet, it's because I'm not ready, I can't be mediocre all need process.

“I came to my brother's office because of our plan last night to go to Bou's house, do we want to go?”

Netta's voice finally shook holding back the cry.

“Iya already, come,”

I said.

Walking back to him first, I knew that if he rubbed his eyes, put away the tears in a hurry, in the office, no one dared to go home before I came home, let alone I was angry, let alone go home, let alone, chatting also no one dared, maybe the children even breathe they hold, if I have rampaged in the office, past problems can come to the surface earlier.

Maybe they were very grateful when Netta came to the office, otherwise, could go home until late at night, because I was asleep and no one would dare to wake up, if it was angry like that.

Everyone in the office today, all got upset all the parts got sprayed by me.

Today is a bad day.

seriated