Pariban So Rokkap

Temporarily away

I'm sorry if I'm wrong Bang,”

netta.

Geez all this time he never loved me, the attention he gave me was just an obligation as a wife, not because he loved me, not because he loved me,

“Do people like me not deserve to be loved. Ta?”

“I'm sorry,”

said Netta again

“I'm not telling you to apologize, I'm just asking you, do I not deserve to be loved, what is my mistake can not be forgiven again Ta?”

“I can't answer it for now.

I can't say I love you bang, when the lady of the actor still appears in our household, it will be hard to believe you bang,” Netta's face looks heavy, the lines of disappointment are imprinted on her face.

“That means my love and feelings have been clapping one hand?”

“I'm sorry, give me time to be able to trust you bang and when the time comes, I will give up my heart completely for brother.”

Netta looked at me just a glance, she was also unsure of her own words, she did not even want to look me in the face, trusting others seemed like a difficult thing for Netta.

Hearing that, my intention to leave was more and more sure, why the one problem I had not finished.

But new problems come again, it's a matter of streaks for me.

I fell silent, trying to win my mind, calming the increasingly irregular heart rhythm.

Sometimes the truth hurts so much, if it's like this, I regret asking Netta that.

When I first met Netta in the village, she was just a village girl, looking beautiful, even though she was different from her friends.

But back then, since he was from the village, I thought it would be easy to conquer his heart, considering I had everything I could be proud of as a man.

I'm rich, I have a well-established career, a director and I have everything, which every woman needs, my face is also handsome, I think just relying on that alone I can conquer just a flick of a hand.

But Netta didn't want what I had, she wanted to look for herself with high school, being a doctor, it was her dream, she said,

I had everything, but he was ignorant and no matter what I had, he never asked for anything from me, if I didn't give it to him.

I had another woman, she didn't care at the time either, I thought she didn't know it, but she knew it long before our marriage, she could be calm and accept everything patiently. It's not an easy thing to do that.

But Netta is a very different woman, I don't know how many layers of skin wrap around her heart until she can be strong through this, when all the bitter things she's been through, she can walk with patience.

Mami's treatment that can be said is very cruel, she can accept it, she never denied what Mami said, both with Arnita, insults and insults she swallowed everything.

But the fact that he doesn't care about my feelings makes me feel stupid.

The atmosphere became quiet at this moment. Netta was silent I was busy with my own thoughts.

“I will leave tomorrow to Papua Ta, maybe in the morning I have left, this is the car key, you just use it for college,” I said giving my car keys to him.

“Abang who's there?”

“That's a question for what concerns just for wet-nonsense?”

my attitude is like a child, I'm like a child who needs attention?

If Netta says don't leave because she doesn't want her to be away from me, I'll be very happy, I won't go.

“Let's just say I'm worried about you Bang,”

netta.

“I want to work with a friend Papi's son, he has a project in Papua, he asked me who holds because I base from there already experienced.

Netta was silent, I wish Netta would forbid me from leaving.

“Sometimes life is like that bang Nathan, sometimes above and sometimes below, then at the time above remember looking down, and if the time below remember because everyone who wants to ride running is always starting from the beginning,”

netta.

“Maybe I'll be a long time there, you're okay at home, right?”

“It's okay, I'll vent, later,”

netta.

Suddenly he said he wanted to vent out when he usually said he was afraid that I was staying at home.

I think Netta wants me to go too.

“Alright, if you say it like that, I'll take care of everything I'll bring tomorrow,”

I said leave Neta sitting alone.

Putting everything together in one big suitcase, everything I need, I'll stay there maybe a while, it might be the best decision for us.

I can calm myself, away from Netta and away from Mami, and away from Micah too, perhaps the best way to mutual introspection.

Perhaps, when I went Mami no longer urged me to marry Micah, Micah the woman who claimed to be pregnant with my son, when it was the son of someone else, I saw him several times on the street with Juna. Maybe if it's my son the story is different, but baby it's not my seed.

“There is something I can help bang,” asked Netta to look sincerely offer help.

“No need, I can be alone,” I was disappointed when Netta had no intention of preventing me from leaving.

“Can I check the suitcase, make sure you bring everything you need?,”

“Stop, stop those stale bases Ta, I don't like it, you're happy that I'm leaving right?,” I sometimes feel like a woman who comes months when dealing with Netta, you know, you're happy when I go, sometimes you can get angry for no reason.

“I'm tired of arguing bang Nathan, brother who said if you want to go, I only support brother, now the problem is where?”

“Yes, I go let you be satisfied doing what you want to do in this house, no more harassing you, I go I can't bear to hear with your accusations, I said, I'll prove to you, if I'm not broken, I'm healthy, if need be I'll Hamili women in Papua there,”

I said, as if fishing for a fight.

Netta took a deep breath, exhaling into the air, her eyes looking at me gently.

“I hope you are healthy there, take care of your health, keep your diet, if I can order do not smoke.”

“It's none of your business,” I said angrily.

“Do not like that, I am also not a robot, I can also be angry and disappointed, I just tried to hold myself during this.”

“That's your request, you yourself make yourself like a robot, you can't trust others, you don't want to open yourself to anyone.”

“Open to whom?

For a brother who has another woman?

What for Bou who always humbles me, for whom?” Netta looked at me, her voice high, her face reddened.

“So, prove that brother can I trust.”

“Alright, my decision to stay away for a while may be the right thing, we can both correct ourselves.

I'll come back later when you're ready to accept me, I'll wait for you to be willing, accept me back,”

I said expectantly.

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