Pariban So Rokkap

Still have to separate

“It's not about surviving or about fighting Bang, but it's about living.

I don't want the relationship of brother and Bou and Anita to be bad, because bou doesn't like me anymore.”

“Don't convoluted Ta, you want to split up just say it, so don't have to discuss it later Come here, you just say what you want.”

I was also carried away by emotions.

“All right I give up,”

said later.

“That means, what did I do all in vain?

I've punished them all Ta’ what it does not matter, I also punished Arnita, he hurt you I did it, even my attitude said they were too excessive, because Arnita my sister, Arnita,

they say, my attitude is too harsh to punish him, but I don't care, it's because you're my wife, you matter to me, doesn't it matter anymore?”

“Bang, I want to be a Doctor.”

“I know Netta’ I support, I always support you.”

I said a vibrating voice,

I don't want to be away from Netta let alone split up, this will drive me crazy later.

“Bou forced to sign a letter of approval for you to marry Micah, it made me very disappointed, you know brother, how angry Bou has been all this time, I never fought back in the least, bou humbled me, said the president, bou insulted Mama in the village, all that I was damned in my heart, but when he forced me to choose two of those options, I was very disappointed, I could not accept,”

Netta looked very disappointed.

“Didn't Mami force you to sign the divorce papers?”

“No , she came asking permission so you could make Micah your wife, I don't know why Bou can be so sure that you want to marry Micah.”

Netta looked at me with a probing look.

“Ta, I never said anything to Mami,”

Trust me.

“I want to believe Bang, but the pain makes me can't think anymore.

I want you to remember the fifth law:

Honor your parents to live long in the land that the Lord your God has given you.

I don't want Nathan's brother to be a disrespectful child to parents.”

“That means you left me,

does that mean you want us to separate? Isn't this too soon you're making a decision, isn't it?

Isn't this unfair to me?”

“Bang, let's say I gave brother time with Bou.

I want to go, I got the opportunity to study abroad, exchange students between Indonesia and Germany.”

“What??

you-you want to go to Germany?”

I felt my eyes suddenly feel hot, my fear finally proved too, in the end it will go away.

In my heart, I am so proud of Netta for having such a smart wife, but now what I have to cry about is having to laugh.

“This is my chance to get a new experience, we are only a few people selected bang,”

netta said, I turned my face away from Netta.

“How many months?”

I asked, I thought it was only a matter of months.

“Two years and maybe three years, goods times I Koas there before becoming a Doctor.”

“What?

three years, means no more hope,” I said in a weakened voice.

“Thank you I obey the will of Bou who wants to keep us both away, this is your chance to do what parents want,”

angry say.

“ Yes, I will come someday, come bring a lot of money for Bou.

I haven't spoken to anyone Bang, I want a brother who knows first, rather than any other family, it's because I respect my brother as my husband, I don't like their opinion, I don't like it, all including the Candra bou, he instead forced me to report to the police, I do not want our big family relationship to be broken because of our household relations, I want your name to be aware of his actions, he said, tomorrow I want to explain everything, I hope brother comes and help me explain.”

“Can't you change your decision Ta? I love you, I don't want you to leave me, I apologize for leaving you, I apologize for making you sad, but I'll fix it, give me time,”

I said weakly, my body felt weak, starting to feel powerless again.

“Sorry I can't Bang, I've thought about it for a long time, this is my chance, I want to pursue my biggest dream, I want to boast Mama and my brothers in the village, I'll come back, Wait for me, wait for me, I will come to be a worthy person for Bou, I also want a woman who deserves to be a brother too.”

“You always deserve me, I forbid you to go, will you also still go?”

“Iya , I want to be a Doctor, I want to bring money and a lot of treasure, and someday I want to give to Bou”

he said with certainty.

“Three years very long time Ta. I won't be able to wait that long.”

I said.

“Abang I want when I come later, brother does not smoke anymore and brother has healed, and at that time we can give grandson to Bou.

I want brother healed.”

“I'd like to receive treatment, but please don't go.”

I begged him, I couldn't stand him leaving.

“Wait for me bang, wait for me to become a Doctor, I will wait for brother to recover, so that one day I come brother is ready.

Believe me, I also love brother, I will keep my heart as long as I am there.”

“I don't want to, I won't want to wait for you, go I don't want to force you, well go if that's what you want.”

I said angry, I stood up,

Netta held my hand, her eyes looking very sad.

Geez, how do I accept this heavy decision.

“I hope in a situation like this brother will support me, because brother is the only one I trust.”

“Ta! which husband supports his wife leaving with a long time?”

“According to brother, what should I do in position at this time?

Bou wants me to separate from you and the other options, she wants me to want you to marry another woman, I don't want to choose anything.

The beating was so heavy for me Bang, I was traumatized, what's my fault?

they treat me like an animal. The decision I took just as I could recover and eliminate my psychological problems, let's just say it's time we introspect each other.”

“You mean, I have to let you go,

so your request?”

“Iya,”

answer Netta firmly.

“I don't want you to go Ta, Ta,

although I forbid, but you will still leave, then what is the point of you asking me for permission?”

“That's my way of honoring brother as husband.”

"Go away, I don't care anymore, go away and don't come back, that you may be satisfied,"

I'm angry I'm disappointed.

My mistake in the past, ruining my current life, if time could be turned around, I shouldn't have tarnished our marriage.

Netta left, he was also an ordinary human, who had a limit of patience, Mami's mistreatment of him all this time, he endured in the end, he also gave up.

How's me?"

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