I'm a Widow But a Virgin

Ask In The Heart

POV Anis

It's been a week, since the sound of his that makes this heart beat fast, his berduu that makes this heart rustle, I've never again communicated with him, lah, lah,I don't want that feeling to go deep into my heart, what else to touch on the line of love, I don't want that to happen

but my moves, my steps, as if always waiting for her, often Ku lyrics watsapnya, I just glance at "Naruto" who is online, there is no courage this day to just type "hi, hello, no,assalamualaikum, the sense is heavy, who am I, only a widow.

I am aware of My status, but if I may tell you, I am a crowned widow, I cry out to anyone who will believe, perhaps only sincere men can accept Me.

He who annoys my mind, a businessman and a handsome figure who Alisha always proud of, even though I have not seen him, but maybe his voice already represents his good looks.

I don't know what this feeling is I don't understand, I'm a little doubt that even sometimes I'm desperate.

O God the owner of the heart, can You keep this feeling of Me, can You keep it from reaching the limits of love, I will admire it in silence, silently without a word of despair.

O Allah, may I long for Him Thou art damned, and hold it at the bottom of this heart, the deepest foundation, that I may not be disappointed, that I may not be contemptible, I Am ashamed, who am I, though all men in your eyes are equal, but not in the eyes of others.

Tears I shed, I can't believe what tears, longing?curious?the admiration?

I don't know, I keep asking in my heart.

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POV Al

I'm restless, no matter what, strange feeling, ever since I first heard his voice, it's like I know it, but I'm afraid it's just a hallucination, My mind just brushed it off,maybe it's because my heart was obsessed with that Jogja girl first.

I tried to recite according to what He said, I tried to make it clear, and My heart so that it led to Him "Mbak Anis" his sister.

And what I don't understand, this feeling is the same, the same as I felt for my Jogja girl.

I was only able to look at the profile picture of the Muslim woman's anime, are you described as ayu Nis?

I'd love to type something for her, but it's hard, I'm afraid she's avoiding, because I know she's a woman of principle.Will this sense grow in silence,it feels like hearing from Alisha alone is enough for me.

I'll step up, when it's time, I don't want to lose her again like I lost my Jogja girl first.

But here, at this moment, in this place, Kutitipkan Remnants of Long along with the passing of Mentari,

to the horizon of the day, that my tranquility will wait, never moody though scorching as hot as the desert, patience never quenched, even if the dagger stabs gripping.

O Allah, take care of her, I will wait for her until the right moment comes.

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.(Aamiin in ga nih kira?)