Mama For Mikaela
SIXTY-FOUR
Prepared breakfast, accompanied by dinner, even sleeping in the same bed is no longer a strange thing that is awkward for Segara now. It may have been two weeks since their last chat about ‘jatah’, they began to slowly erode the distance, he said, the two agreed to build a strong emotional bond so that they could raise Micah with more love and affection.
It is still far from their steps. But people say, it's better to walk slowly than not at all, right? So as someone who wants the happiness of Micah is much greater than anyone else in the world, Segara with full self-awareness has removed a lot of his ego.
Like today, for example. It's Sunday, he decided to start tidying up the traces Karenina left behind. Not to be thrown away, but stored in the tightest part so that not everyone can find it. So that Segara can only visit occasionally in order to honor the existence of Lana which, however, is still his legal wife.
Some time ago, he had taken an extra step by climbing on Karenina's clothes, putting them in a container and storing them in a special room that had been empty for a long time, on the 3rd floor. All that he did without Lana's knowledge. Because if the woman knew, she would only be showered with protests and statements that such an action was completely unnecessary.
And today, another extra step Segara took was to take down a photo of his marriage to Karenina that had been on the wall of his house for years. Where none of his family members even dared to disturb his existence, let alone to ask why he was still there when the man in the photo was married for the second time. His marriage to Lana was held simple, but as a tribute that the presence of women was meaningful, Segara wanted to display their simple wedding photos in a place that would be left by the previous photo.
“You sure you want to move in?” From the direction of the kitchen, Arkana came to know. Segara has adapted well, so he was not surprised when his brother-in-law knew to show his existence. You could say, from a distance of how many meters, Segara can already sniff his astral existence.
“Iya.” Segara answered briefly. Be careful, he put the large picture frame and leaned it on the wall. “Mumpung Lana again streets with Micah. If there is him, this frame will not be able to leave the place of the goods as long as.” Its effects.
“Kan? I also do not understand why there can be women with a slingshot heart.” Arkana chirps while sipping the black coffee he just made. “It looks like he's not human anyway, Ga, but an angel drip.”
Although the oddity escaped from the lips, Segara still nodded in agreement. Indeed, he had never met any woman who had a heart as wide as Lana's. All he knew was that the woman was jealous. Not to mention other women, to inanimate objects that take too much attention from her lover, the women will definitely not play. Nagging as if their lover had made a fatal mistake and deserved to be given the maximum punishment.
“How does it feel?” the question made Segara urung raise the picture frame of his marriage with Lana. Forced, he turned toward Arkana who stood a few steps behind him.
“What?” tanyanya's confused.
“How does it feel like you can finally start to open your heart, not continue to live in the past like yesterday? Relieved, right?”
Segara didn't even need time to nod. “Maybe because the person is Lana.” And it's true. If the woman he married to be Micah's surrogate mother was not the typical ocean-wide patient Lana was, she might still refuse to open her heart.
“My choice is not wrong dong, huh? From the beginning I already have a feeling that is okay to him.” In that sentence, Arkana was calming herself. At least he did not give a recommendation wrongly. Because if he gets it wrong, he'll just end up cursing himself for the rest of his life.
“Iya deh yes, this time you are okay.” Then Segara continued his activities. Pigura photo that he just lifted up high, then he installed while making sure the location is perfect. After finishing, he smiled proudly.
“Seeing-see bini lo emang beautiful.” Strike Arkana again. There is no need to argue at length to reach an agreement. From the beginning Segara also admitted that Lana was beautiful. He had not opened his eyes at that time.
“You don't mind, do you, Ren?” segara muttered so slowly. That he aimed at the shadow of the figure of Karenina who had been with him since, following every activity he did before the Arkana kunyuk appeared. Normally, if anyone else joined in, the shadow would soon disappear, but on this bright afternoon, Karenina remained there, with her usual bright smile. “Nothing, right, if I start the same Lana?”
“It’s totally fine. You must be happy, our child must be happy.”
Segara smelled a smile. When he looked, the shadow slowly faded. However, not as usual when he will try hard to keep Karenina there, this time Segara delivered the departure of the shadow with a more spacious chest. With full awareness that Karenina does not exist, and the life she has must continue to run as it should.
Once more. It's still far away. But hopefully, this is a good start to a new life.
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Lana realized there was a lot that changed from the attitude of Segara lately, but he did not expect that the change would lead the man to an extra decision to take down his previous wedding photos and keep them in another room.
Normally, Lana may feel happy because it might mean that Segara began to want to open his heart. But given how much love the man had for his late wife, Lana became afraid that Segara might just be trying too hard.
No one is chasing them. Slow down, and he didn't mind. Even if someday he deserves to receive love from Segara, he still does not mind if the frame remains in his position.
Lana did not come as an invader. He does not want to change anything that already exists, just be self-aware that everyone has their place in the lives of others, and he doesn't have to force himself to be the most important part.
While other family members are enjoying dinner in the kitchen, Lana is even glued to the picture frame of her marriage to Segara. There, the smile that looks adorn the face of Segara not even a real smile. Then why was the man so adamant to display it there?
“Lana?”
Lana didn't look, because she knew whose voice it was. He continued to straighten the gaze on the picture frame, while perceiving his own feelings that raged no muddle. Baffled. Lana doesn't know what feelings she has to confess. Should he be happy, or should he cultivate guilt as much as he can?
“What are you doing there? Micah nyariin you.”
“Ga,” instead of answering, Lana instead called the name Segara. Automatically, the summoned one finally walked over, standing right next to him.
“Why?”
“Let our photos be on display.” It makes sense, but it's not satisfactory enough for Lana to accept. “Why? You don't like it?” kala asked, Segara just turned his head.
“Not a problem I like or not, but—“
“But?”
“You know I never tried to shift anything in this house.”
“Emang. I myself want, consciously and without any coercion.”
“Iya, why? The photo was there a long time ago.”
For a long time, Segara was silent. He had already predicted that Lana would question his decision. However, he did not really know what answer would satisfy Lana and make the woman silent.
“You said the same I made it last, right?” ask Segara. Lana nodded. “Well, this. This is one way I'm gonna make it last. Putting on Karenina's stuff doesn't mean I cut her out of my heart and mind, does it?”
“But, Ga—“
“Udah, deh. I know you're gini because it doesn't feel good, right? Stop, yeah. From now on don't feel bad or whatever it is, I don't like.”
Lana made a hunchback. He can no longer voice what is in his head because the talk of Segara just now is like a final verdict that can not be contested.
“Mommy!!!”
“Tuh, your son nyariin. Come,” without excuse, Segara took Lana's hand. If he would usually put his hand on the woman's wrist, this time he let their fingers interlock, as if to make it clear that from now on, they are one.
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“Om Ar nginep here, right?” Micah asked after putting on his warm milk.
“Ngak ah, tomorrow work.” Arkana the nosy. Originally, he had intended to stay the night. Not just a day, the plan is that he will stay for the next week because there is a job that he has to take care of and it will be easier to go there from this house.
Hearing her unwilling response, Micah throttled. As is customary, the child then goes to his mother's chest, asking for a defense.
Segara who was tired because all day a lot of moving goods from the first floor to the third floor did not do much. He simply observed Micah's pouting face contrasting Arkana's gleeful countenance as he continued to stuff a piece of almonds into his mouth. He rarely fidgets, especially at night near bedtime. But since Lana was giving almonds that had just been purchased from the supermarket this afternoon, she was not able to refuse.
“Om With nginep, kok.” After being silent for quite a while, Lana finally opened her voice. “Why? Micah wants to sleep with Om Ar with Daddy?”
“You're the same Om Ar!” micah exclaimed, lifting up her head, which had fallen on Lana's chest. “Bby, yes?” he asked then, with a hopeful look fixed on Arkana.
“By no yaaa.” Arkana is still lusting after her niece. With a rancid look, he tapped his index finger to his chin.
“Bby dong, pleaseeeeee.” Micah pleads. The boy rubbed his palms together, as a sign of a serious plea. “Yes? Can, yes?”
Already satisfied with the teasing, Arkana finally nodded while chuckling. “Ya already, can. Yuk.” Bring along. His arms stretched out wide, ready to receive Micah into a hug.
Not wanting to lose his chance, Micah immediately jumped down from Lana's lap, scattering into her om field chest. The fragrance of Citrus coming out of Arkana's clothes was swept away by Micah deeply.
“Let’s goooo!!” the boy exclaimed in spirit. The three adults there practically chuckled in unison.
“Gua take your child to the room. Serah deh lo both want to do,” Arkana said as she rolled her eyes to Segara. Then, the young man passed from the middle room.
“I also went up to my room, yes.” Pamit Lana's.
Segara had no reason to prevent, so he just a request Lana so that now he was left in the living room, just befriended almonds who had no idea how many grains had entered his mouth.
Seriate
